Hi everyone... So I know that I have been really silent for a long time but I had exams and I was so stressed. But now i have officially finished school so I have a long summer off (until September), so expect more frequent updates. Thanks for recent follows and favourites and I hope this chapter is okay as it is more of a filler. :)

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Nessa

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Chapter 8- That I couldn't do it by myself, myself

I was so cold, and so thirsty, why was I so thirsty? I reached over to my bedside cabinet and fumbled around for my glass of water. Where was it? I always kept water on my bedside table? I opened m eyes, irritated that I couldn't find it and I saw a world that was unrecognisable to me. Everything was clinical, and white. The flowers on the table my hand had been searching on were the only colour in the room, dazzling pinks and blinding yellows in contrast to the bleak whiteness. I was in a hospital. I had been in and out of them a lot in the year my mother was ill and I was pretty damn used to the look and smell of them. They were all the same.

"Baby?" A voice grumbled from the darkness and my heart rate picked up, lovingly recorded on the monitor.

"A-Austin?" My throat is thicker than I expected, it felt like honey had dried on the insides of my neck and I struggled to get my words out.

"Ally, oh my god. I will get the nurse, I will be right back." He got up from the chair so quickly I was sure that he must feel dizzy.

"Wait Austin! What time is it? What day? why am I here? Can you just stay and explain things first please." I whispered, I was so confused, I can't remember what happened to get myself. His eyes softened and walked over to my bed, grabbing my hand.

"Ally you've been in a coma for a week, it's Thursday, 3am. You fell down on the beach after I gave this ring," he tugged on my hand and I looked down to the most beautiful ring I had ever seen, "they said that you had very little glucose in your body and that it was shutting down. You almost killed yourself All's… all the exercise your body has clearly been through, the malnutrition. It's not doing you any good. Why did you do it baby?" he looked so sad, like it was ripping him to shreds that I was so ill.

I looked down, disappointed in myself for not making it less obvious. "I- I didn't want to lose you Austin. All those girls that look at you in the street, all those cheerleaders that flirt with you at practise. You're so talented, you're music is incredible. You are going to be going to places, the best ivy league music college and what I am going to be doing? Just holding you back with my stupid insecurities. I don't want to be someone you have to be ashamed of Austin." I felt the tears starting to spill over and I could very little to stop them.

He softly lifted my head up and gave me the softest kiss I had possibly ever had, it made my heart meter sky rocket. "Ally-bear I will never ever give up on you, you are not holding back or putting me down. Those girls are funny and yeah sure some of them are pretty but none of them are you Allison Dawson, none of them have beautiful sad brown eyes, or hair that makes models jealous. None of them do that cute little thing you do with your nose when you are tired, or that way that you blush when someone gives you a compliment, kind of like you are doing now. None of them laugh and make everyone else around them smile, none of them hold themselves with such distinction that you know that you have to up your game just to be good enough for them. None of them can make my heart skip a thousand beats, none of them make me feel sick before a date, or get sweaty palms when I am near them. None of them can sing like an angel and yet not ever let any of them see it. None of them are you, and I don't love any of them the way I do you." He breathed and I swear I could see a tear in his eye, he really loved me, now I knew I couldn't do it without him either. I needed his help, I needed the way that he looked at me right now to be etched into my brain, to remember it forever. He was all I needed, not some crazy exercise routine, or some extreme diet, just Austin and his hypnotising blue eyes.

"I love you too, Austin. I promise I will never do this again. I just need you, always you."

"I need you to Ally, and no girl with ever, ever be better than you. You are my forever." He kissed my hand, "I'll go get the nurse now," he looked at me once more and then quietly left the room. I was beaming from ear to ear, Austin loved me, Austin needed me as much as I needed him. As long as we were together we needed no one else. Just us against the world.

"Well hi honey, how are you feeling?" A sweet nurse with a southern accent came waltzing into the room with a sleepy Austin in tow. "Your fiancé here was very persistent in me coming to see the miracle girl and it looks as if he was right." We both blush at the fiancé thing but neither of us rushes to correct her. "He's been a right champion, ya' know? Never leaving your bedside, I was debating wheeling in his own bed for him but he insisted the chair was A okay." She starts checking my vitals and I look at Austin, who smiles tiredly at me and slouches back in the chair. Its as if all of the tension was sucked out of his body and now he was exhausted from the strain of it. "Well you look good, we gotta keep you in here for a little while longer, but looks as if you might be going home this weekend sugar, and with your prince charming as well." She winked and filled out my chart then gave me some pain relief and a glass of water before patting Austin's arm affectionately and walking out of the room. I looked at him and raised an eyebrow.

"Her name is Gabby and she has been your nurse the whole time, I was telling her that I wasn't leaving until you woke up." Austin explained and I laughed.

'Come on over here rock star and lay with me, there's enough room for the both of us." I open the covers and Austin moves sluggishly over to me, wrapping his arms around me and kissing my forehead.

"I love you Ally, I thought I was going to lose you this week and I just couldn't handle that, the thought of not being able to do this without you. I will never do this without you." He whispered in my ear and then started singing me sleep, it was a song I didn't recognise, maybe it was one he wrote.

There's no way I could make it without you, be here without you….