I continued to the Great Hall for breakfast, completely lost in my thoughts. How could I let Lucius do that? I mean, technically he didn't do anything…well, yet. But, why do I feel like I would not stop him? This was really unsettling for me. Ah, I know. I'll just read Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets tonight. He is such a dick in that book, I'm sure it will set the record straight for me. With a plan set in motion, I did feel a little bit better. I was quite content with my own self that I did not see Amos Diggory in front of me. I must have walked right by him because as soon as I passed him, he grabbed me by the crook of my arm and swung me around.
I was shocked to say the least. I was facing him and could see the confusion in his eyes which must have mirrored my own.
"Hi, Amelia." He said in a very cordial tone.
"Hi…Amos." Why was he acting so strange?
"Where were you last night?"
Oh no.
I don't need this. I really don't"
"I, uh, wanted somewhere quiet to study so I went to the Room of Requirement and I fell asleep there." That's not too big a lie. I mean, part of it is true, the latter part, of course.
"Really?" He didn't even give me time to answer, "And there wasn't anybody else with you?"
If he already knew, why was he putting me through this!? "Yes, Amos. Lucius was there." I said in a bored voice. This was getting real old real fast.
His hand was still grasping my arm, and he proceeded to clench in tighter. "What did I tell you about him? He is bad news!"
"He seems perfectly fine when he's with me!"
"No! You don't want to get involved with him."
"Listen. I think I can tell the wrong sort for myself!" Oh my gosh. Tell me I did not just do that. Here I am fighting with Amos Diggory and I say a bloody Harry Potter quote. It's official. I have no life. And now, I just want to die laughing.
But the look on Amos's face was enough to silence me for good.
"Amelia." He shoved me against the wall. "Stay away from him. He will use you." His hands slid up the side of my body. I was paralyzed, frozen with no idea what to do. He pushed his body up against mine, and whispered in my ear, "Consider this a warning." He pulled away and stared me straight in the eye. The look confirmed every bad thought I had, and I dreaded it. With one final superior glance he stormed off into the Great Hall.
I need to get out of here. My feet were already moving before I had time to think where to go. I couldn't go to the common room because I didn't want to see him or any of his friends. Damn. Who would have thought that Lucius was right?
Lucius.
That was it. Hopefully he was still in the room of requirement! I changed my route to get to the 5th floor, praying that he would be there. When I arrived, the door was already showing, and a sigh of relief escaped me. I ran towards it pushing it open, but it was different.
He wasn't there, he already left. No longer did the bookshelves align the walls, nor were there the comfy chairs and couches. It was all gone, replaced with something I didn't understand. There was a small bed in the corner of the room and nothing else except a mirror in the center of the room. Is this the mirror of Erised?
I looked at it closer and saw that the sentence above the mirror was not the same as in the book. It was confusing, and yet, I had to know what it showed. I stepped right in front of it waiting for something to happen, and nothing did. Maybe it was just a normal mirror? It could be. Everything in the world doesn't have to have a special power. But for some reason, I can't look away.
I stood there just looking at myself, when I finally had the control to look away, and that's what I realized. It showed me, as I really am: alone. The truth hit me hard, and I watched the expression on my face change. It became more depressed as I accepted the fact. Now knowing what I was supposed to see, images of people behind me started to appear. Almost like flashbacks of my life.
First my parents appeared. I remembered that day, I was in 4th grade and we had a concert for Christmas. Everybody's parents were invited and my parents were the only ones who didn't show. When they picked me up, I was crying, asking them why they didn't come. Now that I'm thinking about it, they never really gave me an answer. That's when I learned not to trust my parents. Next it showed some of my friends from freshman year of high school. I looked away, not even wanting to relive those memories. It's always hard when a friend stabs you in the back, but it's even worse when all of them gang up and stab you in the back. That's when I realized that I couldn't trust my friends. What a wonderful life I have. Then Lucius and Amos appeared. Amos attacked me, and Lucius just stood there watching.
I choked back a sob. So this shows the future then? I tore my gaze away from the mirror and stepped back. I did not want to know anymore. It probably would end up with me dead and having my cats eat me. Not that I like cats, but if I'm going to be a lonely old woman, I'll probably be getting some cats.
I felt my eyes start to water and I tried to control them. Make myself think positively. You can do it. I'm not going to end up alone and unhappy. It won't happen. It won't…I can't convince myself of that. And with that thought, all the tears that I was holding back decided to fall. My cries echoed off this empty room, and I jumped to the little bed in the corner.
It was hard and uncomfortable, and I dealt with it. I guess I'm going to get used to disappointment. I fear being alone which is funny because I have been alone my whole life. My tears did not stop and I curled up into the blankets wishing for sleep. I was here in my fantasy world, and it was becoming so much worse than reality. I wanted to go home. Even though I wasn't happy, at least I could be happy in my own comfortable home.
Please, please…just let me go to sleep.
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