A/N: Thank you sooooooo much to everyone who reviewed:) and also to those of you who added this story to their alerts/favorites:) I know, last chapter they didn't discuss about the pregnancy, but I wanted them to just… you know. For this chapter there will be lots of baby talk (maybe not 'lots' but enough and honestly if I was in Lexie's position here I would be praying to God for them to just shut the fuck up:P)
Ok so here goes the juicy piece of gossip… but I need you to remember that it might not be one hundred percent accurate (let's pray it is), because there has been some rumors about Julia and Mark in valentine's day… ok so as said by Kristin Dos Santos (I don't really listen to what she says, but right now this is personal for most of us) said that Mark and Lexie are soulmates and that apparently they will be getting back together in about three episodes, now this was posted on Nov. 7th, so that means that it would probably be together by "This Magic Moment".
Please don't get hopeful about this happening because let's admit it, when we think we finally understand Shonda, she goes in a completely different direction. But if this doesn't happen soon, She (sorry She is my Goddess) posted on twitter the following: "Mark/Lexie fans: I know you are stressing out. But just wait for it. It's gonna be a painful wait but I think it will be well worth it." This was posted Feb. 10th last year (DUH!).
My motto is "hope for the best, but expect the worse" so let's just not get all happy, but let's not lose our faith in Shonda, also let's not get mad at me for telling you this guys, I have done it with the best intention ever:)
P.S. I don't know how long a skin grafting surgery takes... I searched everywhere but it only told me other info, so I'm pretty sure that it's inaccurate... If any of you knows please tell me (you might rewarded:))
Now… Let's get back to the chapter
Disclaimer: Not mine, blah blah blah.
Title by Bon Iver (Is it just me or his songs are like very intriguing? I love them but they're just so dark and twisted:P)
Blindsided
It was early in the morning, about 4am Mark could tell jut by looking out the window. He could feel Lexie moving and fidgeting next to him, and without turning around asked.
"Are you feeling alright?" he asked obviously still waking up.
Lexie stopped moving and quickly said, "I'm sorry… I didn't mean to wake you up. I know you must feel tired…"
"Well woman, you kept me up most of the night." He said with a smirk, finally opening his eyes completely to adjust them to the dim light.
Lexie laughed softly as she smacked his bare chest, "Oh shut up, I missed you."
"I know, I missed you too." Mark slowly started to sit, it had been making him dizzy getting up quickly from bed because of the surgery, "Lex," he said grabbing her hand, "We need to talk about the baby."
Lexie nodded to tell him he could proceed.
"What's going to happen between us?"
"I thought it was cleared already, we'll remain a secret, as so will the baby. At least for a while."
Mark didn't really know about what to discuss, he wanted to know everything that had happened while he was gone. He was starting to feel a little like Arizona. Disappearing, and then reappearing only to find out that the love of her life was pregnant. Not like he was mad or whatever that was Arizona at the beginning, actually, he was ecstatic, he was completely overwhelmed with excitement and happiness about his new child, "Yes, I understand that but what are we going to do? I mean, are we going to move in together?"
"I think that if we are remaining a secret then we should just sleep in our respective beds." She could see Mark's face drop, "Mark, I just don't want the whole hospital finding out about the baby until we are sure that everything is fine."
Mark quickly raised his eyes, "What do you mean by that? You are healthy and young, and you are also in an excellent physical condition." he pointed out.
"Yes, but first, Molly had complications with her pregnancy and also Meredith had a miscarriage and is having difficulties in getting pregnant now."
"That doesn't mean that there are going to be any complications with our baby…" Mark said kissing her hand.
A huge grin suddenly appeared on Lexie's face, "That sounds nice…" she looked at Mark who had a what are you talking about face and said, "You- That. Saying 'our baby' it's just… I don't know." she shrugged, "It's kinda awesome."
Mark smiled too and asked, "Have you gone to any appointments yet?" he hoped like hell that she hadn't, it would be pretty stupid not to, but he wanted- he needed to be there with her and hold her hand while they saw their baby for the first time. When they heard their baby's heartbeat for the first time.
Lexie shook her head sheepishly, "I couldn't do it without you."
"I love you. And don't worry, I mean if the tables were turned I wouldn't do anything related to the baby without you." He said with a smirk.
Lexie laughed and shook her head, "Well we'll have to see about that when you get pregnant."
"Yeah... I guess we'll have to wait for that to happen." He said with the same smirk.
"Who know about the baby?" Mark asked, he didn't want Lexie to have been alone all this time and have kept it to herself.
"Well... Alex was actually the one to tell me that I was pregnant, actually more like he made me take two pregnancy tests and then when they were messed up he took me to Seattle Press. to take a blood test. Then there's Meredith, she found the results because Alex and I were reading them in the kitchen and she found them because we left them there. And Callie."
"I'm really starting to not like Alex, you know? He's spending to much time with you."
Lexie rolled her eyes as she sat up in her bed, "Cut him some slack, he's having Izzie problems, she came for a visit and a whole load of things happened between them. I don't know." she shrugged
Suddenly a wave of dizziness hit Lexie. She quickly stood up and ran to the bathroom. Mark not knowing what the hell had just happened.
When he found her she was leaning against the toilet. She then started throwing up. Not knowing how to help her he kneeled down behind her and rubbed circles in her back as he held her head back.
As soon as he thought she was finally done once more she started throwing up but this time she cried as well.
"Shh shh, don't worry. Everything's fine." he said as he kept rubbing circles in her back.
Derek woke up that morning feeling a bit groggy from the night before, plus he was exhausted because Meredith kept telling him not to tell anyone about Lexie. As he reached for Meredith the only thing he could feel were a cold empty spot and a note that read:
Sorry, I was paged and didn't want to wake you up. Callie and Arizona are taking Zola to the hospital. Also it's just you and Lex, Jackson and April were also paged. I made some breakfast... Well, it's fruit, don't expect much, and erase that smug smile from your face. I'm doing all I can in the kitchen.
P.S. Remember to shut up and keep the Lexie thing to yourself.
I Love you.
Derek kept smiling at his wife's attempt in communication.
He was then pulled back to reality when he heard Lexie in the bathroom. Quickly putting his shirt on he went to the bathroom to help Lexie there, but was surprised to see Mark in there holding Lexie while she threw up
Lexie finally stopped and was able to speak, "I'm sorry," she said with a sob, "this is just horrible. I mean it feels just horrible. I hate throwing up."
Derek stood there in the doorway looking at his best friend.
"Derek" Mark said as soon as he pulled away from Lexie's eyes and finally say his best friend. He was extremely grateful that he had put on his clothes and shoes before he came down to follow Lexie. On the other hand it was really awkward because Lexie was currently in nothing but her underwear.
"Mark, how are you?" Derek asked, he pretty much knew where Mark had been at but he told everyone he didn't because he wanted to give his best friend some privacy.
"She knows." Mark stated, he knew that Derek wasn't asking what he wanted to ask because of Lexie.
"Oh" was apparently the only thing that Derek could say.
"There were some complications but I'm fine. The scans came clean and everything's fine." He said and then realized that the briefcase was in Lexie's room, "But, I'll show them to you later."
"What are you doing here?" Derek asked.
"Uhm... I... came to see you. You know catch up, and... yeah." Mark said really thing himself in that moment, when he wanted he could be so quick with his responses and quickly come up with anything, but with what was happened his brain was already working triple, "But then I heard someone hurling and I came to see if they needed help."
Lexie meanwhile had managed to flush the toilet, rinse her mouth, go upstairs to get dressed and got Mark's scans and left them in the hallway.
"Hey Lexie, let's go have breakfast..." Derek said as he pointed downstairs, "Do you want to have breakfast?" he asked Mark.
"What is it?"
"Fruit." Derek and Lexie said in an all matter-of-fact.
"What?" he asked.
"It's the only thing that Meredith knows hot to put on a plate." Derek answered.
Downstairs Derek and Mark were discussing the scans while Lexie sat on a stool with her bowl of fruit still untouched and pretending to be engrossed in her phone.
"Lexie?" Derek asked to get her attention, as soon as she looked at him he pointed at her bowl ordering her to eat.
"I'm not a little girl Derek, and I'm not hungry." she said as she rolled her eyes.
"You just threw up for like ten minutes. You're stomach is empty you should eat something."
"I don't like fruit!" she said.
"No, you don't like apples and Mark just ate them all for you! What else do yow want?" He couldn't believe she was having a kid hen she was acting like one herself.
Mark tired of them discussing grabbed her bowl and put the contents in the blender, then grabbed some ice cubes and put them in. As soon as he knew it was drinkable he poured it in a glass and gave it to her. "Happy?" he asked her.
Lexie nodded and blushed slightly at his gesture, something that didn't go unnoticed by Derek. Then Derek looked at his best friend who was also blushing and smiling at her.
Derek cleared his throat to snap them out of their bubble making Lexie to start giggling and blushing like a teenager.
A pager started beeping making the three of them look at their pagers as an instinct.
"Mine" Mark said trying not to sound to grateful for it. He quickly hugged his friend goodbye got his things and quickly and uncomfortably kissed Lexie's cheek, making her go completely red. She started feeling as if she was shrinking in her seat, once more going unnoticed by Derek.
"We should go get showered and ready. I'll take you to the hospital." Derek said.
"I can drive." Lexie yelled as she heard him going up the stairs and knowing it was going through deaf ears.
"We need to talk." Derek yelled back.
"Mark?" Callie asked as she saw the leather jacket she had always seen him wearing. "Is that you?"
He turned around to see his other best friend and mother of his child, but what had started as a smile on his face became into a frown as soon as her hand slapped his face.
"Torres! What the hell?" He barked.
"Don't you dare to leave me again without telling me were you where, and much less without answering my calls!" She yelled, but then hugged him and said "You had me and Little Miss Mufftet freaking out. We thought you were laying in a ditch somewhere near dead."
Mark laughed at his friends occurrences but then frowned again, "Little Miss Muffet?"
"Yeah... Lexie. Don't you remember?" Callie said
Mark shook his head at what his friend called Lexie. He had asked her so many times to stop but apparently they hadn't been enough.
"Are you going to explain to me where the hell have you been hiding?"
"Sure..." he said as he pulled her into a conference room not wanting those nosy nurses talking about him.
After a little less than an hour both of them were on the car and half way there to the hospital. Derek had decided to take a ferry boat, that way he would have enough time to talk to Lexie about her state.
"I know." he said as he kept looking straight ahead into the big lake.
"What?" Lexie asked being caught off guard. All she wanted was to have a normal day that didn't include baby talk with anyone other than Mark... and actually all she wanted to do with Mark was what had gotten her into her little situation.
"Yesterday I was talking to Meredith and Alex, and they told me." Derek said softly.
"Can't they just keep their mouths shut?"Lexie muttered to herself.
Derek placed his hand on Lexie's shoulder and said, "They did it because I told them that I had suspicions. I know for a fact that if you throw up for almost two months straight and you have been checked by a more than capable physician then the only explanation would be a pregnancy. I'm a doctor, you know?" he said with a smirk.
"Ha-ha, very funny Derek. But what is the reason for all of this, I mean I'm capable of being a mom." Lexie said.
Derek cringed at the idea of Lexie being a mom, not that she would be a bad mom, "Lex... today in the morning you didn't even want to eat, Mark had to make you a freakin' smoothie! You have to start acting like a grown up and face the reality. Meredith thinks that Jackson's the father... But just as women, men talk. And I know that you guys haven't even slept in the same bed for almost 5 months." and pointing at her flat abdomen said, "And you don't look like you're five months along."
"What's your point?" Lexie said.
"Lexie... is Alex the father?" Derek asked with a serious face.
Lexie tried to hold back a laughter and scoffed, "No! We haven't slept together in over a year... He's only been very helpful with all of this." she explained.
"The reason I wanted to talk to you was because I know that Mark loves you... and this will make his world fall apart." Derek said with a sad smile. "I also saw the way you two were looking at each other, I know you two have started to become friends again. I'm just not so sure how long it will last once Mark finds out about this."
"You know, you don't need to take care of me, nor Mark. We are both grownups." She knew that she needed to think quickly to come up with a comeback so she said. "How do you think I felt when he told me Callie was pregnant? Because one second I was happy and talking about how tarragon is something that makes you look like you know what you are doing, and the next I am screaming at him because the only thing that he could come up with was 'Callie's pregnant.'" she took a deep breath and as soon as she saw Derek's freaked out face she knew she was taking it all out on him, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to be that mean, but he'll be fine- We'll be fine."
"Dr. Sloan, how are you?" Jackson asked as he and Lexie walked up to him.
"Fine," he said closing his chart, "what do you want?" He asked, he liked Jackson he was a nice guy with a good bedside manner, but Mark was once a resident and knew when they wanted to ask for something.
"Well... we are both on your service and we heard that you are planning on doing skin grafts in the whole body of a 3 year old... I mean that's pretty much like a skin transplant, and well we wanted to know if we could get in?" Jackson said.
"There shouldn't be a question mark at the end of that question." Mark said as he handed the chart to him, "What about you Dr. Grey? Do you want to scrub in?"
"To a surgery this big? Yes." She said with a big grin. At first when she had been told that she had been placed in Plastics with Jackson she wanted to hide under a rock and never come out, but after hearing about the 'skin transplant' she couldn't say no.
"The patient is in room 2703, go prep him." he ordered Jackson as soon as he was out of sight he looked down at Lexie, "Have you eaten anything else today? Because I can't have you fainting in my O.R."
"I ate some crackers that Derek made me eat on the way here." she said rolling her eyes.
"And your fluid levels?" Mark asked her.
"I can take care of myself." she growled, she didn't need to be mommy tracked by Mark too. She already had Alex, Meredith and apparently now Derek. She was thankful that Callie didn't tell her what to do and not do too.
"Fine." Mark whispered, "Go tell the parents that we'll be taking him up in as soon as Avery's done giving him the pre-op meds."
"Sure" Lexie said as she headed to the elevators and ignored Mark not so subtle hint of asking her to drink something before they started surgery.
The surgery had started about five hours ago and they were almost half way through. Lexie had been really stressed, she thought she would able able to handle being in the O.R. with her ex, who both her sister and her brother-in-law thought was the father of her baby, and her actual boyfriend, who only Alex and Callie knew about.
"I spoke his parents earlier... their two kids were in the playroom, when one of their electric toys catches fire and they found out because one of their neighbors was passing by. The older girl who was four died before she could be rescued." She rambled.
"And your point is...?" Jackson asked.
"I mean how can parents leave they kids alone just like that? Not even a nanny taking care of them! And know their life is a mess because their little girl is dead and their other kid is fighting for his life in this moment, over what? An orgasm?" she said loudly.
Mark had stayed quiet because the only thing he could think about was that same thing... Parents leaving kids alone. He could barely leave Sophia alone for a couple minutes and the monster parents of this kid where in their room doing who knew what.
"Parents aren't perfect." Mark said suddenly
"What?" Lexie asked, she was really stressed with her pregnancy and now her patient for Mark to tell her that he was now a bad parent.
"I mean, we do mistakes all the time. I'm pretty sure that the first time Sophia says another word other than mamma will be a word that I'll be the one paying for it." Mark said with a smirk under his mask.
"Are you swearing in front of her?" Lexie asked bluntly.
"I can't always hold back my words." he said with a shrug
"So what? As long as the person deserves it it will be fine?" Lexie asked getting more stressed, she did't want their kid saying such things, she didn't want anything happening to her kid, and now that she was forced to face kids reality she was freaking out.
"You shouldn't be asking personal things to your attending. Now, do you want to place this graft?" Mark asked trying to get her to calm down.
"Fine" she mumbled.
As soon as she grabbed it and started to pace it, she pulled a little to much, making it rip apart.
"Dr. Grey! Do I need to ask you to get out, or you can pull it together and help us here give those poor parents at least one of their kids back and with skin?"
Now she was stressing out, Great she thought as se started feeling dizzy and soon as Mark saw the same expression he had seen that same morning before she ended up in the bathroom, he pulled her to the side and took of her mask off. But he didn't move soon enough, causing her to throw up on his shoes.
The nurse quickly grabbed a bucket for Dr. Grey, to keep her from throwing up on Dr. Sloan's shoes again.
"Oh my God!" Jackson said as he saw in front of him Lexie throwing up in a bucket and what appeared to be a very mad Dr. Sloan in next to her.
"Avery finish up here! I'm going to send Dr. Milman down here to supervise. Nurse Sanders, clean up here please." he said as he grabbed Lexie's arm and took her to scrub out.
Lexie had spent the rest of her shift in charge of all of Mark's pre-ops. When she had asked why, Mark told her "This way you'll be dying to be inside an O.R. to be in this amazing surgeries, but until you are able to take care of yourself and our baby and just calm down, you won't be stepping inside any O.R." She couldn't believe that her boyfriend was mommy tracking her. He kept sending her messages saying to eat something or drink something and she couldn't stand it. So she refused to answer any of his calls, pages, or messages.
"Hey" Maredith said, "What's wrong?"
Lexie sighed "I ruined a skin graft. On a three year old!"
Meredith didn't understand were this was coming from, "So?"
"'So' I was stuck in surgery with Jackson and Mark for almost six hours and we were operating on a little kid whose parents left him and his sister alone and then there was a fire and the little boy ended under our care!"
"What happened to the girl?" Meredith asked, she needed in on a surgery.
Lexie looked away, "She was DOA"
"Oh... Sorry." Meredith said as she placed her hand over her sister's shoulder, although her sister didn't want to admit it she knew that pads cases were affecting her.
"I'm gonna go check on my patient, I think that he must be up in the NICU" Lexie said grabbing a couple charts and placing them in the nurses station.
As soon as Lexie got there she saw that Jackson was talking to the parents, from what she could hear, they were expecting full recovery in a couple of weeks. That's great Lexie thought with a smile.
Jackson then came out of the room and when he saw Lexie he asked, "How are you feeling?"
"I'm good." she said with a half smile.
"What happened to Sloan?"
Lexie looked at him suspiciously, "Why are you so worried about him all of the sudden?"
Jackson shrugged his shoulders, "I'm into plastics." he stated.
Lexie nodded, "I don't know... I guess he went to change his shoes and I haven't seen him since then." she said really not wanting to talk about him. "He might be in an on-call room, he went home this morning and he seem tired." she said hoping she wasn't making him suspicious.
"You seem tired, and stressed." he said, he had to admit that he wasn't over her and it still bothered him a little the role breakup but he was doing his best not to ruin their friendship. "Are you are you're ok?"
"Mhmm..." was her only response, "I was just really stressed in the morning." she said, it wasn't a lie if she didn't tell him the source of her stress. She just wanted this day to be over because from what she had heard they were all going to Joe's again and only Derek and Meredith were going to be home, all she had to do was lock her door and ignore them. "Are you going to the cafeteria now?" she asked wanting to just change the topic and eat something before she fainted. Even if it was just pasta salad and water.
"Yeah, I was on my way lets go... although it's a little late to be having lunch, it almost 4:30"
"What have you been doing by the way?" Jackson asked as they sat down next to Cristina and Alex who apparently also decided to have lunch late.
"Hiding from Mark's rage." she said as Jackson looked at her asking her to please explain. "Earlier today I didn't want to have breakfast, and then I threw up in the O.R. because of stress, and now he says I don't know how to take care of myself," as soon as she said that she heard Alex scoff and looking at him gritted, "so he's mad and sending me to do all he pre-ops."
"He cares about you." Jackson said obviously a little hurt.
Alex tried to hold back a laughter failing miserably, but Cristina didn't even try to hold it back and said, "'Cares' more like he's obsessed over you."
"Why do you always have to be a bitch?" Lexie asked, looking at Alex pleading him to help her out but only receiving a smirk that only told her that it wasn't his mess, "Plus, it's not really my problem what Mark thinks about me." She said with her mouthful of salad.
"Three, when are you going to join us at Joe's again? Don't you know that if you're not there then we don't have anyone to say stupidities?" Cristina said, once again, completely blunt.
"I don't know, I've been to tired and Derek's always asking me to do research." She said hoping that Derek didn't give her away saying something about her not doing enough research later on.
Cristina looked at Alex and then back at her, "Why don't you use your super powers, Lexipedia?"
Lexie rolled her eyes and stood up from the table, "I should get going... I still have to finish four more charts." she complained.
At home Lexie was sitting in the front porch until she saw Mark's car park in the driveway so she decided to go inside to the kitchen.
"Lex? Lexie!" Mark called out, he knew she wouldn't answer, so he just decided on looking for her.
As soon as she heard his footsteps she grunted loudly.
"Ok... fine! I was a little mean today Lexie, I'm sorry." he said handing her a a bouquet of pink roses.
"No! No! You weren't just a 'little mean'" she hissed as she threw her hands in the air, Meredith had gone to bed already and Derek went to help Owen with something they didn't even understand. 'Men stuff' they had said. She didn't need Meredith or Zola waking up so they could come see their little fight down here. "You were mommy tracking me! Callie told me that you used to do it to her too! We are grown women... And I may not act like it, but I know how to take care of myself-"
"I just don't want anything happening to you or the baby... Don't you remember how devastated I was when I almost lost Sophia? Lexie, and that wasn't even the my kid with the women I'm in love with. Can't you see that if anything happens to the baby or to you I might as well just be dead!" He said, he wasn't mad and he didn't want to make her feel guilty about anything, but he needed her to understand his point. "I know you know how to take care of myself, but until you prove it to me, I'll have to keep mommy tracking you."
"You are so not getting any until... Until you fix everything you just said!" she said angrily.
Mark sighed "Fine, can we at least go to sleep I'm tired and you're grimy which means you are tired too. Can we just go to sleep?"
"No! I go to my room, and you get to sleep on the couch!" she said as she started to head upstairs, but then turning around and grabbing her bouquet barked, "And give me that!" she said storming off, but this tie not coming back. Then the door was closed extremely loud.
"Fine" Mark sighed as he sprawled on the couch.
Derek made his way to the kitchen. He had helped Owen paint his living room, and now he was starving and thirsty. But was stopped on he's heals when he saw someone sleeping on his couch. Derek cautiously got a little closer to it to see who was sleeping there. And broke into a sad smile when he noticed it was his best friend the one who had been sleeping there.
Derek was sure that his friend didn't come to is house to talk to him, and then realized, Crap, his here for Lexie. He knew that Lexie was in a very uncomfortable position, of course he didn't know how uneasy it actually was. He didn't like to see his friend pining over someone who was going to have a child and no one except her knew who the father was.
He made his way to the kitchen and grabbing a peach and a glass of water made his way to his room.
Lexie woke up and took a glance at her clock. 2:37. And she was starving, or at least she had a huge craving for ice cream, Chocolate, she licked her lips. She had been having cravings for anything that was cold or was made with chocolate, so chocolate ice cream would have to do.
Of course when she finally got downstairs she remembered that Mark was there and was completely startled by him.
"What are you doing?" he yawned.
"I'm getting ice cream... Or is that not a good idea?" she asked as he stood up and walked towards her. "What are you doing?" she asked as he cupped her face.
"I'm sorry, I was very mean and I said pretty nasty things. I also kept mommy tracking you, but I just need you to tell me that you'll take care of you, and this baby." he whispered placing a hand in her stomach. "I need to know that you two are safe because I can't be there all the time to remind you to eat well." he said softly never looking anywhere other than her eyes.
She could see that he was scared, to be honest she was freaking out. She didn't want him to worry about her at all and she promised herself from that moment that she was going to take good care of the baby, and obviously herself too. She placed her hand on top of his and slowly she kissed him. It wasn't a rushed kiss, but a sultry and passionate kiss.
"Wasn't there no sex for me until... I don't know when?" he asked against her lips.
"You were cheating. I've been blindsided all day long. I had to cave in" she whispered
"How's that that I've been cheating?" he asked with a smirk.
"You were being too perfect." she shrugged as she kept kissing him.
"Should we?" he asked pointing upstairs.
And completely forgetting her cravings she nodded.
A/N: God... This was hard to write. I hope you enjoyed it:) Please review:):):) Also remember, I am not the one who's saying that they are getting back together, but like I said before, this got personal. If she's wrong I'll probably track her down and torture her with my never ending rant about how they should get together soon. And as for Shonda, well she's a genius so I'll let her do her job and pray to God she does it right. Can I get an Amen?
Review please:)
