Ciel laid in his bed the moon light streaming in through his window and he fought to keep his red, tear swollen eyes open feeling almost exhausted after the days events, his hair was still wet from his bath to him it was strange for Sebastian not to be there with him but he got over it quickly or he forced himself to as he laid in bed he tried not to start bawling and he clenched his hands his eye brows coming together as he steeled himself to try to keep from crying. He fought out of his thick bed sheets kicking and shoving at them then walked to his washroom looking at his reflection glaring at himself right then as he saw the red rims around his eyes his contract mark glowing softly in the dark and he quickly walked back to his bed laying down refusing to sleep but the grogginess and tiredness pulled at him as he glared even more his jaw clenched, his brow furrowed deeply as he tried to stay awake but his eyelids slide down slowly on their own. He felt strange. His mind was thinking of Sebastian and he swore his body was aching to feel him laying there with him and he let out a low whimper before he drifted off slowly into sleep as he curled up tightly.
~Dream~
He was sitting in the grass again in the same spot as he had been in and he felt a soft breeze play with his hair lightly as he looked around his heart skipping for some reason and he sighed quietly falling back onto the soft cushioning grass as his eyes closed.
"Bocchan?"
Ciel quickly sat up his eyes widening when he realized his eye patch was gone and secondly Sebastian was standing right in front of him just a few steps away but even though he was angry with Sebastian and hurt he couldn't stop his eyes from wondering all over the mans perfect features and his gorgeous red eyes that seemed to hold such heart shattering pain. Then Ciel realized his eye patch was gone as his eyes widened even more into giant circles when he realized something else right along with his missing eye patch and it was that HE had put that pain in Sebastian's eyes and it made him feel horrible.
"Y-yes Sebastian?"
"Do you forgive me bocchan?" Sebastian looked at Ciel with an almost hopeful look on his face and it nearly made Ciel melt into the grass and he felt his answer bubbling up inside of him as he stared at the demon before a soft smile curved up on his lips making Sebastian smile back.
"Yes I do forgive you Sebastian, I'm sorry however." Ciel says his voice heavy with the apology as he looked down then suddenly a shadow was cast over him and Sebastian's body was on top of Ciel's laying over his little body, his huge built frame covering Ciel.
"Don't apologize Bocchan." Sebastian playfully growled nearly making Ciel giggle at how he sounded and Sebastian swooped down claiming the boys lips with his own in a kiss so sweet it was shocking, a kiss so amazing that he couldn't help relaxing back against the ground, a kiss so tender and loving it made Ciel all but melt against the butler as his eyes shut slowly his heart giving a soft thud against his chest as the demons lips moved against his own and at that moment Ciel felt loved and cherished more than he had ever felt, it was like it doubled and doubled until he knew no one else could show or give to him at that moment, not even Lizzie's sweet innocent affection and adoration could compare to this heady thick feeling washing over him repeatedly and he sighed with a content happiness his arms around the butler his hands clutching at his clothes softly, not yanking or pulling, just holding onto him as the feelings rolled over him one at a time stronger than the last and he knew it was easier to feel, here in this dream land where he was allowed to feel and he loved being with Sebastian something he would never ever admit out loud. He felt safe, warm, happy, loved, genuinely cared for and he loved feeling that way especially if Sebastian caused it but again it was something he would never ever admit out loud.
~End of Dream~
Sebastian's POV
He had been walking around the hall alone, his heart aching and burning with each beat it gave off until he closed his eyes siding down the wall trying his best not to focus on his heart. He hated this pain so very much yet he couldn't get rid of it. He sighed loudly sitting on the floor, his long legs bent almost touching his chest as he frowned softly to himself, Mey-Rin, Bardroy, Finny and Tanaka all left so he couldn't talk to any of them, if he even wanted to talk to them and see why he was in this pain. He sighed again his head tilting back touching the floor and he closed his eyes his lashes once again casting shadows on his cheeks which he opened a bit his red eyes looked darker, like beautiful dark red almost as red as blood at that moment as he looked up at the ceiling his brow furrowed beautifully and his ears all but perked up when he heard a rustling around in his masters room followed by mumbling. He got up quickly going into Cie's room and what he saw made him stop dead in his tracks. Ciel was curled up on his bed, tears soaking his pillow but there was a soft smile on his face when he murmured Sebastian's name and then his gorgeous eyes opened wide looking at Sebastian before those tears filled up his eyes and spilled over quickly as he took in Sebastian's face and body up and down before his mouth trembled.
"Sebastian. . . . ." Ciel mutters his hands reaching out for Sebastian who stood there a faint blue tinging his pale white face a light pink as he stared at Ciel, at the tears pouring down the boys cheeks and dripping off his chin.
"Bocchan. . . . What's. . . Whats wrong?" Sebastian says a bit hesitant taking a couple steps towards Ciel looking at his tears frowning softly.
Instead of answering him at Ciel lunged forward with a loud cry wrapping his small arms around the butlers broad shoulders as his tears poured down in what seemed like a never ended torrent of gushing tears and he closes his eyes as Sebastian stared at him his eyes widening slightly before he moved his arms around the boys small waist hugging him against his chest tightly as the tears soaked his clothes and he hid his face in Ciel's hair inhaling the sweet scent of it and he closed his eyes feeling almost blissful at the moment when Ciel pulled back a bit looking into his face. He leaned up kissing the butler softly keeping his arms around Sebastian's shoulders and Sebastian kissed him back before Ciel walked back to the bed dragging the butler with him and they laid on the bed side by side looking at each other in the darkness of the room. Ciel then moved closer to Sebastian the blankets rustling and he laid right up against him his arms to his chest slightly and he curled up a bit again Sebastian. He just sat there allowing Ciel to do as he pleased when he moved his arms around the boy again smiling gently and softly.
"Stay with me." Ciel mumbled into the demons chest softly his eyes already drifting shut once again and Sebastian smiled at the look on the boys face and he felt his heart fluttering at the look his chest felt like it tingling almost the sharp sweet knowing of relief spreading through out his chest and body as he relaxed enough he felt Ciel relax almost immediately after that soft small smile on his face was enough to melt any person, either human or demon and its exactly what it was doing to him right now melting him from the inside out as he shut his eyes letting them rest as his own very small smile came over his lips immediately as he held the boy in his arms, not like a protector or even friend, he held him like one would hold a lover, someone precious beyond anything else in the world. Just thinking that made Sebastian wonder briefly what it was they were. Were they master and servant still? Friends? Lovers? He had no idea at that moment but he knew his own feelings and he would soon have to make the decision of telling him or keeping them locked up, it was like seeing both choices from a different point of view. The first option of telling there's the possibility Ciel felt the same and they could quite possibly be together whether others cared or not and have the chance at being together truly for the eternity they had stretched out in front of them, the idea of perhaps having a family something Sebastian could call his own made him feel warm inside for a brief moment. The other one however. . . . Keeping his feelings to himself to never tell Ciel, would mean losing him but even with eternity, Ciel could find another person to love and cherish someone who WASN'T him. So here he was at a cross roads, to tell or not tell, let it out or keep it inside, find true happiness for once or be a lonely cold demon for the rest of his eternal life. What to do, what to do. He kept his eyes shut against the whirl wind of thoughts and practically forced himself into a deep beautiful sleep.
~Authors Note~
I'm sorry if this chapter is shorter than all the others I couldn't think of much to add into this chapter just this once, the next chapter will be so extremely much better than this one I promise! I hope you all like it though.
