CH.8

You Cheat On Me Once, I Cheat On 65 Times.

JUSTIN'S P.O.V

"OOH MY GOSH! JUSTIN! WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING? HOW COULD YOU?" I heard Chaz walking in screaming at me. Ryan immediately got off of me and stood up, i followed him and we both walked toward the confused Chris and the angry Chaz

"WHAT YOU THINK I DIDN'T SE-" i started yelling back at Chaz but Ryan started interrupting me, "OK! ALL OF YOU WAIT! before anything happens I need to talk to Chaz first! and it's private!" Ryan started pushing Chaz out of the room and into Caitlin's. i sighed throwing my head back and holding it in my hands. i stayed like that for a few seconds then looked down at the floor and relaxed a bit. i looked at Chris and relaxed more.

Christian looked back at me, and after a few seconds he gave me the look with a raised eyebrow. I'm guessing he was still turned on. I chuckled and smirked at him, he started grinning as i got closer to him until our lips touched, after a few seconds we were making out against the wall, his legs around my waist and my hands holding him up from his butt. yeah, that's right! you cheat on me once, i cheat on you 65 times.

CHAZ'S P.O.V

Ryan took me back to Caitlin's room and as soon as we got in he crossed his arms and looked at me angrily, i just starred at him, why would he be mad?

"what were you and Christian doing here earlier?" he said to me with an angry tone, daaaaaamn!

"nothing, we just..you know!" i answered not know what exactly to say. i watched at Ryan's eyes started widening, "YOU HAD SEX WITH HIM!" he yelled at me

"NO! OF COURSE I DIDN'T! we were just, making out and that's it! nothing more than that!" i yelled back defensively

"listen to me Chaz! you can't do that to him! chris isn't like us! he's 13 for goodness' sake! do you think figuring himself is as easy as it was for us? you either gotta talk to him properly or don't! just let him do it all by himself! the dude is still afraid of what people are going to say about him! what his mom would do! what if she doesn't accept him and kicks him out? what are you going to tell him then? he's gay and we know it! but he doesn't wanna believe it! and making out with him isn't going to help! you need to show him that even if all the other people didn't accept him for who he is, we will! and that is not done by stealing his virginity Chaz!" Ryan yelled at me angrily, he was always the type of guy that cared for and about everyone but himself. he always loved helping his friends and the ones he loves. but once you try to hurt one of the other loved ones by him, you become his enemy. hurting Chris was exactly what i did. maybe i wasn't doing it on purpose, or in a direct way, but i still was. Ryan was right and I knew it, but i didn't know how to say it.

"Ryan, i was just trying to help!" i tried saying defensively. i wasn't yelling, i had no right to be yelling right now. i was just confused of what should i do, apologize?

Ryan seemed to calm down a bit after he noticed that i realized that i was wrong. but he's not going to let me out of here until i admit it. but I'm not that kind of guy!

"But you were doing it the wrong way. just, try to treat each person in a different way, in a way that fits them" Ryan told me

My eyes started tearing up, knowing that i messed up, but this time there's no running away from it.

"Chaz..don't! just..don't! please! don't cry!" Ryan said getting closer to me

"i won't! i just, i-i can't!" I said with a shaky voice and a few tears escaping my eyes, a few seconds later i was sobbing and crying and Ryan got closer and hugged me. he sat me on the bed as i continued crying on his chest.

JUSTIN'S P.O.V

about a minute passed and i stopped. i pulled away and looked him in the eyes, he looked back at me ,breathing rapidly

"i didn't know you were gay.." i whispered to him

"I'm not! I'm not..gay!" he yelled back quickly

"wh-what do you mean?" i asked him confused

"I'm not gay Justin! i-i can't be!" he answered with a shaky voice

I sighed and put him down. i took his hand and pulled him with me to the couch and sat him down before sitting down beside him. "Chris, what do you mean you're not gay?" i asked him with a soft voice and a caring tone

"I mean that I'm not!" he said and started crying, i sighed again. Christine being gay is not something that you should be ashamed of! it's who you are!" I told him with the same tone.

"Justin I'm not ash- I mean i wouldn't be ashamed of it if i were gay, but I'm not gay, i know that I'm not"

I sighed, which is something that's i've done a lot in the past few seconds. "Listen, i want you to answer me honestly! with the every last drop of honesty in your heart! ok?"

he sniffed, "ok"

i leaned in and kissed him again, he hesitated but kissed back. a few seconds later I pulled back, "what did you feel?" i asked him

"i-i kinda l-liked it" he answered before sniffing again

"ok, a couple more questions, but first I want you to imagine a hot girl in her underwear only, without even a bra! just imagine yourself licking her all over" i said and waited for him as he closed his eyes and started imagining. i looked down at his 'little friend' and waited to see if anything happens. nothing.

"okaaay, now. get that thought out of your head" i told him, "done" he replied and looked at me waiting. he had stopped crying by now and was just sitting there looking at me with his red puffy eyes.

"ok, so..now, imagine a guy, like, the hottest guy you've ever seen, and that would be me" i said sarcastically, he chuckled and punched my arm jokingly. i let out a small laugh and continued, "let's say..uum.. he is..i don't know, maybe having a shower! or..rubbing himself, or something like that!" i tried my best to find something that would usually turn me on, but without getting turned on right now.

he took a deep breath, his eyes were closed but i can see his whole facial expression changing. I looked down at his 'little friend' again, and yup! his little friend was definitely happy!

Of course he felt it, he looked down, opened his eyes and sighed.

"Christina, you know that it's totally ok, right?"

"I don't want to be gay Justin! what if nobody accepts me? what if my whole family started hating me? what am I going o do?" he started crying again, sobbed and i pulled him closer. "Christian, they're not going to hate you! nobody will, and if they do, then they were never your real friends. if someone really loved you then they'd love you as you are. gay or not, they shouldn't care. Christian don't you ever think that you're alone! you got me, Ryan, Chaz, and I'm sure your mom and Caitlin would still love you and will accept you. they're your family Christian, and we're your friends. if we didn't support you then who would we support?", i kissed the top of his head as he continued crying in my arms for a little while.

When i finally felt him calming down, i pulled him back a bit and looked at him, "so, are you convinced yet?" I asked him. he let out a small chuckle and looked at the ground with a small smile on his face, "yeah, i guess", he looked back at me, "thanks". i gave him a warm smile, "I'm not done yet. i want you to say it, loud and proud!" i said smiling at him, he laughed a bit and so did I. "come'n! you can do it Christian!" i said sarcastically, "fine. I'm gay!" he said smiling at me. "no! louder! scream it out!" i laughed with him, "I'M GAY!" he said laughing with me.

CHAZ'S P.O.V

"I'm sorry" i sobbed to Ryan a few minutes later, "it's ok, all what I wanted is for you to realize that what you were doing is wrong. but it's ok". he was hugging me and i was crying on his chest.

I finally calmed down and remembered what i had seen earlier. Justin and Ryan.

I took a deep breath, "well, excuse me now, i got something and someone else to take care of" I said standing up and putting my angry face back on. Ryan looked at me confused. i walked out of the room and into Christian's, and Ryan followed me.

I'm coming for you, Justin.