DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN GLEE OR ITS CHARACTERS
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**Rachel's POV**
"I am going to kill them," I seethe, stomping around on the small stage in our practice room.
"They're idiots," Finn simply states. "You couldn't actually expect them to be here on time."
"Well they came on time for every other stinking rehearsal! But no, not the most important one, not the one that's two days before our first tour performance," I yell and throw my arms around with crazy hand gestures.
"Wassup, wassup!" Noah's voice booms from the door that had opened.
I spin around, not even caring that my skirt flies up while doing so, and glare at him and Sam.
And three girls that are with them?
"Who are they?" I snap. "And where have you been? You were supposed to be here an hour ago. What have you been doing?"
"Whoa, what a buzz kill," One of the two blondes says in a slow voice.
I glare at her and look expectantly at Noah and Sam.
"Chill, Berry, they're just here for a little fun with the guys. Finn, I got you the brunette, cause I know how much you dig them," Noah winks back at Finn.
I'm too busy being angry to care.
"We need to practice," I say and watch as the group gets up on stage. The pretty brunette slinks over and sits down on Finn's lap and it stings when I see the smirk of amusement on his face.
"We can't have any distractions," I slowly add, trying to avert my gaze from Finn and whoever this girl is.
His eyes meet mine and I look at him a couple of seconds with so much hurt because I thought that maybe, just maybe we were…
"Actually, now that I think about it, we don't need to practice. I think yesterday," I look back at Finn somberly, "I think yesterday went really well. I will see you guys in a couple days."
They all stare at me, so I just nod slightly and turn around, moving quickly off the stage. I grab my jacket and push through the doors before I start running. I run and try to just clear my mind. Why am I so upset that Finn enjoys the company of other women?
It's never going to be only me. He won't have feelings for me the way I have feelings for him and it's good this way. We can't have a relationship because if we broke up, it'd be devastating for the band.
I pull my phone out and call Mercedes.
"Hey girl!"
"Hi," I sniff, for I had just started to cry. "I really need my best friends right now. Can you group everyone up and come over?"
"Of course, Ra. I'll see you in a bit," She softly speaks.
"Thanks, bye."
**Finn's POV**
"What the hell is wrong with you guys? Why the fuck did you bring those girls to rehearsal?" I yell at them as we enter the apartment.
"Oh please, don't tell me you didn't have fun with that chick," Sam scoffs.
"I didn't, jack ass. She was definitely not my type," I spit.
Puck rolls his eyes and shoves me, "Dude, stop being such a pussy. Ever since Rachel… wait a minute! You're crazy bout' her, aren't you?"
My eyes widen, "N-No… pfft, of course not. Like, why would I like Rachel? We're just friends and, yeah, she's really pretty and all kinds of awesome and I want to be around her all the time and-."
"FINN!" Sam yells. "You're totally into her."
Puck smirks and nods his head.
"Whatever, it's none of your damn business anyways," I stomp down the hallway to my room to get away from them.
But they follow me right away.
"Hell yes it is," Puck says. "Quinn walked out on us right after I screwed her, we're not chancing it with Rachel."
"Why do you guys think I want to just fuck her?" I toss my hands up in the air.
"Uh, because you're a man," Sam states.
"Yeah, I know I'm a man," I reply and glare at Puck when he starts to question.
"I don't want to have sex with Rachel… well, I mean, yeah I really do… But that's not what I want. It's really weird… I-I want to be with her. Sometimes I just wish that she was my girlfriend and that we were together and… I don't know. It's weird."
"No, no, no," Sam says. "You can't be a couple with Rachel. You better not fuck this tour up, Finn. Stay away from our girl."
I roll my eyes at that statement.
"Yeah, seriously, lay off Berry, Finn. When we're done being famous and all, then you have full permission to date or whatever the hell it is you're talking about," Puck adds. "Now I'm done being a pussy. Sam and I are gonna hit the bar. The pool tourney is tonight and we've got bets going, so we gotta be there. Anyways, we're not going to be able to have any fun when Miss Uptight as Fuck is watching us like she's our mother."
"Don't call her that," I snap.
"Yeah, yeah, you know I've got crazy respect for the girl," Puck shrugs. "See ya later, Finny boy."
They leave the apartment and I sigh deeply, dropping down onto my bed.
Rachel is upset.
If you'd seen the look in her eyes earlier tonight when she realized these girls were going to be here with us at practice…
It was heart breaking.
I wanted to do nothing more than follow her and hold her, tell her that Sam and Puck are stupid and that those girls are nothing.
But I couldn't. And I don't know if that makes me a dick or a man. Lately I haven't been able to tell the difference.
**Rachel's POV**
"H-He never l-liked m-me!" I sob to my group of friends. "W-Why can't I-I just realize b-boys d-don't like m-m-me?"
"Rach, you gotta settle down," Artie speaks softly. I burry my face into Mercedes' shoulder and I grasp Tina's hand tightly.
"I c-can't!"
"Alright, girl, we are stopping this right now! Why are you still upset about boys? You are only twenty one," Mercedes scoffs.
"Yeah, and the clock is ticking away Mercedes! All of you are happy with your boyfriends and girlfriends. Why can't I have that?" I weakly say. "Why can't I have someone who will love me in spite of all my flaws? I know I'm not beautiful and nothing special, but why can't I find my soul mate?"
"You will find your soul mate," Mike states. "But you can't stick on one person and expect that they are your soul mate. It doesn't work like that."
"So what, I'm supposed to wait forever?"
"If it takes that long," Tina slowly speaks.
"Yeah, alright, so I'll just be lonely all my life and I'll let myself wither away. Soon I'll be thirty and my ovaries will be dried up and I'll never be able to have a family and then NO ONE will want to marry me and I'll be even more of a failure!"
"Rachel, it won't take that long. And you're not a failure! Look at this stinking band that you fixed up and helped become a star? You're going on tour, girl! You should be happy! You don't need a man!" Mercedes exclaims. "You've got things going for you, Ra. Don't let some silly boy problem bring you down. You don't even have feelings for Finn, right? You always tell me that you don't."
"I don't," I softly speak even though I'm lying.
Why can't I tell my best friends that I'm falling for Finn?
I won't even say the L-word because then I know that I won't be able to stop the feeling and that can be detrimental considering he doesn't reciprocate the feelings.
"You guys are right," I sniff. "I'm better than this. I shouldn't be crying about something so silly. I'm sorry for freaking out."
"Now you wouldn't be Rachel Berry if you didn't have a diva meltdown, now would you?" Tina asks and kisses my cheek.
I laugh loudly and they all stay over and watch Bridesmaid's with me, making me remember that I've got things going for me. Even if I don't have Broadway or love, I will always have my friends who will stick by me through everything and anything.
The ones who can make me laugh and brighten my day at any moment.
And that's all I need.
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Alright! I am SO sorry for the wait. I've had such a long week with church, band, volleyball, school… Sorry for the long week! I will try to post again soon, but I can't promise anything!
Okay, this is sort of a filler chapter. It was inspired by a party I went to just earlier today and it was a going away party for my friend. I was all sad because she's going to be gone, but we watched a movie together and I felt so good just being with her. FRIENDS ARE EVERYTHING.
ANYWAYS, THIS IS A VERY IMPORTANT CHAPTER. FINN AND RACHEL ARE NOW FULLY AWARE OF THEIR STRONG FEELINGS FOR ONE ANOTHER, HOWEVER, THEY CANNOT ACT UPON THESE FEELINGS BECAUSE OF THE CONSEQUENCES.
Next chapter is start of the tour and it will be VERY fluffy. The finchel friendship will still go strong!
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