What had she just done? Instead of leaving like she should have she ended up screwing her ex-boyfriend while Stefan was probably worried sick about her. It all happened so fast, the kiss, the ripping of clothes; she didn't have time to comprehend what she was doing until it was too late. Her eye lids were filled of tears as she drove down the road thinking about what Stefan would think of her.
Twenty minutes earlier
"Matt?"
"Yeah?"
"What did we just do?"
She looked to her side making contact with his eyes.
"Take me back." He blurted out.
"What? No."
"Bonnie, baby, I was an idiot for ever cheating on you and I forgive you for cheating on me. I want you back. Let's run away, just stay with me." His eyes were pleading.
"Matt, I can't. I love Stefan too much to just runaway."
"Well if you loved him so much then why did you just sleep with me?"
"Because I'm a... fucking whore who can't keep her legs closed to her exes." Bonnie sat up and walked towards her closet.
"Bonnie, you're not a whore, okay. Sorry if I made you feel that way." He said wrapping his arms around her naked body.
"No, Matt." She moved away from him pulling a tank top over her. "We can't, you have Lexi and I have Stefan and that's the way it should be." She walked out of the closet going to the chest of drawers finding underwear before pulling them up her legs.
"Forget about Lexi and Stefan, listen babe, I want you. It was always you, I'm an idiot and I'll remind you of it every day if you take me back."
She sat on the bed after putting on a pair of jeans tying her shoes. Standing up she grabbed her purse and keys walking to the door. When she opened it Matt pushed it closed.
"It's him or me. If you chose him, we will never be together again. I'll delete your number and pretended that you never existed, but if you stay here," he kissed her forehead, "I promise you that we'll be stronger than ever, and that I'll treat you like a queen like I should've all along because you deserve it."
There was hesitation form her which he took as a good sign.
"I'm sorry, Matt." Bonnie opened the door walking out.
When she got in her car she broke down like she's never before. Everything was overwhelming, her breaking up with Matt and rejecting him over and over. Her cheating on Stefan, the love of her life with the guy she just broke up with. But the thing that hurt the most was when she was going to tell Stefan and the look that would be on his face. The broken the betrayed look that he would give her. He would want nothing to do with her and she couldn't blame him –she wouldn't want anything to do with her either.
After calming down some, she started the car, driving to the place where she knew she had to go.
Bonnie roughly wiped her tears away and knocked on the door.
"Bonnie?"
A long haired woman opened the door. A smile was on her face for a second but it quickly changed into a frown. Her chocolate eyes were full of concern as she stared at the girl in front of her. She knew that something was bothering her, she knew Bonnie for too long to not notice.
"Sissy, can I come in?"
/x/
More tears escaped as Bonnie was filling her sister in on everything that happened. Bonnie didn't dare to look in her eyes, it was her first time seeing her sister in years and she's telling her all the horrible things that she's done. It wasn't the best "first" impression, but she didn't know where else to go.
"What do I do, Amber? I messed everything up." She cried some more.
Amber let out a sigh, "Bonnie, you have to tell Stefan."
"I know. He'll hate me so much Amb, he wouldn't want anything to do with me."
"That may be true, but Stefan sounds like a great guy, and I think that he'll forgive you...eventually." She chuckled trying to find some humor.
It worked a little for she saw a slight smile on her sister's face.
"You're only human we all make mistakes that we can't take back. This just happened to be one of yours. Lord knows I made mistakes myself."
Bonnie looked at her sister questionably. She couldn't think of a single mistake that Amber has made, she was always the best at everything.
"I wish you two met, that will never happen though since I'm a damn fool."
"Hey, language." Amber warned.
"Sorry." Bonnie apologized.
"It's okay, you're going through a rough time, I sometimes even slip."
Bonnie smiled. "I should get going, Stefan's waiting for me probably worried sick that I haven't shown up yet." Bonnie said standing up from the couch.
"Alright, it was good talking to ya."
Amber followed Bonnie to the door opening it for her.
"Is it okay if I come here later? I know I won't be welcomed at Stefan's."
"Sure," Amber took a keychain off the side table, "use this key to get in. I'm going to bed, but we can talk in the mornin'."
Bonnie smiled and walked down the stairs slowly trying to postpone the discussion that she was to have with Stefan.
/x/
Stefan was pacing back and forth almost burning a hole in the floor. He jumped and rushed over to the door when he heard knocks. His arms immediately wrapped around her once she broke out in tears. Bonnie tried her hardest to stay strong in front of him, but seeing his face she couldn't.
"Shh, it's okay." He pacified.
"You're gonna hate me, Stefan. You're gonna hate me so much." She spoke through tears crying even harder.
"What? What are you talking about?" He closed the door and walked her to the couch.
"You couldn't do it." Stefan frowned assuming when she gave no answer.
She wished that was the case, but it wasn't.
"I... Stefan..."
"Hey," he cupped her face and kissed her, "its okay I understand."
"That's not it Stefan. I–" she let out a breath trying to calm herself down. "I slept with Matt."
His hands left her face in a flash and the look on his face was her worst enemy. He looked at her with wide eyes filled with so much hurt and pain and she saw him backing away from her.
"Stefan, I swear I never wanted it to happen I was so angry and then he kissed me and before I knew what I was doing it was too late. I'm sorry please forgive me, please."
Stefan's eyes were closed as her words ran through his head.
"Stefan?" Bonnie moved to touch him but he pushed her hand away standing up and looking down at her.
"Christ I'm such an idiot!" Bonnie ran her fingers through her hair, tears escaping her eyes.
"Can you leave." Stefan said.
"Stef–"
He held up his hand stopping her midway, "Please. Can you just go."
She looked at him with pleading eyes, but he didn't give in.
"Okay."
Bonnie gathered her stuff and stood up walking to the door.
"I'm so sorry, Stefan. It's still you." Stefan looked over at her. "I still want to be with you if you'll have me."
As soon as Bonnie left, Stefan slid everything off the coffee table angrily. He threw things and punched the wall and regretted his decision seeing how he created a giant hole in the wall that he'll have to pay to get fixed.
"Damn!"
He was ready. He was ready to settle down with Bonnie. He was ready to get married and start a family with the love of his life. He was ready and he just knew that she as too, but he thought wrong.
"I was ready." He whispered before he broke down.
/x/
Bonnie cried into her pillow when she arrived to Amber's house. She chose the nearest empty room, crawled on the bed and cried. She was sick of crying but she didn't know what else to do.
Before she knew it the sun was creeping up the horizon and Amber knocked on the door.
"How did everything go?" Amber spoke softly sitting on the bed.
"He wanted me to leave. That's all he said to me after I told him. He didn't want to look at me." Bonnie spoke into her pillow.
"Bonnie" Amber shook her so she could see her sisters face.
After a while Bonnie turned around and her eyes almost flew out of their sockets.
"You're pregnant!"
"Yeah" Amber smiled rubbing her stomach, "seven months along."
"Where's the father?"
"Iraq."
"I'm so sorry. I was so wrapped up in my own problems that I didn't even know that my own sister was pregnant. Tactless."
"Don't worry 'bout it Bonnie. Let me make you some breakfast, it'll make you feel better."
The sisters smiled and walked out the bedroom to the kitchen. Bonnie offered to help with the cooking but Amber insisted that she relax.
Pancakes, eggs, and sausage were placed on plates and carried to the table.
"So sissy, is it a boy or girl?"
"I don't know. We wanted it to be a surprise."
"Do you have a picture? I'd love to see my brother-in-law."
Amber smiled and walked to her room coming out shortly with a framed picture. She handed it to Bonnie who looked closely at the picture and smiled. In the picture stood a handsome man along with her beautiful sister. He had short black hair and almond skin. His eyes were emerald just like Bonnie's and he had the perfect smile with teeth so white that they were blinding. He stood a few inches taller than Amber and from what she could tell he was built. He was in the military so it only made since.
"His name Josh, Josh Powers."
"Amber Powers, I like it."
Amber smiled, "I miss him. So much." A tear slid down her face and she quickly wiped it away. "I'm sorry I'm just emotional."
"Don't apologize, A, I'm here for you now. I'm sorry that it took me so long to come around."
"It works both ways, sis. Don't pin it all on yourself, part of this is my fault too."
"I love you"
"I love you too"
The sisters joined in an embrace and let the tears flow. Happy ones this time.
/x/
Matt packed his things in his suitcase trying to catch his flight to California. Since Bonnie rejected his offer he decided to go back to Lexi. It was their plan all along anyway so why not.
Matt walked into his new condo and was surprised to see that it was decorated already. He's only been gone for two days and already Lexi had started without him.
"Matt is that you?"
"Yeah" he dropped his bags beside the door as he heard her walking down hall.
"How was it? What happened?" She asked furrowing her brows.
"We're done. I found out that she was with Stefan and I told her about us and we broke up."
"Are we okay?"
"Of course."
"Good." Lexi smiled and kissed him before leading him to their bedroom.
/x/
Stefan resorted to his only friend, Enzo. For the first time in months Stefan got high. Enzo encouraged him so he could let loose and talk about whatever without him feeling like a girl.
"She hurt me, man. She hurt me bad. She slept with that punk-ass Matt when- when we were supposed to be together. I should kill him, I should beat his ass."
"You should, tell 'em whose boss!"
"Let's go over there and kick his ass!" Stefan stood up meaning to walk to the front door but opened the refrigerator door instead. "I'm hungry."
"Well get something to eat."
"Let's go out somewhere."
/x/
The sisters were together on a walk around Amber's neighborhood. It was peaceful and they enjoyed the silence. Bonnie was glad that she made the decision to go to her sister instead of one of her friends which she was going to do at first, but something led her here.
"So when are you going to talk to Stefan?" Amber asked breaking the silence.
"I'm not sure if he wants to talk to me right now."
"You should call him. Calling him and ask him to meet up."
"I don't know sis," Bonnie exhaled, "I think he just wants his space right now."
"It's been a week, Bon, I'm tired of seeing you all depressed."
"Fine, I'll call him."
There was an annoying ringing going on waking him up from his sleep. The sun raging from the windows did not help cure his hangover with his head in the pillow he answered his phone.
"Hello?" No answer. "Hello?" He asked again more annoyed.
"Sorry I just wasn't expecting you to answer."
"Bonnie?"
"Yeah, who'd you think it was?"
"I don't know; I didn't check the caller ID."
"Oh... I was just wondering if we could meet up somewhere... to talk?"
"Like where?"
"I don't know Mystic Grill, your place, my place?" Bonnie listed off.
"... Okay."
"Okay to where?"
"Whatever you want. Listen Bonnie, I'm suffering from a slight hangover so I'll call you back."
Bonnie looked at the clock and saw that it was two o'clock. Only Stefan.
"Alright."
Stefan hung up and took the Advil that Enzo placed by his bed last night.
"What did he say?" Amber asked.
"He agreed to meet up and he said he'll call later, but I think he was too hungover to know what he was saying."
"I think he'll remember."
The sisters reached the house and went into their bedrooms after cooling off with a glass of water. There was still one person on her mind and that was Matt. She felt bad about the whole thing and she realized that Matt could be going through the same thing that she is. The only difference is that he's in another state with no one to talk to about his problems besides himself. She decided to call him and try to make peace.
"Hey Matt, it's me Bonnie just checking in." Bonnie decided to leave a message since there was no answer, "I know you said that you'll delete my number, but I just want to try and make peace. I can't say I'm sorry for rejecting you, but I am sorry about how everything happened." She tried to think of more to say and something popped in her head. "I hope that things between you and Lexi are okay... Stefan shut me out when I told him about us sleeping together, but things are looking up in a way. I don't know why I told you that you probably don't care but I just–" Bonnie was cut off by the beep of the voicemail realizing that she took too long.
She threw the phone to the side of her bed settling back staring at the ceiling.
Lexi woke up when Matt's phone went off and she grew suspicious when she saw that Bonnie was calling. She grew even more suspicious when she saw that she left a voicemail. Letting her suspicions get the best of her, Lexi checked his mailbox. Luckily she knew his password to it and she listened carefully to the message and her mouth dropped when Bonnie revealed that they slept together and she rejected him. Lexi gave the death glare to a napping Matt and she felt like she was going to cry.
He lied to her. He told her that everything went well that they broke up and that was it be failed to mention the part when they slept together and when she rejected him from God knows what. Bonnie had the decently and respect to tell Stefan about what happened but he didn't respect her enough to say anything. Lexi wanted to throw his phone and break it and him into a million pieces but she wasn't going to do that. She wanted to see how long he could keep such a secret from her. She wanted to know how easy it was to him to look her in the eye and act like nothing happened.
"To think I slept with him." Lexi talked to herself in the mirror. "I'm going to make him regret the day that he ever lied to me."
/x/
The next day she got the phone call from Stefan. She tried not to act like a teenager and her crush was calling her asking her out on a date. She was a mature, young adult and she needed to act that way. He asked her to meet him at his place around four. Bonnie figured that it was the best place since more than likely they would get into an argument and they needed the freedom to say whatever they wanted to say without worrying about anyone else.
"What do I wear?" Bonnie asked Amber who was currently invading her closet.
"I don't know I've never been in this situation before." Amber thought, "What does he like you in besides your birthday suit?"
Bonnie laughed. "Well anything that shows off my legs and arms really."
"Alright then." Amber rummaged through her clothes and pulled out a striped long sleeved shirt and boot cut jeans.
"You can't be serious."
The shirt was fine, but she was never a fan of boot cut jeans.
"I'm dead serious sis. You need to talk to him without any distractions running through his mind. Say you walked in there with a tank top and short shorts he would be too focused on your body that he'll take you back only because he's a boy and he has hormones, but he would still be mad at you. If you walk in dere in this," Amber pointed to the clothes, "dere will be no distractions, y'all will work things out, and he'll forgive you."
Bonnie exhaled, "Alright, fine. I'll wear the clothes." She looked at the jeans one more time before taking them back to her room to put them on.
She felt like she was going to throw up. Staring at the white door with the golden number ten nailed on it made her stomach turn. What if he didn't take her back, what if he wanted absolutely nothing to do with her. Bonnie wanted to turn away and leave, but she couldn't. She needed to own up to what she's done and not run away from it. Taking a deep breath and letting it go she knocked on the door. A few moments passed before it opened.
"Hey."
"Hey."
TBC
