C-section? EWWW
Oh my God was all I could think.
"Edward agreed to this?". Here I am pregnant with his child and he goes and asks Jacob if he wants to be my baby daddy with out consulting me.
"Yeah I think he has gone bonkers."
Back to the situation at hand. My mind turned toward Jacob, rejection was in his eyes. Deep, but it was still there. My heart filled with emotion. I love Jake, just not in that way. I hated myself. I can't love him back the way he wants me too and having his baby won't be the same as having one with Edward.
"He really would do anything for me." I felt loved.
"Look Bella, the thing is going to KILL you.:
Ugh. Here we go again. "Jake you don't get it. I have a plan and I'm not going to change my mind." I said this very firmly so he will know I am not going to change my mind. He seemed to get it because he sighed.
"I know", I whispered. "But I can be strong until he comes out."
"Not if it kills you first. You look horrible and weak."
"We just don't know what it wants."
"So in compromise it's killing you, is that it?"
"No…. I'm still here."
"Come on Bella, get real. You'll die before you even get to see your murderer."
"Well we have a backup plan."
"What would that be?"
"Well if I can stay strong until it's old enough to come out, it would be emergency vampirization."
"Emergency vampirization? Bella that's gross. So the thing will be out by C-section? You don't know if that would really work Bella."
"I know but it's a risk I'm willing to take."
"Bella you're so niave and blind. Do you know how this effects your husband? The big bet you're putting on chance? Be realistic this isn't common and noone knows what is going to happen. There is no guarantee. Do you know how this effects Charlie and me?"
He hit most of the spots. "You know what Jacob I know I'm not stupid. Edward is just being paranoid. Carlisle is here, and seriously Jacob you're going low." It all hurt now.
"I'm sorry Bell but this is a big unnecessary risk."
Shit. "I know Jacob. I love you. But I also love him."
"Ew. It's a boy?"
I blushed. "Well I don't really know what it is because the fetus is too think to determine the sex. I just think it is a boy."
"Oh."
"Wanna hear the names?" he nodded. "EJ for a boy, and Renesme for a girl. Ej stands for Edward Jacob and Renesme is a mix between Renee and Esme."
"Cute in a vampireish human way."
I laughed. Leave it to Jake to make a comment.
"So your really gonna go through with this?" I nodded.
"Well I guess I better go. I gotta tell Sam you're still human."
"Okay. Will you come back?"
"No probably not. I'm not gonna stick around to just watch you die."
Ouch, that hurt. A LOT. My eyes filled, "Okay I understand."
"Don't look so crushed, you knew this was coming when you married him."
"Yeah I know."
"Okay." He kissed me on the cheek and left.
I knew it was gonna happen I just didn't think it would hurt this much. Once I heard the door shut I cried.
