Author's Notes:

This is my first Fan Fiction so please go Easy on me.

The last chapter was kinda cruel don't you think??

Will Bella Avoid Edward??

What will happen??

Read and Review!!! Please!!

I hope you enjoy this story…=D

In this chapter, I concentrated on Bella and Edward's POV only.

Disclaimer: I don't own anything TWILIGHT or it's characters. They belong to Stephenie Meyer.

Chapter8: I'm Here.

Bella POV

It was the rehearsal. We practiced with ballroom dancers and as clumsy as I was, I only stepped on his foot twice in one hour. The teachers wanted to make sure that we knew how to dance at least two ballroom dances: the waltz and the tango.

I did my best to concentrate on my partner but how can I really focus on anything?? Everything was a big blur. I wish it would just clear up so that I could see where I will be able to go. I am lost.

Jessica won't talk to me but she seemed to be in a better mood. Lauren is siding with Jessica. They both are always shooting glares at me. It bothered me more than ever to find that my best friends were thinking this way about me.

I don't know if I should still consider them as that. They were siding against me and they don't seem to trust me…

I got home and I just put lasagna in the microwave and I put a note on the counter telling Charlie how to use it. I swear he made the pizza toast for about 20 minutes. It was so burnt.

I didn't eat though. I went to the bathroom and I looked at myself from the mirror and I looked horrible. Luckily, Charlie isn't here to see this. A bruise was forming on my left cheek from where Jessica slapped me and I had tear marks on my face. My hair was a mess and I was sweating a little from the dance classes.

That night. I couldn't sleep. I still eat. Sure, I was starving but how can I think about my stomach when my heart is breaking. The pain won't go away. I am so desperate. I wish I could just disappear so that Jess could believe me that I am giving her Edward. I want her to be happy.

After all the things I did to her, from how she said them, I'm a horrible person. Now, I have to think of how to get Edward to not come tomorrow…

I'm not a good liar. How am I going to do this?? I dozed off.

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Ding-dong. Ding-dong. The doorbell rang. Oh shit. I sat down and fell back on the bed. My head was throbbing and I was hearing bells.

I am so dizzy. I don't know what's happening. I'm so lost. The doorbell. I sat down carefully and walked downstairs. Holding the rails for support. I couldn't see well and my stomach was churning.

I opened the door and heard someone gasped. "Oh my god Bella!! Are you alright??" a familiar velvet voice said, concerned.

I shook my head and I saw black and felt cold arms around me. "Bella?? Bella??"

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I woke up but I kept my eyes and I placed my hand on my forehead but there was a wet towel on my head. What happened??

I opened my eyes slowly and I saw an angel… I saw Edward. I gasped sitting down but my head had other plans. I fell back on the pillow… pillow??

"What happened??" I asked.

"You have a fever and a slight cold." Edward explained.

"How did you get in here??" I asked confused.

"You don't remember??" he asked and I shook my head.

"I came to pick you up but you fainted in front of me." He said. "Don't do that ever again."

"Huh??"

"Don't scare me like that ever again. I was so worried." He said. He was worried about me?? Why??

"We should do the Biology thing." I started sitting again but he put his hands on my shoulders and pushed me back on the bed slowly.

"We both now that you're in no condition to think about Biology now. I can do it." He reassured me.

"But it was a punishment for both of us." I said.

"It doesn't matter. I'll do it." He smiled.

"How long was I out??" I asked.

"Five minutes or so." He said. "Go back to sleep."

I shook my head. I turned to my side. I don't want to face him right now. I don't want to fall any deeper than I already am. If I fall any deeper, I don't know how I will be able to let him go.

He gasped and I looked back at him, shocked. "What happened to your face??" he asked.

Shit. "I fell." I lied, looking away.

"Liar." How did he see through me so easily??

"It's nothing." I said.

"It doesn't look like nothing to me." He pushed.

"It's nothing okay??" I said.

"Bella." He sighed. "You know you can tell me anything."

"You'll get mad at me." I said.

"Mad at you??" he raised his eyebrows. "Never."

"I'm not going to tell you." I said firmly.

"Fine." He said. "But I will only think of it worse than it already is."

"Id rather you think its worse than find out the truth." I said.

"That bad huh??"

I nodded. How can Jessica do that to me?? Now, even Edward is freaking about it. I don't want to include him in this but he is in the very middle…

"Why are you crying??" he asked. I didn't even notice that I was crying. I looked away from him.

He cared about me that I was sure of. Why would he be here if he didn't, even just a little. I cared about him too. A lot. I started sobbing. How was I ever going to live through this??

Edward lifted me up from my bed and sat me on his lap and placed my head on his shoulder. "Shh… It's going to be okay." He wiped my tears with his thumb.

"You have to see this." I said.

"I know."

I sobbed. "Don't go." I whispered, giving in to my emotions just for today. I will let the wall hiding myself in break down and tomorrow, I will bring it back up again.

"I'm here. Shh, I'm here. Bella, don't cry. I'm here." He chanted. He carried me to the rocking chair and rocked me gently. I continued to sob until I fell asleep in Edward's soothing arms.

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I woke and I was cuddled in his arms. It felt so good to be in his arms. It felt right. "What time is it??" I asked.

"About three in the afternoon." He said.

"What?!" I gasped. "You didn't eat anything. You must be starving!!"

He laughed. "No Bella. I'm alright. I… ate a heavy breakfast." He said. "Don't you think you should take care of yourself first??" I asked.

I blushed. "I don't know. I thought I was being rude." Bella, bring up your wall. NOW!!! I growled at myself.

"Edward…" I said as I stood up. "Um… I don't think we should be this close."

He looked hurt, sad and confused. "What??"

"I don't know if you understand but there are other girls for you out there and I don't think I should be one of them." How am I going to make this easier??

"Oh." He said and started walking to the door.

"Thanks." I whispered.

"You're welcome." He said and he got out of my room. I heard the front door open. And I said something I never thought I would say. "Love you." I whispered. The door kept open. Did he leave it open??

I walked out my room and saw him smiling holding the door open, looking at me. "Love you too." He mouthed and I gasped. How did he hear that?? Then he walked away, closing the door.

Edward POV

"Edward, um… I don't think we should be this close." Bella said with sad eyes.

"Huh??" I asked confused. Did she feel uncomfortable around me?? What did I do wrong?? Was I being too fast?? I didn't even think, I just pulled her on my lap and allowed her to cry on my shoulder a moment ago. Sure it felt heavenly for me, but for her was it… bad??

"I don't know if you understand but there are other girls for you out there and I don't think I should be one of them." She said weakly. She looked like she was about to cry again, her lower lip was quivering.

"Oh." I said. She didn't want to be with me. Edward, isn't this what you needed?? I scolded myself. Leave now. I stood up facing the door and started to walk out of the room.

"Thanks." She whispered. It was a request??

"You're welcome." I said. I felt like I was dying inside. I feel horrible for myself. Why did I have to force myself to think that there was a connection between us?? It was all in my imagination.

I reached the front door and was about to sob when I heard a faint but clear whisper. "Love you." For the millionth time, I was frozen in place but I was smiling a big smile. My heart was jumping. It never felt this alive in almost ninety years. I wanted to scream and run and just…I want to give Bella the biggest hug that she has ever felt. I just want to… kiss her but that won't do any good and for now, she doesn't want to be with me. I will make her realize that.

I looked back toward her and then she came out. I will make her realize that she doesn't need to avoid me.

"Love you too." I mouthed and then walked away. I ran in my car and then drove as fast as I could.

In a matter of milliseconds, I was driving in a hundred miles per hour. I still couldn't wipe the stupid grin off of my face. I was driving so fast but it was not near fast enough.

I reached my house and went in the house practically skipping. Alice was bouncing beside staring Jasper. Emmett was grinning an encouraging and proud smile beside Rosalie who was glaring at me while insulting me through her thoughts. But I wasn't going to let that ruin my mood. No way.

Alice ran to me and I picked her up into my arms and twirled her around and around. She giggled.

I put her down and laughed. "How are you??" I asked.

She laughed. "I know what happened!!"

"Do you think it was directed to me??" I asked worriedly. I am so stupid. If she said that for someone else, and I said that… that would definitely ruin everything and I would be so embarrassed.

"Hey!!" she playfully smacked me on the shoulder. "Don't frown. It was definitely for you." She said.

"Really??" I asked and she nodded.

"Okay. Bye-bye." I waved and ran off.

Edward has officially lost it. Emmett thought. But it is good that he has finally found someone that he actually considers being with.

I ran and ran and ran as fast as I could. Running straight was boring me so I started swerving. After a lot of corners, I could see the border of Seattle already. Was I really going that fast?? It wasn't even thirty minutes. Haha… Looks like all Emmett's plans of being faster that me will never happen.

Ring. Ring. Ring. I took my phone; it was an unknown number. "Heelllooo??" I answered. I almost laughed at myself.

"Umm… Edward??" I froze… again. How did she get my number?? "This is Bella." She said.

"H-hey." I stuttered. "'Sup??" That's the first time I said that.

"I hope you… didn't get… offended with… whit what I said to you." She was nervous.

"No." I almost scolded her. How could I get offended?? It's the best thing she has ever said to me. "I don't mind. It was actually… really good to know." I admitted. If I could, I would be blushing. "And I meant what I said."

"Which??" she asked innocently.

"That I'm here for you… always and that…" I stopped. I don't know how to say this.

"What??"

"That I… love you." I said. "Please don't get offended." I said after a few seconds of silence.

"I… I can't." She sobbed.

"Can't what??" I asked. Why is she crying?? She must be in pain.

"I can't… love you." She said and I felt horrible, angry and destructive. What could possibly make her think that??

…Did she know about me??

My throat constricted and I couldn't breathe. "Why??" I asked. "Please be honest."

"I'm not… the first one to… claim you." She sobbed. "I just cant okay??"

"But I want you." I admitted. "Doesn't that count?? Doesn't my opinion count??"

"Learn to love her not… me." she kept sobbing. That made me furious. Someone thinks that she put a claim on me?? I'll show her. She made Bella sob. I'll kill her.

"I'm sorry." She said then hung up the phone.

"Bella?? Bella!!" I shouted at the phone. "Damn!!"

I was breathing shallow breaths and then I screamed. I screamed and screamed. It did make me feel a little better but from what I'm feeling, it doesn't count. Whoever gave Bella this much pain will suffer.

I ran back to Forks and when I saw Bella's house, I heard loud sobbing. I ran in the house with out knocking but I made sure to lock the door. I walked to her room and knocked there. I didn't want to surprise her in this vulnerable state.

She sniffled then opened the door. Her eyes were red and puffy. It contained so much pain and then she started sobbing again. I slowly opened my arms to her. I didn't want to force her this time, it will completely be her choice. She didn't even think twice. She jumped into my arms and sobbed.

Instantly, all the destructiveness in me disappeared. I was not going to kill that little immature girl who gave Bella pain. If I am this sure of Bella, then she deserved better. I will not be a killer, not be a monster and I will do this to try to deserve Bella.

"Shh… I'm here. It's going to be okay." I chanted.

"No it's not." She sobbed. "I just told you that I shouldn't love you but… I want to be with you."

"Then be with me." I concluded. "Because I'll always be here for you… with you."

Author's Notes:

Here we go!!! Chapter8!!!

Thanks for all the reviews and suggestions!!!

I really appreciate you guys for trying to help me improve.

In case your wondering…

-Edward lets himself be with Bella because she is more important to him than his insecurities about being a vampire. (In my story)

-Edward hasn't thought about him being a vampire a lot. Wait for how he will take it when he thinks about it.

-Bella will reveal how she got his number in the next chapter.