Remorse

Bella P.O.V

As I stared into the cold frozen eyes, two waves of emotion hit me.

Emotion number 1: Relief

I suddenly realised that the body wasn't Jasper's. I looked around anxiously and saw his darkening golden eyes staring at me with a mixture of terror and lust.

Emotion number 2: Horror

I'd killed another innocent person. He was lying, bleeding on the ground.

Emotion number 3: Shock

Jasper ran, faster than I would have thought possible over to the corpse and started to drink the blood.

Emotion number 3 was the most important at that moment. I watched in horrified fascination as he frenziedly drank from the severed jugular, trying to pull himself away, but too far gone to remember how. I hung on to my humanity with my fingertips, fighting to control the unbearable bloodlust which was threatening to consume me. I didn't understand why Jasper was writhing in agony, until I tried to pull him away. Suddenly he turned on me, snarling, crimson eyes blazing, sporting a ripped shirt. He stopped and whimpered as I grabbed his wrist. I looked at his arm, which was sporting a horrific, red mark. The mark was like, no... I couldn't have…

The truth dawned on me… I'd bitten Jasper.

I let his wrist fall and stared into his wide, scared red eyes and whispered "Jasper…". I was going to say I was sorry, but words either couldn't describe it, or weren't there. I started shaking and ran off into the trees. From my shaking ears I heard him run after me, screaming "Bella!!". But it was too late now. I dropped to my knees and started convulsing violently, arms and legs flailing. I started retching and felt a sense of déjà vu. This was what had happened before I'd found Jasper. The realisation hit me. I had a power. I didn't know what it was yet but as I gave a violent heave, my eyes found two faces. Jasper's and… it though I knew it couldn't be…Edward's. I stood up too fast and the world spun. Their gorgeous faces whirled into one and I collapsed.

Jasper P.O.V

Bella had just bit me. I'd tried to stop her, but I'd forgotten about the whole newborn strength thing. How the hell was she feeling horrified and happy at the same time?!? Can you even get bi-polar vampires?!? Carlisle would know. Suddenly Bella ran off after a scent both I knew and resisted. I was suddenly following her, watching in horror as she snapped a guy's neck. I knew I had to do something. I grabbed her by the waist and threw her into the nearest cedar.

But not before she'd sunk her teeth into his broken neck

As I watched, horrified at the blood, trickling, crimson blood pouring from the dead body, my instincts took over. The guy wouldn't need all his blood where he was going. As I drank and the amazing taste hit my mouth my conscience started screaming at me. "Don't do it!!" it screamed.

"Why not??" I replied.

"It's destroying everything you've ever worked for. And Bella is disgusted at you." my conscience yelled.

I didn't have time to reply to that. Bella had grabbed my broken wrist. Her cool fingers brushed the venom further into my system and I snarled in agony. Then I looked at her terrified face and tried to apologise but it came out in a whine.

As she stared into my eyes, I heard her whisper my name, then she ran off again. I ran after her, yelling. When I found her, it looked like she was vomiting. I remember the one time Emmett had been sick. The venom had burned a hole in the carpet and he'd been banned from eating "Human Food" for life. My eyes widened as I saw a shimmering haze flow from her mouth. With every ragged breath, the haze solidified, until it formed a very distinctive figure. I realised with a jolt who it was. Edward.