a/n: Well now its rated M I guess.
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Beca sighed looking down at her hands, she didn't like talking about her mother much, it was still hard to admit the woman wouldn't randomly walk through the door one of these days. One day when she least expects it she still hopes the door will swing open and reveal her mother standing there with her warm smile and arms wide open for Beca to just fall into them like she did when she was a kid. She shook her head and looked back up at the redhead.
"When my mom was 14 she was diagnosed with Lupus, at first she refused to let it take over her life. She wouldn't stay on the treatments for more than a few months and just wanted to live her life as full as she could without fearing death. Then she found out about me and everything changed, she wanted to live and started hating herself for one not being more careful while sleeping with my dad, and two not taking better care of herself when she was younger. The doctors told her that she should just abort me cause having me could kill her. She was furious." Beca rubbed her temples with her palms, Chloe pulled the girl to her and laid them down facing one another. The redhead gave her a weak smile and wiped the tear away as it fell down the strong woman's face. "She had me and there wasn't any problems, Dad says she completely changed the day I was born, that I sparked a light in her that no one thought was there. My mom would take me down to town and show me off to all the people that she could. Slowly my mom started getting worse. She struggled with breathing, when I was ten I came home from school and I was mad because she had forgotten to pick me up from the bus stop, but I opened the door to find her blue on the floor." Now Beca was openly crying, Chloe collected her into her arms, holding her close, hushing her and kissing the top of her head.
"It's ok Beca." Chloe whispered and she felt Beca clench the shirt she wore in her fists.
"She ended up with phenomena and it killed her when I was twelve." Beca chuckled slightly. "Once when I was 6 she had just gotten out of the hospital and she picked me up from my grandma's who was watching me while my dad was working. She put me in the car and just started driving," Beca's breath caught as she tried to hold back another sob. "We drove all night and most the next day, till she pulled up at a beach in the Florida Keys. She bought a blanket from some vendor on the boardwalk and laid it out on the sand, we slept on that blanket for the rest the day, she just held me while we slept. I thought my dad was going to be so mad when we got back later that week but he just smiled and said welcome back, the house was clean and he had dinner ready, like he knew we would be back. I knew my mom hadn't called him I never did figure out how he learned we were on our way back."
"Sixth sense." Chloe claimed and Beca smiled for the first time in awhile and nodded.
"Another time when I was ten, right after the no breathing thing she woke me up in the middle of the night and wrapped me in a blanket, taking me outside to watch the stars. She told me about how her and my dad actually met, they had always told me it was in college. She told me I was never to let anyone stand in my way no matter what. That I would never be truly alone," Beca pulled a small chain that laid around her neck. "She gave me this to remind me of that. She said any time I felt alone or scared or anything, all I had to do was remember the chain around my neck saying I was loved. That it represents strength, love, commitment, power, loss, every emotion I ever felt about my mom. There are days I broke it from being angry at her for leaving me, I went to my dad the first time and he told me I broke it, I needed to learn to fix it. So I did and now, it's got about five different welded places where I had to put it back together. I never take it off, I thought about it a few times, thinking I didn't need it but, I do." Beca was playing with the chain and Chloe clasped her hand getting the burnet to look up at her.
"Beca, I love you." Chloe said and Beca smiled.
"I love you too Red." Beca said back kissing Chloe. The redhead pulled Beca till the smaller woman was straddling her hips, she twisted her fingers into the woman's hair on the back of her head and pulled her down into a searing kiss. Her other hand started tugging the bottom of the woman's shirt up, the kiss broke so they could remove their shirts only to reconnect with more passion behind it. Chloe knew it wasn't going to be long and slow love they would make tonight, it would still be full of love and other emotions but it was meant to be quick this time. She smiled flipping them over slamming Beca's back onto the mattress, she trailed hot opened mouth kisses down the woman's neck. She only stopped when she came across a breast, her hand started to play up Beca's leg and abdomen to the other breast as she nipped at the one right in front of her mouth. She bit down sharply just above Beca's nipple smirking when Beca groaned, arching off the bed her hands burying in the fire red hair.
"Fuck Chlo." Beca whined when Chloe pulled up a bit, Chloe was shocked when Beca wrapped a leg around Chloe's hips pulling their hips down to meet one another. "Don't tease me Red." Beca warned and Chloe smiled.
"Wouldn't think about it Becs." She whispered entering the woman under her with two fingers watching as Beca's eyes rolled back into her head a moan ripped from her. Chloe chuckled as she kissed Beca, slowly thrusting into the younger woman. "I love having you wrapped around my little finger Beca Mitchell, knowing that I am the only one that can make you scream my name the way you do when I do this." Chloe said her voice sounding dangerous, as she not so gently scissored her fingers within the woman under her, earning exactly what she said she would. She laughed and bit Beca's chin, thrusting harder against her. "I like fucking you Beca, you can't stand it when I get dirty, and just lose it." Chloe said as she pressed her thumb on Beca's clit and bit her nipple, cause Beca to come with a yelp. Chloe smirked as she pulled out of the woman, she licked her fingers clean before curling into Beca's side, arm thrown over the woman's stomach.
"Fuck Chloe…" Beca said after a few minutes, Chloe just smiled nodding, her face buried into Beca's neck. Beca rolled over so her back was to Chloe's front sighing contently as she closed her eyes drifting back off to sleep.
