Disclaimer: I do not own Degrassi

A/N: Alright everyone so just a little heads up this is not going to be a happy or steamy chapter. More like Sad, Angry and Emotional but it was time for one of these. I hope you guys enjoy it anyway.

So without further ado Chapter 8

"What is it?" Clare said leaning up and stroking his cheek.

He frowned and pushed her hand away "Don't Clare"

"What's going on Eli?"

He sighed and got of the bed turning his back on her. "I lied to you" he whispered

"About?" Clare said getting off her bed and grabbing his shoulder turning him so he faced her.

"Everything" He said gesturing between them.

Clare looked at him confused "Eli I don't understand"

He ran his hands through his hair and then spoke.

"When I first met you I had very different intentions than what you thought. You thought I was this sweet, nice, witty, sarcastic person but that's exactly what I wanted you to think."

"What were you real intentions then?" Clare questioned

He took a deep breath

"I wanted to break you, make you unpure and make you hurt because I thought you deserved it for being too innocent, too pure, too wholesome you were the perfect prey. People like you needed to be taught a lesson so that's what I sat out to do."

"I charmed my way in and then flirted with you did everything I was supposed to the first week. After that I thought I could step it up and so I got you to tell me some personal things like your parents. I lied and acted like I cared and said you could talk to me so you'd end up trusting me and you did"

"When I started messing with Fitz I noticed you were worried so I kept it up on purpose to make that worry eventually turn into feelings of some kind. Sure enough you started to feel something for me but then Fitz threatened to get in the way of my plan so I had to get rid of him which I did."

"After that your feelings for me were obvious so I purposely got Romeo and Juliet as our project so we could kiss and I could execute the next step. Then I played hot and cold with you just to confuse you and make you feel insecure which also worked so than I finally asked you out."

"Once we started dating I had to make sure that your friends wouldn't interrupt my progress or do anything to get in my way so I had to get rid of them."

"After I'd told you I loved you I was sure I would be able to succeed in a short amount of time. I had everything planned perfectly. But then somewhere along the way I started to feel things for you, things I didn't like at all."

"Every time I told you I loved you I started really meaning it, every time I kissed you or touched or held you it felt real. It freaked me out I knew I couldn't feel this way I had to stick to the plan so I tried being mean and hostile towards you but every time I did it only made me feel worse."

"The guilt consumed me and I found myself caring for you more and more. I tried to tell myself that you meant nothing to me that you were just another girl another conquest and tried to focus on what I was supposed to do."

"Then you told me about your parents divorce. My head screamed at me that it was the perfect opportunity that you would be an emotional wreck and that you'd wanna make a stupid mistake and you did when you invited me over here."

"So tonight I left my house with one intention but when you threw yourself at me and I looked into your eyes as you told me you loved me I realized I couldn't do it anymore. Because… I really do love you"

Clare looked at him speechless and shocked; she looked like she had just seen a ghost.

Than all of sudden Eli felt Clare's hand connect with his cheek hard.

He hissed in pain as his rubbed his cheek and looked back up locking eyes with Clare as the tears begun to come down her cheeks.

Theses weren't tears of sadness though; they were tears full of anger and rage.

"How could you! You sick bastered! You were just gonna play with my emotions and feelings until you got what you wanted weren't you! Clare screamed pushing him hard

"I was SO stupid too I fell right into your little trap and was gonna give you exactly what you wanted! The most precious thing I have left."

"I gave up everything for you! Lost all my friends betrayed Alli when I should believe her, lied to my parents went against everything that my head was telling me because you brainwashed and manipulated me you piece of shit!"

"It was ALL lies EVERYTHING and I fell for it when really all I was to you was a conquest another innocent virgin for you to use and hurt.

"Clare" Eli said finally speaking "It started out that way I'll admit it but it's not like that now if I could take it all back I would please I love you."

Eli tried reaching for her hand but she jerked it away fast like hot water had burned her.

"Don't touch me don't ever touch me again you sick asshole! You don't love me you never did it was all part of your little plan. Your responsible for putting Fitz in that coma and getting Alli sent away too aren't you?"

Eli looked down and nodded "Yeah"

Clare covered her mouth "Oh my god who are you!"

"Clare please listen-"

"No just get out I hate you!" Clare said wiping her eyes

"Clare I –"

"Just get out! I never wanna see you again!"

Eli walked up to her tears starting to form in his eyes.

"What are you doing?" Clare questioned as he tried to grab her waist.

"Stop!" Eli didn't listen though "Stop it! She said again as she started to struggle with him.

"She yelled one final time "Don't fucking touch me Eli NO!" and her hand connected with Eli face once more this time harder than the first time.

Eli froze and locked eyes with Clare as she breathed heavily.

"Just leave, Leave!"

Eli let her go hurt and sadness on his face as he opened her door and left her room.

Once she heard the front door close Clare broke down and fell on her knees as she sobbed and clutched her chest.

Once Eli he got home and made it into his room he exploded.

He ripped things off the walls, threw things of his shelves and dresser, broke a few lamps and finally punched his wall as hard as he could.

The end result being he knows had a newly formed hole in his wall and a broken hand.

He laid on his bed staring at the celling as the tears continued down his cheeks. His hand was throbbing but that was nothing compared to the excruciating ache he felt in his chest.

He'd heard people talk about this feeling before but the way he chose to live his life he never thought he would experience it.

He guessed there was a first time for everything huh and this was the first time that Elijah Goldsworthy had ever experienced the feeling of a broken heart.

A/N: So Clare now knows everything, Eli has a broken heart, what will happen next? =O Ok I have to say I've had a little writers block about the next chapter because I'm writing this story differently than I had it written down.

Last night though as I was typing this up I had a sudden burst of inspiration and I know what's gonna come next! Lol anyways next chapter should be up sometime this weekend.

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