I Am Not What You Choose To See

AU story that centers around suicide and healing. Hope you enjoy. Please review and let me know.

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Chapter Eight

It was late in the night when they caught up with Miyazaki and what looked like two missing nin from the Land of Mist. Genma's rapist was a bear of a man with shifty eyes. Hound sprang to engage one of the missing nin as Gai cursed and followed.

"Anko, the second nin is yours. This one is mine," Raidou hissed, drawing his katana while noticing Hound driving chidori through the first missing nin, "One down, two to go. Hello, Miyazaki."

"Do I know you?" Eito demanded as Raidou watched his hands shift to a pouch.

"You know my lover," Raidou calmly stated, "You put your filthy hands on him. You touched what is mine and hired others to help you."

"Ah," Miyazaki chuckled, "The delicious little thing that refused to make a sound as I nailed him against a tree while his blood smoothed my way. So that pretty ass gets around, huh? I thought so. I should visit Konoha more often if the shinobi are as beautiful as that one."

A calmness overtook Raidou. He heard the other battle, but his eyes were only for Miyazaki as he leapt. This man hurt his already tormented boyfriend. Anger wasn't needed. Just revenge.

"You are going to die in pieces," Raidou laughed as the other man stepped back at the mad light in the jonin's eyes, "You had no right to touch even one hair on Genma's head. I am going to make you bleed and squirm. I'm going to make you feel agony worse than what you did to my lover and then you will beg for death."

"Fuck you," Eito spat, throwing a smoke bomb, trying to get away, but Raidou teleported to cut him off, "Dammit! Masada, what the hell am I paying you for? Get over here!"

"Little busy," the missing nin growled, trying to fend off Hound as Anko leapt onto the man's back, "Get off me, Bitch!"

Raidou kept one eye on Miyazaki as he watched Anko get flung into Hound. Both went down hard as Gai leapt to defend his fallen teammates. Masada had his hands full trying to keep up with Gai's taijutsu.

"Should have hired better bodyguards," Raidou smirked as the man he hunted cursed.

Miyazaki may have been a criminal boss, but he was a coward and tried to run. Raidou realized then that the real muscle that took down Genma was the two missing nin that Eito had hired. The fucker had merely taken advantage of others' skills and brutalized Genma out of pure vileness.

"You asshole," Raidou hissed, slicing Miyazaki with a blade covered in a fast acting poison, "Do you feel that, Eito? Do you feel the paralysis beginning? You are going to slow down now and then you will stiffen so that you can be alive while I cut you into bits."

"Look, I'm sorry, Man," Miyazaki tried as he attempted to inch backwards with stiffening legs, "I'll pay anything. Just let me live."

"Pay?" Raidou scoffed, "You touched what is mine. You tore him up inside and out. Can you take back what you did to my Genma? Can you take back the pain you caused him?"

"N-no," Miyazaki stuttered as the scarred jonin tutted.

"Then no fucking deal."

Raidou was a trained shinobi. An assassin, but he wasn't a cold blooded killer who enjoyed spilling blood. Until now. Eito begged like a little child while the scarred jonin whittled at him until the man died drowning in his own blood.

"Filthy coward," Raidou commented, bagging up his kill and glancing to the rest of his team only to blink as Anko finished Masada off with Kakashi's pack helping while Gai walked over with the Copy-nin flung over one shoulder, "What the hell happened to Hound?"

"Anko's harder head came in contact with Hound's hard head when she was flung at him," Gai explained, "Hound didn't even see what hit him. Anko's got the Mist nin covered and I see the mark is properly packaged."

"Damn straight," Raidou agreed, "Lay him here and let me see the damage."

It was a happy Anko, driven Raidou, concerned Gai, and concussed Kakashi that stumbled back to the village two days later. The group headed straight to the hospital.

"Oh, my," Kotetsu murmured, glancing up from within the waiting room and thumped Izumo, Iruka, and Asuma on the back to point them out.

"What happened to Kakashi?" Tsunade demanded as she rounded a corner and hurried over.

"Anko knocked him out by accident," Raidou reported, "Mark is nullified and the only injuries to report is Kakashi's concussion which I think is mild, but he lost consciousness about six hours ago."

"Kakashi is awake and would like to know why the hell there is a green butt in my face?" Kakashi drawled as titters rang out, "Gai, put me down now."

"Good. You are you and not Hound, Rival," Gai said, looking relieved as he bent to place Kakashi back on his feet, "Dizzy?"

"A little," Kakashi snorted as Gai kept a firm grip on his arm to help steady the Copy-nin, "Probably from being hung upside down and going into shock when I opened my eye and had a rear in my face. Hokage-sama, I need brain bleach, stat."

"What you need, Brat, is an exam and a hospital bed," Tsunade decided, "Let's go. Raidou, I have a cot set up in Genma's room. He is still out, but his wounds are beginning to heal. You are to wash up and get some sleep. Ibiki."

"Hai, Hokage-sama?" Ibiki answered as Raidou turned to see the jonin walk over.

"Take the mark so that if there are any questions by anyone of why Konoha took down the filth, I can have DNA proof to prove the man's crimes," Tsunade continued as Ibiki took the body bag from Anko, "Raidou, the prisoner we had in I&T died yesterday. Painfully. Just thought you'd like to know. Asuma has a set of your clothes in Genma's room. Go get cleaned up and I'd better see you asleep when I come check on Genma in an hour, got it?"

"Hai, Hokage-sama," Raidou agreed and nodded his thanks at everyone before practically sprinting to see his boyfriend, "Hello, Baby. I'm back. I'm not injured, but every single one of your rapists has breathed their last breath. You are avenged, Gen. Those three will never hurt you or anyone else again. I'm filthy and tired, but it is so good to see your face again. I've missed you so much. Rest while I clean up, Love."

Raidou's energy waned as he showered and slipped into the fresh set of clothes Asuma had gotten for him. Damn man must have broken into his apartment. That was sweet of him.

"I love you, Gen," Raidou reminded as he reached and stroked his lover's face, "I'm going to get some rest now, but I'm here with you. I'm not leaving the village again unless you are well again. I'll do whatever you need of me, Baby, but I'll never give up on you so please…please don't give up for me."

Raidou knew his orders were to sleep, but he stepped from Genma's room to check on Kakashi first. It wasn't hard to locate Gai. His green outfit stuck out. A lot.

"Gai, is Kakashi okay?" Raidou asked as he approached the other nin.

"It's been proven, Rai, our ever youthful Anko's skull is made of stone," Gai snorted, gesturing to Kakashi sleeping in a hospital bed behind the window he was gazing through, "Our esteemed Hokage will never let my rival live it down that a shot to the head by a kunoichi brought him down."

"He is pretty wan, Gai," Raidou pointed out as Gai grimaced, "You still haven't answered my question. Did Lady Tsunade say he'd be okay?"

"Hai," Gai answered, "Your medical jutsu healed some of the damage, but we were lucky he didn't slip into a coma with the head injury he sustained. Shows his strength that he clawed forward and pushed Hound back. I have a most cool and hip rival."

Raidou snickered as Kakashi rolled over while his infamous, favorite book toppled to the floor.

"Most cool and hip," Raidou agreed as Gai beamed at him, "Go get some sleep, Gai. We've all been up for way too long. Your rival is going to be fine and…and hopefully so will my Gen."

Gai nodded as Raidou returned to his lover's side. The jonin kissed Genma on his forehead before slipping onto the cot to get some well-earned sleep.

T.T

Raidou sighed from his seat next to Genma. Two weeks had trickled by and the still shinobi hadn't woke. The Hokage was beside herself in worry. She'd forced the coma, but hadn't been able to call Genma back.

"His eyes are responding to light," Tsunade grumbled the day she had admitted the truth to the scarred jonin, flashing the penlight over the eye that she held open, "But his consciousness is practically nonexistent."

"What does that mean?" Raidou questioned.

"I think Genma's in a catatonic state," Tsunade sighed, shaking her head, "He relived the rapes and the pain of that memory has caused him to withdraw completely. Raidou, Genma is trying to die. He has been backed so far into a corner that he sees no way out. This one needs to be seen by a psych-nin as soon as possible so his mind is not permanently damaged beyond repair."

Raidou remembered that conversation as he fisted his hands in anger. Genma should have never been put into a situation like this. Genma was supposed to always be okay. At least in the perfect world that Raidou wished could have been, but reality is a real bitch.

"I wish you'd wake up," Raidou said as he reached to rub Genma's upper arm, "I miss you, Baby. I know that waking is going to be painful, Gen. I know that what happened to you still hurts. Lady Tsunade healed all the damage to your body, but your mind is in agony. Dying won't fix that. Waking up so you can get therapy that will help the pain, Gen."

The jonin tilted his head back in exhaustion. Gently, he rubbed a finger down one of Genma's bandaged hands.

"Baby, leaving isn't the answer," Raidou tried, "Your mother told you that life is hard for a shinobi. You've been through more than your share of pain, but the Genma I know never gives up. He never has and I know you never will, Gen."

Raidou rubbed a fist against one of his eyes before startling as a hand came down on his shoulder.

"Gah!"

"Sorry, sorry," Kotetsu apologized as Raidou withdrew the kunai from the chunin's throat, "I was getting my hand checked and thought I stop in to visit. Thought you heard me come in."

"Oh," Raidou sighed, "Sorry, Ko. My mind wasn't focused. How is your hand?"

"Healed," Kotetsu grinned out, showing his freed arm, "Good riddance to stupid slings. How is Gen?"

"The same," Raidou sighed.

Kotetsu frowned as he gazed to the still shinobi in the bed as he leaned against the railing of the bed.

"We miss you in the mission room, Gen," Kotetsu called as Raidou looked up in alarm, "Place is so boring without you. You know, you always kept people on their toes or knew what to say when someone was down. You've always just been there, you know. We depended on you to keep things light and was like…calming. Crappy to not realize what you had until the person isn't there anymore. Raidou looks like shit and we miss you, Man. Please wake up soon. We need you."

The scarred jonin relaxed. This was something Genma needed to hear. Something from someone other than Raidou.

"Don't seem right, Rai," Kotetsu remarked, keeping his eyes on Genma, "Never seen Gen so still. He's always been this bundle of cooling energy. Even still, he just seemed ready for action, you know?"

"I do know," Rai chuckled, gazing to his lover fondly, "Gen wasn't even still like this in sleep. He's a kicker. Do you know how many times he's kicked me right out of the bed? Talk about a rude awakening."

Kotetsu laughed as Raidou grinned at happier memories. The jonin wished he had known the suffering Genma was going through behind that mask he'd developed. The chunin stayed a little longer before having to leave. Raidou groaned softly as he lowered his head onto Genma's bed railings to watch him breathing.

"I want my Genma back," Raidou whispered as his heart broke and felt the tears starting as he buried his face in his hands, "Damn, Baby, I miss you so much."

To be continued…