"You'll Always Be My Angel'

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"Troy?" Gabriella asked, her voice was full of consern.

"Gabby, can you just give me a minute?" He asked, frustration taking over his voice.

"No." She said simply, and to his displeasure she sat down next to him. He sighed. Why couldn't they just leave him alone? "You know, you're not the only one hurting right now?"

Troy looked at her with unreadable expresion on his face. "Maybe, but I bet I'm hurting the most."

Gabriella put a comforting hand on his shoulder, but he only shrugged it off. Gabriella sighed. "You can't keep closing people off you know. We're all hurting here."

Troy inhaled deeply as he starred out into the water. "I know. I've heard it from you, from Ryan, from Chad, hell I've even heard it from my parents. You just don't understand Gabriella. Nobody does." Troy cried desperatly.

"You think you're the only one effected by this? Me and Taylor lost our best friend. Ryan lost his sister. Mr. and Mrs.Evan's lost their daughter. Chad lost the girl he considered a sister, and you may have lost the love of your life, but you're not the only one that has lost something important in this." Gabriella said with force.

Troy continued to stare out into the darkened waters. "She was the love of my life..." He said quietly, more to himself than to her.

Gabriella nodded. "I know."

Suddenly Troy's sadness turned into anger once again. That had been happening alot lately. "God, why does the world have to be so damn unfair. She never deserved this. She didn't deserve to die." Troy said, now on the verge of tears.

Gabriella too felt tears begin to sting her eyes. "I know she didn't Troy. But there's nothing we can do. She's gone, and as much as none of us want to admit it...she's not coming back."

Troy straightened up his back, but then slumped back over. "I just still can't belive it. One minute we were hanging out, joking with each other, laughing and having a great time, and the next she's gone. All because of some dumbass drunk driver." Troy spat as he threw a rock heavily into the water.

Gabriella wiped away a tear that had escaped her brown eyes. "Troy, I'm sure she would want you to be happy, and live your life. Not be stuck in the past." Gabriella once again put a comforting hand on his shoulder, hoping that he wouldn't shrug it off again. He didn't.

"Life sure isn't going to be the same without her."

Gabriella gave a weak smile as she remebered all the good times she had with her friend. "She sure was something."

Troy finally gave a slight smile as he looked at Gabriella. "You think we'll ever get back to normal?"

Gabriella thought about it a moment before replying with a simple "No."

Troy turned his head back to the flowing river before them. It seemed oddly calm at the moment. The water moved slowly through as Troy just starred out into it. "I think you're right." Troy sighed.

"Come on. It's cold out here." Gabriella said as she rubbed her arms.

Troy glanced at her quickly. "You go. I've got somewhere I need to go."

"Troy..."

"I need to go Gabriella." Troy said firmly, standing up along with Gabriella.

She looked at him. He looked so sad, so hurt, so lost. Hell, for the last two weeks everybody had been looking like that. It was just worse with Troy and Ryan. They had both lost the most important thing in their lives. They had both lost the only person they had loved with all their heart. She was Ryan's twin sister. His other half, and he just wasn't whole without her. Troy had lost the person he loved more than life itself. The person he told all his deepest secrets to. The one he had always turned to for support and a smile that would make his heart melt. She really had been the one for him, and it was easy to tell that Troy would never love someone as much as he had loved her. He would never stop loving her. Whether she was here or not, he'd never stop loving her.

Gabriella sighed, knowing that he would go anyway. He always did. "Okay, just don't be too long. All of us are meeting up at Chad's for a movie night. You know, to get our minds off things."

Troy just nodded in understanding before walking away. Gabriella looked after him. She couldn't believe how much life had changed in such a short time. She inhaled deeply as she stood in the evening breeze. It seemed dead outside. It seemed dead anywhere to her. She had lost her best friend only two weeks ago. She looked around the river bank that she was currently standing by. It was where she had always gone to think before she'd died. Now Troy spent most of his time there. Since her death he'd been there almost every day. Just to think, to remeber. Nobody was completely sure, but they knew that he needed to be there. It was where he had found peace since she had died. Ryan had found peace in her room. Chad and Taylor had found peace in the theatre at school. Gabriella found peace in the rain. She had loved the rain. She always said that it could wash away all of your problems and worries.

"You truly were amazing." Gabriella whispered softly as she walked to Chad's house for the movie. She knew that it wouldn't be the same without having her best friend there. She use to always be the lilfe of any party. She just had a way about her that made people happy and make them feel good. She was always so full of life and laughter. It was just hard to comprehend how she could be gone. It amazed her how someone like that could have gotten such a tragic end.

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Troy let the breeze hit his face. He didn't mind. He really didn't care. He didn't care about much now a days. Not since he had lost her. Not since the love of his life, his soul mate, had been taken from him. He knew he'd never be the same without her. Why did destiny have to be so cruel? Troy wondered as he stepped farther into the cementary. He had been here six times in the past two weeks. Ryan hadn't even been here that much. Everytime he did he just broke into tears as he remebered his incredible sister. How they had grown up inseprable, and always there for one another. Now he had no one to turn to when he needed help the most in his life.

Troy knelt before the tombstone as tears threatned to fall. "God...why did it have to be her?" He wondered out loud as he traces the lettering of the tombstone with his finger. He stared intently at the name. He'd seen it a million times before, but it had never been as real as it was now. It was so surreal how she could just leave all of a sudden. No warnings, no sign that she was never coming back. She was gone forever. It felt like a horrible dream that he wished he could awake from and hold her in his arms once more. He knew he'd never be able to kiss her, touch her, hold her, see her face light up when he told her he loved her. He'd never be able to whisper sweet things in her ear when she was afraid, give her encouraging smiles for support. She was forever gone. Now she only exsisted in pictures and memories of the past. She no longer had a future. And without her, Troy felt like he wouldn't either.

He let a few tears escape as the bitter summer night air blew through his hair. "I can't believe you're really gone. I know that I've said it before, but in the back of my mind I've been praying and wishing to just wake up and discover this was all some horrible dream. I even tried you theory of letting the rain wash away your problems...I guess this is just too deep to have washed away so easily. I truly believe that you are the most amazing person that I've ever laid eyes on. You will forever be in my heart, and I will never forget a thing about you. I'll always remeber our first kiss by the river, the first time I told you I loved you. The way you looked as you performed on stage. Your angelic voice or the way you sent a shiver down my spine every time you said my name. I won't forget how just the touch of your hand on mine would make me smile, even if I was in a horrible mood. Or how when you whispered you loved me in my ear how the entire world seemed to stop and all I could see was you. You were a miricle in my life, and I will always love you. You'll always be my angel Sharpay Evans."

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wow, I think this is the deepest thing I've ever written. I truely have no clue where it came from. I just started writing and this is what came of it. Usually I wrote kind of fluffy, lovey dovey kind of stuff, but this definitly isn't like that. I know that I just updated yesterday also, but I wrote this and I just wanted to publish it. Anyway, it would mean alot if you review.

-Peace!