Song 8: Simple Plan - Save you...

(This song was a request... I hope you like it.)

Written in Castiel's point of view. After listening to the song I though it sound fitting...

I remember when I frist meet Dean. The day I dragged him from hell just a little to late to stop Lilith's plan. He didn't belive he was worth saving, and it took a lot to convince he was important. I remember when I was going to warn him about Micheal and Lucifer and the end of all things and I remember how bad I made him feel when I let the other angels get the best of me and turn me into another one of them. I remember taking on an archangel so he could get to his brother. What are friends for if it's not to help you stop the apocalypse?

Now, as I look Dean, his back turned on me I can still hear his breath, his heart beat, the tears he is trying to hold back. Lucifer broke free and is after Sam, Micheal's after him, more people are dying everyday, people he can't save. I draw in a deep breath. I try to keep myself together, the amount of angels who have also been killed, my brothers and sisters.

"Are you alright?" I ask, I would take a step closer, but if there's anything Dean needs it's space.

"Yeah, I'm alright" Dean lied again and I knew it, but I didn't say anything. I don't even know how to describe how torn up inside I feel when I see Dean like this. Bloody, losing hope, ready to give up and yet still ready to keep on fighting.

"Are you hurt?" I ask again.

"Just a little. The cuts are nothing" Dean said, I knew the cuts were only small but the smallest ones always hurt the most.

"How about you Sam?" I turn to the youngest Winchester who lay on his bed.

"I'm fine, thanks, Cas" he also lies. But again I say nothing. Sam's cuts are only small too but like I've already said the smallest ones are the worst.

Neither of them wanted to be healed and even though I wanted them both to be okay, I wasn't going to heal them if they didn't want to be healed. I wish there was something I could say to make either of them feel better.

"I'll go get some bandages from the car" Sam said sliding of the bed walking slowly and steadily to the door.

"Is there anything I can do, to make you feel better?" I ask Dean who has been standing in the same spot for half an hour now.

"No. I'll be fine, Cas. Just concentrate on thinking of new way to ice the devil" Dean said finally turning to face me.

"Dean, it's okay to tell me if you are hurt" I reassure him, I know he sometimes forgets that it doesn't take any effort for me to heal him.

"I'll be alright" Dean sat on the edge of his bed, straddling the corner.

Sam came back in with the bandages, he must have felt some tension because the next thing he said was,

"sorry for ruining the moment."

I just started at Dean, I guess I was making him uncomfortable but he didn't say anything. The demons we fought today were nothing compared to how bad Lucifer really can do. I could see in Dean's face that he was ready to say yes.

"Dean, you know what will happen if you do that" I said, of corse I wasn't meant to say it out loud but I couldn't help it, it just slipped out.

"Are reading my mind?" he stood up clearly a little angry at me.

"Uh - sorry" I said,

"You were inside my head. The one place I have to myself and that gets taken away from me too" he started walking towards me and I backed away a little.

"I said sorry"

Sam just watched awkwardly.

"You know what I was thinking" Dean had raised voice slightly this time, "but all you say is that I know what will happen if I do that?"

"Uh - Don't do it" I said, rather unsure as to what he wanted me to say, "You fought for so long and so hard so you don't have to do it, one bad day and your ready to turn your self in?"

"Why do you care?" Dean shouted getting right up in my face.

I swolled and backed up again, "Even if it takes forever, I know we will do this. I wish I could save you but I can't do anymore than you can. I won't give up until it's over. Dean, remember when you said that paradise wasn't worth anymore than the amount of families on earth that are happy not being happy. Well you were right. A dangerous freedom is a hundard time better than a peaceful slavery, I see that now."

There was many things I wanted to tell him, such as the way I really felt. I am still knew to human emotions but I am sure that I am feeling something more than friendship and I need his help to figure it out but the last thing he needed right now was me asking for help too.

"I'm not gonna do it! I was just thinking about it. Theres nothing to worry about" Dean turned his back on me again,

"Do what?" Sam finally asked,

"Well tell him. You might as well. Can't keep my thoughts away from you, so why should I try to keep them from him?" Dean flopped onto the bed.

"He was thinking about saying yes" I finally said,

"Saying yes?" Sam started getting angry too.

"I won't do it. I was just thinking about it. I won't do it!" Dean said his face in the pillow.

I took a step towards him and gently touched his shoulder, healing his cuts. I couldn't look at his face like that any longer, after healing Dean I face Sam and heal him too.

"Thanks, Cas" Sam smiled weakly, "I think I'll go get some food. Pie, Dean?"

"Please" Dean lifted his head slightly.

"Dean, if you say yes, Lucifer, wether he's in Sam's body or not will fight you and Micheal will win, bringing paradise and changing the world we've come to love" I explained, "but your body will become mere compost. It will be unresponsive maybe even uninhabitable and I don't want to see that happen to you." I preached on the end of his bed. "Dean, I want to save you."

"I know, but theres nothing you can do. You can't do anymore than I can. I won't say yes if you hate the idea of it that much."

"Thank you" I smiled and watched as Dean layed on his back and faced me.

"Can I tell you something?" he asked.

"Of corse" I nodded,

"I think, my feelings for you are growing"

"You mean beyond friendship?"

"Yeah, exactly"

"I've been meaning to talk to you about this for a while, but I keep backing out. Dean, I think my feelings for you are beyond friendship and I don't understand wh-" I never got finish y sentence because Dean had kissed me before I got the chance. Thats when I finally understood what the feeling was. Love.

(This story was a huge challenge but I hope it came out alright. I did my best...)