Broken and Unloved

Chapter 8

Clare's POV:

Shortly after Eli left Adam got a text message from his mom telling him to get his butt home but not before he stopped by the Dot to get her some coffee. The things he does for that women lol. It has been around 3 hours since he left and I decided to text him.

~Text messages~

Hey Adam, what's up?

-Clare

He replied within minutes.

Oh, nothing much. Just obeying my slave master and cleaning the house.

-Adam

Ooooo sounds tough. Poor baby, it wouldn't hurt to clean your room. It's a mess.

-Clare

I know, but I also have to help Drew clean his, force him to stop talking to Ali, and help me with the rest of the house.

-Adam

LOL Crack a whip on him. :3

-Clare

Oooooo Good idea. I would but I'm not freaking Indiana Jones.

-Adam

Boo Hoo! That's not fair! Just because I'm a big fan of him doesn't mean I'm always referencing to him. .

-Clare

Pssst. You know you were. And sorry gtg mom just walked through the door. Later. :p

-Adam

I decided not to reply and just leave him alone. I decided to try calling Eli since he didn't answer my text earlier. He answered on my second ring.

Eli-"Hello?"

Me-"Hey, what's up?"

Eli-"Oh….um nothing much just finished helping my mom."

Me-"Oh cool. So have you thought about what you're going to be for the dance?"

Eli-"Yeah I'm going as Romeo so I can make my Juliet happy."

My heart fluttered at that. I just knew he liked me back considering that he knows Romeo and Juliet is my favorite book.

Me-"That sounds cool. I hope you make her happy."

I was trying so hard to contain my joy but it was useless.

Eli-"Yeah."

Me-"Hey I got to go my mom wants to talk to me. Bye!"

And with that I hung up the phone. But I didn't lay it down because I called Adam right after.

As soon as Adam answered the phone I screamed.

Adam-"HOLY SHIT CLARE! WHAT'S WRONG?"

Me-"NOTHING, EVERYTHING IS PERFECT."

Adam-"Okay? Then do you care to explain why you almost caused me to go death?"

Me-"Ok, well I was just talking to Eli on the phone and at first it was kind of awkward so I was trying to make some small talk, so I asked him what he was going to be for the dance and guess what he said?"

Adam-"What?"

Me-"He said that he was going as Romeo so he could make his Juliet happy."

Adam-"Really?"

Me-"Yeah and I mean he has to be talking about me, because he knows that's my favorite book."

Adam-"Of course he's talking about you. That boy worships the ground you walk on."

Me-"You really think so?"

Adam-"Ah duh. He loves you, I can tell."

Me-"I really hope you're right."

Adam-"I am. Now I don't mean to cut this short but mom is ready to kill me."

Me-"It's no problem. I was about to take a shower and get ready for bed anyways."

Adam-"Okay, well just chill and try to relax. Everything will work out I promise."

Me-"Okay, night love ya!"

Adam-"Dido."

After I hung up with Adam I decided to take a nice long hot shower. I needed to relax. I was excited and scared and it was causing my muscles to tense up. But I can't help it. Once I got in the shower my muscles immediately began to relax. The shower, like so many of my others couldn't be rushed.

By the time I got out I was super relaxed. I put on my Pj's and climbed into my warm comfy bed. I wanted to lay there and think about how I was going to ask Eli out, but before I could I was out.

Sunday, October 22, 2011

Dear diary,

"Here I sit waiting for Eli and Adam to pick me up at my house. Today is finally Saturday and we are going costume shopping for the Halloween dance next weekend. This week was so long and such a torture. Well anyways I have decided that I'm going to tell Eli I love him at the dance. I will be dressed as Juliet, he will be dressed as Romeo and everything will be perfect. I'm excited but really scared. I can't wait and I can't really believe that I fell in love with him. I mean it's not because he isn't my type or anything like that. But I kept myself so hidden from everyone and he broke through my barrier and made me fall even when I didn't want to. I have never been in love with anyone as much as I love him. He is my one and only. When I was little I used to wonder when I was going to find my prince and fall in love. And for the first time to have a man love me and not hit me is something I thought would never happen. Then as a teenager I just accepted the fact that no man could ever love me. I mean a father is supposed to love his daughter. And when your father doesn't love you, you can't help but think that if your own father doesn't love you what man will. I thought it was me. But becoming friends with Eli and falling in love with him has taught me that I can love and be loved. I'm so happy to have Eli. I don't know what I would do without him. If I don't have him I wouldn't have a reason to stop my wrists from bleeding when I cut them. He's everything I could ever want or need. And I know tha-"

I was interrupted by Morty's horn honking. That car is so old its horn is ancient and could be recognized anywhere. I put my diary away and walked downstairs to the door. I was wearing black cut off short shorts with black fishnets under them, a black loose Dead Hand tee-shirt that fell over my shoulder, a red tank top, and black combat boots. When I opened the door I was so ready to see the emerald eyes I was in love with but instead I found myself connected with Adam's. Eli was still sitting in Morty with the music blaring, drowning out the world, which is totally not like him. Oh and did I mention that he hasn't been acting like himself lately. I don't know what's wrong but ever since Tuesday night he hasn't been himself at all. I don't get it. He was flirting with me and everything. Hell he even made the comment about going to the dance as Romeo to make his Juliet happy. And now he's ignoring my existence. I understand that I was ignoring him on Tuesday but that's just because I was trying to figure out how to ask him out, and I understand if he wants to get even, but it's been 4 days already. I know him very well and I know that he wouldn't be doing something was really wrong. I wish he would talk to me. Trust me I've tried, and he would just ignore that I asked him something or answer with as few words as possible. This was starting to get out of hand. I missed talking to him, I just plain missed him.

He wasn't being fair to me. And the worst part was that if I did do something to make him mad I had no idea what it was.

Adam-"Hey, you ready to go?"

He was standing there munching on a bag of Doritos, and I couldn't help but laugh.

Me-"Yeah, I'm ready just let me lock the door."

I locked it and stepped on to the porch. Adam gave me a nerve-wrecking look.

Me-"What?"

Adam-"You better bring some armor to protect your feelings; Dr. Doom in there is being a total dick."

He said it motioning to Morty.

Me-"Oh come one Adam it can't be that bad."

Adam-"Fine, wait and see for yourself."

Me-"Fine I will. And who knows maybe I can cheer him up."

Adam-"Yeah, I highly doubt it."

I just shrugged it off. And we walked to Morty. When we opened the door to get in I swear I went death. Eli was bobbing his head back and forth and texting someone. He never even noticed that we were standing there and trying to get in the car.

Me-"Hey Eli!"

He didn't hear me so I tried again.

Me-"HEYELI!"

Apparently he heard me because he turned the volume down. He slammed his phone down and turned to me with a harsh look on his face.

Eli-"What do ya'll want?"

I was so taken back that I couldn't even respond. I had never seen him like that and I hate to say it but when he snapped at me it reminded me so much of my father. I didn't say anything I just looked down. I was about to burst into tears and made up and excuse to run back in the house to steady myself.

Me-"I um I forgot my money I'll be right back." It was very hard to talk and sound like I was okay because of the big lump forming in my throat. I didn't dare wait for him to reply so I just turned around and walked all the way to the door with my head down. After I unlocked the door I walked up to my bathroom and stood in front of the mirror catching the tears with my hands. It couldn't believe how harsh and mean he was being. I understand if he was upset about something and that everyone gets angry. What hurt and scared me the most was how much it reminded me of my father. I never thought Eli could be that hostile and mean like my dad, but he could be. I realized then and there that I never wanted to see that side of Eli again. And if he didn't change back to the Eli I knew I would have to put him out of my life just like I did with my dad.