Chapter 8: Forgiveness
A/N: Thanks for the review PeaceSignFreak. I decided to just re-write chapter 8. And I love the constructive criticism! :)
Elsa's POV
It's been about a week since the incident in the halls. I refuse to make any contact with Anna. How could she do that to me? To us? Almost every day in math class I can see Anna staring at me. I can see her pleading for a chance to talk to me, but I tune her out. I don't need her.
I went to the cheapest motel I could find in the area. It was all I could afford. I'm barely scraping by with the savings I have. I start my new job tomorrow so hopefully I can live more comfortably. I also found out my father died in the hospital by overdosing on painkillers while being intoxicated. I didn't really care. If he wasn't here to hurt me anymore, I don't care. I'm more relieved than anything.
The bell rings and I get up and I'm the first one out the door. I head towards the main doors so I can start walking back to the motel, but slender fingers grab my shoulder.
"E-E-Elsa I need to talk to you," pleaded Anna. "I need for you to listen to me." I look at her without saying anything. Does she even deserve my attention? I think and stare right into her eyes. I slowly nod as she leads me to her car. She even opens the passenger door for me. I get in without saying a word and shut the door. She starts driving in complete silence.
When we hit the first red light, she shifted in her seat so she could look at me. I refused to look at her in that moment so I just stared outside my window. The whole car ride was like that. Just an awkward mess. Once we reached her house we enter her room without saying a word. She plops down on her bed while I stand in front of her drawer, staring at the girl who crushed my heart.
"Elsa I'm really sorry. I know that hurt you a lot, it hurt me a lot to do that. I just can't let people know that... That I like you. They would tear me apart if they found out I was even hanging out with you-"
"Okay thanks for telling me that you can't hang out with me because I'm a fuckin nobody," I spat out. "Can I go now?"
"N-no. That came out wrong. Look Elsa I'm not really good at these things, but I want you, trust me. I look forward to last period just because I get to see you. I basically cringe whenever my friends make fun of you. I can't even focus on math because it reminds me of you. It's just that, in this school I have to be somebody. A cheerleader. A straight cheerleader who dates a football player. Not a gay cheerleader who chases after another girl. But I am. But no one can know that. It's because I'm a coward and can't come out to my so call friends. I'm the reason I can't be with you and I'm sorry, but I would like to try to be your friend Elsa. Just give me a chance," Anna breathed out. I took it all in not letting any emotion show. Slowly I let my face soften and reached for Anna's hand. She grabbed mine and squeezed it.
"I take that as a yes," Anna said almost on the verge of tears. I slowly nodded and sat down next to her on the bed. I turned so I was facing her body and wrapped her in a hug.
"I would like for us to try that," I whisper against her ear. She only held onto me tighter after I said that. She was so fragile and broken but her act just covers it. She starts sobbing against my clothed chest and I soothe her by whispering, "It's okay" in her ear. Soon enough she's asleep in my arms. She looks so innocent as I tuck her into her bed. I feel like I should stay but I have priorities to finish. I kiss her forehead and make my way downstairs. Just as I was reaching for the handle of the front door a warm voice stopped me.
"Honey, why are you leaving already?," Megan asked.
"O-Oh. Hello Mrs. Thompson I just said bye to Anna. I have to go somewhere," I quickly replied.
"Hmmm. Okay. But know you're welcome here anytime. And if you wanna talk to me about Anna just come on by," Mrs. Thompson replied with a smirk.
"O-o-okay. Thanks," I said while I felt a blush coming up my cheeks. I quickly unlocked the door and started to make my way towards the motel. This weekend was going to be a hard one.
Anna POV
I rub my eyes as I start to feel more awake. I slowly sit up and realize that Elsa is gone. Shit! I fell asleep on Elsa? I looked around my room to see if Elsa was still here, I couldn't find her anywhere. Disappointment filled me until I saw the little note beside my table.
Hey Anna hope you see this when you wake up. I just want to give you my number so we can hang out sometime soon like you said. Feel free to call me anytime. 294-283-5730 -Elsa
I could feel the grin growing on my face. Even her penmanship was perfect. I started thinking about the various places we could visit but that would be like a date... I just wish it wasn't like this. I wish that I could hold her hand and kiss her whenever I felt like it. The feelings were there but the courage wasn't.
