A/N:- SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG GUYS, LOTS OF BUMPS AND PROBLEMS. I AM GOING TO GIVE A BIG THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO HAS REVIEWED AND READ THIS STORY
IT MEANS A LOT TO ME. i AM HOWEVER GOING TO DEDICATE THIS SOTRY TO MY VERY GOOD FRIEND AND BETA TEAM TWILIGHT 26, WITHOUT YOU I WOULDN'T
HAVE HAD THE CONFIDENCE TO WRITE THIS DOWN.
WELL HERE IT IS...
Chapter Eight: A fine line between nightmares and Pleasure
I had a very restless night that night.
I was in the meadow with Edward, it was sunny and warm. I was in his arms and felt totally safe and complete, when all of a sudden it went dark. Edward stiffened and pulled me off the ground making me stand behind him. He growled and I looked in the direction of his gaze and I saw Jacob appear out of nowhere. He didn't look quite the same; he had this darker look to about him. He shouted at Edward.
"Get away from what's mine bloodsucker!" He growled at Edward and Edward's answering snarl scared me even more. When Edward spoke his voice was menacing and dark.
"She is not yours but mine dog, so you better run if you know what's good for you!" Jacob leapt the short distance between that separated us and dodged at the last second managing to get around Edward. He grabbed me by the waist and yanked me out of Edward's grasp.
"Guess you're not as strong as you thought leech. You can't even keep a hold of the things you love, but don't you worry I will make sure she will forget you soon enough and when she does I'll come back to finish you off." Jacob laughed and took me away from him.
He ran off into the night, dragging me with him. He stopped to rape and beat me when I tried to struggle and fight back. I screamed and screamed but to not avail. When he was done, I couldn't move. I was bleeding from everywhere, and I mean everywhere even down there. My back was hurting so bad the ribs on my right hand side were hurting also and everywhere else was just as bad.
He stood over me and then turned and ran, leaving me there to bleed to death. It was cold and it was at night time, gasping for air I tried to call out to Edward again and again but no one was coming. I started crying then when I realised no one was coming and this was how I was to die so I started to think about all my happy memories. Just as I was blacking out I saw this figure walk over to me, she had the same complexion as Edward and his family but her eyes were blood red.
She leant down over me, and tilted my head to the side exposing my neck. I was so terrified at that moment, I only hope that somehow I would be able to survive and get back to Edward. I closed my eyes and shook with the fear that cursed once more through my body and knew that this was the end but just as her lips were about to touch my throat, I heard someone call my name.
And I woke, confused and disoriented. I looked around wildly at my surroundings. I was in my room and I was covered in sweat and gasping out loud. I heard someone call my name again and this time I recognised it as Jasper. I turned to look at him and he was sitting in a chair by the door in my room.
He let out a shaky breath, and came over so he was closer to me, all the while sending me a wave of calm my way. "Are you ok Bella? I heard you screaming and rushed up here only to see you still asleep, but thrashing about like you were fighting something in your sleep. I felt your emotions and they had me floored with the amount of pain and fear you were feeling. I didn't know if I should wake you or not and I was about to but then I had to sit down when you felt a sudden and sharp jolt of blinding loss, Fear and defeat that was stronger than I was prepared for and thought impossible for a human to experience."
"Yeah I am ok Jasper. I have always had very vivid nightmares. And I am sorry for worrying you. Oh man what a dream!" I replied and smiled at him.
He nodded and asked "Do you wish to talk about it?"
"Well it was really weird. I was with Edward in our meadow when out of nowhere Jacob, that's the guy that...um...r-raped me, was there. They growled and snarled at each other and Jacob told Edward to hand me over and Edward said no, next thing I know I was being ripped from Edward and taken away further into the woods and he r-r-raped me over and over and over again and beat me when I tried to fight back. He left me then when he was done and there was blood everywhere and oozing out from every part of me, and even the tears that I was crying were made of blood. Then I saw someone approach me, she was pale like you guys but her eyes were red and she leant down while turning my head to the side, I was too scared and in too much pain to struggle anymore so I gave myself up to my fate and then I woke up." I answered. He simply nodded again, wished me a good day while smiling and told me that Edward would be back in an hour or so and that he must go and hunt.
I got up and had a shower, even though it was still kind of dark outside. I got dressed in a red three quarter long sleeved top that hugged my figure but wasn't tight and black skinny jeans with ballet flats. I walked over to the glass doors and walked out onto the balcony, I went over to the rail and lent on it looking at the sky. I breathed in and as I did so my still sore ribs protested just a little bit. By now my ribs were still tender but nothing more serious than a bruise and with not having to do much anymore my back is feeling better but still hurts to move in certain ways. Carlisle was helping to relieve that pain though, using older methods of medicine and therapy.
(A/N:- WARNING THE NEXT BIT IS A BIT SEXUAL IN NATURE, BUT IS VERY CLEAN AND IS IMPORTANT)
I was thinking about Edward when I looked to the sky and saw that the sun was just starting to rise and said out loud. "Simply beautiful."
"Not compared to you my sweet." I turned to see Edward leaning against the door frame. I walked over and stood next to him, he placed his hand on my waist and we walked back into the room when he stopped suddenly and let me walk a few steps in before I noticed he had stopped. "What's wrong? What happened Edward?" I said to him. When I stepped closer to him and I looked up at him, I saw that his eyes were filled with an animalistic hunger that I hadn't seen before.
He started to advance on me and I backed up from his advance until I was up against the wall. Our bodies were so close that you couldn't have held a thin sheet of paper between us. And again he moved closer.
"Bella, you will always be the one I love and want more than anything and anyone in the world. You are mine and you will forever be mine." He said in a voice that was rough, but still very sensual. I only just managed to swallow down a moan that snaked its way up. I had never felt like this before. His tone of voice and our closeness made me feel things that were completely foreign to me, but I liked it.
He moved in again, we were impossibly close, like we were stuck together by glue. My breathing caught in my throat with every breath I took, he placed one arm on either side of me so I couldn't escape.
Then he pressed himself against me very gently, but I get a jolt of pain in my right side. Oh no! My bruised ribs, I hope they don't ruin whatever is going to happen.
Edward didn't react to my gasp of pain. Instead one of his hands moves from the wall and under my shirt. I feel his cool hand move in a circular motion over my bruised ribs and I felt the pain fade away. It was replaced by a wonderfully numb feeling there that sent tingles throughout my whole body.
His cool hand then inched a little higher, towards my chest. I started to hyperventilate and my heart rate went up. Edward's eyes, which had been focused on his hand on my skin, snapped up to meet mine. The fire in his liquid gold eyes smouldered and burned into mine.
"May I Bella?" He asked his voice still rough and sensual, his eyes going from their normal golden colour to a darker shade with lust and I couldn't look away from his eyes even if I wanted to.
"Yes…" I breathed.
Then I felt his hand over my bra, it just stayed stationary there, his eyes filled with wonder and yearning. What was he doing? Surely this was way past his boundaries, let alone mine. Even though I would let him touch me anywhere, I just didn't know right now if I was able to be this close to a man ever again with what Jacob did to me. He had made it clear that the intimate relationship we share had to be done so very cautiously because he could hurt me so easily. But who was I to complain.
"Bella…my angel, my sweetheart, you're so perfect. You're so glorious and so exquisite. What have I done to deserve you? Surely it would be blasphemy if I thought that I even justified you to the tiniest amount.
"Everything about you Bella is so heavenly. Your perfect body, your magical voice and your very presence. It's all so intoxicating. No matter what you have gone through, you're still a very sweet person that deserves to be protected, loved and cherished." He said in my ear. His hand moved to the place where my heart was beating so hard and loud that both of us could hear it loud and clear.
"I would do anything to keep that heart beating Bella. There's not a place I wouldn't go for you. I love you Bella Swan. With everything I have." Edward said and before I had a chance to reply, his hand had moved to cup my face. He began to kiss my nose, my eyes that were now closed, my cheeks that were flushed, my forehead, my hair and finally; my lips.
He crushed his lips down on mine with so much passion and lust yet still being gentle. Then, one thing he had never done before. He opened his mouth, letting his cool amazing breath to flow into mine. I opened mine with his and I felt him tense as my breath whooshed into his mouth. We remained still for about thirty seconds; his mouth was still pressed firmly against mine. Then he began to trace the outside of my mouth with his tongue before he slipped it into my mouth. Before I knew what was happening, our tongues were battling for dominance.
Suddenly, Edward's lips became gentle and soft and he pulled away, leaving me struggling to breath and against the wall. He smiled my favourite grin and I felt my heart miss a beat.
"Bella, can you do me a favour, love. Next time we kiss like that, keep your tongue away from my teeth." He said. I blushed but then his words sunk in.
"Why?" I asked. He drew in a long breath.
"Because if you consume the venom that is produced from my teeth, it could hurt you and also they are sharp and I wouldn't want you to get cut and bleed." He said. I nodded, still not fully understanding.
"You don't fully understand do you? Well we are venomous; it's the stuff that helps us kill our prey. It also can change a person into what we are, but only if the vampire that does the biting has the restraint to stop......" He said and then he looked away with what looked like a sad expression on his face.
"I'm so sorry Bella. I shouldn't have done that to you. I was so rough, and I over stepped our boundaries. I just missed you so much and I love you even more. In the outfit you're in with the lights of sunrise hitting you, you looked so tempting and much more than beautiful words can't even describe. I just couldn't control myself, I'm sorry I hope you can forgive me." He said with his head still away from me.
I put my hand on the side of his face and pulled it to face mine. "You have nothing to be forgiven for. I liked that very much and you were still very gentle with me. If I had it my way, and this is very embarrassing to admit, I would spend all my time kissing you and I want nothing more than to feel every part of you with my own hands as well as wanting to feel you touch every part of me. I trust and love you that much." I blushed.
He then looked at me in the eyes finally and his eyes still held that same sadness from before but the lust was still there. He placed his hands on either side of my face and pulled it closer to his, we were mere inches away from each other again.
"You have no idea how much I want the same as you, your warmth feels unbelievable against my body. But I don't know if I could have the restraint to not hurt you, and I will do anything I can to not hurt you in anyway. I love you so much." He said and then he kissed me with a kiss that had more passion, love and desire in it than any other kiss we have shared yet it was still very, very gentle.
When I needed to pull away to take a breath he surprised me by saying into my ear, his cool breath tickling me. "We can try and take the next step just not all the way, if, and only if you want to?" I blushed and my heart started to pound even harder than before, I nodded and replied.
"Yes I want to; I trust you and I love you." With that he lifted me up and took me over to the bed where we lay down. He lifted off my top and dropped it to the floor his eyes full of lust as they stared into mine. I slowly unbutton his shirt and rub my hands over his shoulders pushing his shirt as it falls from his body to the floor adding to the rumpled mess. I run my hand over his perfectly sculpted chest and marvel at the smooth perfection of it while he gently traces my curves but lingers on my chest over my heart.
Then he started to kiss me again but this kiss was different. Not as urgent or rushed. It was slow and soft and made me feel like I was floating on air; it also gave me this tingly feeling that was different than anything I have felt in his presence before.
His hand moved further down but pauses just above my jeans where he stops and pulls back from kissing me, I take advantage of this so I take a breath. His eye met mine once more, still mouldering with lust, and he asks. "May I go further Bella? Please feel free to tell me to stop whenever you what to, I want this to be special and don't want to push things too far."
"It's ok Edward, I completely trust you. By you being a gentleman and asking just reinforces that my trust is not miss given. I am completely yours." I said breathlessly while blushing, the lust clear as I spoke. I couldn't believe that I could trust again but I do trust him, he saved me from living in hell to living in heaven and he makes me feel things that I never thought I could.
He unbuttoned my jeans and moved his hand gently down my pants; he gently and expertly rubbed up and down with his cool hands. I gasp in utter pleasure whether it was from what he was doing or the coolness of his hands reacting to my warmer temperature or even a combination of both but WOW! My thoughts were jumbled and all over the place.
I didn't know what to do so I just placed my hands beside me and I grasped the sheets every time I moaned in pleasure. Edward smiled at my reactions, while looking down at me and continued this motion but he started to kiss me again til I needed air. I could feel something building up within me and just as I reached the point of no return I grasp the sheets again, but tighter than before, and I arch my back. I feel no pain in doing this due to the immense pleasure Edward was causing. I cried out in pure ecstasy with the release of what was building up while it floods throughout my body. Edward looked down at me with that infamous crooked grin I love when I did this and I wanted more of him. I wanted to give something back so I tried to turn around to explore him, but he grabbed my hand gently and said.
"I'm sorry, Love. I wish I could let you continue, but I think we better stop here. If I let your hand go any further, like I want you to, I wouldn't be able to stop myself from going all the way. I want nothing more than to do just that though, so please don't take any offence in me stopping ok. But maybe next time I'll let you explore me only. I love you and I have enjoyed this, I only hope that you have to."
I sat up and rested on my elbow facing him, and looked at his whole face leaving his eyes til last. Then I blushed and replied. "It's ok Edward; we did say that we would try to go a little further and we have. I have loved and enjoyed every second of this, and w.o.w where did you learn how to do that? I can't even describe what happened let alone what I felt. And I wish we could go all day long. I love you to and I would like that chance if you wish to give it to me."
"Well Bella, I have done some medical studies with Carlisle, just not to the same extent as Carlisle has because I never had the same restraint with human blood like he does til I met you. So I know my way around the human body and where to touch a female's body to give them the most pleasure without actually having to go all the way with them.
"And I think what you felt was what is known as an orgasm, but I don't have Jasper's gift so I am not 100% sure, I am thrilled that you enjoyed it thought. It was the first time I have ever used my knowledge to do that and I was a little nervous that you wouldn't like it or I would be too rough on you and it would hurt."
He smiled again and he chuckled when my stomach decided right then to make itself known. We both openly laughed and he asked. "Do you wish to have some breakfast?"
"Yes I do, what's on the menu?" I answered and asked in return. He looks at me in confusion for a second but then smiles and chuckles slightly.
"Well why don't we go down and have a look, but you are not going to lift a finger to make any part of breakfast. Do you understand?" He was serious for a moment but then looked at me and put one of his cool slender fingers over my lips to stop my disagreement.
"Well we better put our clothes on then." I laughed and we hoped off the bed and put our shirts on and I did my pants back up. He took my hand then and we went down to the kitchen and I saw that Emmett, Rosalie and Esme were down there. Emmett looked amused about something and Edward stiffened a little bit at my side. I wonder what he was hearing in his thoughts.
Rosalie had a strange look on her face and I couldn't tell what it was. Esme was cooking my breakfast for me again, and when we walked into the kitchen she placed my plate on the table. I smiled and thanked her. She returned my smile and left the room.
Then Emmett broke the silence.
"I thought you would take longer to get down here, man I so thought you would last longer Edward. But I guess not having any action for around 100 years does that to you!" He laughed but his joyousness was cut off by Rosalie's smack to the back of the head and Edward's growl.
"What was that for, Rosie?" Emmett wined while rubbing the back of his head. I giggled at his whining. How old was Emmett? Because it certainly seemed to me like he was only about 5 when he was doing that!
"Don't stick your nose in their business, plus I don't think they went that far." Rosalie said. I blushed; I didn't think I was that loud. Oh curse vampire hearing. Edward looked like he could kill Emmett and I could tell that Edward was just as embarrassed as I underneath that deathly look.
"Emmett, please leave Edward alone. And don't say anything about our relationship when you don't know anything about it. Well that I know of any way, it's not nice! How would you like me talking and teasing you about something you want to be private?" I said and asked him.
He looked at me with a surprised but sheepish grin and replied "Hey sorry but I couldn't help myself."
I just rolled my eyes at that and I said "Well then I guess you're just going to have to try to help yourself if you're within hearing distance next time ok?" and with that I poked my tongue out at him and turned to my food to eat silently.
A/N:- HA SUCK EGGS EMMETT!!!! ;P. WELL THAT IS THIS CHAPTER, I HOPE YOU GUYS LIKE IT. I AM SORRY TO ALL THOUGHS WHO DON'T LIKE 'LEMONS' SO I TIRED TO KEEP IT AS CLEAN AS I COULD, BUT I FELT THAT THIS WAS SOMETHING THAT NEEDED TO HAPPEN. PLUS IT WILL HELP WITH EDWARD'S SELF CONTROL LATER. WELL PLEASE REVIEW AND TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK.
THERE IS GOING TO BE A BIT OF A TWIST IN THE NEXT CHAPTER, SO PLEASE STAY TUNED...
