A/N: Here is the next chapter. Enjoy. its called: Apologies Endless (its actually named after a song so check out the playlist in my profile)
Disclaimer: Everything is owned by Stephanie Meyer
Rating: T for now but M later. There is mostly mild language right now
POV: Bella and Edwards
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BPOV
At 7 o'clock in the morning, Alice danced into my room holding up an outfit I had never seen before. It was a pair of skinny jeans with a peasant looking top with a pair of brown flats. It was cute but it was much too girly for my liking.
"No way, Alice." I said before she could even open her mouth. She frowned at me.
"You might at well put it on, I've already had a vision of you wearing it at school. It would save us a fight." She said softly tossing the outfit onto the leather couch in my room. I stared at the clothes for a moment before sighing and giving in. Alice walked out of the room in triumph. Smug little pixie.
I closed the door wondering why Alice had picked out such a 'cute' outfit for me to wear. She must have had some vision and thought I should look 'cute' or something. I hated when she kept visions about me from me. It was irritating. I slipped on the clothing quickly and glanced out the window; it was of course raining. I grabbed my umbrella of the floor where I had carelessly tossed it and headed down the stairs.
I hadn't even made it halfway down the stairs when Alice rushed over to me and began dragging me right back up them. "I still have to do your hair and makeup, Bella!" She said sounded delighted. I sighed and let her pull me into her bedroom without a struggle; it would be useless to resist. She sat me down in front of her vanity and eyed my reflection in the large mirror settled in front of me. A smile crossed her face when she figured out what she wanted to do with my appearance. She turned the curling iron on and began curling my hair into little ringlets that looked pretty good on me; I had to admit.
Once she had finished with my hair, she pulled out her makeup kit and ruffled through it anxiously trying to find some lipstick or god knows what. Once she had finished with my face, she tapped my shoulder and smiled at me like an adorable pixie idiot.
"I'm finished with you Bells!" She announced. I glanced in the mirror that I had been trying to ignore during the entire time she had put make up on me and gasped. I looked pretty. Alice chucked from my side and nearly skipped out of the room. I hesitated in front of the mirror; just looking into my own reflection before sighed and following Alice down the stairs.
We arrived at school much earlier than we usually did. It confused me but I didn't ask. We arrived so early thought that Edward wasn't even there yet leaning against his Volvo where he would watch us walk up to the school. I was somewhat grateful that we arrived early; I didn't really want to see him first thing in the morning. I would rather wait till lunch or biology when I actually had to. I hadn't really thought of what I actually would say to him when we saw each other and I was glad to get more time to think.
Even after the first 4 classes of the day I had no idea what to tell him except maybe: I went to Alaska to clear my head after you said you were afraid of me because I'm extremely weird and stressed and my sister Alice had seen visions of us together and it confused me to hear you didn't want me. Ugh, I definitely couldn't say that without making him fear me more than he already did. I was actually surprised he had wanted to give me a ride home today. It would be just him and me in his car and I was a vampire that he was afraid of. Maybe it wasn't a good idea; I didn't want him to have a fit in the car if I accidentally scared him or something. Maybe I could talk him out of it.
I walked into the lunchroom not looking into the eyes of the people who stared. They always stared so I didn't care to see what the expressions looked like. I already knew that the boy's were looking at me with lust and the girls were staring at me with pure hate. That's how it always was. I stopped in the lunch line and picked up some random helpings of food that didn't smell too horrible, payed and headed over to the table where my family already was seated and were animatedly chatting away. I slid in next to Alice and gave my family a slight smile. Emmett and Jasper nodded to me like they did when they wanted to annoy me. They hadn't done it in a while so it didn't surprise me that they probably had planned the synchronized head nod today. I glared at them but didn't say anything even as they chuckled and tried to be subtle about high-fiving each other.
"So how was your day so far?" Alice chirped from beside me. She was pretending to eat a salad.
I shrugged. "Normal." I said softly jabbing my spork into a pile of potatoes on my tray. They looked absolutely disgusting and I had the urge to just throw them at Emmett and Jasper to get back at them for doing the head nod. I decided against it though because I knew Alice would throw a fit about me staining their clothes.
"Are you excited about your ride home today?" Alice asked nudging me in the arm with her elbow and smiling at me mischievously. I rolled my eyes at her. I hoped she hadn't had another vision. I was thinking about ignoring Alice's visions of Edward and I together and avoiding Edward as well. I hated how this whole scenario was working and I would rather be alone than deal with a confusing human male and my pixie sister.
I noticed Rose watching me from where she sat next to Emmett. Her face was void of emotion and it confused me. I usually was always able to tell how she was feeling just from the look on her face.
"What's wrong, Rose?" I asked softly mixing my green beans in with my mashed potatoes. I was making the meal look more revolting. I glanced over to Jasper who was staring at Rose with a concerned look on his face as he read her emotions.
Rosalie sighed then shrugged her shoulders. "Edward Masen is staring at you and has been since you sat down." She murmured picking up her knife and jabbing it into the cup of mixed fruit on her tray. She didn't exactly sound upset but she didn't sound happy; she sounded blank. I looked at Jasper again who had his eyebrows furrowed as he started intently as Rosalie. He didn't seem to understand her emotions.
I slowly turned my head to look at the table Edward always sat at and I immediately locked eyes with him. I figured he would turn away at any moment but he didn't. He just stared. I decided to look back at my lunch tray; not enjoying the way that it seemed when we stared at each other it was like we were exchanging souls. It made me feel uncomfortable.
"It's OK, Bella." Jasper whispered on the other side of Alice as he shot me some confidence and calmed me down. I savored the emotions Jasper had sent me because I knew once I entered the biology classroom that I would feel uneasy and raw in the presence of Edward.
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EPOV
I was extremely confused when I pulled into the student parking lot and saw that the Cullen-Hale's car was already parked. Ugh, I would have to wait until lunch to see Bella. I had been anticipating seeing her and her family arrive so I could look at her face and assess her current emotional state. I guess I had been too late.
I frowned walking into the building; I could hear Mike calling my name from behind me but I pretended I didn't hear him as I made my way to my first class. I just want to know that she's OK. I thought as I settled down into my seat. My mind wandered to the end of the day when I would be giving Bella a right home. I wanted to make a perfect speech to give to her but all the words and sentences I strung together just didn't sound right. I decided that the best way to tell her what I wanted was to wing it. I was scared shitless. Not only had I only had one girlfriend but I rarely ever talked to anyone about my feelings like I would be doing with Bella in a very short period of time.
I barely blinked during lunch; still too wrapped up in my own thoughts. Jessica seemed concerned and she even asked me what was wrong but I just shrugged her off and she didn't press the subject. I think she was finally grasping the fact that I wasn't interested in her. I hoped to God that's what her silence was caused by.
I tried to keep my eyes off the exit of the lunch line. I didn't want to be creepy by turning around every 2 seconds to see if she had come out of the line. I distracted myself from doing this by opening my ears to the conversation going on around me. They were talking about the dance that they had been waiting for for a few weeks. I sighed, I couldn't wait till that stupid festivity had passed so I didn't have to hear another word about it.
"Can you believe that after this dance there will only be 5 and 1/2 more months till prom!" Lauren squeaked excitedly. Oh man, I had forgotten about prom. Now that awful dance would be all they would talk about for 5 and 1/2 more months. I would never escape their talk of dances.
I snuck a glance at the Cullen's table and was thrilled to see Bella sitting down next to Alice. She looked beautiful as ever and she had on clothes that fit her small frame very nicely. I watched as she sent her brothers a glare for a reason I was unaware of because I was only looking at her. I studied her face trying to read her emotion; she looked tense and unsure. Just how I felt. I blinked and when I opened my eyes again she was staring at me. Penetrating me with her golden eyes making my stomach flop and my eyes to widen. I blinked again and she was looking away; I immediately missed her eyes and frowned slightly deciding to turn away because I could sense eyes on me; but not from Bella's table.
"Uh oh, Cullen's wrangled in another one." I heard Lauren whisper; her voice was lined with venom. I turned to her and raised an eyebrow.
"What?" I asked my voice was quieter than I was expecting; I cleared my throat.
Lauren rolled her eyes. "Every guy in this building, minus the obvious gay ones," She said tilting her head towards Eric who wasn't paying attention to the bitchy blonde girl suggesting at his sexual preference. "They become infatuated with her at some point in their high school career." Lauren said rolling her eyes. I noticed Mike was now staring down Bella's table with his mouth hanging open like drooling dog. I elbowed him and he immediately closed his mouth and began looking around frantically like he hadn't just been caught undressing a girl with his eyes.
I ignored Lauren the rest of lunch not even bothering to respond her little speech about Bella. I didn't even walk with her and Mike to Biology class and was glad that Lauren decided to go straight to her seat instead of lingering by my table. Mike, however, sat down like he usually did in Bella's seat.
"Bella was looking' fine today." Mike said in a stupid sounding voice that made me want to punch him. He was raising his eyes brows and smiling at me waiting for me to agree. I sighed and then nodded.
"She looked good." I said softly. Mike held up his hand with his palm out towards me. He wanted me to high five him. I rolled my eyes and quickly smacked his hand with my own; almost a little to hard. He frowned and looked down at his now red hand.
Bella entered the room a few moments later and she walked straight over to the table glaring at Mike.
"Ugh, do you always have to occupy my seat?" She nearly growled when he looked up at her. He was smiling at her and his eyes were scanning her entire body as she spoke to him. I was pretty sure he was having a dirty fantasy. I elbowed him and he jerked up straight in the chair and quickly got up and ran to the back of the room to his own table. I chuckled quietly as Bella took the now Mike-less seat.
"Hello Edward." She said softly and emotionless. I frowned. She sounded like she was talking to an adult that she detested with a great passion. She had never used this voice on me.
"Hello Bella." I said with the same tone that made her turn her head and glare at me. I smirked; it had made her feel hated just as she had made me feel.
We didn't speak the rest of the hour. It's not that we didn't get the chance to do so; we just didn't. I knew that everything would have to be resolved when I drove her home and I knew I would have to say a lot to get her to forgive me. This is worse than I thought; I was going to have to get my charm on.
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I waited nervously by my Volvo after being released from the last class of the day. I was fiddling with my keys as I scanned the crowed for the luscious dark hair and pale skin that belonged to Bella. After a few minutes, I began thinking that maybe she had decided to leave early just so she could avoid having to ride home with me. Thankfully, I spotted her walking out of the doors; she was linked arm and arm with Rosalie and Alice. Bella had her head cast downward so I couldn't see her expression. I glanced at her sisters; Alice looked cheerful, smiling wistfully as she walked. Rosalie didn't wear an expression; this surprised me because she was usually shooting me death glares.
The girls stopped about 5 feet in front of me; Alice leaning in to whisper something into Bella's ear. Bella turned to her and made a face that I would've chuckled at but I was much to nervous. Both Alice and Rosalie hugged Bella before she came forward and looked me in the eye and forced a smile that looked more like a wince. I smiled at her, hoping it didn't look as forced as hers did. Alice and Rosalie were already making their way over to the black car, casting glances at us as they walked away.
"So, uh, you ready to talk?" I asked awkwardly while raking my hand through my hair. The action always seemed to calm me when I was nervous. It worked very little on this particular case. She nodded and walked around the car to the passengers side and waited for me to unlock the car. I put the my key in the door and turned it twice so it would unlock her side as well as mine. We both slipped in the car and closed the doors. I immediately started the car and tried to leave the parking lot as quick as possible because there were way to many heads looking at us; I hated being gawked at.
We didn't speak for a few minutes. I flipped on my CD player nervously and let the CD i had been listening to this morning fill the car.
"I suggest that if you want to talk to me then you better get it over with. Oh, turn left here." She said coldly before giving me directions. I turned down the street she instructed and sighed.
"Sorry it's not easy for me to discuss this kind of stuff." I said in a low irritated voice. I saw her cross her arms from the corner of my eye.
"What stuff? Me being a vampire?" She said sarcastically; she wasn't looking at me.
I had nearly forgot that was what had caused this entire scenario. She wasn't like any vampire they portrayed on TV. I felt so stupid for acting weird about it when she had told me in the park.
"I guess, yeah, kinda." I said in almost a whisper as I once again ran my hand through my hair.
"Spit it out, Edward and turn here." Bella instructed. She was definitely not being pleasant right now.
I groaned and decided that I would just have to get it over with. "I realized that night that you told me that I wasn't afraid of you being what you are." I told her unable to actually say vampire. I could feel her eyes on me now waiting for me to continue. My mind was so far away from the road that I decided to pull over; she shot me a confused look.
"I can't concentrate and saying the right thing and the road at the same time." I told her putting my car into park before continuing with my apology.
"I was more afraid of the...connection I have with you. I've never felt like that before. So connected to someone I hardly new. Then I found out what you were and it was all so fast." I paused glancing at Bella who was staring at me intently in the passengers seat with her arms still crossed. "I want to be your friend Bella. I don't care what you are. I want you to get it in your head that I'm not afraid of you but of my strange feelings to want to be...near you. I'm so sorry for confusing you but I was confused too. You have to understand, it was hard for me to adjust to so many changes. You're an amazing person, Bella, I'm sorry if I hurt you or anything. It was not my intention and I would like nothing more than to be you're friend if you will allow." I finished my speech with a crooked smile that was full of apology.
She was silent for a moment; as if she were going over what I had just said again in her head. She eventually sighed and nodded. "We can be friends." She said simply.
I grinned at her; so thrilled that she had forgiven me but I knew that would be a bad idea. She still looked a little pissed.
"But if we are going to be friends, and even if friends doesn't work out for us, you can't tell anyone what my family and I truly are." She said in a very serious tone that echoed her seriously stare.
I nodded. "I would never do that to you." I said softly before I put my car back into drive and got on the road once again.
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A/N: I was going to update yesterday but I had a medical emergency and couldn't even think straight. I hope you enjoyed this chapter because I almost was unable to write it, I'm still feeling kinda shitty so I hope it's not too crappy. Anyway I wanted to clear some things up:
1. I'm not re writing Twilight. Yes it's quite similar but its not Twilight. So stop thinking that things should go a certain way.
2. Nessie will not be in my story. Bella can't have babies so yeah. Plus...just no...no Nessie. lol.
3. I am not rushing my story! You don't know what I have planned for Fade into You so stop assuming and maybe ask.
4. Read my damn Authors Notes.
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