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I decided to follow her advice for now instead of playing the torturous game of 'what if'. Right now my beautiful Bella needed me and I was going t0 damn well be there for her, no matter what.
CHAPTER EIGHT
Bella's P.O.V.
Alive Again
I was both delighted an afraid at being freed from the prison in my head that I had placed myself. I remember that day clearly, when I locked
myself in the prison of my mind in order to stop the monster that had taken over me. I was a danger to everyone around me and shouldn't be
allowing myself to let Edward free me because the monster could come back and force me to hurt the ones I loved. I have no idea where it
came from or how it took over my body, but it did rendering me a helpless bystander watching in horror, as I hurt everyone in ways
unimaginable by my own hands. I was scared that if I didn't stop it, then my family would have been drawn into the force of pain that was
inflicted upon the members of the Volturi. So in an effort to save them, I unconsciously attempt to lock the monster away in my mind, but it
took me with it and as a result, I have been imprisoned in the confines of my own thoughts uncertain if escape was ever a possibility.
Then I found myself slowly slipping back toward the real world and was again able to hear the whispers of those in close proximity when I felt
Edward's presence. This is how I discovered their plan to free me after my long absence by visiting those I loved dearly. They had no idea that
it was I that placed myself here in the first place and that I did not want to be freed for fear that the monster who overpowered me so long
ago will return and continue its torturous destruction upon all those unfortunate enough to be near me. It is in this situation that I find myself
trapped. I don't know what to do and I don't think I have much of a choice as to whether they free me or not because of my present state.
We are currently on a plane to Washington to see Charlie. I am at liberty of breathing and looking around thus far and I know that my visit
with Charlie will permit me to move the rest of my body without restraint. Then it obviously would be Jacob that will return me to my complete
self by unlocking my voice. This is what I am the most afraid of because it was my voice, or rather the monster's voice, that had made those
demands of the Volturi before. Maybe if I can get away before Jacob has the chance to see me, then I can still protect those I love. It would be
exceedingly difficult to get away from Alice and Edward, but I could do it; I mean I was able to get away from Alice and Jasper as a human.
Even though it would kill me to leave them, I am still a danger magnet and I refuse to let them suffer because of my shortcomings.
"Love we are landing now, and then we can finish this," Edward's soft voice whispered in my ear, "I love you so much and I promise I will get
you back to normal so we can be together forever." His words were meant to be reassuring, but he had no idea how they pained me. I had to
leave my family for their own good, to keep them safe. I hated myself for making him break his promise, but there was no other way. Staring
into his loving topaz eyes, I just tried to loose myself in the moment while it still lasted before the time came to flee.
Time passed quickly and I soon found myself wrapped in Edward's strong arms in the back seat of the rent-a-car on our way to visit Charlie.
Our time in the hotel room was most unpleasant because Edward unconsciously held tightly to my hand, obviously having forgotten my extra
abilities, while doubting my love for him and feeling unworthy. If he only knew how completely backward he was! I loved him so very much
that I was going to practically kill myself to save him and our family, and it is I that is the horrible monster who is undeserving.
On top of that, Alice had to make me look more human for Charlie just like with Renee so that they didn't grow suspicious. Alice was so lucky
that I was unable to move or talk otherwise her little makeover would have taken much longer due to my complaints. It was absolute torture
to have to sit and endure hours of pinching, poking, and whatever else she did to me to make me look somewhat human. I thought I hated
them before! Well I now know that my complaining and stubborn attitude that I could normally pull off had saved me from the true terror of
giving Alice free reign on my makeover. I guess it was good she got to play Bella Barbie one last time before I saved them from myself by
leaving, but this was ridiculous! I looked nothing short of a famous super model about to make her first debut in front of millions. I doubt my
dad would even be able to recognize me at all because I was definitely sure my vampire enhanced features had not quite altered me this
much. It was too late to worry about my new look being a little much because we were now almost there.
Alice pulled up in front of my old house and I was a bit surprised to find it exactly as I had left it. Charlie's cruser sat in front in its usual spot;
the only difference was that my red truck was gone. When I left with the Cullens, I let my dad sell it and get his money back for it. It did take
awhile to convince him to keep the money, but with Alice's help, I was able to get him to concede.
Edward leaned down and sweetly kissed my forehead before leaving the car and approaching the front door. I was very glad that vampires
couldn't cry because the tears would surely be flowing freely down my cold, hard face. I loved him so much but I had to leave, I needed to stay
focused and not think about what I would loose right now or I would never be able to do it. Alice slid into the back seat and leaned my head on
her shoulder. She was attempting to make me look less dead for Charlie, but this simple act was very comforting, as if she was giving me her
shoulder to cry on. I saw Charlie running towards the car followed by a very anxious looking Edward. My dad jumped in the car and I heard
him greet Alice before turning to me.
"Oh Bella honey I've missed you so much, I really am a hopeless cook," I appreciated his attempt at a joke, but once he saw how unresponsive
I was, he pulled me into a tight embrace, "Oh sweetie daddy's here! I'm so sorry you had to see that Bella, I love you honey." His words did it
and I felt a strange tugging feeling, like something was lifting my body out of water and I was finally breaking the surface. I lifted my arms
cautiously and draped them around my father returning his hugstrangely I didn't feel any thirst for his blood and this worried me, but it may
just be locked away with my voice, although I did feel incredibly weak.
I heard Alice gasp in delight and Edward call my name with so much joy it was unbearable. I carefully broke free from Charlie's grasp and
darted into my most favorite place on this entire earth, Edward's arms. I felt whole and so completely happy it was overwhelming as I crushed
my body as close to his as physically possible.
"I've missed you too," his perfect velvety voice whispered in my ear so low that only I could hear. I forgot everyone and everything except for
the two of us being together.
"Bella are you ok? Edward told me what happened," Charlie's words pulled me back down to earth and reminded me of what I had to do, no
matter how much it pained me. I pulled away from Edward and used all the will I had to give Charlie a smile before I turned and dashed
toward the forest. For Charlie's sake I ran at an almost human pace before I hit the trees. Once under the slightest cover of trees, I took off
like a bat out of hell praying that I could get away before Edward stopped me.
I heard Edward finally turn and chase after me, but I had to keep running. There is no way he could catch me now, both because I had a head
start, and because I was also the only one that could outrun him. I didn't know where to go, but I had to leave so I just let my legs take me
where they may. I was not familiar with these woods because I had only briefly been in them as a human, and back then everything looked
the same.
I had been running for a while now and I no longer heard Edward behind me, assuming he fell behind. I was so completely caught up in
running away from myself and the monster that dwelled within me that I didn't notice the burning scent until I unsuspectingly crashed into
his fur covered body. The impact sent us both flying backwards in a confused daze. Instinctively I landed on my feet and whirled around to
meet my obstacle. Once my eyes found him, his scent hit me like a ton of bricks and had the chance to register in my mind for what it truly
was. Starring back at me with the same look of sheer mystification along with a slight hint of disgust was none other than the reddish-brown
werewolf formally known as Jacob Black.
OMG WOWW!! Jacob is back in the picture!! You didn't think I would leave out everyone's favorite man-dog did you?? Lol!!Hope you liked this chapter and don't forget to review!! I will post the next chap after I get about ten review for this chapter!! Thanx
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