Allen talks to much about someone Kanda would rather not hear about. Ensuing emotional crisis and opening up of Kanda etc. Quite clichéd but clichés are cute.
Man isn't mine. Am too tired to be witty today XD!!
In this fic there will be lots of lovely BL, implied lemon, Yullen and some dark Yukki (didn't know what to call KandaXTykki and this seemed funny) Also possibly some Linali hate.
Kanda looked at Allen. The boy was looking at him expectantly. Kanda scowled. "I know I said I'd tell you. But I'm not like you. I don't want the whole world to know exactly what I'm feeling at any time, so this isn't easy ok." Allen looked hurt. "I don't tell everyone everything," he said indignantly. He sat down on the bed beside Kanda, glancing out of the small cracked window before putting his hand on the Japanese mans shoulder. "If it's too hard we can leave it…" Kanda shrugged his hand off. "It's fine. I'm not a child Moyashi." Allen scowled again. "It's not childish to have emotions Kanda… " Kanda scoffed. "Whatever, now shut up if you want me to tell you anything! " Allen sighed exasperated. He looked at the older man, who was once more facing the wall, his long dark hair hanging loose behind him. It was silent for a few minutes. Allen was about to say something when Kanda started to talk. His voice was monotonous, and from what Allen could see, his eyes were closed, his face devoid of any emotion.
"It was six years ago now. We were twelve."
Allen made to interject but Kanda raised his hand, making him be silent once more. " I'm one of twins, moyashi. I forgot you didn't know that." He turned to glare at Allen before facing the wall once more, to continue his monologue.
"After our mother died we travelled with our Uncle for a while, but when we were ten he died, so it was just us. We were walking towards a village, looking for work, when something happened. I'm not sure what. We woke up in this… room. It was empty. We were each in separate corners. I woke up first, it was weird, there were no windows, or doors, so there was no way we could get in. Mugen was missing, and my brothers violin. It was cold in there."
Kanda paused, shivering at some memory, which couldn't just be the cold.. He shook his head slightly before continuing.
"Then Tykki came in, through Rhodes door. She was with him, but he made her leave. He said 'There are some things little girls shouldn't see.' Kanda shuddered again. "We were in that room for a long time. I don't know how long. It was… It was awful. I don't remember a lot of it. But…" Kanda stopped, struggling to say something. Allen moved towards him, putting his and on the other mans shoulder once more. This time Kanda didn't shrug him off. He swallowed before continuing.
"Tykki raped us. I… I had to watch him hurt my brother. We didn't know we were exorcists then. He just kept hurting us. Then Rhode would come, she would pretend to comfort us, then put us in dreams that seemed more like reality, but that were worse. It must have been over a month. He only let us go because he thought we were dead. He left us in the forest we were in when he had taken us. He left Mugen and my brothers violin next to us. Tiedoll found me, next to my brothers corpse. The snow was red…" Kanda trailed off. Allen put his arms around the other mans waist. Kanda turned around, still in Allen s arms. Tears streamed down Allens cheeks. Kanda looked at him quizzically. "What's wrong moyashi?" he snapped. Allen looked up at Kanda. The Japanese mans cheeks were cheeked with dry tears, but he didn't seem to notice. "I just…" He clung to the older man. "It's just so awful! I can't believe you had to go through that! And noone knows! They think you're just being mean, but you're in so much pain!!" Kanda shrugged Allen off. "Don't be stupid moyashi. I hardly think about it, it's just that it was recently my birthday, so I was thinking about him."
Allen looked up, his sobbing subsided. "Do you miss him?"
Kanda turned to face the wall again before answering. "Yes. I think about him everyday, but I mostly just ignore it…" His shoulders sagged "It's just too much some days. And I…" He clenched his fists, suddenly angry. "I hate Tykki so much! When I think about him it makes me want to kill someone!"
Kanda sighed, calming down. Allen replaced his arms around the other mans waist. Kanda moved in towards Allens body, putting his head on the boys shoulder. They stayed like that for a while, Kanda's shoulders heaving as he cried long held-back tears.
After a while Kanda fell silent. Allen glanced at his face. He was asleep, suddenly so much younger and more innocent, his cheeks streaked with tears. Allen shifted slightly, checking how deeply asleep Kanda was. The boy didn't stir. Allen lifted him off his shoulder and gently laid him down. His brushed a strand of hair out of the other boys face before kissing him chastely on the forehead.
He lay down next to Kanda, once more holding the man close to him. He was surprised that the usually strong, silent man was hiding so much pain. He knew it was a façade, but he could never have known the depth of pain the other man was feeling. He sighed. Kanda was too stubborn. If he had only said something earlier…
!This badly written! I might rewrite it, but that's it for now I'm afraid!
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