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It was early afternoon and Bonnie was sat in the kitchen of the Salvatore mansion looking through her Grams Grimoire. She sighed to herself and slowly closed the book of spells before placing her hands on her head.

It had only been three days since Damon had unexpectedly turned of his humanity and it had been a nightmare. He was still the same as before, but this time he was much meaner, arrogant and didn't give a care in the world, especially when it came to the things he said or how he hurt her feelings deeply.

Turning it off just because she had picked up a letter and saw something she wasn't supposed to was him simply overreacting once again. He had instantly turned it off to avoid feeling the guilt of what happened on this particular day and she hated that he could take the easy way out. He was willing to lose everything he felt for anything or anybody for a brief while just to avoid feeling the misery he had caused upon himself.

She had heard stories before from Stefan about when Damon had turned of his humanity on certain circumstances in his long life, and each time he had went insane and completely lost control of himself. Each time he was like a monster, a mad man on the run, and it took a miracle for him to turn it back on, it took Stefan, but since he wasn't here, it was left to her, but how could she even begin to help him turn it back on when that was the last thing that he wanted. Although he was completely switched off, each time she looked into his eyes, she could see an ounce of feeling and emotion stored inside and it gave her the hope that she needed to go further, it gave her the hope that she needed to see that he wasn't all monster, despite his cruelness and literal lack of compassion.

Bonnie glanced down at the Vervain needle she put together in-case if he ever fully got out of control. She picked it up and placed it inside her pocket. Taking a deep breath, she slowly got up from the chair, before strolling inside the living room to see Damon laying on the sofa with his eyes closed but she could tell that he was far from sleep.

Ever since these past three days, she had noticed how calm he had been which was odd, considering that he would normally go on a rampage when his humanity was turned off. He kept to himself, normally with his eyes shut, almost as if he was trying to surpass his emotions and keep something in, or maybe deep down he was trying to stop himself from going out of control in-case he seriously hurt Bonnie in a way that there was no going back from. It was a surprising thought for her to even manage considering that no humanity; Damon was no saint and didn't care whether or not he hurt anybody, especially her.

"Well if it isn't the annoying and useless witch" Damon spoke up, still with his eyes closed shut. "Say Bonnie how's that magic of yours coming along or are you still planning on keeping me stuck here by not trying harder?".

Bonnie rolled her eyes away and crossed her arms above her chest, before going to stand in-front of him. "Even if I do suddenly get my magic back soon, Damon, I'm not gonna find a spell to get us outta here until you turn your humanity back on. I'm not sending you back to everyone without your humanity, especially Stefan and Elena" she hissed, holding an irritating scowl on her face.

As she finished her sentence, Damon slowly opened his eyes seconds later to look up at her. He smirked a devilish smirk, before rolling his eyes away and speaking up. "You know you should stop telling me to turn it back on or else I'm gonna do something that'll really make you see me as the monster I am" he threatened, slowly lifting his head up from the sofa. "I don't wanna turn it back on... in-fact I didn't know why I didn't turn it off as soon as we got here. It would've saved me a lot of time from feeling like a piece of shit because of how much I hurt your feelings these past two months. Now; I don't care. I don't care about your feelings or if you hate me because of it, because I don't care about you, Bonnie... you mean nothing to me" he got up from the sofa to smirk down in her face, before going to walk past her.

"You think that's gonna make me cry?... you've said worse to me, Damon, I can handle it" Bonnie uttered, turning around to face him. She shot him a stern look and he quickly did the same.

"Good for you, Bonnie... you want some type of medal from me?" he looked at her from head to toe, before nonchalantly shifting his eyes away.

Bonnie took a step closer towards him. She looked up into his eyes trying to spot the hint of emotion, but at that moment all she saw was something much darker, and it had caused her to take a step back. "You love taking the easy way out, don't you Damon?" she scoffed loudly, cocking her head to the side. "When you can't stand to feel pain or any other type of awful emotion, you just turn it off and go back to being an even bigger dick like you already are with humanity!" she snapped, finally losing her patience.

"In-case you can't already tell, I don't care what you think or have to say about me-

"Well you should!" she yelled, quickly cutting him off his sentence. "Before you stupidly turned it off, did it ever occur to you that you could have literally talked to me about who Jo was and told me everything that happened on this day. We could've gone back home and talked. No matter how much we hate each other sometimes, we're still friends and we're all each other have for now. For once Damon, I could've really been there for you if you had let me but you chose otherwise".

Damon peered down at her and laughed sarcastically, before placing his hand on his hips. "Talking... Talking... god I am so tired of talking. For the past months all we've been doing is talking and frankly, I can no longer stand the sound of your voice" he lifted his hand up to grasp her hair, but before he could she quickly shoved his hand away. "You're lucky that you're pretty, because you're exhausting to be around-

"I'm exhausting?! you know what screw you, Damon!" Bonnie yelled, taking a step closer to get up in his face.

"Oh you've screwed me alright, Bonnie, you've screwed me so many times!" Damon yelled, leaning his face close to hers. He glanced down at her lips and scoffed before taking a step back. "Just as exhausting as you are it must have been really exhausting to have constantly been in Elena and Caroline shadow's, especially Elena's. You know they're the ones that people actually care about and you're just like their little sidekick who no one thinks twice of. Poor Bonnie... you do so much for everyone and no one barely utters a thank you... must be really exhausting" he muttered the last bit sarcastically, whilst tucking a strand of her hair behind her ears.

Bonnie quickly swallowed in a big lump as she tried to remain neutral and nonchalant, in order to make it seem that everything he said didn't affect her, but it affected her alright, in-fact it stabbed her in the heart and shattered it completely.

As Damon sent a sly and smug wink to her, she then found anger building up inside of her, and without hesitation, she quickly raised her hand to slap him hard across the face. She went to slap him again, but before she could, Damon rapidly caught her hand and shoved it away, causing her to stumble back a little. He spotted the broken look of despair on his face, but he couldn't care less. It was the many advantages of having no humanity, because if this was before, he would've had to let her know how sorry he was in a subtle way and vulnerability was something he didn't like to show to anyone that wasn't Elena.

Seconds later, Damon shifted his eyes from Bonnie, before turning around to walk away. As he headed towards the front door, Bonnie slowly brought the Vervain needle out from her pocket. She gripped onto it tightly and hurried over to him before he could get to the door. Before she could jam him with it, Damon rapidly turned back around and grabbed hold of her wrist, causing the needle to fall out her hands.

"Let go of me!" Bonnie hissed as she tried to struggle out of his tight grip.

"You were trying to shoot me with Vervain?" Damon questioned in a low and annoyed tone as he furiously gazed down at the noddle on the ground, before lifting his head up to look back at her.

"You deserve it, now let go of me!" she said, raising her voice at him. "Sometimes I wish that I had the option to turn of my humanity too, but I can't. So instead I deal with my emotions like a normal person, and I know that if Stefan were here he would want me to do anything to get you back to the way you were... it isn't better, but at least you're less of a jerk with humanity than you are without it".

Damon gazed down at her for a couple seconds, before shoving her hand away. He leaned in to whisper in her ear before speaking up. "I don't want to turn it back on, so stop trying to get me, because like I said, you won't like what I do" he took a step back from her, before turning around to walk out the door, leaving her with the worse feeling that she could possibly imagine.

~A while later.

Damon was sat inside the Mystic Grill, whilst eating a burger and fries. He was slowly losing his mind each day with Bonnie, and sometimes he just had to get away to calm himself down. Humanity him cared too much about Bonnie and her well being, and that was one of the many reasons why he had to turn it off. She was quickly becoming a weakness for him, and her presence alone made him forget that they were trapped in a strange world with nobody around. It wasn't as if he couldn't stand caring for Bonnie, but he just couldn't stand dealing with too many emotions at once. It threw him off and once again he had took the easy way out of things and simply turned it off.

Minutes later, he heard a sound coming from behind him, and he slowly turned his head back around to see someone playing pool from across this pool. He quickly scrunched up his face in confusion whilst shooting up from his seat. How could this be? he thought. He was sure that he and Bonnie were the only ones trapped in this strange alternative world, but apparently not. He took a step closer to identify the person. He had brown and wore a dark blue jacket. After gazing over at him for several seconds, trying to figure out who the hell he was and why he was here, Damon was ready to confront him, but he quickly stopped dead in the tracks as the mystery person finally raised his head to meet his gaze from afar.

"I was wondering when you were finally going to notice me or realise that I was here...hello Damon, long time no see".

"Kai..." he furrowed his eyebrow in shock as his memory rapidly began to drift back. Luckily he had no humanity so the guilt couldn't eat him alive this time he thought about it.

As Damon snapped back to reality, he sent a wicked glare over at Kai. Using his vamp speed, he quickly rushed over to him and held him up his neck. "How the hell are you here?" he questioned in a demanding tone as he forcefully slammed his back against a wall. "You better answer quickly or I'll waste no time killing you just like I should've done before" he squeezed onto his neck tighter, whilst holding a scowl on his face.

"Okay Okay, lets use our words before we get violent, I'll explain everything to you if you would just uh, let me go" Kai choked, desperately grabbing onto Damon's hand in hope to try and breathe in rapidly. "C'mon Damon, is this anyway to treat the guy who saved your life eighteen years ago on this day?" As he finished of his sentence, Damon quickly let go of his neck aggressively, causing him to drop the floor.

Kai chuckled lightly as he held onto the back of his head, before getting back on his feet. "Look I know you have no humanity right now and all, but I was expecting a more warmer reunion between us, you know seeing as I did save you from death" he smiled, staring directly at him.

Damon paused for a brief moment before speaking up. "You've been watching us..." he muttered quietly. "How long have you been watching us? and how the hell are you here Kai?!" he went to take another step towards him, but before he could, Kai quickly held both hands up, stopping him.

"Alright, listen I'll explain" he breathed out. "You see eighteen years ago after you helped me to kill my sister; Jo, my selfish and annoying father trapped me in here and well... I've been stuck here ever since on repeat, reliving the same day over and over. Kinda ironic that you ended up here too, right? I mean it was good that you ran back to Mystic Falls or he would've probably killed you" Kai stated, going to sit down on a nearby chair. He put his feet up on the table and placed his hands at the back of his head, before pulling out some candy from his pocket to snack on as Damon rolled his eyes at him.

"Well how do we get outta here?" Damon questioned, grabbing him by the shirt and pulling him to his feet.

"You see that's kinda complicated" Kai stated, cocking his head to the side as he slowly removed Damon's hand from his chest. "And I say complicated because I've been finding a way for eighteen years".

"So you're saying you don't know a way outta here?" asked Damon, taking a step towards him.

"Yes, but-" before he could finish his sentence, Damon rapidly grabbed hold of his shoulders and snapped his neck, causing him to fall straight to the ground.

"Then you're more useless to me more than the witch, and quite frankly I don't want to have to put up with you again" he uttered bluntly. He stared down at his body nonchalantly, remembering everything that happened with the both of them, before quickly shrugging it off and heading back over to the bar to finish his food. Several seconds later as he stood up from his seat to exit the Grill, he heard a low grunt come from behind him, before narrowing his eyes to see Kai holding onto his neck and going to take a seat beside him, and his eyes couldn't help but widen.

"Alright, maybe I deserved that but could you try not to snap my neck again, damn... now I know why you vampires enjoy doing it" Kai groaned, rubbing his neck, before shifting his fries and burger over to his side.

"How the hell are you alive? I just killed you!" Damon uttered, furrowing his eyebrows bewilderingly.

"Yeah well that's the thing, I can't really die in here and trust me I've tried. I've thrown myself of the golden gate bridge, of the Eiffel tower, I've even tried to drive myself of multiple cliffs but I always wake up every time. That bitter old man I call my father must have really wanted me to spend eternity here with no way out when he trapped me in here... I can't wait to get my revenge on him when I finally get out... thanks to Bonnie" he smiled, biting down on a burger.

Damon scoffed to himself. He gently slammed his hands down on the table before speaking up. "You see Kai, just like her, you're useless in getting out of here... so you're gonna stay away or I'm gonna find a way to really kill you for a good. You are a psychopath and you deserve to be stuck here for eternity" Damon threatened in a stern tone, arching his brow at him.

"Oh c'mon, I'm not that crazy... and you should be more nicer to Bonnie, she doesn't have her magic right now but witches don't completely lose their magic forever, it comes back" Kai uttered, going to pour himself some tequila from the bar. "You see I've been watching you guys for two months and all you do is bicker and argue and then do it again the next day. You've treated her horribly and she still puts up with you. A girl like Bonnie is something so rare, she's pretty, smart, strong and she knows how to put you in your place, but you're too obsessed with that Elena chick to see... like we get it already she's the love of you life or whatever, blah blah" he spoke sarcastically as Damon held a neutral and blank look on his face.

"What the hell are you up to, Kai? I know you, you're plotting something or you wouldn't have spied on us for so long!" Damon hissed aggravatingly, going to grab him by the shirt.

"Ah, it would be so much easier to compel me if I weren't a witch and only a normal simple human" Kai smirked, causing Damon's grip on his shirt to tighten. "Alright, Alright I'm not planning anything, Damon I swear. You know I can't even do magic without absorbing it from someone, but Bonnie can... she just needs time" he stated.

"Didn't you hear when I said that I wanted you to spend eternity here? Even if Bonnie gets her magic back I'll make sure you don't leave this place. Now you're going to get outta town and if I ever see you again I'll make you suffer since I can't kill you" as he finished off his sentence, Damon non-hesitantly, snapped his neck once again, letting his body drop to the floor. He stared down at him for a couple seconds, before shifting his eyes away and getting up to exit out the Mystic Grill.

15-20 minutes later, Damon arrived back at the Salvatore mansion.

He parked his car out in the driveway, before taking of his sunglasses and throwing it on the passenger's seat. As the bright sun shone down on him, he stepped out of the car, before going to head inside.

As he stepped inside, he peered into the living room to see that it was empty and he couldn't help but find it odd. Normally when he got home, Bonnie would always be sat in the living room, either reading through her Grams Grimoire, trying to get her magic back, or another thing altogether. Not caring about her whereabouts, he quickly shrugged it off, before heading into the kitchen to pour himself a glass of bourbon. He needed this especially after seeing Kai earlier on and having to relive all of the traumatic events that took place with them eighteen years ago.

He grabbed a glass cup from the top shelf and twisted open a half empty bottle of Bourbon that Bonnie had gotten drunk to last night whilst thinking of ways to get his humanity back. He rolled his eyes away and poured the drink into his glass, but once he took a sip of it, he instantly felt a burning sensation in his mouth and quickly realised that it had been poisoned with Vervain. He slowly fell to the floor as the burning feelings lingered around his mouth and latched onto his skin.

Bonnie, who had been watching him, quickly ran into the kitchen. She got on the floor and held onto him from behind before jamming the Vervain needle into his neck, causing him to slowly black out. "I'm sorry, Damon, but this is for your own good" she muttered, quietly, whilst staring down at him. She threw the needle to the side, before getting up back to her feet to drag him over to the basement before he wakes back up.

~Minutes later.

It was silent, almost too silent than it always was. Consciousness was slow in returning back to Damon, but when it did the results were explosive, as he quickly opened his eyes and sat up. He felt weak for some reason and all he desperately needed was blood at that very moment. It took him a brief moment to recognise the outline of where he was, and when he finally did, he sighed deeply and pushed his head back, whilst groaning loudly.

"Bonnie!" he yelled, getting up from the floor.

Bonnie sighed before getting up from the floor to peer inside at him. As Damon noticed her, he quickly used his vamp speed to rush over, but she carefully took a step back before he could get to her. "You might not want to turn your humanity back on, but you don't really have a choice. Right now you're an arrogant ass-hole and I can't stand it so even if it takes me a long time I'll find a way to turn your humanity on" she spoke, folding her arms.

"You bitch... let me outta here right now" Damon threatened, tightly gripping onto the small bars.

"Call me as many names as you want, I don't care. I'm not letting you out of here until I find a way to turn your humanity on so enjoy that small cell and hunger for blood and think about how you selfishly turned of all of your feelings and emotions without talking to me about everything first. I care about you, Damon, even though you've given me many reasons not to and its because I care about you that I'm doing this" she muttered, taking a small step towards him.

"When I get outta here, I'll kill you" he hissed, glaring down at her.

"Well it wouldn't be the first time you tried to" she glared back. She took of the necklace that he had got for her before throwing it inside at him. "Give that back to me when you turn your humanity back on if you care about me enough to do so" she took one last look at him, before turning to walk away, leaving Damon to run his hand through his head in frustration, whilst holding onto the necklace.