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Chapter 7: Dead cold heart

'What the hell! How could I be so stupid?' I was running all over my house. 'How am I gonna face him after rescinding his invitation from my house?' I though. Those thoughts, they were making my knees tremble. 'How can I go to Fangtasia after this? I am totally screwed!' I threw myself in my couch. 'I am dead'. I closed my eyes and listened to the Fangtasia soundtrack. 'Oh god, I need to forget about this' I though changing the CD. I got up and went to the bathroom. Shower, dress and sleep. That's what I'm gonna do for now. Tomorrow I will see the damages, but for now shower… Oh shit, I have to start writing something. Good bye, shower and good night of sleep. I got a soda and sat in the couch with my notebook.

"Viola was in a fancy restaurant with her boyfriend during the great revelation. She could not imagine even in her wildest dream that vampires actually existed. Suddenly a waiter appeared saying about the great revelation and turned the TV on. She gawked as she saw the true in front of her eyes. Her boyfriend, Ali, was amazed by the revelation, but minutes later he was talking about soccer and cars. But for Viola, that announcement was something really big. It was the start of a great adventure. If vampires exist then every thing is possible…"

It was 5 A.M when I got to bed. I wrote two chapters in one night. It looked like it would go smoothly, for the first time. I usually took months to write something decent, but I was pretty sure this book would be my best one. I got into a hot stream before going to bed. Once I started a book, I would always spend hours and more hours in front of my computer, till someone took me away and sent me to bed or I would faint and sleep in the floor. I went to my bedroom and lay down in my bed. Only this time I have to rest to go to Fangtasia tonight. Where I will find Eric, who must be pretty mad about my action last night! 'Holy crap! What the hell will I do?' I fainted before I could freak out.

I woke up with the door bell ringing. I got up and got a jacket. 'I'm gonna kill whoever woke me when I am so fucking tired even to eat!' I open the door, ready to scold whoever it was, but I was surprised. Mark. My ex-boyfriend. What the hell! I was totally messed up, with bed hair and probably with dark circles under my eyes. I wanted to beat the door in his face for dumping me, but I didn't do it. I am wondering why. He looked bright as the sun, and happy. At least someone is happy here. 'Gosh doesn't he know you can't visit someone so early in the morning!'

"What do you want" I said in sour voice. 'Gosh, I am so sleepy; I could sleep right here and right now. Say something, you son of bitch!'

"Are you ok? You look terrible." He said smiling at me.

"No, there is someone interrupting my sleep" I said cursing him inside.

"You didn't change at all, at least you are not into vampires anymore" He said getting inside of my house. 'Hey, who let you in? And what the hell are you talking about'

"That's non of your business, you are the one who dumped me, so get out." I said really mad.

"That's why I came. We need to talk."

"No, we don't. We don't need to talk since you dumped me and called me a heartless bitch!" I screamed.

"I know what I did was wrong, but it was all those bloodsuckers fault. Now that you aren't into them we can be together darling. I still love ya." He tried to hug me and I avoid him. 'What the hell is wrong with him? Did he hit his head?'

"Are you fucking out of your mind? You dumped and called me so many other things that I don't even remember right now and then you come once again and say you want to be with me!" I opened the door. "I rather become a fucking Fangbanger to be your girlfriend You A-hole. And you know what Vampires, are way better in bed than you, you jackass!" I said yanking him out of my house. 'God, I hate this mother fucker.'

"Alice, I will save you from those bloodsuckers. One day you will be mine again." He said in a sweet voice. 'What the fuck! Have someone brain washed him?'

"Go to hell, I don't need you. I don't need anyone. Motherfucker!" I hit the door in front of his face.

I went to my living room. 'God, I hate him.' Back when we were dating he was always like this. He thought I loved him more then anything. Wrong. I didn't even like him that much; he was the one who wanted to date. I only accepted, because I don't remember why, but I still regret till today. He was always trying to interrupt my work with his stupid dates and love. I said to him that while I was working on one of my books, that I could hang around with him because of the deadlines. I think the only thing he heard was dead, because he started to say that I liked vampires more than him. I tried to explain, but he never listened, and when he finally dumped he called me a bitch and all those things in front of the media, which loved that entire scandalous scene. I should have dumped him when he started to complain, but no, I had to think about his feelings and all this shit. Now I have this crazy motherfucker that think I have problems and he will help and one day we will be together. Together my ass. I rather died drowned in my own puke.

It was 6 p.m. And I was still pissed of, about Mark and his crazy announcement. I'm gonna kill that bastard if he dares to come again. I was wearing jeans, an old t-shirt and cowboy boots. When the door ringed. If it was Mark I'm gonna kick his ass to mars!

"What?" I said in my wonderful mood. Then I saw it was Pam. Then I remembered I was screwed. Then I almost hit the door in her face, but I controlled that stupid impulse. I don't want two vampires mad at me. She smiled at my confused face.

"You had a wonderful day, didn't you?" She smirked. That wicked smile I bet she only uses to bully weak creatures like me. I almost ran away, but I once again regained the control over my stupid impulses.

"Yeah, I had. Why are you here?" I said trying to look fine, but my voice totally showed my flutter. 'God, please kill me and save from her.'

"To make sure you won't skip your work with some ridiculous excuse. My master is no pleased by your behavior from last night" I gulped as she mentioned him. She laughed totally devilish and having fun in torturing me. "Are you ready?"

"No, I think I will stay at home today, because it's easier to write here." Well, she can't blame me for try.

"Don't be silly" She licked her fangs. "You and I know very well that won't happen, so why don't you come already?"

"You can't get inside, so what are you going to do?" Her smile fades away. She is not joking anymore.

"Alice, come right now." I didn't even blink. I caught my jacket and went with her. This is so fucking scary.

"Oh, I forgot my notebook" I said. She stared at me like I was really stupid.

"Go get it." I went inside and got it. I ran out side, because she was already pissed, I didn't want her to snap.

As always she drove like a maniac. I was already scared; she took the rest of my sanity with this ride. I got out side and almost lied on the floor and kissed it. 'Now I have to face Eric' All my strength was gone. 'Shut up Alice, and pull yourself together. You. Are. Not. Weak! You are a strong independent woman and you can handle all of this.' Pam led me to Eric's office. He was sitting in his chair behind the big table, which was all messed with piles of files. He looked at me. His expression was blank as was mine. I won't give in, I definitely won't give in. He kept that expression that was freaking me out, but I won't show it to him. I was all stiff until he spoke.

"Sit and start your job" Nothing more came out from those dead lips, other then those cold and hard words. I was a bit relived, but that feeling of fear never left me. I sat in the couch and got my notebook. I started to write. I didn't stare him even once, but I was sure he didn't do the same. I felt those eyes doing holes in my head. Then that wonderful and at the same time tense time ended with those words. "Who was the man with you this afternoon?" and in a second he was in front of me, staring me with fury. I didn't know what to answer at first, because words ran away from me and the only thing that came to my mind was 'I am fucking dead'. Then finally I remembered.

"That's none of your business." I said, trying to be cool. His hands were in my face and his body against mine. My notebook disappeared. It was only me being crushed by an angry vampire.

"It is my business since you are my possession till you are done with your work" He said in his cold tone, his fangs were extended.

"My personal life and my work are separated things." I said turning my head away from his face, which was closer than I wanted it to be.

"Tell me right now who is this human." My heart almost stopped from coldness.

"Mark, my ex." I said. I was staring the black couch, I refused to look up and see his expression.

"And what was he doing in your house if he is your ex?" He asked even more impatient and angry. "His smell is all over you". 'It is?'

"He came to my house to ask me for another chance for our relationship, but I said no because I hate that son of a bitch" I said it all so fast that I didn't understand what I said, but he surely did, because he was a bit less threatening than some seconds ago.

"That's all?" He asked as if it was the most normal thing to do, like he could know whatever he wanted and I should say without even complain or resist.

"Yes. Why the hell do you care about a human? Aren't I only one employer?" Now I was staring those deep blue eyes. He bent even closer; I couldn't even turn to escape. His lips were almost in mine and he said.

"That's exactly what you are, an employer." He stood up. "Go back to work." What the fuck. He attacks me and threatens me and then he orders me around! For god sake, I can't bear anymore of this. This fear is so tiresome. But I accepted it. I am so stupid. I could have said no. I don't know what would have happened if I said no but I said yes and now I have to endure this. And I will, because this is what I love to do. Writing is the love of my life and I won't loose it once again. Even if I have to endure THIS. I looked to Eric only for some seconds. Enough to be discovered by him, damn. I looked away, well better get started. I started to write. I was so concentrated I didn't realized that I fall asleep.