Mantinas-Basically, Tomas told me to write a songfic using this song. He and I agree that the first thing that pops into our heads is suicide when we listen to this song. BUT because Mew is an ambiguous, artistic group, meanings can be interpreted in MANY different ways. This is just OUR way of seeing it.

Also, I don't condone suicide. It's pointless-with or without the threat of an afterlife filled with damnation or not-you're wasting your talent and life(though I do admit that you are free to do as you please). I recommend a councilor if you're feeling suicidal…'Cause there's usually always another way out(which means if you've studied LeVay, it almost cancels out his rule of thumb).

Things written in brackets () are Gwen's thoughts on Ben/Kevin memories brimming out at that time as she remembers the events of this story.


(Original Lyrics) Silas The Magic Car/(For the story) Kevin The Magic Car-Original by Mew. I merely changed the names in the Lyrics. XD

Gwen stood on the porch of Kevin's apartment, right hand on the banister, left on the pillar that served as an entry way onto said porch. Her eyes brimmed with tears.

She never thought that it would end like this. Yet it seemed to fit once all the pieces were stacked together. Such a shame, really. But what could she do?

Her mind going blank, her Anodite instincts seemed to kick into overdrive. Her eyes glowing, she opened her mouth.

I wanted you to be at home.

I wanted you to be at home.

Could you foresee a day you might not play?

Their faces danced before her eyes. Only then did she see all that she and everyone else missed.

I wanted you to be at home.

I wanted you to be at home.

Could you foresee a day you might not play?

I wanted you to be at home-

It had started after Agregor's defeat and Kevin reverted back to normal. Ben started hanging out with him more and more, ignoring Julie. Kevin did the same to her. It was like their whole relationship went back to square one and no one knew why, or, the two males weren't talking to anyone but each other, giving vague hints to others.

Bascially, after Agregor, there was no one left to fight. Vilgax vowed never to return and everything else was in hiding since word spread.

Kevin and Ben, they got tired

And they'll call you once a week.

'Cause it's strange here,

No dark career

Yes, no hero business to contend to and they were bored, but so were the girls! Here was their chance to have a normal life and they wanted nothing to do with their girlfriends!

Perhaps it was selfish, after all, Kevin went through major trauma for the second time in his life and it was because of Ben. She did think it was their way of coping and going back to the less-than shaky terrain they were on before the incident. But still, she was his girlfriend, didn't that count for something?

They all say they long

To reach their sorrow now

That's gone

She kept singing, her eyes never changing back to their green, instead they stayed pink, images of the past and memories she dug up while investigating the apartment earlier flashed before her eyes. And why the singing? She'd have to ask Verdona when it was over. If it ever stopped.

I wanted you to be at home.

I wanted you to be at home.

Could you foresee a day you might not play?

I wanted you to be at home.

I wanted you to be at home.

Could you foresee a day you might not play?

And then Kevin and Gwen broke up. As did Ben and Julie. In secret, or her aunt and uncle gave into Ben and told no one the details of where he was moving(But they didn't know all of it if they did). Kevin seemed to move overnight, no one knew or thought anything of it.

Until one day Gwen, her parents, Ben's parent's, Grandpa Max, and Julie received an invitation and an address from Kevin and Ben.

They took us in to see their new apartment.

Thinking we're slow and that our love is mean

Once Ben opened the door they were greeted with a decent, well kept, well lit apartment. Kevin was in the kitchen finishing up diner while Ben, smiling a genuine smile at them since his forced retirement from hero business(several months ago), entertained them with how his life has been and asking them how there's was in turn.

Kevin came in, wiping his hands with a dish rag and placed his right hand on Ben's shoulder, smiling down at Ben. The guests knew something was up then.

"Guys, the reason Kevin and I are living together is because…We're dating."

Ben smiled so brightly, so vividly and Kevin beamed, too, though not as bright.(It was because this was their last shot at having it all without having IT all and it mattered a lot to Ben, which meant it mattered to Kevin, but he knew it wouldn't end well-street rat intuition was good that way)

Everyone gasped, disgusted, upset, Sandra tried to take Ben away from Kevin. People left.

We'll leave the green, green

Gwen and everyone heard Ben's sobs and did nothing.

"What do we do now?" Ben sobbed.

Kevin whispered something, even the memories didn't amplify what was said. Only the one line her and Julie heard Kevin say:

'Cause maybe we'll get out somehow

Oh great, she sang what Kevin said in Kevin's voice!

No-one thought of it

We didn't know

She looked back in the house where they laid, wrapped in each other's arms in a pool of their own blood. A tear slipped once again from her eye.

We'd seen their last show

Here's where the memories really piled up instead of interjecting here and there. They came rapidly before her eyes, yet seemed to last as long as her own. Ben hung out with Kevin because he felt responsible, they talked, leaning on one another because Kevin already forgave and forgot, and when it came down to it, they discovered what was right between their faces-they enjoyed each other's company more than Gwen or Julie's. Yet they kept leading them on because they thought once their reconciliation phase was over their heads would clear and they'd see it was just friendly.

Kevin and Ben, they got tired

And they'll call you once a week

It didn't…But they still relied on each other since life was so boring without alien butt to kick!

'Cause it's strange here

No dark career

Ben kissed Kevin first. Kevin reciprocated. And from there the veil was lifted. No sex, that was later, but right then was the heated first kiss of a budding love of two that clung to each other and wanted to try a normal life.

That was when they broke up with Gwen and Julie and moved just outside of Bellwood. Ben told his parents he was ready, he had an apartment and they agreed. They never knew about Kevin.

All that was left was the family and friends to support them…So much for that.

They all say they long

To reach their sorrow now

That's gone

From there, they truly realized that normal wasn't for them. Plumber activity was at an all time low(basically, it shut down again), they didn't need them. Ben and Kevin tried to be my themselves. Julie, in a huff, outted them. The Garage Kevin worked in before wouldn't hire a fag and Ben, with his history of being a 'menace' could find nothing either-though well funded, it wasn't enough.

And you-no dark career

Ben cried the day it was brought up. Both thought the same thing-Ben back when his plan back fired. But Kevin was the only one brave enough to say it out loud.

They all say they long

To reach their sorrow now

That's gone

Kevin took out his Swiss Army Knife and cut Ben's willing-though shaky wrists first. Quick and nearly painless. He then quickly did himself too. Sitting at the table, they clasped hands, staring intently into each other's eyes.

Neither was deeply religious, but each seemed to make a silent vow that if there was something after-they would never be separated.

Tilting to the side, they fell on the floor, but before passing out they entwined their arms around each other and passed out.

And you-no dark career

Gwen finally accepted facts and felt bad about what she had done. She wished to make it up to them. But she was surprised when she opened the door just by tapping on it…

They all say they long

To reach their sorrow now

That's gone

And that's how she found them on the floor, checking for residual memories she discovered what went on with her ex and cousin. She barely remembers how she left the scene of their twisted escape until she leaned against the banister(after she puked).

In a calm anguish she dialed the numbers and, despite the fact that the power that made her sing before throbbed in her head, she managed to ignore it long enough to talk instead of sing on the phone. And after a while cars pulled up, doors opened, and people stepped out. Hoping this would work she made hand signs.

Every last sorrow filled eye turned pink.

And you

It was sung with such self loathing and accusation before turning into sorrowful understanding

No dark career

Seemed to be whispered before they belted out:

They all say they long to reach their sorrow now that's gone.