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Chapter 7

When I saw him he was completely different, he was taller, more muscular, and he had cut his long, black gossamer hair short and spiky. It looked good, but it wasn't him. He was explaining how to drive the bike, I wasn't really paying any attention. I saw the werewolf in him now, there was only one way to make him stay. Tell him the truth. It was déjà vu, and I knew I wouldn't tell him, not yet. I still wasn't ready.

"So have I got this right? That's the clutch, that's the brake, and this is how I change gears?" I asked with a look of concentration on my face, It must have been very funny, and I gave him credit for not laughing.

"Perfect. Do you think you can jump start it yourself?" he said doubtfully.

"Well how 'bout I give it a go?" I said in mock exasperation.

"We'll see," he replied very doubtfully, but all in good humor.

"I think that's a challenge if I ever heard one." I said sarcastically.

"Fine, ten bucks you can't start it yourself in the first ten goes." He challenged

"You're on Buster." And we shook on it.

So I failed at the first two goes, but on the third it caught to life, and growled at me for awaking it from its slumber under rust.

"Ha you owe me ten bucks Buddy." I yelled victoriously over the bikes attempts to scare me off.

"No way that's beginners luck." He defended.

"A deals a deal, you can't back out when you lose." I replied in mock horror.

"Fine, you win" he said with this funny little pout on his face, I had to laugh.

"Well lets go then" I yelled.

Then off I went. I had been in the fastest cars, I had even run faster than this, but there was something about the bike that was different. It was exhilarating, thrilling, nothing could compare what I was feeling now. I loved it.

Then I heard something that sent a chill down to my bones, a wolf howled in the distance and a sense of foreboding came over me. I felt lose in my future, I saw a vision of a dead lamb in my arms at dawn.

Okay, this may sound really weird, but sometimes in my visions you had to decode the meaning. Like dream interpreters I suppose. I knew holding a lamb in my arms meant sacrifice, death meant lose or being deprived, and dawn meant a new start. I knew I had to give something up to gain something, you can't just take from the universe, you had to give back, a balance needed to be maintained.

I turned the bike around and headed back to Jake.

"that was incredible, I have never felt anything like that." I said eyes wide with joy.

"Hey Bella, I know this is crap timing, and that we just got here, I'd love to stay and all. I just realized I have somewhere to be. I'm really sorry. But I'd rather you didn't stay by yourself, if you got hurt no one would be here to take you to the hospital." He rambled on, obviously distressed.

"it's okay Jake," it wasn't,

"I get it," I didn't,

"All I want is my ten bucks," I really didn't care. I said it to let him off his guilt.

"Thanks Bells," I heard a goodbye in that. It cut me deep, and I now saw him as a new werewolf. He couldn't be my friend anymore, he had other commitments, and a real way of finding his soul mate. He could Imprint.

"I won't be seeing you far a while, will I Jake?" I asked solemnly.

"Where did you get that idea?" he asked offended, but not denying.

"I've seen the signs before." A sob broke into my voice and betrayed me. I didn't let him reply.

"Bye Jake," I whispered as I ran passed him. A hole in my chest opened and I was left with nothing but the pain of the loss.

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That night I ran not because I enjoyed it, but because I was as miserable as purgatory ( I can't say hell because its my home, It wouldn't sound right.) I only ran a short distance before I gave up and went home. Then I just sat on my bed and stared deep into myself to find the reason why everything that I ever loved left me.

Then I heard a rustling from outside and I knew Jacob was here to talk.

"Bella! Its me, open the window." His rough voice whispered.

I opened it without moving and he looked confused, but he shook it off. He swung in, landing lightly on his feet. He waited to see if he had woken Charlie. I didn't, like me Charlie didn't need sleep. He was out with my apprentice, Adrian, trying his luck at a casino in Seattle.

When he was finally satisfied that nobody had awoken, he said, "Bella, I'm sorry, you were right this afternoon. That was a goodbye. I was made to do it, but I don't want to lose you Bells. Not for this." He begged me to understand what I already knew.

"But I need you to guess, 'cause I'm forbidden to tell you. But you're smart, you'll figure it out." He said this with such childlike optimism that it hurt me to see him worry about me, and as much as this would hurt me, I had to push him away.

"Don't bother explaining Jake," I remarked sneeringly.

"What are you talking about? What do you mean?"pressed with a look of horror on his face. I almost couldn't take it, I wanted to hug him and tell him everything would be alright. I fought that urge with all I had, it killed me to hurt him more, but I had to.

"Jake I'm not what you think I am, you're too good a person, I don't want to lie but I don't think I'm ready for the truth to come out." I said with melancholic assurance.

"You're making no sense. What's going on?" I could tell he was staring to get pissed off, I didn't blame him. But he was shaking, and that was bad.

"There are werewolves, there are vampires, then there's me. The worst of the worst. Please leave now, don't destroy your chances of happiness on me. You deserve so much more than me Jake." I said this quietly, with no hope left.

"Bella…" he started, I just kept looking down, "never mind. Bye then." And with that he left silently.

I started crying so hard, and didn't stop until I was devoid of any more tears. I cried myself out, and I felt lighter, relieved of all those pains I had carried in my heart.

I was feeling stiff from not moving for a few hours, so I went for an extra long run. I went father then I had ever gone, but it was still a very familiar place.

It was beautiful, a perfect circular meadow filled with wild flowers. It was Edwards Meadow. He had brought me here when we had first started dating. It wasn't as beautiful as it had been when he was here. He shined in the sun, he made everything sparkle. It was bland without him.

Then everything changed. Everything started sparkling, and for an instant I let myself hope. Silly really, he would never come back.