" What the fuck is this! " screeched Bellatrix when she came to stand in front of Snape and Lily, who both looked scared for their lives when they saw her.

" Nothing! It's not what it looks like! " Snape yelled in his defense.

" We're just friends! " insisted Lily.

Bellatrix rolled her eyes. Pretending they did nothing wrong. She wasn't buying it. She turned to Snape.

" Just friends, huh? Then why were you holding hands? And why is she wearing your jacket? And why in the name of fuck did you give her flowers? Answer me! " she screamed.

Now, Rodolphus looked scared, and he wasn't even involved. Snape's eyes widened.

" I..I...we're only.." he stammered.

"You disgusting pig! " Bellatrix yelled.

Lily moved behind Snape. Bellatrix looked ready to kill both of them.

" Well look at you, ya hypocrite! You're here with Lestrange. " Snape pointed out.

" That's different. " Bellatrix stated, simply.

" How is it any different? " he demanded.

" You know damn well how it's different! You know I'm what I'm going through, and you've got some fucking nerve. He's a friend helping me out. You're just an asshole who decided to run off with another girl. And I know why. " she said, referring to her current..situation.

She sounded like she had this all figured out. And she was done talking to them. Then she crossed her arms and turned her face away.

" Bella, no. It's not like that! We're only friends, I swear! We didn't do anything but go to Hogsmede together. " Snape told her.

She still didn't believe him. She knew him and Lily were hot for each other.

" It's true. Please believe us. " Lily said, as if it would make a difference.

" I don't care what you think, filthy, mud-blood slut! And you're dead. " Bellatrix told her.

Lily's face went a few shades paler. She would sleep with one eye open tonight.

" She didn't do anything! And neither did I! " Snape said, firmly.

Bellatrix stared at him for a few seconds. He was different than the other boys. That's what she told herself when she first began to notice Severus. That was one of the things that attracted her to him initially. She felt so stupid and used for thinking that.

" You know, I you made me feel like you really liked me. But I guess I was wrong. We're finished. " she said, almost emotionlessly.

She tired to regain composure. Tried to shut off her emotions. Bellatrix Black would not give them the satisfaction of seeing her cry.

" No! We can work it out! I'll do anything! " Snape said, grabbing her hand.

She responded by smacking him hard across the face and storming off toward the school. Rodolphus ran off in the opposite direction. He would not be involved in this any longer. Snape brought his hand up to where she'd hit him. He could hardly believe it.

" I want to be alone. " he told Lily, before slowly shuffling away.

Lily was left, standing all by herself. She felt responsible. Worst of all, she'd wanted this. But she didn't want Snape to be hurt. Now it was done with. She knew she never should have asked him to come here. And she didn't want to imagine what Bellatrix had in store for her.


Snape collapsed on his bed. He looked at his nightstand and saw a picture of him and Bellatrix. He couldn't bear to see it right now, so he shoved it in the drawer and began sobbing. He hadn't cried like this in a long time. Despite the bullying, he liked being at Hogwarts more than he liked being at home, though he hated both places. At school, he had only one true friend, and was on the wrong end of every joke. And now, he didn't even have Bella to turn to.

Home was worse. His muggle father hated everybody and everything. Especially Snape. He did nothing but yell, pass out on the couch, trash the house, and sleep around. In addition, his father was an alcoholic, and had been beating Snape and his mother since before he was even old enough to go to Hogwarts. Snape hated him for it. But honestly, who could blame him. He couldn't stand when these thoughts came up. He found himself reaching to open his drawer again. And he pulled out a pretty, carefully sharpened razorblade.

Snape brought it up against his arm. He hadn't done this since third year. But before he knew it, he was gliding the blade across the flesh of his arm. He made a shallow, stinging cut which bled immediately. It felt good. More than good. But it wasn't enough yet. He cut himself once more, making a deeper wound this time which also bled quickly and quite profusely. The pain caused him to bite his lip. But it provided him with release. It was as though his problems literally escaped from his cuts. The physical pain helped to cover up the emotional pain. He layed down and continued, on both arms now, letting his own blood stain his clothes and sheets as it rolled down his skin looking like small, red rivers. And still he cried.

At the same time, Bellatrix was letting her anger out. In one of her favorite ways. By throwing a tantrum just like the spoiled child she still was on the inside. She was in one of the girls' bathrooms, screaming at the top of her lungs. She kicked the walls, fired spells that borke the windows, and then ran over and punched the sinks. It caused her knuckles to turn white. They'd bruise for sure in a few minutes. She screamed louder and broke a few sinks with more non-verbal spells. Then she punched the sinks several more times, the jagged edges making her hands bleed. The shattered pieces littered the floor and water sprayed everywhere. And Bellatrix sunk to the floor, not caring if she got wet. Her blood mixed with the water. Suddenly, she collapsed. She was unconscious.


Bellatrix awoke the next morning. In the hospital wing. She moved her hand a little, and winced in pain. Her knuckles were bandaged, but she could see that they were black and blue with open wounds. Then she turned to see Madame Pomfrey, along with her little sisters, Andromeda and Narcissa.

" Why am I here? " she asked, making a move to get out of bed, now ignoring her pain.

Madame Pomfrey gently pushed on her shoulders, indicating she should lie back down. Bellatrix snarled. She hated the hospital wing.

" You, young lady, are here because your sisters went looking for you and they found you passed out in the lavatory. And they brought you here. " she explained, not looking too happy.

" Oh, okay. Can I go now? " Bellatrix asked, rubbing her eyes.

" You most certainly may not go. I'd like you to stay in bed for the rest of the day. Would you care to explain why you were passed out in the lavatory, which you left a wreck, with your hands all busted up? " Madame Pomfrey asked, tapping her foot.

" I'd rather not. " she said, sternly.

" Bella, tell us. It's okay. " Narcissa said, sweetly.

" Mind your own business. I was just upset. " Bellatrix said, sitting up and looking annoyed that she had to explain herself.

" Well, I know why you passed out. And there's something else. " stated Madame Pomfrey, as if Bellatrix should know too.

" Well I sure as hell don't know what you're talking about, so please enlighten me. " said Bellatrix, with her trademark attitude.

She already had a clue though. It wouldn't surprise her, but she really didn't want Madame Pomfrey to say she was pregnant.

Madame Pomfrey took a deep breath.

" The answer to why you fainted is simple. You just got too angry and worked up... And Miss Black, you're with child. " she explained, not making eye contact.

Bellatrix frowned.

" Damn. Are you sure? " Bellatrix asked.

" I'm quite sure. " she stated.

" How are you going to tell mother and father? " Andromeda asked.

Bellatrix shrugged. She really didn't want to think about that.

" Just lay it on 'em over Christmas I guess. It'd be better to say it in person." she answered.

Bellatrix hopped out of bed, fixed her clothes, and picked up her wand. Narcissa crossed her arms with disappointment.

" I'd rather you stay a little longer. " said Madame Pomfrey.

" I feel fine. And by the way, don't tell anyone. Especially not Dumbledore. We clear? " Bellatrix ordered.

" Very well, Miss Black. " she replied.

She had to protect the privacy of the students, unless it was an absolute emergency where parents needed to be involved. Pregnancy was no emergency.

" Good. " she said, before exiting the room.

Narcissa and Andromeda followed.

" You two don't need to follow me. Go to class. I'm okay. " Bellatrix said, ripping off her bandages.

" But, Bella-" Narcissa began, and Bellatrix cut in.

" I said leave me alone. And don't fucking tell anybody. "

The pair took a few steps back. Quite frankly, their older sister scared them sometimes.

" Are you going to tell Snape? " asked Narcissa.

Bellatrix shot her an angry look. Narcissa immediately regretted asking about him.

" Not now, you airhead. I don't want to talk to my ex-boyfriend. Or either of you. Now seriously, get lost. " she snapped.

The girls obeyed, running off down the hall.

Bellatrix leaned up against the wall and slid down into a sitting position once she was sure her sisters were gone. She stretched out her legs, then put a hand to her stomach. She sighed and looked up at the ceiling. What the fuck was she going to do?


Lily was in her room, studying for a test when she heard a knock on the door.

" Come in. " she said, not taking her eyes off the book.

It was James who came in the room. Annoying as ever. She really didn't have time for him right now, she was just too polite to say so.

" Hi, Lily. " he said, smiling.

" Hello. " she said in a sad, uncaring voice.

She still felt bad about what happened yesterday.

" Heard about Bellatrix and Snivelly. You feel like it's your fault, huh? " James asked.

Lily didn't respond in any way. Was this supposed to make her feel better? She just kept reading.

" It ain't your fault. She's just a bitch. And she's too hot for him anyway. That's just the way it is. " he told her.

" It's not that simple, James. Severus was really upset. He didn't come to class today. I haven't seen him anywhere. He probably hasn't even come out of his room. " Lily said, expressing true concern.

" Yeah, that's smart. He's in his room crying like a little pussy, while Bella's probably been off shagging twenty guys today. " James spat, snickering.

Lily gave a small giggle. James might be an idiot, but he had a good sense of humor.

" I'm just waiting for her to kill me in my sleep or something. " she replied, still not looking up from her book.

" Yeah. She's real mean, nasty little skank. You better start sleeping with one eye open. " James agreed.

Lily sighed and set her book down. James took a seat next to her on the bed. He carefully moved a lock of silky, red hair out of the way, and planted a kiss on her neck. Lily nearly gasped.

" You're the prettiest girl in this school. You know that? " James said.

He loved to sweet-talk girls. And he was considered to be quite good at it. Lily smiled awkwardly.

" Um..thank you. " she replied.

James moved closer. Then, he cupped her chin and turned her face so he could kiss her. She immediately pushed him off and darted toward the door. James looked confused as all hell right now. He had girls waiting in line for his attention. And Lily didn't even seem to like it. Damn, she was difficult. But he had to admit, the chase kept him interested. If it was too easy, he got bored pretty fast.

" I don't like you like that. " she said, firmly.

That was a lie. Lily liked James a lot. She said that because she didn't want anything else to deal with right now. She'd go crazy.

" What? " he questioned, looking surprised.

He was used to girls begging for a chance to even stand next to him. And here Lily was, telling him to get lost. Lily swiftly walked away, and slammed the door behind her. She was headed towards the Slytherin common room. Force of habit. She always went to see Snape when she had a problem.


So many of you wanted Bella to be pregnant. I took it into consideration lol. And I've already decided the gender of the baby. I want to hear predictions. Do you guys think it's a boy or a girl? Oh, and thanks for over 1,000 hits! :) Please review. Chapter 9 will be up soon.