Hey everyone, I apologize for how long I haven't updated I was experiencing writers block for months due to my heart being crushed by a idiotic asshole I know no one cares lol from now on I'm going to try to update my stories as much as possible I'm sorry again I read all of your reviews and they make me really happy I'm glad you guys enjoy my writing. Love all of you readers xo.

Jakes POV

The rest of our ride was completely silent and I couldn't help but feel like a complete douchebag because of what I said to her if only she knew that I do care in fact I fear that I care too much I've missed her more than I can ever say leaving her made me feel like I've left a piece of me behind I treated her as if she were nothing to me when in fact she meant everything she was everything and she still is I look at her so beautiful and innocent despite of what I found her doing and I can see the tears that she is trying to hold back and the ones that escape and she wipes away quickly hoping that I don't notice oh how I want to wipe them for her and kiss her beautiful mouth. These thoughts are eating me up inside , I turn on the radio to kill the silence and continue driving to her house.

Faye's POV

When we get to my house I rush out of the car I can't wait to just get inside curl into a ball and really cry my eyes I know I meant nothing to him but hearing him say it all over again after a year of being gone just makes everything feel so much worse jake drives off and I go straight to my room and open up my draw and do what I haven't done in about 6 months now I pull out a razor and put it to my wrist going over the still visible scars I sob I just want all of this pain to go away it hurts so badly I continue cutting as more tears roll down my face then I hear my phone ring it's a text from Melissa it says she's coming over I quickly put away my blades and wash off the cuts and roll my sleeves down I can't let her catch me doing this again she'll tell my mom this time. The cuts sting and go numb and I want to cut again to feel that pain to feel something other than my heart break all over again. I want to hate jake so bad but I can't I want to hate for how he's made me feel but it's impossible and I'm trying I'm trying so hard to move on and I just can't and it's killing me.

Melissa's POV

I didn't go to nicks today I ignored all of his text messages .. I've been thinking a lot about our arrangement and I'm tired of degrading myself "you know you love it" a voice whispers to me from the back of my mind I shake the thought away and I hear my phone ring it's probably Faye to ask me what's taking me so long I answer the phone without checking who it is and I hear an arrogant nicks voice " Melissa baby I thought we had plans not that you're needed I had myself a foursome going on earlier while you were rudely ignoring me I would have loved for you to join however I'm in a mood for a late night quickie while I'm home before I go to this rave tonight you down ? Or do I have to have a talk with Faye tonight or maybe I can tell jake and he'll tell her for me for kicks" he laughs and I roll my eyes he can't tell Faye tonight I want to tell her sometime this week I'm just not ready yet and I don't want to catch her in the wrong time and she starts hurting herself again "I'll be there in 5 mins jerk" I tell him "that's what I like to hear sexy , I'll be waiting baby" I drive to nicks house thank god he doesn't live far from Faye we'll have a quickie and I can just rush over to Faye's for the night after "it's never quick with him that boy can go for hours" my inner freak tells me and I blush at the thought I knock on the door and he opens it with a devilish grin and behind him 2 blondes and one brunette come out and rushes pass me the brunette just in a bra and I give him a disgusted look and deep down I'm jealous that they're the ones who were pleasing him all day when it should have been me .. He gestures for me to come in smirk still in place "finally those bitches were starting to bore me babe you have this spell on me that makes me only want your sweet tight pussy" I roll my eyes at him trying to hide the fact that the minute he said that heat formed in between my thighs and I was immediately moist. We go upstairs and I am both disturbed and aroused at the sight of his room there's handcuffs , rope , blindfolds and so many kinky sex toys some that I've never seen in my life "I didn't get a chance to put this all away hold on feel free to speak up if you see something you like although I don't wanna share that pussy with any of these plastic shits I just had to entertain myself with those sluts , no one satisfies me like you do no ones pussy hugs my dick like yours like if it doesn't want to let go of me.." His voice darkens as he picks up the last thing handcuffs "shall we put these to use darling ?" I stare at them this will give him full control .. Everything in me is screaming yes but my mind is saying no I remain silent "not that I'm giving you a choice anyway would have made me even more hard seeing you say yes, lay on the bed I changed the sheets for you " I roll my eyes again as excitement stirs within me and I listen to him he helps me undress until I am only in my bra and panties handcuffs my wrist to the headboard and only one of my ankles but leaves the other one free what does he have in mind ? He's already shirtless and in his boxers so all he does is pull them right off letting his length spring free my mouth waters and my clit twitches I want him already "I would blindfold you but I want to watch those eyes of yours while I fuck you senseless and look into them and tell you that only I can fuck you this way only my dick can go as deep only my hands can caress and squeeze that tight ass of yours as I'm buried deeply inside of your sweet wet tight pussy." I feel like I'm about to explode by just him speaking he crawls on top of me so that he can remove my bra leaving me just in fm panties he puts one of my nipples in his mouth and nibbles it the pain feels amazing I stifle a moan and he starts sucking as he pinches my other nipple I can feel him get harder against my bare thigh with his free hand he rubs me through my lace panties I'm sure he can feel how wet I am for him and I know it pleases him he's driving me insane I'm so close and he continues sucking pinching and rubbing he's pushing me over the edge and I feel it begin to build and I think he knows cause he sticks a finger inside of me I tug at my restraints oh how much I want to take control and ride his rock hard dick his finger goes faster and faster and I unravel moaning loudly hoping the neighbors don't hear me. I'm not completely satisfied I want him. Inside of me. .deep. "So sexy " he whispers in my ear and pulls down my lace panties and cups me "mine" he says darkly and I think my pussy may have purred he puts on his condom and slides his cock up and down my clit and I moan louder "oh fuck" I scream "please nick please" he slides up and down faster and puts my free leg on his shoulder and I spread wider feeling him more "please" I moan and slaps my clit with his dick "beg baby you know you want it" he grunts and I whisper "please baby " and without warning he enters me roughly and I yell out his name As he pounds into me "fuck,babe so fucking tight .. Ah.. Yes so wet for me" he says as he goes deeper and deeper slamming into me "ahhhhhhhh I think I feel it in my stomache oh god you're so deep" and he continues to slam into me and I feel myself build again and he goes slower "what the fuck keep going" I say annoyed "no baby you're gonna feel all of me before you cum" and he goes slower and then deeper letting me feel his whole length slowly go in and out of me "nick please" I say and try to squeeze him "oh fuck I love it when you do that stop before I cum before you" he says squeezing my ass hard I do it again "faster then" I say pouting "ahhh..stop" he says and I hold "fuck it" and he slams into me again "YESSSSSS" I scream "fuck baby" he says and buries himself deeper and I explode around him and he follows right after me and collapses on top of me still inside of me as deep as ever.