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You know what? I like switching point of view in a chapter so I might do it again.
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Maya's POV
"What was that?" Katie asks me accusingly sitting on her bed as she combs through her wet brown hair.
"He was being nice. I was crying, and he was just trying to help." I tell my sister wiping my eyes one last time looking at her.
Katie rolls her eyes still combing her hair, and asks "Why were you even crying? Did you fall again?"
I sigh knowing that Katie will never understand what I feel. Dad adores her. He goes to all of her games and is her number one fan. How do I even explain this in a way that she will understand?
"Dad was being a jerk. He pretty much said that I suck at cello, and it hurt my feelings." I tell her hesitantly knowing that she's going to be a jerk about it.
"Oh my god Maya, you're such a drama queen! Get over it! It's just a stupid instrument." She rolls her eyes standing up and obviously not caring. She's such a bitch!
"How would you feel if dad thought soccer was stupid, and didn't go to your games or never let you talk about it?" I retort sadly still sitting on my bed.
"I'd get over it because I'm not a baby! Who freakin cares? You're seriously annoying me with the stupid pity party you have going all of the time." Katie yells at me as she searches through the closet for an outfit.
She'll never get it. She's such a bitch and she will never understand how it feels to have dad cancel on something important to her to go to something that I could care less about. She'll never know the feeling when dad calls right before you are supposed to go on stage to tell you that he won't make it because he has a lot of work to do. He runs his own business and always sets his own flexible hours. He could've showed up. He just didn't want to.
I feel tears streaming down my face again and Katie turns to look at me. "What is wrong with you? Stop crying! This is why no one cares about your shit. You're too freaking sensitive." Katie shouts annoyed.
"Things were so much easier when you were a kid. You were tolerable! Now you're just annoying!" Katie continues throwing a few clothing options onto her bed as she flips at me. It's making me angry at this point.
"You have no idea what it's like to have dad hate you and you never will because you're daddy's little soccer star! You know what else you are Katie? A Bitch!" I yell at her walking out slamming the door behind me.
I find myself walking into my old room forgetting that we had Cam here for half a second.
"Sorry" I apologize after walking in and seeing the boy on his laptop skyping his family. I quickly turn back around closing the door behind me and sliding down the wall right next to it.
I'm so sick of Katie and dad and everyone. Cam peeks his head out the door quickly frowning at me sadly. "Hey!" he says sympathetically smiling at me with the cute smile that makes my heart melt just a bit.
"Hi" I greet pouting on the floor about my sister. He comes out of the room, and holds his hand out to help me up. I take it, and stand up. "Go skype your family!" I tell him feeling bad that he is out here talking to me instead of talking to them.
"Well, do you need me? You came in there?" he asks concernedly before smirking at me.
"Oh… Force of habit. I forget things when Katie pisses me off… such as your existence." I laugh embarrassed that I just barged in like that.
"It's nice to know that you can forget me that easily. I thought you were my only friend here." He laughs putting a hand over his heart with a fake shocked expression.
"School hasn't even started yet. You'll make more friends." I smile at him widely tapping his arm. He frowns at me, and I don't know what I said. He sighs, and it's obvious that something is the matter.
"Are you alright?" I ask him curiously biting my lower lip. He nods his head sadly before returning to his room, and I follow him in to see his laptop open with a face that looks similar to his smiling.
"What's wrong?" I question as takes a seat on his bed. "Nothing, I said I was fine." He smiles at me… I can tell it's forced.
"Who are you talking to?" the boy on the screen asks Cam curiously as Cam notices him still there. "Um… Maya." He tells the boy nervously biting at his lip.
"Ooh! Can I meet her?" he asks still grinning widely at Cam. The brown haired boy on the bed looks up at me curiously "Wanna meet my brother?" he asks with the warm brown eyes.
I put on my thinking face for a minute before deciding… What the hell! "Sure" I reply shrugging my shoulders as Cam scoots over on the bed patting the spot next to him for me to sit.
"Hi!" I wave at the older boy on the screen as I sit down next to Cam on his bed. "Hello Maya! I'm Justin! I've heard so much about you. Seriously, you are all this boy talks about." The older boy greets jokingly as Cam brings his hand to his forehead smacking himself.
I glance over at the boy next to me and realize that he is extremely red at his brother's comment. Does he really talk about me? Why?
"I hope it's not all bad." I giggle smiling at the screen.
"Nothing bad. It's always Maya's so pretty. Maya's so smart. Maya's so nice. I had another dream about Maya!" he mimics in a high voice that sounds nothing like Cam's.
I feel my own face heating up as I look at Cam sitting next to me shaking his head at his brother. "I hate you!" he murmurs to the screen looking flustered.
"I don't say that!" he tells me trying to assure me that he's not weird. I find it too adorable how flustered he's getting at his brother's confessions to me.
"He really likes you." Justin continues laughing at his brother's reaction. "That's enough of that!" Cam says closing the laptop and moving it over to the dresser.
"Sorry about him." Cam apologizes still looking very mortified. It's so cute.
"No big deal. Your reaction to all of it is just hilarious." I tell him nervously biting my lower lip. "You're all blushy." I smile at him as he sits across from me on his bed.
"Sorry." He apologizes again looking down at his lap to hide his red cheeks.
"Again, no big deal. So… what he was saying." I mention nervously hoping that his brother wasn't just lying to make his brother mad.
"What about it?" Cam asks swallowing nervously and picking at his bottom lip with his not bandaged fingers
"Any truth behind it?" I question as my heart starts racing. What am I thinking? If he doesn't like me I'm going to be crushed. I'd rather not know.
He looks around the room anxiously and swallows loudly once again before meeting my gaze. "A little…" he trails off quietly looking extremely scared.
"So… you like me?" I ask him hesitantly as my hands start getting shaky and clammy. He nods his head slowly and sadly and a rush of relief flies over me.
He likes me! I've never been liked before! Oh my gosh. A guy that I like likes me! This is the best feeling ever!
"I like you too." I tell him with a surely geeky grin causing him to look away running his fingers through his mousey brown locks anxiously.
"I'm not allowed to like you." He insists looking distraught. "Your brother will kill me."
"Don't worry about Trevor. He's not going to do anything." I assure him shaking my head at how worried he is.
"You don't understand. My team is supposed to be like my family, and so far they all hate me. I have no one… I can't make our brother any angrier at me… This was easier when I thought you would never like me." He sighs sadly fiddling with the band aids on his fingers.
"You have me!" I tell him cautiously noticing how nervous he is getting. He gives me a forced smile as I stare into his brown eyes. He looks so sad. It almost makes me feel guilty for the delirious happiness that I am experiencing at the thought of him liking me.
"Everything will be okay! I promise! Trevor will get over the stupid party thing, and your team mates will like you eventually. How could they not? You're great!" I assure him with a sincere smile patting his back as I scoot closer to the sad boy.
"I hope you're right." He adds looking back down at his hands. I think I can feel his heart pounding under my hand on his back, but that's ridiculous right?
"Maya!" my dad's voice calls loudly up the stairs and into the room with the closed door.
I swallow loudly before standing up. "I better go!" I tell Cam shyly walking out of the room without a response from him.
"Hey dad…" I greet awkwardly coming down the stairs. My father raises an eyebrow at me, and then I am reminded that we are fighting. Cam got my mind away from how irritated I was with my dad.
"Alright… Come sit." my dad orders sitting down on the couch and patting the seat next to his.
"Am I in trouble? I'm sorry I stormed off. I was just a bit upset." I apologize as I sit down. I hate getting yelled at.
"No… You're not in any trouble. I just need to talk with you for a minute." He shakes his head as if it's silly that I thought I was in trouble. I've been in trouble for storming off before. I got grounded for a week when I did it when Grandma was visiting.
"So when you went upstairs Campbell said some things to us that got me thinking. You know that we care about you and love you more than anything right?" he asks sounding sincere and gentle.
"Yeah" I answer awkwardly not really knowing what he wants me to say. "Really? Campbell seems to think that you think that I don't care." He continues. Did Cam really say something to my parents? Is he stupid? Why would he do that?
"I know that you love me and care about me… I just sometimes feel left out. I don't really know how to explain this. You are always so proud of Trevor and Katie, but when it comes to me you act like everything I do isn't good enough." I tell him sadly as tears start forming in my eyes.
"And I know that you aren't really interested in all of my music stuff, but I'm actually really good at it, and you act like I just suck at everything I do." I continue the tears falling freely down my face as I admit the way I feel to my dad.
"Maya, I'm so sorry for saying that about your cello. I honestly have no clue what passes for good cello music… And I'm sorry for not making it to your last couple recitals. Honey, I love you. Don't ever feel like I favor your brother and sister. You're my little girl no matter what. Okay?" my dad says with a sincerely guilty face as he hugs me and kisses my forehead.
"I love you too" I respond wiping my tears taking in what he had just said. He really is just that clueless. He doesn't hate me.
"I promise you, honey. Your next recital, I will be in the first row. I don't what I have to miss. I'm so sorry." He continues looking as if he is going to cry because of how bad he feels.
"It's okay, dad." I tell him with a slight smile wiping my few remaining tears. "Thanks!" I tell him finally hugging him back.
"Alright kiddo, what are your plans for today?" he asks readily standing up and grinning widely at me.
"I don't know yet. I haven't even gotten dressed!" I smile at him matching his enthusiasm because I find it funny.
"How about you and I do something? We haven't had a father daughter day in years." He tells me happily.
"Katie has a game in a couple hours." I tell him still smiling as his face falls. "You're right… how about tomorrow?" he continues raising an eyebrow at me.
"You promised Trevor to take him to buy new cleats for football season!" I continue laughing at the fact that I know my dad's schedule better than he does.
"Okay… We'll clear a day before school starts. I promise!" he continues looking sorry again.
"Don't worry about it, dad. If you don't criticize my cello playing and you come to my recitals, I'm a happy camper!" I tell him smiling before racing back up the stairs giddily.
Back to Cam's room I knock on the door several times waiting for him to open it, and when he finally does I wrap my arms around him gratefully.
As stupid as I thought it was for him to tell my dad it may have been the best thing ever, and it's for sure the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me.
He stumbles back surprised as I loosen my grip on him holding my hands on his shoulders, and he's giving me a curious look. "You're the best!" I tell him smiling widely at him. "Seriously, I could kiss you!" I continue really wanting to, but knowing that it would cross the line.
He smiles down at me still not knowing what I am so happy about. "What did I do?" he asks his hand on my hips for a brief moment before I glance down and he realizes that they had lingered. "I'm sorry!" he apologizes quickly pulling away completely.
"You stood up for me! That is the nicest thing that anyone has ever done for me!" I tell him wrapping my arms around him again.
"You're welcome? What did your dad say?" he asks me pulling away from me quickly, but still standing quite close to me.
"He said sorry, and he told me that he never meant to make me feel that way. He promised to come to my next recital! You're seriously my hero!" I grin giddily putting a hand on his shoulder.
"Well… I'm glad it worked out. Does that mean I'm not getting sent home for telling off your dad?" he asks curiously putting his hand on m shoulder.
"I hope not! You're my favorite!" I laugh meaning every word in some way as I look up into his brown eyes.
I pull the trigger. I do it! I connect my lips to his pulling his shoulders toward me forcefully as he submits obviously not feeling too taken aback by it. It's my first kiss ever, and it last like 5 seconds before I push his shoulders back scared that I had done something wrong.
"I'm sorry!" I apologize quickly walking out of the room and into the bathroom pacing back and forth awkwardly.
I just made things really awkward. I probably suck at kissing… and he's a freaking sophomore. He's a lot more experienced. Why would you do that stupid?
Cam's POV
My heart skips multiple beats as she collides her lips against mine. Utter and complete shock flows through my head as I try to grasp what is happening. The second I start reciprocating movement (or starting it seeing as she wasn't really doing much of it) she pulls away.
She rushes out, and I am still to shocked to move. I bring my hands up to my lips touching them where they had made contact with hers. It was so weird… in the best sense of the word.
It was awkward for both of us, and she obviously had no idea what she was doing yet it still felt amazing, and there are very few things that I wouldn't give to have her lips back against mine.
Cam, you need to chill. This could get you in some serious trouble. This is jeopardizing your relationship with your billet parents, your team, and most of all Trevor. The one team member who tried to be nice to you would be furious if he found out you kissed his little sister… the off limits one…
The pretty one, the smart one, the sweetest girl you've ever met with a bit of an attitude that makes her that much more desirable.
She's so adorable, and she kissed me. I've never had this happen to me. Girls that I like never like me back. I've had girls like me, but they're all really weird and slutty a lot of the time.
The sweet ones never go for me… until Maya. I can't help myself. I want to be around her all of the time and kissing her 80% of the time.
Quickly finding the girl n the open bathroom I look at her with a smile. "You kissed me." I say awkwardly not really know what to do other than state the obvious.
"Yeah… I'm really sorry. I don't know what I was thinking. I am so awkward. Can we just forget it ev…" I cut her off with my lips after closing the bathroom door to give us some privacy.
"I thought you weren't allowed to like me?" She smiles up at me breathlessly after a longer lingering kiss.
"I know… I'm not. I'm not allowed to kiss you either, but I don't know. I'm so glad that you made the first move." I grin down at her knowing how terribly I would regret this later.
"We don't have to tell anyone." She tells me probably being able to see the worry in my eyes.
I nod my head before leaning back down to her lips. This time I guide her through it making it better for both of us I'm sure.
"Okay...I have to go… get dressed. It's almost noon, and I'm still in my pajamas." She laughs patting my chest and backing away toward the door.
I'm left alone in the bathroom as she closes it behind her and then Katie walks in.
"Woah!" She says quickly shocked at my presence. "What are you doing in the bathroom with my sister?" she asks fiercely with a frown.
"Nothing!" I say quickly moving past her in the doorway. Shit! This is going to be harder than I thought.
Look at this… I'm already regretting it, but at the same time I'm so happy about it. Talk about fickle.
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