Aya awoke early; he didn't sleep well even though he felt loved in Yohjis embrace. The night before had created a few new wounds on his soul
~ I don't want to believe I'm one of his whores. No he loves me he really does…
Yohji don't leave me behind; don't let me rot in this darkness of mine…. ~
Aya was lost in his thoughts so he hadn't noticed that Yohji turned around in his dreams and hit him accidently. Not hard but Aya got scared and fell almost out of the bed, for one moment he though he made the blond angry and got punished.
Yohji woke up as he heard a hard breath and felt the fitful movement next to him "Aya?" he rubbed his eyes.
"It's nothing go back to sleep" the redhead tried to calm his hart down before Yohji could notice his lie.
Yohji watched him before the realization hit him, his arm lay near Ayas chest
~ I scared him. I shouldn't sleep so soundly! I must be careful before I scare him off ~
"I'm sorry if I scared you" Yohji approached him slowly "do you want to sleep more?"
Aya nodded, he snuggled closer before he wrapped his arm around Yohjis slender waste.
He won't let him go, it doesn't matter how high the price would be he had to pay, his hearing, his voice, he would even sacrifice his soul only to stay with him forever.
"You're possessive" Yohji detected it was unusual for him to cling on him
~ They must have hurt you … stupid girls. I should hang them on the next beam. It doesn't matter if you stay blind but I want to see something in your eyes … they're so beautiful.
Even Asukas eyes weren't so beautiful … she was nothing compared to you ~
Ayas answer was to lose the tight hug but Yohji were stupid when he won't stop him. He took Ayas hand and led it back to his waist "Don't you dare to let go"
The swordsman smiled, the blonds voice were friendly so he wasn't angry at him "I won't"
Yohji rested his head on top of Ayas while he caressed his pale shoulder "Good"
They slept peaceful until Omi knocked on the door "Yohji wake up, you're late for your shift"
Yohji grunted, he hated nothing more than to work early in the morning but know he had a good reason.
He had to work harder to cover for Ayas shift. Aya didn't notice Omis knock he was too far away in his dreamland again.
Yohji got slowly out of bed; he didn't want to wake his redhead. He grabbed his clothes and disappeared to the bathroom.
As Aya finally awoke he felt Yohji absence. It was cold and he couldn't get used to the darkness. He felt invincible
~ I was never a part of the outside world but now I'm far away from being a part of them.
I can't live with the darkness, I want to see him. I want to see all the things he wanted to show me. Can you live with me like that? Can you really give your heart to me?
Once you said you like beautiful and perfect things but I never was perfect and I will never be, especially now.
Will I start to be more and more invincible to you and the world? Will I be a fading memory of the past? ~
Aya felt the darkness in his heart and knew it was time to release his frustrations it was time to get rid of the nagging feeling of death.
He headed for his room and searched for his Katana "Where is…?" he spoke to himself while he tried to remember where it was.
After a few minutes he found it, Yohji must have taken it out of the way to protect him.
Aya made his way to the roof, it was chilly and the air smelled like it rained last night.
He started to practice at the beginning he had to be careful not to slice himself but he got used to it.
He wanted to master his weapon even in his current state. It was important to be strong because he had a family to protect and he didn't feel so useless and weak anymore.
He swung his sword with grace, his movements didn't look as elegant as normal but he would work on it. Aya felt how his breath became heavy and his muscles ached "I only train for maybe an hour" he sighed.
He was totally out of practice and this was disturbing
~ I have to be faster and more concentrated. Even if I have to stay the whole day on the roof I will train until I'm pleased with me ~
Aya wanted to get rid of his frustration but he got more and more frustrated instead. His weakness and blindness made him angry with himself.
After two more hours he broke down, every part of his body ached and he was out of breath so he decided to stay there. As if he had another choice.
The kids were shocked, Yohji worked he really worked "Is he sick?" Omi whispered to Ken as Yohji helped an old lady.
"I don't know but it's scary" Ken whispered back while he watched the blond "Maybe they fought again?"
"I hope not you know how it ends the last time" Omi shivered as he remembered Ayas fall.
"Should we ask?" Kens eyes didn't leave the blond.
"Buy something or leave!"
Omi dropped his cup of tea and Kens chin fell, did they really heard what they heard?
"Has he said buy or leave?" Omi stammered.
"I think so" Ken stared at the blond as if he gone nuts.
The girls shrieked and ran because of the Aya like glare they got. They decided it was a bad day to annoy him.
"That's fun" Yohji told himself before he turned around and faced two shocked kids "What?"
"Nothing" Omi headed for a pot of flowers and pretended to work.
Ken wasn't sharp enough to flee and wrangled with himself if he should ask or not "Why did you kick them out? And why the heck do you WORK?"
Yohji looked surprised "Aya can't work so I have to do it instead and I always wanted to try Ayas buy or leave trick"
"So you didn't fight?" Omi plucked up his courage
"No" he shook his head "I think it's even better than before"
Omi beamed "That's great" he loved them like brothers and was happy they got along well.
"But I'm worried … I have the feeling he keeps a secret from me" the blond leant against the counter.
"What's wrong?" Ken asked serious and looked around to make sure there weren't any customers.
"What does he do with his frustrations?"
"What do you mean?" Omi wasn't sure what he meant.
"He's scared of me, I turned around last night in my sleep and accidently hit him not hard but he freaked out. He didn't show it but his breath was heavy and his heart beat fast.
Yesterday in the park and on our way home we met two girls I had dates with, they offended him but he didn't show what he felt. I don't know what happens with all the emotions … I'm afraid he vents his frustrations against himself. I mean I hit him when he pissed me up but he never raised a hand"
The boys remained silent, they thought about it for a while and came to the conclusion they didn't know either.
"I don't know" Omi said thoughtful and Ken nodded "Me neither"
"But we never saw anything like cuts or drugs…" Omi mused.
"I think his way of punishment is different, like you said we never saw wounds or drug and alcohol abuse" thanks to the boys Yohji was more concerned than before.
"Maybe it's not as bad as we think" Omi smiled at him "He's our Aya"
Yohji smiled back, the kid was right maybe it was only his imagination. He felt better than before even though he will keep his eyes open.
