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I got nominated for the Golden Chocolate Awards! I am so excited so if everyone could please vote for me July 26th. The link is: http://goldenchocolateadwards(dot)webs(dot)com/voting(dot)htm
I am so sorry! I really meant to update sooner, but I was a little stuck on what I wanted to happen in Bella's point of view so I worked on my other fanfiction ideas so I could put them up on fanfiction. A reviewer asked me if I was going to do anymore Edward point of view's and then I thought that I would do another Edward point of view for you guys. Also, I posted another story so please check it out. It is called Lucky Number Seven.
Chapter 8- Drowning
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"Then she was gone. I could hear her light footfalls getting farther and farther away from me as she ran. I ran to her grave, placed down the flowers I had in my hand, and the collapsed as my body shook with my dry sobs, as the shock and hurt and impossibility of it all took over me."
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I continued to shake for another minute while my brain processed everything I just saw. It could not possibly be Bella. Why would Bella destroy flowers on her own grave?
Because she likes to suffer alone. The rational part of my brain said.
But why would she run? Why would she run from me? Does she really hate me that much? Why am I sitting here? I need to be going after her! All of my questions and all of my thoughts focused on one thing. And that was to go after my precious Bella and tell her I loved her, to ask for her forgiveness.
I jumped to my feet in the matter of seconds that it took me to focus all my thoughts. All my questions were still nagging at the back of my mind as I started running in the direction I had last seen her. I sniffed the air trying to catch her wonderful scent which was so much like her human scent of freesia and lavender and strawberry.
Then I heard a clap of thunder and it started to rain. I mentally cursed this tiny town for raining almost constantly while I pushed my legs to go faster than I had ever run before. I needed to find her before the rain washed away the trail her scent left.
It started to rain harder and I saw a bolt of lightning hit a tree. I could immediately smell the smoke from where it hit but it was raining so hard that it had no hope of igniting. The smoke from the bolt no matter how insignificant it was clouded my senses. I could not pick up her scent! It was fading with the rain.
I stopped immediately. I lost her. I couldn't find her. And I felt my will crumbling again. I started running again at a slower pace trying to catch her scent or see some sign that she had passed through here, but the rain covered up anything she might have left behind.
I ran through some more trees and found myself near a river. I walked to the water's edge my shoulders hunched and with the last of my effort gone I crumpled to the ground with my last piece of hope shattering and my heart breaking again with it.
I looked at my reflection in the river and could see why she ran from me. I was a monster. I was not worthy of her love or to love her. I was lucky enough to get a first chance with this angel. How could I ever have thought that I could catch her and have another chance with her?
I punched my reflection letting the pain course its way through my body. My body began to shake as I was overcome with my cries. I shook as I cried for Bella, for my reason worth living. I cried for breaking up my family and I cried for being turned into this monster. I cried for not being able to cry tears as I shook with dry sobs.
I felt myself choking and gripped at my chest. I felt like I was drowning. I wanted to be drowning. And with that thought I fell over the edge of the river and let the water pull me under. I let the currents from the onslaught of rain bash me through my body against rocks. I closed my eyes and let the water have its way with me.
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Sorry it's so short. Again thank you so much for the reviews. I respond to each one of them so feel free to give ideas or ask any questions. Please Review and go check out my poll. And please tell me if you like me doing Edward's point of view or if I should stick with Bella's or if I should alternate. I would really appreciate the feedback. Please check out my other story Lucky Number Seven. Thanks.
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