Hi
so its epov time
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I can't believe how tonight turned out, I get major turned on by a stripper which never happens to me. I find it hot but dame that girl had me so hard I had to have a cold shower when I got home. When me and Emmett first arrived at the club I was really in the mood as I need to speak with Bella but Emmett wanted to go out, I didn't want to go but I knew Bella had work so I agreed just so I could see her.
We pulled up at twilight club which looked really busy, but Emmett saw a guy he knew right up the front of the cue, after 5 minutes of waiting we was finally in the club. Emmett took off to the nearest bar but I wanted to look around to see if I can find Bella. I went to all 5 bars and she was nowhere to be seen, I went back to find Emmett who was now standing at the bar with two girls all over him.
Always a lady man
"Emmett I can't find her" I shouted over the music
"Just leave her be Edward, she is working, she is most properly out the back"
"Yer well I'm going to ask someone"
"Edward don't, look will looking like a stalker if you start going round asking her, just leave it" I knew he was right but the thought of her in the same room and not being allowable to see her was killing me. I left him went to ever bar asking for her and the reply was the same "no sorry, I don't know any Bella" I said maybe they called her Isabella but still same reply "no sorry"
Why would she say she worked here if she didn't, Bella never lies so why would she lie about her job or maybe she didn't have a job, maybe she had a guy.
No this is Bella we are talk about, she might not have a guy but she is up to something and I'm going to find out what it is.
I found Emmett again but this time he had a different girl on his arm but he looked like he wanted saving
"Emmett I'm going to head out,"
"Ok give me a minute" he turn to the girl gave her a quick kiss on the cheek and got up from the sofa booth
As we got outside the club I headed to the taxi rank but Emmett pulled me back
"We are going in there my brother" I looked up to see what he was on about and it was our mate Jacobs strip club which was next door to the club
"I'm not in the mood"
"That's the point they get you in the mood" he elbowed me
"Emmett no I need to talk to Bella"
"She working Edward"
"No she's not, you said she worked here but no-one has ever heard of her"
"Well ….maybe It the club down the street" he pointed to his right
"Well lets go there then" I went to turn in the direction he pointed but he pulled me with him to new moon.
"No we are having a guy's night just you and me, you will leave Bella alone, you will see her tomorrow OK" he was holding tight on my arms, shaking me lightly "I haven't been here in years I normally go out of town but I'm in the mood for naked girls, and also I spoke to Jacob earlier said he has the best girl looking dancers so I said we would pop in and say hi"
"OK" I held my arms up so he would let go of me, I couldn't help but laugh at him he look like a 7 years old waking up to Christmas but instead he is a 22 year old man whore, who is about to perv over half naked girls, you would think he would be bored of strip clubs as he go weekly to the one in Seattle but no, he loves the fact you can look but can't touch.
The club had changed since I was here last. It was dark and very classy. Jacob stopped us straight away, he headed over as we was staring at a photo of a girl sitting on a chair sideways while pouring water over herself, even though you couldn't see her face or tit, you could tell her nipple were rock hard.
"Fuck me that's hot" Emmett said as we both stared at the picture with our mouths open
What I would do to suck and lick them till she screams my name
What the Fuck what am I saying
No I wouldn't do anything
Yer right
The only girl I want to scream my name is Bella and that final.
Jacob was sitting us into a private booth when he called over a girl called Heidi, I didn't take much notice at first but then when she came nearer I noticed it was the girl from the picture, she was fucking hot dressed up as a nurse.
Emmett couldn't take his eyes off her until he saw a blond girl working the poll, he said it was Bella mate and with that he was off like lightening, he not a picky guy but he loves the blonds.
There was something about this Heidi that reminded me of Bella, brown hair brown eyes but she had loads of make up on, when Bella didn't wear it and she didn't need to either. Heidi was easy to talk to, most stripper play a guy so they can get the money but with her she seem real, and looked like she was interested on what I was saying. I asked her if she knew I Bella or Isabella, she hesitated at first but said "no sorry"
I teased her about not sure if this was best strip club I had been to, she offered to help me decide. This ended up her offering to dance for me.
I was going sit out front while she danced but for some reason I wanted to be alone while she showed me her moves.
I paid Jacob and he didn't seem too pleased but he warned me I could hold her waist but nothing more. Even if she did do extra's I wouldn't go there, to me that's just wrong.
She had changed into black lace bra and thong which was sexy as hell but what topped it off was the garter belt, stockings and high black fuck me heels.
Music was on and sitting in front of me was this sexy woman playing with her nipple while gridding her arse into the chair, but all I wanted was Bella to be gridding me like this women was doing to the chair.
Lucky chair
I moaned a couple of time as she moved, I was always I picturing Bella was in front of me instead of this girl, after a little while of watching her on the chair she pulled me up and pressed me against the wall. This girl was killing me. She was facing away from me and pressing her arse into dick, which was fucking rock hard.
It felt so wrong doing this, knowing how I felt about Bella but it also felt too good to not enjoy.
As she was facing away from me, all I could see was her long brown hair and body, I closed my eyes picturing it was Bella in front of me now and with that thought I got even harder. I started to rock my hips into her arse, while my face was pressed into her neck. She smelt just like Bella did, which was even easier to picture her instead of this women. I felt bad as she was enjoying this, her breathing was heavy and fast and she was moaning as we moved together.
We was starting to speed up and now I was getting nearer to coming in my pants
"OH FUCK" I hissed out
Music had stopped and now I was holding her breast in my hand rubbing her nipples in between my thumb and index finger, she was a great pair of tit. Not too big and where no way small. Just a perfect size for my hand.
This woman was perfect in many ways but she wasn't my Bella.
She turned round and the look on her face was pure lust, she looked a lot like Bella it was a little scary but different at the same time but at this moment in time I wanted to carry on pretending it was Bella.
I wanted one kiss and nothing more, just one kiss.
Our lips connected but before either of us could deepen it Jacob come storming through the door, he told her to leave the room and they would talk later, I felt bad but my dick didn't.
When she left he started shouting at me, telling me I was way out of line. He said he had just started dating her and didn't need me coming in fucking it up for him.
I was surprise when he said that as she didn't seem the type to be with slime balls like Jacob and also I didn't think she would be dating someone while doing what she did tonight with me but who am I kidding, I didn't know the girl. She could be the biggest slut in town or an actress for all I knew.
I just wanted my little fantasy of me and Bella to be true but the thing with fantasy is, they never last.
After Jacob little outburst I left the club to head home. Once I had eaten, showered and relieved of my little problem I headed over to Bella's it was about 4.45am but she wasn't in.
So I waited, I know there was a chance she wasn't coming home but while I had the guts to put my heart and soul out for her to take, I wasn't going to back out.
I sat on her door step for about 45 minutes or so, when she pulled up in her car.
She was surprised to see me, or was she nervous, I don't know but all I know is it was now or never.
"Why you up so late" she asked me while looking through her bag
"Me and Emmett went out" I couldn't look at her, I felt guilty and a little sick, at the thought of tonight rubbing up some girl while picturing this beauty that was standing in front of me
"Ok but why are you sitting on my door step" she was still messing around with her bag
"Well I wanted to talk to you about something, um what you looking for"
"My keys, so what do you wanna talk about"
"Well… I need you to know that I'm in love with you Bella. I always have been and always will be. When we was younger I always wanted and need you by my side, you was my partner in crime and I used to pretend we were together, like boyfriend and girlfriend. Up until I fucked it up by pushing you away but I'm done pushing you away Bella, I want you and not as just friends but if you only want friend ship then I'm fine with that but either way this time its forever" I took a deep breath, I felt relieved it was finally out in the open, yer I know I lied about" I'm fine" being friends but if she didn't want me then I would rather be mates then nothing at all.
I was too scared to look at her
I think I heard her She hiss "fuck"
"So now you know everything" I look up at her but she wasn't looking at me she was looking on the ground trying to find something
What the fuck
"Now I know everything about what?" I stood up off the step, I was a little pissed now as it just seem I put my heart on my sleeve for her to blow me off " Did you not hear a word I just told you?" I hissed at her trying to keep my voice down but she looked pissed
"You said you wanted to talk then you turned round and said now I knew everything, I don't know what you're talking about?" she was pissed, did I anger her that much, did she hate me that much? For her to just blow me off like what I said was nothing
I was a pissed but also felt sick to my stomach, I put my heart on my sleeve for her to lie to me, making out she didn't hear a word I said, I would of rather her be honest and say "no sorry Edward but I don't like you" or "sorry but we can never go back, you fucked it up years ago, now piss off and leave me alone" or" I can't stand to be in the same room as you let alone be with you"
I was never going to get my Bella.
I lost my heart
I lost my soul
I lost my Bella
As she bends down to pick something up, I walk away.
That night or should I say morning, was the best and worst drinking section ever.
Best because it numbed the pain But worst because the numbness didn't last for long.
so what you think?
Do you feel for Edward or do you think he deserves it? As he's the one to fuck it up in the first place.
