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{LexiPOV}
I had been seeing alot more of sam lately. He always seemed to show up when noone was around... Talk about bad timing. No matter how much I tried to convince him to stay and visit with Jacob, he would always decline and leave shortly before Jake would come home.
Paul was mopey. He seemed to either sit on my couch watching TV, While munching on my barbque chips or he was on patrols. He seemed almost heartbroken, but would never tell me what he was upset about. Jake refused to tell me to. Said it wasnt his secret to tell... I respect that. But I was starting to worry.
The shop was doing good and Christmas was approaching fast. Of course, Daisy was coming down for christmas. Luke had decided to stay home and spend it with his brothers. Daisy would be arriving in a week so I had been working overtime to finish getting the christmas lights up and her room cleaned and ready for her to stay, And Jake was making sure their was plenty of firewood. We had been going through alot of it to keep the house nice and toasty.
He was avoiding me. I couldnt understand why. I thought we had finally moved passed that stage, But it turns out I was wrong. I sighed as I applied another coat of my favorite mascarra and misted my face with my setting spray. One last tossle of my blue locks and I nodded to myself in the mirror.
All us girls had decided to go out for a bit of drinking and dancing tonight, because it was finally a night that Leah was off from Patrols. It took alot of begging on my part to the alpha... who was a prick and fought me the whole way. He finally gave in when I told him I would cook him up a pot of my famous deer steak and gravy for supper before we left on our night out. I agreed only if he brought me the deer... Which he did. And I had to commend him. He did a pretty good job processing it... All by his lonesom to.
I pulled my boots on over my tight blue jeans and pulled my black leather jacket over my black and red halter top, finishing the outfit with a scarf, I grabbed my gloves and keys from the dresser and made my way to the kitchen to give supper one last stir.
"C'mon yall, suppers done." I called out to them setting the food on the table for the boys to chow down on.
"What time you gonna be back in?" Jacob asked, his gaze flicking in my direction, then back down at the food. I shrugged.
"Dont know." I answered. Then hope filled my chest... was he worried about me? "Why?" I asked, trying to mask the smile.
"No reason. Just needed to know if I needed to do the dishes tonight is all?" He said dismissively. I felt my cheeks heat up in Irritation... Ok. What the fuck? Really?
Grabbing my wallet and cigs, I hurried out to the truck and slammed the door shut. This mother fucker was starting to grate my damn nerves. And this folks is why I need to go out for some drinks. Before I choke his big ass.
The bar was in full swing by the time we got there, but we didnt mind. We ordered our drinks and made out way onto the dance floor. Nothing was going to ruin this night.
We spent the night dancing and drinking till we just about couldnt see anymore. I even introduced them both to Whiskey. They had never tried it before and since we were all drunk anyways, it would go down smooth. And thats what started the body shots.
The men in the bar were constantly trying to hollar at us women, asking if they could lick the spills off of our bellies or boobes. One actually tried and got punched in the adams apple by Leah.
It wasnt until almost closing when I was shocked into sobriety. Bella walks in with Jacob on her arm. Leah and Emily... Knowing how I felt for him, rushed up to my side and took an arm.
"What in hell is this shit!" I hissed. I had been trying to get him to notice me. He acts like he wants me one second then the next im nothing... and now this? But I thought... I felt the sting of tears but shoved them back and placed a smile on my face. Turning to the girls.
"How about another round, Huh ladies?" I asked throwing my arms around them. They smiled and nodded.
"Hey sugar, how about another round?" I asked sweetly to the bartender. He nodded and pured them, sliding them across the bar top.
I caught Jacobs eyes as I caught my shot in my hands. Lifting the glass to him, I downed the shot and a few more after... Then drug the girls to the dance floor for some distraction. I would hate to go over there and beat pretty little miss Bella's face in. Tonights a good night for drinkin'.
{JakePOV}
"So, I told Jessica that I would go shopping with her tomorrow for the shoes and maybe even get a few myself. What do you think Jakie? Do you wanna come with us? Ill model some victoria secrets for you." I had barely heard bella as she was talking. I was to busy watching Lexi order drink after drink, shot after shot. And each time, she would let another greasy fucker grab and dance all over her. I made me sick to watch.
I jurked my head in Bella's Direction when she called my name.
"Huh? What did you say bella?" I saw her huff as she repeated her eailier statement. I shook my head.
"Bells, I told you. Were just here as friends. Im not getting back into this with you. I dont think either one of us is ready for that." I told her. Her face flushed red again and she huffed irritably.
"Why not? I miss you Jakie... Dont you miss me to?" No... not really. Hey, Im being honest.
"Uhh, yeah. Of coure I do Bells, I just dont think we need to jump back into that right now. Its to soon. We need to stay friends for a while." Bella smile softly. And I saw my Bella in her eyes.
"Ok Jake. I understand. But if you ever need me, let me know. Ill be right there." She said, getting up. "I gotta get home. Going shopping with Jessica and Alice tomorrow." She said and kissed my cheek. I watched her leave and sighed a sigh of relief. I was ready to get home myself I was going to sleep in tomorrow.
Paying the bartender, I walked out to the parking lot and pulled the keys to my motorcycle.
"Lexi, Ill give you a ride home. Im not letting you drive like this." I heard Leah say. I searched the parking lot and found lexi shoving the girls back with small giggles.
"Im fwine ladies." She giggles. Then jumpes into the truck and cranks it up. The fuck she is. Hopping off my bike, I stomp my ass over to the driver side, rip the door open and slam the truck in park before she could even take her foot off the break. Good thing to. It was in drive instead of reverse. She would have made a drive through to the bar.
"Hey! Who the fwuck do you think you are?" She screamed as I pulled her out of the driver seat.
"Your not driving." I told her and began to pull her around the other side of the truck. I felt deep irritation start to set in as she began to struggle and hit me on the chest and caught a couple good swings to the face.
"Let go!" I pulled her around and slung her against the side of the truck softly. Surprisingly she just bobbled there a minute without argue.
"You two go on home. I got her." I said. I felt them mean mug me slightly but nod their heads and left in Emily's car.
I hauled Lexi into the passenger seat and buckled her in. The fight had just evaportated.
The ride home was slow and quiet.
"I dont need you to save me." She slurred. Lighting a cigarette.
"Yes you do. If I hadnt you would have drove the truck straight into the bar."
"No, I know how to Drive!" She countered going to take a drag of her cigarette, but dropping it on the floor board. "Shit!" She hissed, leaning down to grab it. A soft thump was heard and she leaned back up, cigarrett in hand, the other holding the back of her head.
I sighed. We pulled up to the house and she slung her door open and began to puke. The smell was horrible, but I reached over and pulled her hair back. When she finally came back up for air, She looked ready to pass out.
I scooped her up and pulled her from the truck with me, walking her into the house and set her down on a chair in the kitchen while I made some coffee and got her some asprin for her unavoidable hangover.
"Im tired..." I shook my head and handed her the medicine.
"To bad. Here take this. You hit your head and Im not about to let you go to sleep yet." I said, pouring her a cup of coffee and making it up the way she likes it.
"Thanks." She mummbled as she swallowed her coffee and medicine. We sat in akward silence for about an hour. I kept her coffee cup filled and slowly she began to sober up.
I took in her appearence. She was a beautiful sight. And if Im being completly honest, down right sexy. I feel my heart being given to her without even trying... And it scares me. I just got it back.
I know that if it also hadnt been for her, I would probably still be blinded by bella... I couldnt tell if she wanted me either. Im so used to our fights, I cant even tell when or if she flirts.
"Jake..." She said softly. I looked up at her and saw a confused, hurt look deep in her eyes which she was trying to hide with confidence. But I saw it.
"What?" I asked kinda harshly, turning back to the coffee pot to refill once againa and finish off the pot.
"I thought you were gonna let bella go?" She asked. Her eyes shining so much hurt.
{LexiPOV}
Maybe it was the haze of the drink, but I needed to know what was going on. And for some reason I had a suspicion my eyes were betraying my confidence I felt from the strong mix of whiskey in my system.
"I am. Bella and I were just hanging out like old friends. Nothing more... Plus its none of your damn business anyways. So hurry and finish your coffee so we can both go to bed. Im not gonna baby sit your drunk ass all night." He huffed, but for a split second before he spewed the shit fountain from hell, there was a smidge of regret and guilt.
I could feel my fight instincts rise up in my chest. I was tippsy but nowhere near drunk enough to be talked to like that. I jumped up from my chair, feeling my buzz fly right out the window as my hands began to itch... SMACK!
I swung with deadly intentions and landed across the back of his head. Almost instantly my hand began to throb and he reached up to place his hand to the back of his big wolf head. A look of pure amazment in his eyes and disbelief. I huffed for a second, glaring daggers at him.
"You like talking down to women like that? Does it make you feel more like a Man?!" I walked up slowly to him and got nose to nose with him the best I could. "Listen up wolf boy, I have not ever and will not ever be talked to like that when I have done absolutley nothing to deserve it. I want you to remember that for next time you decide to grow a pair like that. Next time I wont slap you, Im gonna punch your adams apple out the back of your neck. You want to go to bed? Fine, go to bed. I never asked you to stay up with me in the first place. Last time I checked I was a big girl and could take care of myself." I said and snatched my cigs from the table to go outside to smoke. I was in such a hurry to exit the room that I knocked my coffee cup off the table and heard it shatter on the floor. Well just my damn luck huh?
Seeing that the asswhole was still momentarily stunned, I snatched the broom up and began to sweep up the broken glass. Thats when he decided to come back for round two.
"You can take care of yourself but all damn night you were letting different men dance and touch all over you... Dressed as a common slut and tried to drive while drunk. How the fuck can I trust you in my house if you are already breaking shit in your drunken mind." He yelled at me. Ding Ding mother fucker.
I swung the broom. Not even caring where it landed, but watched with satisfaction as it cracked down the middle of his shoulder blades. The broom made a creaking noise as it almost broke from the force of the blow... oops... hes a wolfykins. He can take it.
"Im alot more covered then you usually are. And another thing, like you said. Its none of your fucking business who I danced with tonight. So up yours. And that coffee cup was mine. If I feel like breaking one again, Ill be sure to smash it over your head next time." I threw the broom in his face, which unfortunatly he caught before it could land another hit. "If you dont trust me in you house, you clean up the mess mutt face." I seethed, and stomped away with my cigaretts in tow.
I sat outside on the swing trying to calm my breathing and my temper at the same time. The cigarette doing wonders on me. I had just lit my second cigarette when he walked out the door onto the back portch and sat next to me.
I knew he was waiting on me to say something so i started the conversation we were in need of at the moment.
"I dont know what is going on with you lately, but never... I have never been talked to the way you talked to me tonight... never have I been so insulted and made out to be trash before in my life. I didnt do anything to you to deserve that." I said dragging on my cig.
"Oh yeah? Well the fine line between my shoulder blades says differently." He hissed. I turned to look at him with irritation.
"You deserved that! You stood there while I was once again not doing anything to you and called me a fucking slut and drunk. I dont go out much so I dressed nice. And I hardly ever drink. So what you called me was uncalled for. And insulting in a deep way." I said.
He huffed and looked straight into the woods.
"Im sorry. I didnt mean to say that... I was just mad. Noones ever hit me except Bella..." I cut him off.
"I dont care what Bella did. All I care about is us living together without killing each other and every time you go around her, you become this mean and hateful person that I know your not. And if you ever talk to me like that again I will most likely beat you ass again. I will not be talked down to like that... ever." I said passing him a cigarette which he took.
"Like I said. Im sorry for that. I guess im just a little scared." He said with a sigh.
"And pray tell. Whats the big bad wolf afraid of?" I joked with a smile.
"You." He said, finally looking me in the eyes. I was stunned into silence. "You scare me because I fell my heart being given to you without my permission... and I just got it back." He admited, taking his hand and tucking a lock of my hair behind my ear and slowly tracing his fingertips down my jawline before pulling away. It was all I had not to let my jaw unhinge and drop to the floor...
Quickly I recovered... Clearing my throat, I took another drag.
"Well, I understand that. To be quite honest. Im afraid for the same reason about you. I dont want to be hurt again... Look, I know your still mad and so am I... lets just take it a day at a time and see where this leads us... We should probably get to bed... And hope that tomorrow is a better day then today was." I said standing up from the swing.
As I was walking away I felt him grab my hand and I turned to look at him.
"I would never hurt you... not on purpose... But I dont even know if I remember how to be in a relationship." He said, and I smiled at him.
"Thats ok... we will start off as friends and take it a day at a time. And if we decided to try for a relationship... we can learn together." I said and walked back into the house. He walked in behind me.
"Goodnight Jake." I said and walked to my room.
Hopefully tomorrow was a better day. I did feel kinda guilty for smacking him with the broom... but damnit the man makes my blood boil... and not just in one way to... which scares me a little more then I'd like to admit...
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