The sight of the two made you feel everything that was negative. Sadness, anger, disappointment and most of all, jealousy. You quickly turned around and walked right out of their sight, placing the cups on a nearby table before quickly walking right up to the kitchen. You opened the fridge to search for something that could help you distract yourself; eating sweets. You prayed to the lord that hopefully there was anything that will fill your sweet tooth. With luck on your side, you found your favourite flavour of ice cream in the freezer. You grabbed the whole tub and grabbed a bottle of water from the fridge before going to the drawer to grab a spoon as a medium to consume your feelings out through ice cream. You turned and swiftly ran out of the house, past Burgerpants, drunken BunFace and their friends who were in the terrace.
The garden connected to the house was where you ended up. You didn't mind, an hour or two away from the party that dragged your emotions down was a very appealing idea to you. You walked up to a giant tree. Must have been ancient because its trunk was bigger than your own body and the leaves cover almost one fourth of the garden. You sat down on the other side of the tree, away from the commotion inside the house, and opened your tub of sweet delicacy. Scooping up a spoonful, you looked at the sky, a bit surprised that more stars were visible tonight. The coldness of the ice cream that was now in your mouth reminded you of the Void and with the train of thoughts in motion, you ended up with the memories of you and Gaster together in the Void. Tears threatened to pour out and they did; but you wiped them away as soon as they came.
Sighing, you ate more of the cold dessert. Your aim tonight was try to forget what happened just moments ago the safe way. The ice cream way. And to be honest, it wasn't working well. The more of the treats you ate, the more the sorrow filled you. The feelings felt too much to bear and finally, you set the spoon down in the tub, hugged your knees and cried.
I'm so stupid…
Of course he's not interested in me. He just needed my help…
If no human likes me, why would a beautiful bastard like him would…
GAH, YOURE SO STUPID!
Tears just poured from your eyes one drop after another. Your negative thoughts consumed your overall clear thinking and all those memories you shared with Gaster only made your feelings even worse. You couldn't think of a logical and fair reason to why he did it since your head was filled with negative thoughts but that was okay for you; you just wanted to cry your heart out right now.
The third person I liked in my whole life and this is how it ended up… great…
The sound of dry leaves crunching behind you made you quickly wiped your tears and snot away. The footstep grow louder and louder before finally stopping. You tilted your head upwards to the side and saw Burgerpants and BunFace. He had the blue bunny's arms around his shoulder for support as the said was in a drunken state. You sniffed and move to the side a bit, giving the signal for them to sit next to you. Burgerpants removed BunFace's arm off him and sat next to you, one leg close to his chest one stretched out. BunFace's swayed side to side dangerously and the moment he took a step forward, he fell on to the both of you. His upper body laid on your lap while his lower body on Burgerpant's lap, making him straighten both his legs with a light scowl. Burgerpants noticed your sore red eyes and stuffy nose.
"Hey, what happened, lil' buddy?" he place the palm of his hand against your cheek in a worried way.
You shook your head and gave him a sad smile accompanied with a sniff. You didn't felt like talking about it now but you were probably wrong.
Burgerpants frowned at this. He removed his hand from your cheek and now instead placed it over your own hand that was on your lap and gave it a light squeeze. In return, you looked away from him as you let a few drop of tears slipped by. This only made the orange cat more worried.
"How long have we been buds now?" he suddenly asked.
"Huh?"
"How long have we been best pals now?" he asked the question again.
You sighed before saying, "I don't know… A really long time?"
"Yeah, a reeeally long time. So long that neither of us remembered how long it has been, yeah? By now you do trust me, right?"
Guilt tripping.
This orange asshole…
You sighed but smiled a tiny bit at his attempt to comfort you. You knew he meant well, it just that you weren't sure on how to tell him. You were about to start the tale but BunFace interrupted you by turning on to his side and wrapping his arms around your waist with his face pressed against your stomach. He mumbled slurs of words that you couldn't understand. You and Burgerpants stared at the passed out blue bunny with eyebrows raised in confusion. You smiled and buried your free hand in the fur of his head, stroking it. The situation that was filled with comfort from you best friends made your feelings grew and after a few sniffs, you were crying again.
Burgerpants only waited for you to calm down patiently and stroke your hand tenderly, as if saying he was still there, still willing to listen to you. He leaned his head against your trembling shoulder and in return, you put your head on top of his own. Your sobs ceased slightly and with his other hand, Burgerpants wiped your tears away. The two of you sat there, in silence, under the stars just in each other's comfort. Finally, with the lump in your throat gone, you told your friends, more like friend since the other one was passed out, what had happened inside the house. Burgerpants only stayed quiet with his head on your shoulder and his hand occasionally giving yours a reassuring squeeze. When you were done, he gave you a couple of moments to calm yourself again.
"Have you talked to him about it?"
"No… I couldn't. I ran here…" you insecurely admitted. The moment you saw what happened, your mind just instantly thought of the worst case scenario. It was just how your mind run.
Burgerpants hummed a bit before advising you to go talk to him. "But take your time," he continued, "talk to him about it in private. Maybe when you're at home."
"Gee, Burgy, that's the best advice I've ever heard from you." You chuckled.
Burgerpants in return gave out a short laugh, slightly amused by your reaction. He now grabbed your hand with both of his hands, trying to warm his used to be free hand. You shifted your sight to your best friend's actions to help you deal with your sadness. BunBun hugging your waist and Burgerpants clutching your hands. It was sweet, the two were the closest being you have ever got and you were grateful for it. The three of you have went through a lot of things and this would be just another one.
"Why don't you go home now? I think you've had enough socializing for tonight." Burrgerpants suddenly said. You took a few second to think before shaking your head.
"I can't." you simply said.
This caught Burgerpants off guard.
"Why?" he removed his head from your shoulder to stare at you.
You giggled slightly and finally said, "Bunny over here won't let me go. So does your hands."
Burgerpants looked at the blue bunny and then his hands, which were wrapped around yours nicely. He chuckled and let go before picking up the bunny by the arms, which made BunFace groaned. He got up, with the unconscious bunny on his shoulder once again, and somehow extended an arm towards you. You gladly took it and he pulled you up. The two of you started walking back towards the house before you suddenly halted.
"Wait!" you called out.
This nearly made the orange cat dropped his friend. He turned around and lightly scowled at you.
"Whaaat?" he groaned.
"What about the ice cream I took?"
He started at you as if you just grew a third eye. After a few second, he broke out in laughter. "Are you serious right now?"
"Yes! Why wouldn't I be?!"
"Aah, you're adorable. Just leave them there. Carl will pick them up. Now come on, I'm tired holding this drunk bunny!" he turned around and started to walk again.
You smiled and followed him close behind. You noticed Gaster was standing just on the other side of the sliding glass door that separated the terrace from the living room. Your smiled faltered and you quickly looked away once he saw you. The three of you finally reached the terrace and Burgerpants settled BunFace on the sofa with the rest of his friends. He opened the sliding door for you, completely ignoring Gaster's presence, and closed the door once you were in. The air was awkward and thick with Gaster there. Finally, you and the two monster reached the front door. Gaster by now was just following you with no questions. Burgerpants opened the door and gave you a comforting smile. You hugged him and said your goodbyes before going out of the door. The cat said nothing to Gaster and shut the door once the skeleton was also out.
The two of you walked in an uncomfortable silence with him following you close by. You had a closed body language displayed, hands in your pockets and head low. The bus stop was now in sight and before you could walk any closer to it, you felt a bony hand grasped your arm. You turned your head slightly towards the owner of the hand, who had a worried look plastered on his face, and gave him you're the best smile you could mustered up right now, which was a sad one.
"Dear, what is wrong…?"
He's calling me dear… haha…
You ignored him and continued walking towards the bus stop. It was already dark, around 11 at night, and the last bus to your home should be pulling up in a few minutes. Finally you both reached the stop and you proceeded to sat down on the seat. Gaster sat on your left and placed his hand on top of your lap, as if asking you if you were alright. You only stared at the hand, your own hands in your pockets, up until the bus pulled up. There was only one or two people within the bus, excluding the driver, so there was a lot of spaces to sit. Too tired to go upstairs, you sat down on the first floor next to the window. Gaster sat next to you and called out your name but his voice was muffled to you.
Why am I so upset over a kiss…?
This is stupid…
You unconsciously leaned against Gaster, which he worriedly accepted, and he had his arms wrapped around your waist. The bus ride went by blurrily and you and Gaster finally reached the front of your building. You walked forward but felt Gaster holding on to the hem of your jacket like a lost child. You sighed and moved forward. Unlocking your apartment, you walked in, hanging your jacket on the coat hanger by the door and was about to walk towards to the kitchen before a pair of arms wrapped themselves around your torso as soon as the door closes. You tried to peel his embrace off you but the more you tried, the tighter the hug got. He leaned down next to your ear and whispered something with that deep, velvety voice.
"Why are you avoiding me?"
Why am I avoiding him?
Why?!
The line snapped you.
You forcefully shoved his arms away and turned around to face him with clenched fist.
"Why? Why?! Why do you think Gaster?! I saw you, I saw what you did with t-that girl! You think how I feel towards you is just something you can take advantage of so y-you can get out of the fucking V-Void?! It isn't! Just because I'm not a very attractive or smart person doesn't mean I don't have feelings too and what I felt for you were true and yet you do that to me!" you shouted at him with body trembling from anger. And yet you had hot tears dropping down your cheeks. You were panting and huffing once you let the all of the negativity out of your system.
Gaster stared at you with wide eyes. Well, eye. He remembered what happened at the party and thought that you hadn't seen it. He reached out to you with shaky hands, afraid as if he would hurt you more.
"Dear, I—"
"Don't dear me! Why? Why did you do it Gaster? Why? I thought I c-could trust you! Was I not enough…?" you interrupted him and smacked his hand away, earning a look of hurt from the skeleton, before you slowly slid down to the floor. You sat on the cold wood with your legs folded and your hands pressed against your face. You sobbed on to your palms as you thought about what he had done.
The sight of you breaking down like that broke him and as soon as you hit the floor, he too was on the hard cold wood with his arms wrapped around you. You weakly hit his chest a few times, mumbling about how unfair it was through your sobs. Gaster gently rubbed your back in an affectionate way, his best effort to calm you down. He leaned down and kissed your forehead a few times before wiping your tears away. He held you close as your sobs and sniffs eventually calmed down.
"Listen to me. It was a mistake, alright? She had one too many drinks and mistaken me for someone she knew somehow and then she just…came at me…" he whispered to you.
"Then why didn't you push her away…" you moaned out to him in sadness, burying your face further into his chest. He hugged you tighter.
"I did. Did you not see it?"
"…no." you mumbled from his chest.
The two of you stayed like that, in front of the door, him holding you close as you tried to calm down.
"Do you believe me?" he suddenly said.
"…"
I kinda still do…
"I guess… I don't know…" you sighed.
Gaster stayed quiet for a moment before he leaned back and gazed at your face. Your eyes were puffy from crying and your nose was red from producing too much snot. He grasped both of your cheeks with his hands dipped his head down to give you a quick, yet comforting kiss.
"Good enough for me right now." He said after breaking the kiss.
You stared at him with tired, sleepy eyes. He looked back at you and felt how lucky he was to have someone as adorable and patient as you were. He had never met someone like that and frankly, he thought to himself that he had found the one. Everything about you were perfect to him and no matter how bad things got, you still would be. He leaned down and kissed you on the forehead before gently picking you up bridal style. Gaster carried you down to you room and laid you down on the bed, pulling the cover over you. He took off your shoes and climbed under the cover himself after taking off his own.
He slipped one arm under the crook of your neck and placed his other arm on top of your waist before pulling you close. You lightly gripped on to his shirt, breathing in his smell as sleep slowly consumed you. Your legs were tangled with his own in a comfortable way as you felt him trace circles on your waist. All you heard was his voice telling you all the reasons why he loves you and all you felt was the occasional kisses he left on your forehead and temple as you fell into your peaceful slumber.
A sweet, medium length chapter that might just warm your heart after the storm :) I had fun writing this one, it was cute and fluffy. Kinda like a cotton candy. Sorry if it's not really what you expected but coming up with ideas for this fanfic is kinda tough. If you have any doodles on this story, feel free to share it with me! I would love to see how creative you guys are :D Anyways, that's all from me this chapter, feel free to drop by reviews! Thank you for reading this story, thank you for spending time with us here in TSITL with Gasdork, Burgerdork and Bundork. I love you all so much 3
Goodnight, dear Readers :)
