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"You knew the terms and yet you still couldn't restrain yourself" "It was self defence. Why aren't you getting that?" John nearly shouted at the official "Calm yourselves. Dr. Watson you shall be granted permanent visiting, even Gregory may drop in to receive help with cases" "I'm not going back" Sherlock grit his teeth hard, a storm was raging inside his mind, it was near impossible to not set it free "No..!" Sherlock was aware he was having a breakdown but right now he didn't care about humility "No... No, I can't go back. So much achieved so much time..." Sherlock sobbed as he dropped to the ground huddling himself into the smallest ball possible. John knew he needed to act smart "Sherlock" John softly spoke again, the Detective shook on the ground, covering his head with his blue hands "Stay away..." John knelt down beside his younger, the windows, mirror and walls were beginning to glaze over, "Shh shh shh, it's alright. I'm here" John wrapped himself around the shaky man, rubbing his back with one hand while the other held him tight, the ex-army Doctor could feel the coldness creeping up on him but he ignored it, "Sherlock, I'll be with you every day, if something happens I'll be the first to know and defend you. Try and calm down for me, yeah?"
Sherlock lifted his head ever so slightly, green blood-shot eyes met calming blues "I'm sorry" "Don't be, like before I need you to take deep breathes for me and if you can, untangle yourself and sit up for me" John's voice was fair but firm. No-one had treated Sherlock with this amount of kindness before, it shocked Mycroft that John wasn't screaming or panicking, the former solider remained a steady rock to the whirlwind that was Sherlock's body and mind "One..." "Excellent, let's try four more, you don't have to count if you don't want to" John felt a chilling squeeze on his thigh "T- Two" "Brilliant" "T-Three," Another beat "Four" Beat "Five" Smiling at his achievement Sherlock spread his legs against the crunching floorboards "I have to go, don't I?" "Unfortunately Sherlock, but I'm going to be there, I doubt you'll even be there long enough for anyone to notice you were gone. I'll lie and say you needed a break from everyone. Tiringly Sherlock turned his head onto John's shoulder, looking at his with glassy eyes "Thank you, John Watson..." Sherlock was out, slumping against John while still being hugged.
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