JANUARY

BELLA'S POV

The last week of our break kind of passed with an blur as we adjusted to life as a mini family. Sometimes it was frazzling but all in all it wasn't so bad. The day before we returned to school we got confirmation from Carlisle that Jasper was in deed Jasper's son. That established now we had to come up with a way to distinguish between the two. Jasper officially became Jazz to the family and Baby Jasper ended up Jay. It was the easiest way for us to know who was being discussed in a conversation.

Emmett had been the one to push the separation when he jokingly tried to diaper Jazz when Esme told him to change Jasper. We had all been laughing hysterically when Esme and Carlisle walked in. Emmett was always good to light the atmosphere and lift the haze that was settling. I was truly going to miss him the most out of the three that had returned to school. They had only been gone three days and Rose had called at least a dozen times to check on the baby. I had teased her about it and she just laughed and told me it was hard to leave him behind. She was ready for kids but Carlisle and Esme would kill her if she got pregnant before she finished college. That led to a bitch session about double standards.

The first day back at school was difficult. I wasn't use to this feeling of separation. Compounded by the fact that the last few days my morning sickness had taken a turn for the worse and I was down right miserable. Not to mention my anxiety was compounded by Jay's first day at day care. I didn't like it and I sure as hell didn't hide that little fact. I had argued with Jasper late into the night about me leaving school. He was pissed at that idea. I could always go back later and finish. He wasn't budging. No way in hell was he going to let me give up my education because some bitch got knocked up.

We loaded Jay into the car and took him to daycare on our way to school. I had cried all the way from the daycare to the school. I hated leaving him with perfect strangers. Jazz held my hand running circles over the back of it with his thumb as we drove. When we pulled up into the parking lot, Jessica and Lauren's jaws hit the ground when Jazz walked around and opened my door. I slid from the truck and smirked. I knew where there attack had been headed. They had seen me in the unfamiliar SUV they just didn't realize I had been with Jazz. A part of me was happy at their annoyance that they no longer had ammo to try to separate us.

Jasper hugged me kissing me tenderly before pulling both our bags from the back and carrying them in, one arm still wrapped around me securely. People stopped and looked as we met up with our normal group. Peter, Charlotte, Angela, and of course Alice who had opted to drive today. Charlotte immediately took my arm as we walked through the school with Peter behind me. This was a standard thing for us sense someone had hit me from behind and bruised me. Jasper didn't want anyone near me. Alice and Angela walked just slightly in front of us both planted where no one could get to me from in front either.

We managed to make it to lunch before shit really got bad. Jasper and Peter ended up in a fight with Mike and his bitch team and once again faced suspension. I was pissed so when Lauren decided to get pissy well, I got pissy right back. Needless to say, I was in a shit load of trouble. Jasper was pissed because I got in a fight and was pregnant, the school was pissed because I punched Lauren, Lauren's parents were pissed because I broke her pretty new nose, Carlisle was pissed because I could have gotten hurt, and Charlie was livid because I got suspended. The cincher however came when the school informed Charlie and Carlisle that my presence was disruptive to the school. Jasper had flown off the handle when the Head Principle suggested strongly that they withdraw me and have me home school so that life at Forks high could calm down. He assured them that I would still retain my credits however my pregnancy was now to prominent to conceal and parents were upset that I was still at school. I was setting a bad standard for all high school kids.

Carlisle had sent me home while he and Charlie dealt with the bullshit at the school stating that the stress was not good for me or the baby. I had gone when Jasper carried me to the car and put me in. He was pissed but he didn't want me stressed out any more than I already was. We picked up Jay and he drove me home before returning to school. An hour later he, Charlie, and Carlisle came in and the fight was on. Jasper and Carlisle were arguing, Esme was crying, Charlie was glaring at both Jasper and I, the baby was crying and I was at my breaking point. I felt funny, I didn't feel pain, just something was off. I had bent down and set Jay on the floor. I didn't want him to get hurt if something went bad. I had just stood up when a wave of dizziness hit me. I heard Esme scream and the world went black.

Four days later I woke in the hospital. A frazzled Jazz sleeping on the couch against the wall. Monitors were beeping all around me. I moaned softly as the arm cuff inflated taking my blood pressure again. Jazz was up and at my side instantly. "Baby, look at me." His voice cracked. "Bella."

"Why am I at the hospital Jazz?" I asked as he dropped the rail and sat on the bed brushing my hair from my face. "What happened. Where is Jay. Is my baby okay?"

"Shh, you're alright. You passed out. Dad said your blood pressure was to high, to much stress on you. You have to calm down baby. Jay is with Mom at home, he's fine. So is the baby. Relax for me honey." I watched as he flipped open his cell. "Dad, Bella's awake." He nodded and closed his phone. "Dad's on his way. He'll be down in just a minute." He kissed my forehead and I moved to kiss his lips. I felt him relax next to me as the door opened.

"Isabella, I'm very upset with you, you should have told me you were having dizzy spells young lady. How do you feel?"

"Like I could sleep for the next 5 months." I smiled softly. "Sorry Dad, I didn't mean to scare you. I didn't want everyone to fuss."

His face softened and so did his tone. "How long have the dizzy spells been going on Bella?"

"What dizzy spells?" Jasper looked from me to Carlisle.

"A month, maybe two. I just figured it was part of the pregnancy thing." I sighed. "It started getting bad just before Christmas."

"Wow, okay, you have high blood pressure honey which simply means that you need to be less stressed. For this reason and this reason alone your Dad and I have agreed you should be removed from Forks High and home schooled. Now that being out of the way, you also show signs of gestational diabetes. We're going to continue to monitor you at home and see what is going on. I want to run a few tests while you are still here then Jasper can take you home." I nodded. "I'm glad you're awake because in about 15 minutes, they will be coming to do an ultrasound. If you want to know the sex, they'll tell you but if you don't want to know, I suggest you tell her as soon as she comes to hook you up." He smiled as I nodded my head and smiled at him. "Until then just sit back and relax and enjoy Jasper waiting on you hand and foot. As soon as you think you can get up on your own and go to the bathroom, I've ordered the Catheter removed. It was only there because you were unconscious."

"I'll call the nurse when she's ready to get up." Jasper said softly taking in all the information.

"I'd like it to remain until after the ultrasound if it's not to terribly uncomfortable Bella." He patted my leg and left the room.

"Baby why didn't you tell me. Bella, you have to talk to me, I can't take care of you if you don't tell me this shit." Jasper looked deep into my eyes.

"Jazz, I honestly just thought it was normal. I know I should have asked Carlisle but it honestly never occurred to me." I sighed as someone again knocked. Esme carried Jay in and the lady for the ultrasound came in behind her.

"Bella, if it makes you uncomfortable for us to be here, we can step out. I can go get coffee with Carlisle. I wanted to see the pictures of the baby however." Esme come over kissing my cheek.

"No, it's fine. You've already seen my belly Mom." She beamed at me with tears in her eyes. I knew what it was, this was the first time I had called her Mom ever."

"You're in big trouble young lady, you should have told us you were not feeling right Bella. You scared the hell out of me."

"I'm sorry Mom. It won't happen again I swear." I sighed as the lady began moving around my monitor straps before putting the ice cold jell on my stomach. I waited as the machine began to click and whirl and she pressed buttons.

Esme and Jasper stood behind her watching the screen as she measured and moved about a while before she turned the screen so I could see. "Here you go Momma, looks like you and Daddy are having a baby girl." I looked up at Jazz with tears in my eyes. He smiled coming over to kiss my forehead. "I'm going to give you these pictures and then take these films down to Dr Cullen so he can look at them. He'll be up to talk to you shortly Mrs Hale." I looked at her strange. As Jasper's hand tightened on mine.

"Thank you." I smiled at her as she handed us the pictures and headed out of the room. Jasper sat down with me holding me as we looked at the pictures until Jay started fussing.

"I think he wants his Mommy Bella." Esme handed him to me and he immediately settled down.

"Look Buddy, this is your baby sister." Jasper kissed the top of his head. "You're going to be a damn good big brother aren't you little man."

"Jasper, I doubt he even cares he's only four months old." I laughed but I'll be damn he looked as if her were staring at the pic as his little hand touched it almost as if caressing the image. I don't know how long we sat there before Dad came bustling into the room with a nurse and two techs. Panic started to set in as I noticed the look on his face. "Dad what's wrong?"

"Nothing Bella, we just need to do some more tests. I want to see what we find before I go into details. Just relax okay, the baby is perfectly healthy." Dad sat on the bed as again the ultrasound tech began taking pictures. She turned the screen so we could see as Carlisle held my hand in his. He looked up at her shocked and nodded. She disconnected the machine and left the room just as another tech came and collected urine. Moments later leaving the room. "I have to go check some results Bella and I'll be right back. We'll talk then." He kissed my forehead and was gone. I fiddled with the blanket nervously. I couldn't understand if the baby was healthy why he was so freaked out. I was starting to panic.

Carlisle came back in a few minutes later and sat down. "Bella, when did the attack happen?"

"July 15. Why?" I watched him as he nodded. He made notes and pulled a disk from his pocket and spun some dials.

"Bella, you should be 26 weeks. According to the measurements of the baby, you are only 17 weeks."

"What does that mean? I don't understand." I shook my head. If I didn't get pregnant in Arizona, but then that was impossible. I had taken four tests. I was pregnant, they were all positive. "Is the baby not growing correctly?"

"No. Bella, it means you were not pregnant." Carlisle shook his head. "I don't know how or why but your test I did was a false positive."

"If I wasn't pregnant, then." I gasped my eyes widening. "Dad, I've only been with him and Jasper." Carlisle nodded as Jasper sat down on the couch heavily. "That would mean. Oh God, Jasper I'm so sorry." I burst into tears. He was up and on the bed with me holding me instantly.

"Shhh, no, what are you sorry for? Bella, it's our baby. Ours. Not that bastard who forced himself on you. No, stop." He held my face between his hands and made me look at him. "Do you know how many times I wished that it was my baby growing inside you and not that son of a bitch's? Do you have any idea how many nights I stayed awake thinking about how I was going to take the pain from your eyes every time you looked at that baby? Bella, it's our baby. Ours! Yours and Mine Bella. You will never have to look into our baby's eyes and remember that attack." He was kissing all over my face as he spoke finally claiming my lips and kissing me for everything he had. Once I calmed down I looked over at Carlisle and Esme and gasped. They were both hugging one another holding Jay crying.

"Oh God! Mom, Dad, I'm so sorry." I started and Esme cut me off.

"Bella, don't you ever apologize to us again. Not for this. This is no one's fault. We all have our share of blame in this but we all acted as we thought was best." Esme fussed.

"Bella, you forget, I'm a doctor honey and even I didn't realize it was a false positive. Esme and I talked with Jasper before the two of you had sex. We knew what he was planning. We agreed with his thinking. Granted had I known you were not pregnant I would have insisted he wait and allow you to be put on birth control and insisted that a condom be used but, things can't be changed now. Now we have to move forward." Carlisle smiled. "I'm sorry this happened but I'm not sorry you are carrying my son's child and our grand baby instead of that bastard's kid."

They left a little later leaving Jasper and I alone to wait for my release papers. He sat in the bed holding me as we both thought about everything that had happened in the past few hours. I was pregnant that was 100% positive now. We had seen our little girl on the screen. We had pictures of our little girl. My fears had been lifted, I wouldn't resent this child because this child was made with the man I love. The man I would spend the rest of my life with. The man that in all ways held my life and heart in his hands. I snuggled closer to him thanking whatever God was up there and had granted my wishes. I had prayed endlessly for things to be different and now they were, all my prayers hand been answered.