When In Love.

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Previously;;

"Why be so stupid, Bella?"

"I don't understand." I answered Edward after a long silence. He shook his head at me with a small smile on his lips. "The questions you asked, you already know the answer- everyone knows the answer." I could imagine how we looked like to any innocent bystander; two very bloody teenagers, the girl having ripped clothing and wild hair, while the boy had bruises and scars all over- and yet they were both holding hands talking intently as if the world were theirs. We would look awfully sweet, and naturally insane. He hugged me once and continued with his hush whispers. It was funny; the sounds around us were noisy, very noisy. We were surrounded by Police Cars, their Sirens noisily blaring, and an ambulance which was equally noisy, our faces were bloody, our bodies were throbbing, and yet we were able to focus on what the each other was saying. I was able to focus on what he was saying. I just wasn't able to believe it. "It's because I love you, Bella."

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Chapter 8:Confessions.

So, there was this queen. She had a mirror which told her everything she needed to know. Everyday, she asked the mirror who was the fairest girl, and the mirror always said she was. At one point, the mirror finally told her the truth, and that Snow White was the fairest- not she. Instead of realizing the mirror's infidelity, the queen unleashed her cruelty on Snow White. The queen didn't even realize how stupid she looked.

After that confession my mind went in a pretty haze, in short- I fainted. Who the hell faints while sitting down? "You're finally awake. It killed me, you know. I just told you I love you then you go on fainting. I had to wait forever to get you to wake up again..." Edward feigned complaining. "So that part wasn't a dream..." I whispered to myself.

I recovered. "Don't play me, Edward." I looked down at our intertwined hands. He couldn't love me. It was just unbelievable, inconceivable, it was a lie. "Please don't play." I let out again. He let go of our hands and he let out a frustrated sigh, I looked up to see him pulling at his hair. "I never wanted to confess my love for you like this... but I also never imagined you thinking it wasn't true..." He roughly took my face in his hands, "I love you, Isabella Marie Swan, with all my heart. I've loved you since that day on the beach where I told you I miss you. I've loved you since Jessica Stanley stole my first kiss and I did nothing but cry, because she stole it and I wanted it to be with you. I've loved you since you turned down Mike Newton and said it was because we were pretending that were dating. I've loved you for so long, I've wanted you to be my Valentine for so long, I've wanted to quit this pretend scam for so long, I've wanted to be yours for so long. I love you, Bella. Get that in your brunette head." I searched his eyes, and the only thing I saw was raw honesty, raw sincerity, raw determination, and raw love.

"I have to know, do you love me too?" He finally asked, casting his eyes down and releasing my face. I couldn't let this moment go, I made a lot of mistakes, this wasn't going to be one of them. "So much." I whispered. Those two words were all it took for his control to break. He caught my lips in a mind-searing kiss. When we finally pulled away for air, I saw him differently. I saw him happy. And a new emotion overwhelmed me when I realized that I was the cause this godly boy smiled, I made him feel in love, and a sense of pride swelled my heart. "You're glowing." He smiled, touching my face. "You are too," I breathed. "I'm finally happy. I'm finally with you." I didn't have to reply, I just had to make sure he would always be happy, and that the reason would always include me- for the rest of our life. We've wasted so many years, months, days. But we could worry about talking later, right now; Edward needed my lips with his. I kissed him once more.

I didn't know what was happening, but I've been having fairy tale dreams frequently. So there was Beauty, no I mean Bell. Or Beauty, whatever's her name. She finally realized she was in love with the Beast. But when she kissed him- instead of turning back into prince charming- he didn't change. When he realized the curse hadn't been cured he asked her, "Do you still love me?"

I woke up panting from the dream. The dream gave me a sense of paranoia, as if it was telling me something. The Snow White dream I had made me feel very stupid, and embarrassed. This dream made me feel sad and paranoid thinking it would happen to me. Maybe Edward wasn't so good after all; maybe I just didn't deserve him.

I stretched my sore arms- only to bump someone's something because whatever I bumped grunted which meant it was a person. "Fucker!" I shouted at the top of my lungs, who the hell snuck in my room? A hand clamped on my mouth and I calmed down when I recognized the scent. "It's just me Bella." I nodded calmly signifying I was alright, and when I squinted my eyes against the darkness, I realized he wasn't in my room- I was at his. "Why am I with you, Edward?"

"Last night proved to be too much for you. We all decided to crash here instead, Charlie couldn't have gone home because he had to fix things up with your suspects, and he didn't want you to go home alone. He allowed you to sleep over."

"So last night really happened, then?" I looked at his emerald eyes which had traces of gold in them. "Which part, Bella?" He smirked and I knew he was playing. "This." And I kissed his awaiting lips. It was supposed to be a chaste kiss- you know since it was early in the day and all, but Edward pulled me tighter against him. "Edward- morning breath." I pulled away. "I don't give a fuck." He pulled me back and kissed me again, I have fantasized kissing this boy a hundred different times, a hundred ways, and making out in his bed made it to my fantasies, I couldn't believe it was finally happening. He wrapped my legs around his waist and he pushed me deeper on the bed while my fingers tangled in his hair and our kiss got more intense. "Bella." He murmured my name in a voice I've never heard him use with me. I hummed against his lips, but we wouldn't pull away. His tongue and mine battled for dominance and I was getting more and mo- "What the fuck!" I pushed him off me and he landed on the floor with a loud 'thud'. "What is this?!" Alice screamed at us, clearly mad and disgusted.

"I was just greeting Edward 'good morning'" I covered lamely. "Do you always greet each other by sticking your tongues down each other's throat?" she retorted. "Actually, Alice- no. But we would love to show you our other methods." Edward winked at her and I rolled my eyes at his immature ways. "Gross. Bella, I have to speak with you, now." She crossed her arms over her chest and she looked funny, she was so tiny- she looked like a little kitten who thought she was a tiger. "I just had Bella!" Edward complained. "And you used up your time with her exchanging saliva, so it's my turn." Alice grinned. I figured I owed Alice a huge explanation and I also had to apologize for her seeing me and her brother swapping spit early in the morning so I left with her, chuckling at Edward's irritated face.

"Major spill!" Alice sang while dragging me to her room. "He loves me back." She gave me a look which said that what I just said didn't really surprise her at all. "I love him." She started looking bored. "Bella, please tell me something I don't know." I racked my brain for something. "We kissed?" She looked at me again, oh yeah, she definitely knows that. "Well then, I have nothing to spill to you. He loves me, I love him, we kissed, we confessed everything to each other last night during the entire mess of a night I had, and were together now... It's not a romantic way to get together, but he made it even more special, because he did it under those circumstances." I smiled and she was listening intently. "How did he tell you?" I could feel my mood switch, and I was suddenly excited to spill on my now existent love life.

"Well, he did beat five guys to defend my honor, and I was confused as to the way he's been acting towards me. I asked him why he'd do all those things for me, and he called me stupid, he made it clear that I was so dense since I didn't know the reason, then he really told me that it was all because he loved me." Alice squealed and grabbed me in a tight hug. "I am so very happy for you and my brother right now, Bella! We have to celebrate; this is the moment everyone's ever been waiting for."

"I'm glad to see I'm the blindest person alive." I deadpanned. "Its okay, Bella." She laughed, clearly not understanding the sarcasm in my reply.

Before I agreed to celebrate anything with Alice, I had to make sure that Edward and I were official, and we weren't- yet. He hadn't asked me to be his girlfriend, when I expressed my worries onto Alice she laughed and told me not to worry about it. Regardless, she promised to keep quiet about the news, and instead pretty-fied me for my first official date with Edward, which he asked for right after my morning talk with Alice. "Edward loves blue on you." She murmured while deciding between two dresses. Edward wasn't clear on where we were going, which made dressing me up a very hard job for Alice, but he was clear on one thing- wear flat shoes. And I loved him even more for that.

She finally decided on which dress. I put it on along with the plain black low-cut Converse sneakers I owned. The dress went a few inches above my knees, it was V-neck, and the sleeves reached my elbows, the dress was made of a very light material, and it was so loose and comfy to move in. Alice didn't bother with make-up and hair. She only applied light lip gloss on me, and that was it. "Are you on birth control?" She suddenly blurted out of nowhere. "No. I have no reason to be." I choked out. "I think that's about to change." She winked at me and left me alone with my nasty thoughts. I ran out of her room to avoid doing, thinking or saying anything I know I'd regret.

The top 3 things I hated: Heels, Gifts, and Surprises. I frowned when Edward happily placed the blindfold on my eyes, and he wouldn't even talk to me! The car went on his usual speed- too fast. In 15 minutes time, we stopped and I assumed we were at the surprise destination. I figured when I'd walk I'd realize where we were, but he didn't let me walk. He carried me on his shoulder, his arms around my thighs, and I was starting to feel uncomfortable but I let him have his fun anyway. "Were here," He set me down and removed my blind fold only to reveal the most amazing place I've ever seen. "This is beautiful." I sighed, speechless for any other word. "Not in comparison to you." He grinned at me. The meadow was formed beautifully, it was obviously untouched, pure and it was gorgeous like that. It had wild flowers everywhere, and right on one side there was a large oak tree and when you went closer to it you could hear a nearby river. I sat against the tree and he followed quickly, he held my hand and kissed it. "I wish we could stay here forever." I murmured. He took out a pocket knife and chuckled, "Maybe we could." Before I could panic, he carved our initials on the tree and around it, he drew a heart. 'E & B forever.' "That was the gayest thing I've ever done. But the thing is- I don't give a damn."

"And I like it." I answered back, kissing him. Edward was such a boy. A simple kiss could turn him on so easily. He kneeled in front of me and supported my back so I wont get hurt against the tree but he still pinned me against it, he could sense I was getting breathless, his lips left mine and moved on to my neck and he trailed open mouthed kisses at the length of my neck. "You are so fucking beautiful." He slurred, I don't know but adding expletives to compliments made them sound better, sexier. I groaned out loud when he sucked on a spot that made my toes curl, and he liked that sound, I could tell because he continued his sinuous doings. "Bella, please be my girlfriend." He stopped and stared at my eyes so intently and I couldn't even find it in myself to blink. "Sure." I murmured weakly and that made him grin more and he once again attacked my lips. "You have no idea how long I've wanted that."

"You don't either." I replied.

"I love you."

"I loved you longer."

"You're not sure about that."

"You neither."

"Just kiss me."

"Okay then."

Edward's hands moved to my legs and he slid the dress higher up my thighs, and my breathing stopped. Not because I was opposed to what he was doing but because he didn't know what I've done. "Edward, wait. We have to talk." I stopped him. "Oh God, Bella I'm so sorry. I'm not asking for sex, I won't do it again..." He started panicking and he placed a great distance between us two. "No, Edward. Before we do anything close to that, I have a few confessions to make. This is all on me- not you." I tried assuring him but I wasn't sure my statement was so comforting. He slowly walked back towards me and sighed. "Let me hear them." I swallowed but nodded anyway. "You've got to know that I've never had a boyfriend in my entire life- you're the first," he grinned at that, "but that doesn't mean I'm inexperienced," he frowned at that, "I haven't done sex if you're wondering, but I've done everything else." He looked perplexed and clearly confused. "If you've never had a boyfriend, but you're that experienced... then how?"

"Jacob Black. He has a thing for me, right? And I had one for him before- but I liked him physically, I knew I'd never have feelings for him, and I made that clear, but whenever I felt lonely, or just needed to get out of my world, he was always there to... please me. That's how. But it never changed my feelings towards him, and he knows that. We stopped when I've decided to hook him up with Tanya." I thought Edward would look relieved but he looked angry instead. "You went around screwing some loser boy, while you were in love with me?!" I flinched but kept quiet. "You could've asked me for things, Bella. You didn't have to go and use him." That was a serious burn but I had no comeback since he was 100% right. "No, Edward. I couldn't, you were my best friend. I wouldn't ruin something as special as what we had. And please, you were the one causing the usual heartache, if it weren't for my obsession with you- I wouldn't even need Jacob like that." I felt so humiliated admitting this to Edward but he had to hear the truth. The lies and scams had to end. What I said shocked him, his mouth hang open and he audibly closed it but he still stared at me wordlessly. "Say something." I begged.

"Tanya was the only girl I've ever slept with. The only girl I've dated before you. That's my only confession to make. I didn't go around with other girls, I jacked off lots of times because of you, but I didn't screw other girls. I just want you to know." He quietly muttered. "I'm sorry, Edward." I whispered, now completely ashamed of myself. In a relationship, wasn't it usually the boy who did the dirty? Well, Edward was of course perfect and I just had to be the stained girl. "With me, you will never want for anything." He whispered at my ear with intensity so strong, it made my body shake.

"We've wasted so long... loving each other our whole lives, and letting cowardice get in our way," I huffed, "and we've made so many mistakes, we own so many regrets..." I rested my cheeks on his shoulder and thought of all the wasted times, why did we have to be so naive? "I know. I'm sorry. I should've just manned up and asked you out."

"I have nothing to be sorry for, I wouldn't love you this much if anything were different in the way we got together."

"Yeah, bloody, sweaty and everything. Very romantic."

"It was, Edward." I smiled at him sincerely. He stood me up, kissed me, and that was the first time I've ever had anyone make love to me.

Monday morning was cool. We weren't pretending anymore, and word got out quickly. Just like Edward wanted. He had a thing for showing of 'his girl' and he said he 'took pride for being Bella Swan's boyfriend'. I rolled my eyes at his reasoning. Of course, I also enjoyed the glares of the female student body, while Edward was obviously showing us off, I was quiet but I enjoyed the fact that they all knew Edward Cullen was no longer available, and he was all mine. Talk about possessive. Rosalie and Emmett still ruled the PDA department, though. A feat Edward and I weren't sure if we wanted to beat, but I was sure we could, but did we really want to?

At the back of my head, I knew that hell yeah, I wanted to make-out with him against the lockers when Jessica was unabashedly staring at him like he's some piece of meat.

"How was the sex?" Rosalie asked me, during our first class together. "How'd you know that?" I spun around, surely Edward didn't tell her. "Your faces, when both of you look at each other- it's totally want and need, it's different when you're lacking, and it's different when you're bound physically as well. And at the excitement on your eyes, I could tell it was your first with him. How was it?" She grinned, ignoring the look our professor gave her. "Mind-Blowing, that's the only detail I'm giving you, though." She looked sad at that, but perked up quickly. "The lockers are a hot place to do it; back at the library is cool, too. The Janitor's closet in Building 5 is brilliant, it's spacious there, the-" I cut her off by covering her mouth with my hand. "Shush, Rosie! I don't want to know." I bet I was scarlet by now; I focused on my notebook and didn't look at her for the rest of the period.

Lunch couldn't come faster, and all the places Rosalie mentioned to me suddenly felt exciting. But I had to learn to control myself. Yeah, control. "Hey Bella, want to get out of here?" Edward murmured against my cheek. "Yes." Okay, so where did my control go? I don't know. I don't care. I think my body had a thing for hot make out scenes in auto mobiles.

After that session in the car, our entrance in the cafeteria so did not go unnoticed. I kept telling Edward to get his hands off the back pockets of my jeans, he wouldn't listen to me, and he forgot to button the last 3 buttons on his shirt. I was so frustrated and turned on at the same time, how pathetic could a girl get?

Our friends approved, they were so pro-Bella and Edward. Now, it was time to meet the parents. I would be lying if I said I wasn't nervous. Sure, Esme and Carlisle 'love' me, but would they love me just as much if I'd start dating their son? And would Charlie still allow Edward nightly sleepovers, daily visits and casual touches if we were already dating? I was confident in Renee's trust, thought. She's wanted Edward and I to be together for the longest time. I felt nervous and at the same time anxious. I couldn't wait to finally get their blessings. I finally re-introduced Edward to Charlie, this time as my official boyfriend, Charlie didn't mind, he told Renee and Renee squealed on the phone. Edward introduced me again to Esme and Carlisle as his girlfriend- that occasion was pretty funny. "I knew this would happen, and I've always thought of you as my daughter, Bella." Esme actually teared up a bit and she was happy. "This is too bad, Edward," I tensed and Carlisle shook his head, "What about my other 10 sons?" And at that Edward slapped his dad's back, "Dad, seriously. What do you think?"

"I think Bella is lovely, and it took you too long to make her yours. You dense son of mine." But he hugged Edward tightly and I knew that this family would always be here for me. And really, I loved them- every single one of them.

Months passed by quickly and before I knew it, Graduation was staring at us bright in the face. Just 1 more month now and we'd be graduating, heading off to different colleges, heading off to our different paths, and being welcomed to the real world. Worries went through me whether Edward and I would go to the same college, would we stay together forever? Was this just a high school thing? What about our friends? Were all getting separated. "Bella, what's wrong?" He pulled me out of my thoughts. "Just College worrying." I smiled, he had his own moments like these too and we understood each other. We never had to fight about little details. That's how I knew Edward belonged with me, and I to him, we just were made for each other- but sometimes things have to go wrong for you to end up at the right path. I just hope the mistakes about to happen in my life would have nothing to do with Edward.

I hope Edward is the one thing constant, perfect and right. I know he is.

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I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did

You got me thinkin' `bout our life, a house and kids

Every morning I look at you and smile, `cause boy you came around, and you knocked me down

Say you gotta take the good, the bad, happy and the sad

But when you bring a better future than I had in the past 'Cause I don't wanna make the same mistakes I did

I don't wanna fall back on my face again

I'll admit I was scared to answer love's call and if it hits better make it worth the fall

A/N: I watched New Moon 3 days ago! :) I apologize to this reader I had whom I promised a quick update on, because I wasn't able to give it. Now, she's out of town and won't be able to read this story because of my delay. Do you want to know why? I personally don't like reading author's excuses but if you want to read mine I'll let you know. Anyway, lemons to this story will be featured in a different story; the title is SEXY WHEN IN LOVE. It will just be a couple of outtakes from this story, since this is rated T and lemons can't be featured. One or Two more chapters to go and this will be over. :( For those who have just discovered this Story now, please respect my hard work and review from the first chapter, too. If you really don't want to, atleast leave reviews for this chapter. Thank you. Oh well, Review while you can. Comments? Suggestions? Violent Reactions?

My Excuse- you don't have to read. :) I promised her this chapter on will be posted by Saturday, but this is my reason. Friday I had a Cheerleading Competition, Saturday we had the distribution of Cards in the morning, and we had the Street Dance battle in the evening, Sunday I cant write because it's the only time I spend with my family, Monday- I wrote 3 chapters for "Sexy When In Love" Tuesday- I held practice for the show on Wednesday, Wednesday we had our Speech Choir, and thank God we made it to finals, Today is Thursday and our classes are suspended so I can update. It's currently 10: 02 am in the Philippines. Okay? I'm really sorry.