So, what do you get when you mix insanity with cotton candy?
Dean: a girl who won't go to sleep?
Wrong! You get part three (and the final part) of the trap! Enjoy folks! And also don't be an asshole like Dean!
Dean: hey!
I ran down the hall and found the room where Sam was. He was screaming in pain. I ran in and there was a short man and a tall woman who hissed at me, I shot them both before they tried to call for backup.
I then ran to the machine thingy and turned it off. I think I actually turned it off since I heard the machine turn off. I pulled the helmet off of Sam. I didn't know where the people were so they must have been in the room next door since I could hear Dean removing their traps.
I held Sam in my arms. "Sam? Are you ok?" I hoped he still remembered me, but when he looked at me, it was more of a confused look than a loving look. "Who are you?" He asked. Oh god I'm too late.
Dean came in. "Sam!" He run up to his brother. But he just gave him the same confused look he gave to me. "Do I know you?" He asked. "Yeah, it's me, Dean." He said. I gave him a sad look. He saw it then looked to Sam, then back at me. "Oh god..."
It had been over a month since Sam had lost his memories. I was getting worried that they may never come back. I started panicking.
I confronted Dean about this. "I swear, Dean, if he doesn't start to remember in the next few days then I'm leaving." I said. "Whoa, come on, Jinx. I know my brother doesn't remember you but let's not do anything rash. I'm sure he will soon. Just give him time." Dean told me.
I sighed heavily. "I don't know if I can wait any longer," I said. "He's my brother and I know he loves you." Dean said. "Maybe when he still remembered me, now here we are a damn month later with an amnesiac Sam who doesn't even know he's a father." I argued.
Dean looked at me, then at the baby who was in my stomach, then back to me. "When did you find out?" He asked me. "I went to the drugstore and bought a couple of pregnancy tests and tried them. They said positive." I sighed.
"Great," Dean sighed, "Sammy's a father and he doesn't even know." He looked at me. "Can you stay a couple of days?" He asked me.
I sighed, of course he would want me to stay because I am holding his future niece/nephew in my womb. "Fine, but only for two days, if he can't remember by then I'm gone, deal?" I said. "Deal, hell I'll even buy you a fucking passport to wherever you want." Dean said.
But two days wasn't enough. "I can't believe how stupid my brother can be." Dean sighed helping me carry my luggage to the airport.
"Maybe it was never meant to be." I sighed softly. "It wasn't? Jinx, you should've seen the way my brother looked at you when he thought no one was looking, and once you go into that plane your gonna be like Jessica." I looked down. Thinking bitterly of her.
"Yeah but she died in a mysterious fire and I'm just leaving with his child. I see no similarities." But I did.
"Well," Dean put the last of my luggage on the mill. "Be safe, ok?" I nodded and hugged him. He hugged back. We let go. "Thanks for trying Dean." I smiled sadly. "Kick his ass for me if he remembers, ok?" I requested. "You read my mind," he smirked. "Goodbye, Dean." I said.
"Goodbye Jinx." He said back and walked away. I did the typical things that people did at an airport.
I was already on the plane. It wasn't going to board yet so I decided to listen to music. But there was this one song that had to remind me of him...
I would have changed it, but I just couldn't. So I listened to the song.
Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears from behind my eyes but I do not cry
Counting the days pass me by
I thought of what I had been through with the guys. How much of an ass Dean could be, how much of a brother Castiel was, and how sweet and considerate Sam was... Sam...
I've been searchin' deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearin' are starting to get old
It feels like I'm startin' all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said
Damn, now I was thinking all about Sam, from not only how sweet he was but how he always made me feel safe whenever I was with him, like I could be me when I was with him.
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold onto
I guess in a way I still have feelings for Sam, even though he doesn't remember me or even the child I am going to raise by myself. You can call me selfish for leaving, but I just couldn't deal with raising a baby while still being around him. I just couldn't.
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closin' my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right
Oh damn, not the eyes! I even got lost in Sam's eyes. No! Don't think about his eyes... don't think about him at all! Just don't Sera...
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I could feel the tears coming from my eyes.
And it hurts to want everything
And nothin' at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you but I'm not givin' in this time
I heard the flight attendant speak about the flight boarding now. I sighed, I can't give in to the fact that I'm still madly in love with Sam, and even if I wanted to go back it's too late now. The plane was already up high and I didn't want to kill my unborn child and myself.
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold onto
I leaned my head against the frame of the plane's window.
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold onto
The one thing that I tried to hold onto
Tears were dripping from my cheeks and onto the floor. I didn't even care if anyone saw me or not, they probably didn't but I still wouldn't care.
One thing that I tried to hold onto
And when the stars fall I will lie awake
You're my shooting star
