I know this chapter isn't the best but its an update. Anyway I hope you all like it, this may also be the only update for another while because school starts soon and sorry about the delay on this chapter I had Band camp.

Disclaimer: I own nothing except Bryce, Kaya and my plot.


Chapter 8: We need to talk.

It had been two weeks since I had left home and the falls calls had stopped a few days ago, I felt bad for never answering but it was for the best. They needed to let go because I didn't know if I was every going to come home after what happened. Sighing I looked out the window of Bryce's bedroom waiting for them to return for their hunt, I didn't want Bryce to leave but he had too but he was supposed to be home today so I had to wait. I yawned as the sun began to set in the sky and I decided that I was going to lie down in Bryce's bed which we shared. Once I hit the pillow I dozed off, not to a deep sleep like I wanted but into a peaceful daydream. I was awoken from my peaceful nap when a pair of cold arms wrapped around my waist and a cold body was pushed against my back. I guess you could say Bryce and I were together unofficially because we never really stated if we were dating or not and I never planned to.

"Hello love, how are you doing." I smiled as his breathe hit my neck, I rolled over in his arms so I was facing him.

"I'm fine how was hunting?" he smiled and leaned in it kiss me, it was a quick kiss before he spoke.

"Good, I missed you though." I smiled and leaned in to kiss him, this kiss however unlike the last one lasted longer. Bryce rolled over so he was now leaning over me as his cool lips melded with mine. His lips moved from my lips to my neck but I was scared that he would bite me like the first time instead I just moaned as he sucked on my skin, once I let out a moan he removed his lips from my neck and smiled down at me.

"Did you like that baby?" I didn't get to answer because his lips crashed onto mine again and his tongue was licking my bottom lip begging for entrance. I thought at first that I was going to deny him but I couldn't, his warm tongue entered my mouth and explored every spot before battling with my tongue. Soon he had to pull away so I could breathe; he smiled before moving his lisp once more to my neck except this time he didn't pull away when I moaned instead he just sucked the skin harder. I was so lost in his kisses that I let my mind wander I let it wander to a kiss that I had once shared with a warm body and warm lips, for one moment I pictured those warm lips kissing my neck. As soon as I did that I lost it I pushed Bryce away out of guilt, how could I be thinking about Paul when I was kissing Bryce it wasn't right.

"Kaya is something wrong, did I do something?" He looked at me with sad eyes and I sighed shaking my head.

"No its not you, I'm sorry Bryce I need to go for a walk. I'll be right back." I got up off the bed and walked out off his room to the front door. Once I made it outside I sat down on the steps and I began to yell at myself, I was such a whore. I mean how could I kiss Bryce and than think of Paul? I should just forget Paul I mean he made it absolutely clear he didn't want me and Bryce was wonderful. He took care of me all the time and he loved me but I was stupid to think I could fool myself into loving him. I would admit I had feelings for him sure but nothing compared to the love I felt when I looked at Paul.

"Than go back to him." I jumped at Edward's voice because I hadn't even heard him approach; I sighed and then turned my body to face the vampire.

"You don't get it." I ground out; he didn't get it at all I mean he never felt like this for I mean he had the love his life. He had Bella and she would do anything for him and he for her so he would never understand.

"What I don't get is how you could play Bryce like that he loves you." I stood up than and glared at him.

"I am not playing him, I like Bryce a lot you know that. Its just I can't love him when I still have feelings for someone else and I feel guilty enough as it is so I don't need you yelling at me." I was upset at this point, how could he even question my feelings for Bryce? Just because I wasn't in love with him didn't mean that I didn't have major feelings, I mean if it had been another place or different circumstances I could see myself spending the rest of my life with him.

"Well you better let him know that because he thinks you love him and you better tell him how you feel or I will." Who the hell did he think he was? I understood that he was trying to protect Bryce but Bryce knew what was going on in my head because I told him flat out the other night that I couldn't love him that I was confused and he said he understood. He also told me that he would love me no matter what happened to me.

"Don't fucking tell me what to do okay, your life is so damn near perfect. You have the love of your life, a loving family that doesn't hide things from you and you don't have to worry about people telling you how fucked up in the head you are because you can't choose." He glared at me before walking into his house, with I sigh I walked over the Black Impala SS that Carlisle bought me, I needed to get away. Once I turned the car on, Hawthorne heights 'Rescue me' came blaring out of my speakers. I knew it was late and there was probably no where to go but I drove myself into town and found an all night café, parking my car I entered the almost empty building.

"What can I get you?" the middle age woman asked me from behind the counter, I just ordered a muffin and went to sit at a small booth in the corner. I sat there maybe ten minutes before I was joined by two people I didn't expect to see, Kim and Leah sat down opposite me both with coffee in the hands.

"Hey." Kim's voice was quiet, I couldn't help but wonder what they were doing I mean I had ignored them for two weeks. Leah looked at me dead in the eyes and that's when I knew she knew what happened with Paul, I figured all the guys knew as well.

"Hi." I took the last bite of my muffin and went to leave but Leah's glare made me stay in my seat.

"Kaya why did you leave I don't understand?" Kim's voice was still quiet, my guess was the boys didn't tell her what happened and I felt bad. Kim and I were growing close but of course I blew it by running off but I couldn't stay when Paul hated me.

"Kim don't worry about it okay?" She shook her head and Leah looked me dead in the eye once more.

"How can I not worry, your brother looks like he wants to kill any one who comes with in a foot of him and Paul looks like his dying. Jared wont tell me anything and he is always running off in the middle of the night to go to Paul's house. So tell me what happened." Her voice rose as she spoke and I sighed looking at Leah hoping hse would tell Kim but she just shook her head.

"Okay Kim listen, Paul and I got into a fight and he told me to leave so I left. I am not coming back." That was all I had to say, I looked down at the table not willing to look into her eyes.

"Why the hell not? Just because Paul tells you to do something doesn't mean you have to do it. I get that you love him and all but." I shifted my gaze from the table to her, I was glaring at her, and she had no idea. It seemed like no one understood what I was going through; she had someone who loved her.

"I may love him but he hates me so I'm not going back so I can face that." Leah let out a growl, it was low but I heard it. If I didn't know what she was I would have been freaked out but I knew so I wasn't.

"You're so dumb, okay your Paul's imprint he loves you." My glare shifted from Kim to Leah, I didn't exactly know what an imprint is but I over heard someone say that to Paul before I said I loved him and he didn't agree.

"What the hell is a fucking imprint? No one ever explained that too me but I heard someone say it to Paul but guess what he said he hated me so whatever." I went to get up but Leah began to speak as I walked away.

"An imprint is someone's whole life, the center of their universe." I turned to look at her confused; she smirked knowing she had my attention. "Paul loves you he can't help it, the second he saw you he knew, hell we all saw it. He only said he hated you because he was afraid, afraid to get close incase he hurt you by losing control."

"I don't care anymore, he hurt me more than he'll ever know." With that I walked out of the small café and drove off back toward the Cullen's.

When I got back most of the lights were off except Bryce's which told me he had stayed up waiting for me, sighing I exited my car and made my way into the house. I walked down the halls softly not wanting to disturb anyone in the house, once I made it to Bryce's closed door I stopped. I was far too nervous to face him especially after what happened between Edward and me. Had Edward told him what happened, did he spill my secret thoughts to Bryce? With a deep breath I entered the room where Bryce lay on his bed staring at the ceiling like he had the night I came here two weeks ago. I slipped off my shoes before climbing into bed next to him, he looked at me and a smiled formed on his pale face as he wrapped his arms around me.

"I thought you were going away for good, I could never lose you Kaya." I nodded and placed my head on his bare chest before I drifted off to sleep.

I was on first beach staring at the water as it came up to touch my bare feet. I looked at the reflection of the moon is the rushing water and for a second I wished to jump in. I heard footsteps coming from behind me but I didn't turn around I knew who it was so there was no need to.

"Kaya you okay?" I sighed turning around to face the shadow of a man, a small smile on my face.

"I'm fine, I promise." The shadow just nodded standing a few steps from me as if afraid to come near me.

"I'm glad you're okay, Kaya I love you." I looked into the shadows hazel eyes and I saw tears glistening on the rim of his eyes. "I thought I was going to lose you." I nodded walking forward to wrap my arms around him.

"Never."

The next morning I woke up, took a quick shower and than headed down stairs to eat before I headed off to another lonely day at La Push high. The table was quiet as we all sat eating, well I was the one who mostly ate the others just sat there looking at each other, it was weird. Once I was finished I got up not saying goodbye to anyone and left the house driving off to my own personal hell. Once I got to the building I avoided any one that I had once known, in homeroom I ignored the looks I got from Embry. The whole first period all I could do was think about the dream, I hadn't had one of them since I had left home and they chose last night to reaper.

After first period my day went by like a slow hell but it finally ended without any run-ins with my old friends. That was until I was walking down the hall way to the exit of the school and I ran into a warm body that sent me falling to the ground.

"Shit Kaya I am so sorry." His voice almost brought a smile to my face but I resisted it and frowned instead. The boy offered me his hand but I ignored getting up and getting ready to walk around him but he stopped me.

"Kaya, please look at me." I turned my eyes to him and I was shocked, he looked tired like he hadn't slept in days, his eyes were bloodshot and his skin was slightly pale.

"Paul, what happened?" I knew I shouldn't be concerned with this asshole but what Leah told me the night before played in my mind so I couldn't just ignore him.

"Nothing, look your brother and father miss you terribly you need to come home." I looked into his bloodshot eyes and wished that he told me he missed me. Its not that I didn't care about my families feelings it's just I wanted him to miss me.

"I'll come home when I feel like it, so drop it. But if you could tell my dad and brother that I love them I would appreciate it." I walked away but I heard him sigh deeply, I felt bad for just walking away from him but it hurt so much to even look at him.

I didn't go back to the house instead I headed to first beach and I could only hope that none of the guys from La Push would be there, I just needed to think. Once I parked my car I walked over to the water and sat down letting the water soak my clothes, I didn't care I just wanted to relax. Sitting there I let my mind wonder on how much easier it would be for me to go back to New York away from Bryce and Paul but I couldn't do it. Would it hurt Paul more if I was farther than I was now? Would Bryce come looking for me if I left? It was all too much for me; I mean a month ago my life was normal. I was just an average New York City girl spending her time with her friends, now I have to deal with my brother being a werewolf, falling for one and falling for a vampire. I wanted it to be normal again; I just wanted it to be easy. I let out a laugh as another wave crashed over my body drenching me further.

"Your going to get sick." I turned to look at the voice and I smiled seeing Jacob, I got up and hugged him tight. He laughed as I latched myself onto him even in my wet clothes he hugged me back, we he finally let go his face got serious.

"Kaya, come home please. Dad and I are going crazy; we lost you when mom left for New York we don't want to lose you again." I sighed looking away from him, I felt horrible how could I put them through that but I couldn't go home.

"I'll come home soon I promise Jake. Just give me some time to think." I could tell my twin was hurt but I couldn't go home yet, I needed to sort things out, I couldn't just march back into La Push and act like I was okay when I knew I wasn't.

"How long soon, I miss having my sister around I dealt with it for seven years Kaya and now I get out back in my life and you leave again. I can't deal with it, you've been here for weeks but I have barley seen you because you would rather spend time with Him." I sighed I looked into Jake's eyes and felt a pang of sadness, it was killing me to see him upset, just as much as it hurt me to see Paul.

"Jake I need time, I promise you I am not going away for long. You're always going to be my brother I will never leave like I did when we were kids." I hugged him again, I felt so small compared to him but I didn't care he was my brother and I loved him dearly.

"You better not leave me again; I would come find you this time." He laughed as he let me go, I smiled seeing his smile.

"You should go back their probably worried about you, tell them all I miss them and I'll be back soon." I wanted to tell him not to tell Paul but I couldn't I wanted him to know how I felt.

"I will but you better go back to where you're staying so you don't catch a cold." I nodded and we both walked back to our cars before saying our goodbyes.

On the drive back to Cullen's I couldn't help but think about going home, I would go home soon. But first I needed to figure out my feelings; I couldn't walk back in there totally confused about how I felt. When I finally arrived back at the house I saw Bella's truck in the driveway along with all the other cars, sighing I parked my car and walked into the house. I heard laughing from the den so I walked quickly upstairs hoping to avoid them but when I made up to the room I was faced with a rather frantic looking Bryce.

"Kaya there you are, I was so worried when you didn't come home right from school." I nodded putting my book bag down before sitting on his bed, he sat down next to me and kissed my neck. I sighed pushing him away, I wasn't in the mood to make out with him, I felt bad enough as it was.

"I'm sorry Bryce I am just not in the mood." The vampire nodded before getting up and walking to the window. I felt bad once again it was like I was hurting everyone today, I was such bad person.

"Kaya, we need to talk." Those are some of the worst words a girl ever has to hear.