Note from the Author: I feel very blonde at the moment. It has just come to my attention that I could get sued because I haven't been putting disclaimers on the entries that I write. Stupid Leah, stupid stupid stupid. Good thing I realized this before I DID get sued and then wasted all this money on a lawyer when I already KNOW I'm guilty. So here it is. A disclaimer.
Disclaimer: I do not own any Harry Potter characters.
Years Before
In the years before Cedric I had often asked myself what it was to mourn. I had never experienced death before and the death that I did experience I cannot remember. And I am somewhat glad that I can't remember, I know what mourning is now and it is not what I thought it was, what I saw on television it was, it was, to sum it up quite quickly in one word, pain. Funny that I could experience such pain when I had barely known Cedric, he was the enemy...wasn't he? He was the one that took the only girl I have ever liked, he had looks, brains, bravery; it actually surprised me that he was not put in Gryffindor and I have always wondered why. Perhaps, it's not the mourning pain of loss that I feel like so many others have, but the pain of guilt. Yes, I have said it before and I will say it again, it's still feels as if it's my fault that he died. People tell me it's not, but they don't know, they weren't there, they didn't look into his eyes, once grey with life, now empty and hollow. I hope he's happier now.
Perhaps I should say more. You've heard me ramble on and on. Today, this is all I shall say.
-Harry James Potter
Authors Note:
Hey Guys, I know this is short but that's how it is sometimes in journals. You don't know if you're going to be writing a 5 page entry or a simple paragraph. I want you guys to feel like you're actually reading his actual journal, I want this to be like his actual thoughts that he wouldn't tell a soul, not even Hermione or Ron or Dumbledore! Not even Sirius (if he were alive).
Jasmin-malfoy- Thank you! I was hoping you guys would get the concept that I'm trying to layer out here. Harry's innermost thoughts and feelings. Look what you've done; you've made me blush. I don't think I am nearly in tune with Harry as the Great JK Rowling herself is but it's nice to be thought of that way!
Wicchick- What do YOU think it means? Ever since I read that prophecy that Dumbledore explained in the 5th HP book about only one of them, Harry or Voldemort, being able to walk the earth alive I always thought it was JK Rowling's plan to have them BOTH die. That would finalize her 7th book and not leave in a cliffhanger and the wizarding world will go on remembering Harry Potter, The Boy Who Lived and Voldemort, the creature that threatened to destroy the whole world. As Harry knows, the world does NOT revolve around him and that it WILL go on if he dies. Voldemort does NOT know that and I think that will eventually bring him to his downfall. I have many theories, one of these days I'll do an Authors note entry and tell them all you guys!
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