Okay here is the next chapter .. I am SOOOOOO sorry that its so late .. I have been so busy .. but I am trying to get back into the writing mood I have so many ideas for fanfiction buzzing in my head, I should write them down .. haha And I am writing like 3 fictions at the same time .. plus this one .. but tell me what you think.. If you have any ideas about what I should add to any of my chapters .. or ideas about future chapters .. Let me know, PM me or just add it in a review.
Enjoy !
-T.B-
Chapter Eight
'Where am I?' Kagomes voice echoed, she looked around and could only see white.
'You are dead Kagome.' A deep masculine voice boomed around her.
'What? No I can't be .. But how?' You could hear the panic in Kagome's voice.
'HAHA I'm just kidding, that gets them every time.' The voice boomed.
'This isn't very funny! Where am I, and who are you?' She demanded.
'Okay. I am Myoga. I am the God of the Middle Way. And you my dear .. are IN the Middle Way'
'Okay Myoga.. What is the Middle Way? And How did I get here?'
'You're one of the questioners ..' The voice started
'Well duh, I'm standing here in a white gown, in a white room talking to a voice.. I am bound to have QUESTIONS! NOW ANWSER THEM!' Kagome finished.
'Hold your horses. The Middle Way, is the place where you go when you are on the border of living and dying. You my dear got here by your fabulous sister Kikyo and her buddies.' He explained the last bit with sarcasm.'
'…' Kagome was speechless. She was going to die .. because of Kikyo.
'Kagome .. are you alright?' The voice asked hesitantly.
'Oh yes, I'm perfectly okay .. I am going to die, without telling the man I love that I love him. He is having a kid with another women, my father is a perverted bastard, my sister is an evil whore who just NEEDS to make my life more worse, my body is scared up from my sister and father, and oh yeah IM DYING! Yes I'm just super!' Kagome said sarcasm dripping from every word she said.
'Just to let you know, Inuyasha loves you too.' The voice added.
'He does? WAIT, HOW DO YOU KNOW HIS NAME .. WAIT HOW DO YOU KNOW MY NAME AND KIKYO'S NAME??' She screamed
'Don't you remember me? You were here when your father almost killed you..' Myoga explained.
'Wait .. I do remember, I was 12. You told me that when I was brought back to life that I should smile more, because I was a pretty girl. That comment scared the shit out of me by the way. But how do I get out of here?' Kagome asked looking around.
'HAHA, still as persistent I see. You have to make the decision, do you want to live, or do you want to pass on to the afterlife? If you choose to live, you will be forced to remember everything that happened to you, the things that caused you to almost die.' Myoga explained.
'What do you think? Send me back!' She screamed.
'Very well. Kagome, the next time I see you .. I want you to be 99 years old! No more of this almost dying at a young age!'
That made Kagome laugh. 'I'll try.'
'Good, oh and Kagome, smile more, you are a beautiful young women.. and tell Inuyasha you love him.'
'That still creeps me out! Haha I will .. eventually.'
'Very well then. Good living Kagome.'
Before Kagome could say anything it went pitch black. The memories flooded Kagomes' mind.
(This song plays softly as Kagome has her flashbacks to the night that she 'died')
This world, this world is cold
But you don't, you don't have to go
You're feeling sad you're feeling lonely
And no one seems to care
You're mother's gone and your father hits you
This pain you cannot bare
Kikyo and her friends took turns beating and kicking Kagome in the stomach. He scar re-opened again. Tears flowed from her darkened eyes. She didn't care about what was going to happen to her.. She knew that no-one would be there to save her. She yelped and winced as there was a sharp pain in her leg, Kikyo drove a dagger into Kagome's thigh.
But we all bleed the same way as you do
We all have the same things to go thru
Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know
Your days you say they're way too long
And your nights you can't sleep at all (hold on)
And you're not sure what you're looking for
But you don't want to no more
And you're not sure what you're waiting for but you don't want to no more
Kikyo continued to stab the blade into Kagome's leg, then into her stomach and arm. While the other two girls kicked her and stomped on her.
But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through
Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking you're one step closer
Don't stop searching it's not over...hold on
What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for?
Do you know what you're doing to me?
Go ahead...what are you waiting for?
Kagome heard the three bitches laugh and scream at her. She kept her eyes closed. Praying for someone to help her. Sure she didn't care what Kikyo was doing. It hurt, but she was used to getting hurt .. Even when Kikyo and Kagome were little girls Kikyo and her friends would beat Kagome up, and then when their mother asked what happened Kikyo told her that Kagome was beaten by other kids and then told her that she saved Kagome.
Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know
Kagome didn't want to die, not like this .. She wanted to see Inuyasha's face even if should could only see it once more. She pictured his face, and whispered 'Inuyasha.' Kikyo and her friends left her to die, in the distance Kagome could hear someone call out to her.. it sounded like Inuyasha. Before fully passing out from the pain, Kagome thought. 'Inuyasha... I love you' .
Don't stop looking you're one step closer
Don't stop searching it's not over...
Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know...hold on
(Good Charlotte – Hold On)
Kagome shot up from her horrible nightmares. Her eyes shot open when the sound of voices calling her name surfaced to her ears. In the sudden movements that she had just done caused her more pain. She winced and grabbed her stomach and head. She winced more when the touch of her hands.
"Kagome you are alive!" Sango called out running to the side of the hospital bed. Followed by Miroku, Hiroki, Ayaka, Inuyasha, Rin, and Sesshomaru.
Kagome collected her mangled thoughts. "Where am I?" She whimpered.
"You are in the hospital dear, Inuyasha found you .. bleeding to death .." Hiroki explained holding a crying Ayaka. He had an idea about what happened, but needed to know. Before he could ask Miroku spoke up. "What happened Kagome?"
"So it wasn't just a nightmare .. Myoga.. white .. Kikyo .. Inuyasha .. love." Kagome spoke in cut up sentences. Not making sense to anyone.
"Kagome?" Sango asked.
She was brought out of her thoughts. "Yes?" Kagome asked. "Oh .. yes what happened." She looked at her sobbing mother and her heart broke. She couldn't break her mother's heart more. "I was attacked." She finished.
"By who?" Sesshomaru asked from the back of the crowd.
"I don't remember." Kagome spoke softly lowering her aching head.
"Bullshit!" Inuyasha shouted.
"Inuyasha!" Everyone screamed.
Kagome was in shock. Inuyasha cut everyone off. "No, I want to know who did this, Kagome was almost dead, I am going to kill whoever did this to her."
Kagome was stunned. 'Does he actually care … Could he actually … love me?' She thought. But was interrupted by Inuyasha's demanding voice. "Kagome, did Kikyo do this to you?" He asked bluntly. Ayaka was the only one in the room that looked shocked when all eyes were turned to Kagome.
Kagome couldn't lie now, she looked at Inuyasha and saw the worry and sadness in his eyes. Sure he was getting married and having a child with another women, but she still could love him .. couldn't she? She lowered her head and nodded softly.
"That bitch!" Inuyasha screamed almost punching a whole in the wall. Before mumbling "She had to kill the only women I ever loved … until now .. now she has to go and almost kill .." He stopped himself when Kagome looked at him with confusion and hurt filling her eyes.
"What?" Ayaka asked through her tears, not paying attention to Inuyasha's words.
Kagome stayed quiet praying that someone else would explain. Her prayers were answered. Miroku spoke up. "Ayaka, all the times that Kagome has come home cut up, bruised and even stabbed .. is all from Kikyo and her buddies."
"What? Is this true Kagome?" Ayaka choked grabbing her husbands hand.
Kagome nodded. "Y-yes mom, I didn't want to tell you the truth because I didn't want to hurt you."
Ayaka ran to her daughters side and took her hand. "You wouldn't have hurt me, I wouldn't have let you be alone with her. Besides, I know when she puts up an act. It just didn't click when you came home with a new bruise. I'm so sorry." She kisses Kagome's forehead.
"I'm sorry too." Kagome whispered. She looked up and realized that EVERYONE was around her. Everyone was quiet for what seemed like forever. "How long have I been here?" Kagome said softly.
This time Sesshomaru spoke up. "You have been in unconscious for 3 days now."
She nodded and didn't say anything for a few minutes, then finally spoke up. "You all can go home, I'll be fine here."
A look of panic overtook Ayaka's face. Miroku spoke up. "We can stay with her Ayaka, you and Hiroki go home and get some rest." He said pointing to Sango and himself.
"I'm not going anywhere either!" Inuyasha spoke up from the chair against the wall.
Ayaka smiled. She figured if Kagome had friends by her, Kikyo wouldn't try anything. "Alright, we will be back tonight tomorrow?" She asked looking over at Kagome who nodded.
"See you tomorrow. Rin, Sesshomaru, you two should do the same, Rin looks sleepy."
Sesshomaru nodded. "Okay, Get well soon Kags. If you need anything don't be afraid to ask." He said with a wink, lifting an almost sleeping Rin into his arms.
Kagome smiled. "Bye."
Ayaka kissed Kagome on the forehead. "I'm so sorry Kagome, if I had only known." She started but stopped as she could feel tears threaten to fall.
"It's not your fault Mom. I love you." Kagome said kissing her mom's cheek.
Ayaka smiled and moved away so that Hiroki could get to Kagome. "I'm proud of you for telling us." He whispered before kissing her on the forehead. "We'll see you tomorrow." He said walking to the door with Ayaka.
Kagome smiled. "Bye."
When they left, the four, remaining sat quietly.
Kagome must have drifted off to sleep, because when she opened her eyes, only darkness filled the room. She sat up and yelped quietly when she rolled over on her side.
"Kagome, are you hurt?" A hushed voice asked.
"Inuyasha? Is that you?" Kagome whispered searching for the body of the voice.
"Yes, I'm here." Inuyasha whispered.
When Kagome's eyes focused themselves to the darkness she could see Sango and Miroku sleeping soundly on the couch at the far end of the room. She turned her head to see Inuyasha sitting in a chair that was pulled close to her bedside.
When Kagome didn't answer his question Inuyasha asked again. "Kagome are you okay?"
Kagome opened her eyes lazily, "Yes, I just turned too quickly is all." She heard him sigh a sigh of relief as she turned her head to the window, the moon was shining brightly. "Inuyasha?" She whispered.
"Yes?" He answered leaning back into his chair, trying to get comfortable.
"What happened that night?" Kagome whispered. "And I want the truth. Everything that happened."
Inuyasha looked at Kagome, 'God, she looks so beautiful just sitting there' "When you left that night, I couldn't take all the yelling and pressure of Ayame's return." At that moment he could see Kagome's mood change. She looked depressed. "I just left, I didn't say goodbye or anything, I just walked out the door. I was on my way to your house to explain myself, when I sme- saw you laying there on the ground. All that was running through my mind was 'please let her be okay.' I called to you, but when I got to your side, you were already unconscious. I called out for help, and ran back to Sesshomaru's place." Inuyasha finished.
Silence fell upon them. Then Kagome responded. "Why didn't you just leave me there?"
It took a few seconds for her words to register in Inuyasha's head. He shot up from his chair. "WHAT!?" He screamed at the top of his lungs startling a 'once' sleeping peacefully Miroku and Sango. "What happened?" Miroku asked still half asleep. "Kagome?" Sango jumped up.
Kagome just continued to look out at the window. Inuyasha stood there for a few minutes before walking in Kagome's view. "What are you talking about?" He demanded.
She looked into his eyes, "Why didn't you just leave me there to die?" She answered emotionless.
He just stood there in silence staring at her for a few minutes before leaving the room with Kagome's words lingering in the room.
Miroku walked over to Kagome's bed. While Sango went in search for Inuyasha. "What was that about?" Miroku asked sitting in the chair beside her bed.
Kagome sat there silently. Replaying Inuyasha's reaction. Until she spoke up. "Can he actually care.." She said mostly to herself.
Miroku smiled softly. "Kags, he cares for you, I know my cousin and I can tell you now that he has cared for you since the first time he laid eyes on you."
They both just sat there in silence. Miroku looked up. "He never left your side, you know."
Kagome looked at Miroku. "What?"
Miroku walked over to the window. "He was by your side for all 3 days. He never left. He hasn't slept, he just sat there looking at your unconsciousness body. He blamed the entire thing on himself.
Kagome just looked down at her entwined fingers.
With Sango and Inuyasha
Sango didn't have to search far for Inuyasha. He was outside the door sitting on the floor, his arms resting on his knees, and his head on his arms.
"I don't want to talk Sango." He said his voice muffled.
Sango looked surprised. "How did you know it was me?"
The words that he spoke sounded even more muffled.. But Sango could have sworn she heard. "I can smell you." Come out of his mouth. She shook it off. "What happened in there?" She asked taking a seat across from him.
Inuyasha just sat there quiet, before he looked up, "She asked me why I didn't just leave her there to die." He went silent.
Sango smiled mentally and thought 'Hmph, so much for not talking' Before saying. "She has been through a lot… and I mean a lot. I didn't even know about the whole Naraku part of her life, until a few days ago. I've only known about the Kikyo. Inuyasha I can tell that she cares for you deeply. She just found out that you are getting married.. And having a child, and then .. with Kikyo.. If I was in her position I don't think I would want to go on living anymore either. Just give her time."
Inuyasha sat there and gritted his teeth at the mention of Kikyo. He thought about the words that Sango had just spoken. "I just don't understand. She is .. different." He whispered.
"She has finally reached her point of self control. For as long as I've known her, she has been able to keep everyone around her happy. She only thinks about her friends and family's happiness. She kept her pain to herself, by writing songs about how she was feeling at the time. I think that she has finally lost control to those feelings…" Sango explained slowly. "Like I said before .. All she needs is … time."
With Miroku and Kagome
A few more minutes passed by before Kagome spoke up. "Miroku .. can you go find Inuyasha for me." She said softly
Miroku smiled and nodded, but it being dark and all he figured Kagome couldn't see his nod, so he replied. "Yes."
Miroku walked out the door to find Inuyasha and Sango both silent, sitting on opposite walls. "Inuyasha, Kagome asked for you."
Inuyasha looked up at Miroku, there were tears in his eyes. Miroku and Sango's hearts both broke. He stood up and walked into the darkened room, wiping his eyes free of tears.
Kagome tried sitting up farther but she was in pain the entire time.
"Don't push yourself" Inuyasha rushed over to help her into a comfortable position.
"Thanks." Kagome said quiet enough for him to here her.
Inuyasha took a seat in the chair and rested his arms on the arms of the chair.
"I'm sorry." Kagome started. "I shouldn't have said that, I am grateful that you found me in time." She finished, a tear rolling down her cheek, reflecting the moonlight.
Inuyasha sat there quietly for a moment more before replying. "Don't worry about it."
"Inuyasha?"
"Yes?"
"What did you mean before … about Kikyo killing the one you loved?" Kagome looked at him, he looked up at her surprised that she had heard him. Her eyes were filled with hurt.
Inuyasha sighed, 'She told me about her past .. its only fair that I told her mine.' He thought before speaking softly. "My mother."
He heard her gasp. "Your .. mother?"
Inuyasha nodded and went to stand by the window. "It was in November, My mother and I were out at the local train station waiting for Ayame to arrive with her mother. Kikyo was there. A women called her a whore, and when Kikyo turned around she must have thought it was my mother. Kikyo pushed my mother into an oncoming train."
Kagome gasped. "I'm so sorry." She was crying while Inuyasha had tears in his eyes.
He turned to Kagome, "I am too, I've always blamed myself for her death. If I could have just grabbed her, If I could have taken her place." He was remembering that day so vividly that he didn't even hear Kagome struggle out of bed. Until he felt her arms snake their way slowly around his waist into a big hug.
"Kagome you shouldn't be out of bed, you will break your leg all over again." He lifted her up and placed her safely back into her bed. She wouldn't let go.
"I'm so sorry Inuyasha, it's not your fault" She said holding him closer, wincing at the pain this was causing herself.
Inuyasha held her close. "Shh" He cooed. He loosened her grip on him enough so that he could lay his body beside hers. He rubbed her hair and kissed the top of her head.
They laid there in one another's the rest of the night, Inuyasha fell asleep soon after Kagome did.
Sorry again about the lateness of this story. Poor Kagome .. I relate to her in a lot of ways I guess ...Tell me what you think.. Thanks again for all of you who take the time to submit your reviews It means alot
-T.B-
