Hikaru POV
I just "I love you " I said that out load !
A warm smile was written on his face but he said nothing back … kaoru..he doesn't believe on me any more ..
A knock on the door made both of us stare as I said " Come in .."
"Excuse me masters but the doctor just arrived" said the maid
"okay let him in … Kaoru ..want me to stay ?"I asked him cause probably the doctor would ask me to leave
"ah…mhm stay "
The doctor entered the room and asked me to remove Kaoru's shirt .. oh crab.. there are some hekys on him cause of my kisses last night … hope he doesn't-
"what are those dark marks ? "the doctor asked and I froze!
"none of your business just keep doing your job *cough* " came kaoru's cold answer ! I didn't expect this answer from him ..! oh well it helped us anyway
"I am doing my job sir . say aah please " he said as he checked kaoru's mouth , then his chest and his breath
"are we done doctor?" I asked him
"I must give him a needle "the doctor said " you may leave "
"NO. Hikaru stays here"
"okay as you wish sir"
So kaoru took my hand and squeezed it as the doctor gave him the needle, he never liked them, nobody does actually "ouch ouch ouch !" he squeezed more ." shh it's done sweety.." I whispered to him
"okay masters I'll back tomorrow for another needle , please have those medicines I wrote you and have some soup .. if anything is up just call me " he said and left the room
"hika… it hurts more than fuck"
"HAHAHAHAH! Sorry kaoru but this is funny HAHAHA"
"shut up *cough * you mean " he made a cute sad face
I came closer to kiss his forehead but he brought my collar and I felt his lips on mine "unn"
"lately I lie much to myself Hikaru… " he said so then hid himself under the covers
I sat beside him on the bed as made circles on his back , we stayed like that for almost 10 minutes " I'll go make you soup , try to have some sleep okay? " I broke the silent "mhm " then I left the room.
Kaoru POV
There are no tears anymore.. I don't believe on you…I don't believe on you and I anymore …maybe I am not yours anymore…as you are not mine anymore…I feel like run away … my body feels numb… I feel hot and cold … I feel pain and numbness … I don't believe … I… no I.. I am not yours anymore… but I want you to stay mine and I want to keep on belonging to you … oh god…
"OH MY BABY !" a woman's voice came out
"huh…oh mom.." she came closer to me and hugged me as I lied my head on her lap..even thought she was always away but I knew she cared.. and I miss to have her and dad in our life "what's up with you kaoru..? I understand if you don't want to talk about it now but… the maids , the school , your bodyguard all spoke to me about…that you have a relationship with a guy named Kai" i got nervous and she continued " listen to me .. I love you however you are and I will always support you if this is your choice !" she said to me and I didn't know what to say…I thought mom would feel ashamed cause her son is..gay … but she supports me.."th-thank you mom!" I hugged her and cried to her shoulder, for the first time ever..
"I..I will tell you everything..but please..close the door..I don't want Hikaru to come in .." so she did . and I started from the beginning … I told her how I have feelings for Hikaru and how I met Kai ,and that me and Hikaru had sex the night before … and about everything…I just couldn't stop..I have been taking this for too long and to speak it all out like that made me feel good even thought I was crying while telling her and so she was.
I cried to her chest like a little baby.
"Open the door ! MOM ARE YOU THERE?" came Hikaru's voice from outside the door
"yes ..wait honey "mom opened the door for him
"what's happening ? "
"Hika…I told mom about everything…" I can see him freezing
"unn … mom..my girlfriend is pregnant and … "
"Hikaru… you can't have both … either you have haruhi and the baby or kaoru … if you choose haruhi then I am afraid I can't leave Kaoru with you here in the same country , I'll just take him with me to Italy … " I am surprised from what mom was saying ! I don't want to leave Hikaru !
"WHAT ! MOM ARE YOU SERIOUS ! "
"yes…and remember another thing Hikaru… marrying a common girl would bring shame to the Hitachiin's name …"
"WHAT THE FUCK ! YOU ARE NOT BEING FAIERE ! MARRYING FROM A POOR GIRL WOULD BRING SHAME TO THE FAMILY BUT NOT KAORU BEING GAY ? DOES THAT SOMETHING YOU'D FEEL PROUD OF! " Hikaru said so and broke my heart to a thousand pieces again … he feels ashamed of me… he thinks I am disgusting … *sniff*
"SHUT UP HIKARU"
I can't stop the tears that came out like a bleeding wound…I sniffed again as crying out "oh Kao..I .. I am sorry I didn't mean that " he came and wanted to hug me when I pushed him away "how…how come you did all the things with me yesterday ..then.. say such things… you…you are mean…leave me alone… go run to her …I DON'T BELIEVE ON ME AND YOU ANYMORE " I cried out "you jerk Hikaru.."he is stronger than I..he hugged me tightly "let go of me .." I was saying that and in the same time I was hugging him too as if I didn't want him to let me go.." if this is so then…" he let go of me..and looked to my eyes "I…I need time to think …" he said so and left the room . I fell down to the bed and hugged the pillow "..kaoru… calm down honey … I am sure he'll get back to you…even if he took all the time in the planet …he'll come back at the end …" I wanted to believe in what she says … I wanted hikaru to get back to me…just me… but this " mom…wouldn't it be unfair to him?... to take his happiness away, he is straight … he loves her..and more than that…he wants that baby … if he choose to stay with me like that…he won't be happy … and even if …even if I am dying for it and want him all to stay with me in our own world and to love me… I simply can't take his happiness…he's so important to me… I..I would just let go of my happiness for him … mom, I can't do it"
"then…leave with me for some time…"
"…I don't think I am ready to leaving Hikaru, whatever happens I must be there and support him at least as his little brother "
KAI POV
In Ouran academy.
I can't take kaoru out of my mind … is he okay? …does he miss me ? or was it just a one side love? Maybe he wants to go back to me but that Hikaru didn't let him .. yes yes..that makes some logic ! ..
They didn't even come to school today …everybody stares at me weirdly .. like if I am the one who hurt kaoru ! ..guess
when you are the seme nobody believes you !
Huh…ain't that haruhi ? the girl who was known as a boy for a long time ! I've heard that she is dating Hikaru !
"hello ?" I said to her
"hey Kai sama " she smiled
"is it right that you are dating Hikaru?"
"well…yes , and we'll take our relationship to the next step soon haha" she answered me , even thought I didn't get it but … that means Hikaru likes her a lot .. hmm… what if …
"excuse me Haruhi ..since you are a friend to kaoru too , do you mind me asking you some questions about them ?"
"not at all"
"cool ,then I'll meet you after school at the restaurant of the city center "
"deal ! "
Good .. now I'll do my plan .. and I'll let Hikaru knows who am I and what does it mean to destroy my happiness …even if kaoru hated me after that and never looked at my face again . it doesn't matter as much as to see Hikaru broken hearted … HAHAHAHAHAHA … you'll see Hikaru …you'll pay back.
Hikaru POV
I entered our room and kaoru was sitting on the bed reading a novel
"kao …"
"yes?"
" do you feel better now? I .. I mean about your fever "
"hmm..yeah I guess I am fine " answered me while looking up his book
I walked beside the window ..it was raining
" Strange how hard it rains now …Rows and rows of big dark clouds….. Sometimes a hurt is so deep deep deep You think that you're gonna drown….Its hard to know when to give up the fight…Two things you want will just never be right " I figured it out to kaoru this time cause I can't take it anymore.. when I heard him answering
"Now I don't wanna beg you baby For something maybe you could never give..I'm not looking for the rest of your life…I just want another chance to live…and everything would be fine with you ever after"
I came closer to him and hugged him.." don't you ever think of leaving me again .." I whispered to him
" It's hard to listen to a hard hard heart Beating close to mine, …those are walls that I won't climb… Hikaru… is it that complicated?
"… yes.."
"relax… I won't leave you…"
"ah!..kaoru?"
"your happiness is way more important to me than mine… if you are happy then I will be happy…Hikaru go to haruhi ..make a family.. I will always support you..brother "
"kao!" I lied my head on his shoulder " I am sorry …"
" I am happy for you Hikaru… you are fully grown up now … "
"but there is this part of me that never stops telling me to carry you and leave this whole country …"
I saw him laughing silently .
Suddenly my phone tone stopped us and there was a privet number calling me !
"hello ?"
"H-HIKAAARUUU HELPP MEEEEH! " it was haruhi's voice screaming in the phone !
"WHAT!" me and kaoru jumped in surprised !
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