Kurt could not sleep that night. Douglas had not said anything else to him as he had collapsed into a sleep as soon as he hit the sofa. Blaine, on the other hand, was always by his side and keeping a wary eye on Douglas but he wore his forced smile for when something was bothering him. Kurt had asked a few times but he got the same response of 'being fine' which made him worry even more. Kurt felt like Blaine knew but he was not sure as he was still a bit tipsy. He would tell him in the morning when he was better he said to himself.
Although that did not send away the guilt feelings he had. He stared out the window watching as the snow got heavier then lighter then heavier once again. Blaine squirmed a bit but held Kurt very close. Every time Kurt tried to move, Blaine tightened his grip. It seemed to be a natural response for him Kurt had noted a few times. Blaine was a cuddle whore after all.
It was not until after four in the morning someone woke up. As soon as Kurt had heard them get up he shut his eye immediately trying to look like he was sleeping. However they must have known he was awake as Kurt was given a light shake. He did not even pretend to ignore it and opened his eyes to see Dwight looking at him strangely. "Dwight?" Kurt said as he got up the best way he could with Blaine latched onto him.
"Are you ok? I know you haven't been sleeping. You have bad auras around you right now."
"How did you know that?" Kurt asked, ignoring the last statement and focusing on the former. Dwight shifted where he was currently sitting. He did not reply immediately as he looked to be thinking over his response so an awkward silence was created. It was not until a few minutes later Dwight answered.
"I can't sleep either and I've noticed to moving a lot to stare out of the window. When you did that you looked like you wanted to run away. Like something was haunting your mind and you wanted to run away from it. At first I thought you were possessed by some demon but you're not acting as though you were." Dwight had started to put a small of amount of salt around Kurt as he was speaking, not looking Kurt in the eye.
Kurt stared at Dwight when he finished. Was he really that readable? He sighed and looked out the window once more. "You could say that. You wouldn't be that far off."
"What's troubling you?"
"Let's just say I want to run away from some guilt I feel but I'm not if I should feel it. I want to run away from what I'm feeling right now," Kurt looked back to Dwight. "If that makes any sense."
Dwight nodded in return and did not push for any further answers. Kurt was thankful for that and said goodnight to him once more as Dwight moved as silently as he could over the sleeping bodies on the floor. Kurt moved back to lying down and tried to get at least some hours of sleep, he was not going to look good in the morning at this rate and he was not near any of his creams that could help. He tucked himself beside Blaine and closed his eyes, hoping for a better day.
The morning light hitting Blaine's eyes woke him up. He opened his eyes to see Kurt sleeping in his arms, soundly although facial expression seemed to one of worry or confusion. Blaine could not tell, but he himself was feeling confused with a hint of anger. After hanging up on Dalton, he had turned around to find Kurt but found him near the drinks and at that moment Douglas had kissed his boyfriend. He was going to go over to Douglas but he had collapsed onto sofa, so he could not talk to him why he had done that. He knew far too well that he was dating Kurt and had been for almost a year. He had been right to be wary of him when he started to see the way he was interacting with Kurt. The kiss at the end of the text he had sent Kurt on the first day of meeting properly, Blaine tried to blow it off but now it annoyed him dearly right now. He looked over to where he was still on the sofa in the same position as when he hit it. He looked completely innocent lying there but Blaine knew there was more to him than that. He used his innocence to get anyone he wanted whether they were single or not. If it were not for Kurt lying next to him, he wanted to go up to Douglas and punch him for what he did. He looked down back to Kurt and decided he was going to keep calm about it as he had seen the look of shock on Kurt's face after the kiss. He hoped Kurt was not pleased about it either but he would not know unless Kurt told him.
One by one, people started to wake up and moved into the small kitchen to get themselves some breakfast. Blaine waited until Kurt woke up so they could enjoy it together. He had tried his best not to say anything to Douglas when he had woke up, he gave him a forced small smile when Douglas had gave him a cheery 'good morning'. Although what did catch Blaine's attention was when Dwight got up, he paused to look at Kurt and studied him for a bit before moving along. Blaine looked down once again and for the first time noticed the small salt ring around Kurt. Dwight must have gotten up during the night and done it whilst both of them were asleep he thought to himself.
Eventually Kurt woke up and the way he looked melted Blaine's heart. Despite all of Kurt's complaints in the mornings when they woke up together, Blaine thought he was the most beautiful boy he has ever seen. So raw and fresh, and it was his. The thought brought the same smile he often worn when he saw Kurt like this and it always made him feel better when he saw Kurt mirroring it. However this morning it seemed more forced than usual but Blaine let it slip. He noticed that Kurt had small bags under his eyes so he must have not slept well. Everyone else had already had something to eat and was sitting in the living room chatting as they began to get themselves ready to leave, so the kitchen was empty for the two of them to eat peacefully.
The car journey back to Kurt's house was partially tense for Kurt as he tried to bring up the courage to tell Blaine what happened but it did not happen. So instead he suited for simple small talk as they pulled up to the pavement.
"Are you sure Kurt?" Blaine had asked once again. It was getting on Kurt's nerves.
"Yes I'm fine Blaine for the hundredth time. I think I should be asking you that since you seem more frustrated."
"I'm fine."
"Are you sure-"
"Yes! I'm fine." Blaine snapped. Kurt was taken by surprise at the sudden harshness of Blaine's tone.
"What's gotten into you lately?"
"Oh I'm sorry that someone is going after my boyfriend and you think it's ok for them to kiss you when I'm on the other side of the room." Blaine said sarcastically, looking straight at Kurt.
Kurt's eyes widened as though he was a deer caught in headlights. "You saw that?"
"Yes. Yes I did and I noticed you did nothing but stand there. You didn't seem that bothered." Blaine gripped the steering wheel tightly before continuing. "Was he better than me?"
"How would I know? I didn't kiss him back!"
"Sure Kurt." Blaine said as he looked down to his hands.
"You don't believe me? Why?"
"I'm finding it hard to believe that as like I said before you didn't seem to react negatively about it and from what you've told me he's been a bit flirty with you and you've completely blanked it apparently. Also one more thing," Blaine finally looked back to Kurt to look straight into his eyes. Kurt could see his eyes watering up but the anger on Blaine's face did not make sense. "I thought you would have told me. So you tell me, how can I trust you when you were going to keep that secret from me?" Kurt sat there in silence. He could not get the words out he wanted to say. He wanted to tell him but nothing was coming out. Blaine looked straight ahead of him just as one tear began to fall. "See you Kurt."
"Please don't leave like this Bl-"
"Bye Kurt." Blaine said sharply with his eyes still fixed ahead of him. Kurt slowly got out of the car but as soon as he had closed the door Blaine drove off. Kurt stood there on the pavement watching Blaine drive away until he could no longer see him in the distance.
Kurt ignored his father when he entered the house eventually and went straight to his room. He did not want to see or talk to anyone except Blaine. He had to wait at least two hours as he knew Blaine would not answer his phone whilst he was driving. This was a moment where Kurt hated that Dalton was a few hours' drive away and with this snow it would probably take longer than usual. He groaned in frustration as dived onto his bed, face straight into the pillow. He got out his phone and sent him a quick text.
Please phone me when you get to Dalton xx – Kurt
His father came in to see if he was ok but Kurt simply dismissed it as not getting enough sleep and was a bit cranky. He knew he did not believe him but at least he had left him alone to his thoughts for the afternoon.
Back at Dalton, Blaine sat in his room on the floor staring at his phone with tears flowing down his face. He told himself he could not answer, answering would mean he was wrong and he knew he was right, but all he was feeling was a constant wave of hurt and pain. He wanted to believe Kurt but what else could he do. He scrolled through the texts Kurt had sent him during the afternoon.
Please phone me when you get to Dalton xx – Kurt
Are you okay? Xx – Kurt
Please Blaine xx – Kurt
Please answer x – Kurt
Talk to me please x – Kurt
Please – Kurt
I love you – Kurt
Meanwhile outside many Windsors were moving past his door very quickly and looking fairly frightened at the sight they had witnessed not that long ago. David and Wes were trying to reassure people whilst Dwight was creating a salt line at Blaine's door. They had not seen Blaine explode with anger in a long time and it was something no one was getting over. The thought that he snaps like that and scream at people the way he did sent a chill down people's spines.
"Shane, I don't have the fucking time to deal with you ok! Deal with it yourself and grow up!" Blaine had practically screamed at Shane when Shane had asked him for help on something. Shane watched as his brother stormed away to his room. Everyone in Windsor was dead silent and not daring to move in case they too got the wrath of the prefect's anger.
Reed was the first person to break the tension even if he was only whispering to Shane. "Do you know what's wrong with him?" When he got no reply, he took hold of Shane's hand and pulled him up the stairs to their room. "He probably didn't mean to snap at you." Reed said to comfort Shane as he got out his phone to text Kurt to see if he knew anything.
Kurt had left his phone in his bedroom as he helped make dinner and sat down with his family. Finn had arrived home just in time, apparently the mess at Puck's was that bad so that was why it took him so long. Kurt knew he was lying as they probably did many other things except for cleaning. It had been the usual family dinner; Carol making sure Finn did not choke on his food as he ate it that fast, Burt making small talk to everyone about their day and Kurt help Carol dish out and clean up.
When he went back to his bedroom, which he said he was going to prepare what he needed for tomorrow as he had to catch up on something, he checked his phone instantly hoping that Blaine would have replied to him or hoped a bit more for a missed phone call from him.
5 missed calls
9 unread texts
He should have not gotten his hopes up as he read the screen as all of the missed phone calls were from Reed as well has most of the texts, along with Douglas. It was like everyone knew there was something wrong and they went straight to the source.
Kurt! What's wrong with Blaine? He just screamed at everyone! – Reed
Hey Kurt. How're you? - Douglas
Kurt? Did something happen between the two of you? – Reed
Kurt? - Douglas
Kurt? – Reed
Are you okay? – Douglas
Kurt, are you okay? Please text/phone back! – Reed
Kurt decided to phone Reed back and tell him everything that happened the previous night and why Blaine would be in such a state. Kurt felt incredibly guilty when he heard what Blaine had been doing since he had arrived back at Dalton. He wanted to apologise to everyone Blaine snapped at as it was his fault he was reacting like this but Reed said it would be fine and that he should not worry about it.
After hanging up on Reed, Kurt texted back the people who had left him messages. He left Douglas for last for some reason as he had sent him a few out of concern. He did not want to talk to him as he was the partial reason he and Blaine were in this situation, but he felt he had to so that he could not feel worse by ignoring him.
Sorry, no I am not okay - Kurt
What's wrong? - Douglas
I think Blaine and I are over - Kurt
How? What happened? - Douglas
We had a very serious argument and now he's ignoring me - Kurt
Kurt, I'm so sorry to hear that x - Douglas
Kurt looked at the last text but did not bother to reply. He was not the person he wanted to talk to.
Blaine? – Kurt
Goodnight Blaine, please talk to me in the morning x – Kurt
Kurt stared at his phone as he sent the last text hoping that Blaine would text him back. Just any sign even if it just said 'night' would give him something. Noting that it was just after midnight and he would have to get up in a couple of hours, he settled down on his bed clutching onto his duvet and pillow as the tears poured from his eyes. He did not try to control the sob that followed. He eventually fell asleep on his tear stained pillow in the very early hours of the morning.
TBC
AN: Happy New Year! (Despite we're a fortnight in) I know I said I would try to update during the holidays but things got pretty busy with family and college work along with it being Christmas and New Year. Sorry! I know this is shorter than usual but it'll hopefully get longer again with it going back to weekdays in the next chapter.
Thank you for reading and I hope you're still enjoying this story despite my terrible updating :')
