Chapter 8 – Nightmare
Kacey's POV
I always have nightmares about dad hurting me which was why I hated sleep I never use to sleep properly I use to drink coffee to keep myself awake until early hours though I hate the taste of the stuff the nightmares haunt me badly though.
I was asleep having that nightmare again the one where he hurt me the first time which happened to be my fourth birthday...
*Nightmare*
It was early on October 5th 2001 my fourth birthday it must have been about 9:30 in the morning it was a Saturday and I was asleep when someone shook me awake.
'Go away'
'I want to give the birthday girl a kiss'
It was dad I didn't like him even then I always saw him hitting mum he use to say they were 'play fighting' only she really got hurt.
Not wanting to anger him though I wake up and said morning it was rare he was in this good a mood.
'Hey princess'
I folded my arms I didn't like being called princess it sounded to ...girly
'oi I have told you to act more girly and you still haven't learned your lesson'
'I'm a boy daddy'
'Right I will prove you are a girl'
Being four I had NO IDEA what was about to happen
'No daddy I like being the way I am'
He looked at me and smirked, mum had gone out with Barry and Dynasty to get my cake so it was just the two of us.
'Hey why don't we play a game'
Being a child I loved games especially football of course even then I was a little pro
Dad started kissing me then even at my age I knew it was wrong that was the way he kissed mum he shouldn't kiss me like that.
He got on top of me I couldn't breathe I was tiny and he was extra strong which didn't help.
'Daddy you are squishing me'
'It is part of the game baby'
He stripped me then I was confused it wasn't my bath time so I had no idea why he did that.
He started touching me I didn't like it, it didn't feel right
He then pulled his pants of I was too confused to realize something bad was going to happen.
'Right this might hurt a little'
He jammed himself into me I remember my screaming, the pained screams that went on for ages it was the worst pain imaginable I was crying and screaming hard this just wasn't right I knew that even then.
'Daddy please stop it hurts! I cry hard'
'aww it gets better I promise'
It didn't get better at all
He finished and then said if I told everyone would hate me and I would go into care
*Nightmare ends*
I wake up screaming loudly and crying I must have been pretty loud because Baz Dyns and mum all ran in.
'Baby you ok said mum'
My breathing was rapid and I was shaking
'No I dreamed about dad when he was...
They all kiss me and hug me tight
Mum I will stay with her till she falls asleep says Barry
They both go back to bed and Barry sits on the edge stroking my hair with my head on his chest
'shhhh angel it's ok i'm here'
'He was hurting me, it seemed so real'
'Baby he will never hurt you again I promise'
He kissed me on the head I cuddled close feeling save for the first time in my life in his arms.
