Well this chapter has been hard to write but the rest shouldn't be that hard. This on is going to be a kind of 2 part chapter because I really wanted to put up a chapter for you all so I split it up but this one still is pretty long. Again I'm so sorry for not having it up a lot sooner but this one is really long so please R&R and let me know what you think. Thanks everyone for the reviews, comments, and suggestions!
About 30 minutes before I had to go on stage Jo had split from the crowd so I went to look for him. I finally found him in one of the dressing rooms laying on the couch, I felt bad because he looked tired and I knew it's because of me.
"Hey Teddy bear" I said walking over lifting his head up sitting down and putting it back down on my lap.
"What do you want posie?" he said with a knowing grin.
"Why whatever do you mean?" I asked innocently in a mocking southern accent.
"How about you never do that again like I say every time you do that and I know that tone in your voice your up to something."
"What tone?" I asked still playing innocent. "Can't I just come in here to check on my big bro?"
"Rose" he said knowing I was lying.
"Fine you caught me. I have a huge favor to ask you."
"Mhmm" he said telling me to continue.
"Well you know I'm really uneasy about tonight….well I think I've fond a way to cure some of the uneasiness…." I said nervous about what I was about to ask him.
"Really and what would that be? And why do I feel I'm not going to like this?"
"Well you see this really awesome, and amazing friend of mine wrote a song with me a while back and no one else has ever heard it, including the band, and I cant go sing it by myself so maybe that person could comesingitwithme" I finished the last bit with all the words running together. As I was talking he had sat up.
"Posie, you know I don't sing in public!" he exclaimed standing up.
"I know but would you do it for me just this one time?" I asked giving him the look no guy can resist walking towards him.
"You're dangerous you know that?" he said with a smirk. Slowly a grin spread across my face.
"Was that a yes?"
"Well I did write most of it and who could say no to you?"
"YAY!" I shouted jumping up giving him a hug.
In the middle of the hug the door opened so I turned around to see who it was not moving my arms. When I saw who it was I immediately pulled my arms down and turned to face them at the door.
Standing there was Casey, Lissa, and Dimitri.
"Hey." I said nonchalant.
"Sorry to interrupt"
"It's cool I was just checking to see if I have it, I do" I said winking at Casey and smiling.
"Have what?" asked Dimitri clueless.
"My amazing charm and awesome persuasion" I said winking at Jo this time.
"Oh was that what that was?" he asked playfully knowin I only said that because Dimitri was there.
"Oh yea." I said semi-seductively.
"Well in that case I change my mind." He said with a serious face.
"NO you don't mister you already said yes!"
"I'm just kidding Posie, I'll do it but only because it's you."
"Thank you!" I said hugging him again.
Someone cleared their throat.
"Oh sorry what'd you all need?"
"We came to tell you you're on in 15." Said Liss looking at her watch.
"K. come on Teddy, Liss," I said pulling them through the door, but then I stopped turned around and whispered in Casey's ear, "Don't worry he's still yours I'm not moving in on him."
"Thanks I was really worried about that" she said laughing.
"No problem just thought I'd let you know." I said smirking then walked out with Casey going the other way towards the sound booth in front of the stage where she always sat.
"Posie what was that about?" asked Jo as we started walking. I could hear the curiosity in his voice and laughed.
"Just letting her know I'm not moving in on her man."
"Oh and who's that man again?"
"No one of importance" I said toying with him, "just some awesome totally hot guy from the bar!"
"Oh really and what's this hot sexy guys name?" he asked.
"I never said sexy but I guess that's true too. Hmm I don't remember it was like Joseph or Joey or Jim oh right it was Josiah!" I said winking at him.
"Oh I didn't know you two were dating." Said Lissa.
"oh then why did you…?" she questioned confused.
"Long story short they like each other but they won't do anything about it." In reality I knew why they wouldn't do anything about it, me, but I told tem it was stupid, but that's for another time.
"Well if you like each other why don't you do anything about it?" she questioned Jo, but I answered for him.
"Liss you of all people should know things are never that simple and easy." I said and couldn't help but glance at Dimitri. He was staring at me with a look I couldn't make-out before I hurriedly looked away.
"yea true." Said Liss. I could feel sympathy coming through the bond so I looked at her and gave a reassuring smile saying I was ok.
When we finally reached backstage I still had 10 minutes s I excused myself to go to the bathroom. I stood in front of the mirror trying not to convince myself to just walk out. I stood there for so long I forgot what time it was, so pretty soon I heard a knock.
"Come in." I said but regretted it as soon as I saw who it was. "What do you want Dimitri?"
"Your on in 3."
"Great." I mumbled looking in the sink,
"Why'd you agree to do this if you don't want to?"
"Long story short it's a favor to a friend"
"Oh well relax you have a beautiful voice."
"Thanks comrade but that's not what I'm worried about." Then I realized what I said and flinched and saw him get a pained expression but also saw excitement in his eyes.
"Oh then what is?" he said trying to ignore my slip up.
"You'll see" I said walking out the door.
"1 minute" said Jason.
"k can I talk to you for a sec?"
"Yea." He said as I pulled him to the side and explained the plan to him.
"15 Seconds" said the stage manager
"Sounds good" said Jason as we walked by to the side stage.
"Hey you'll do great Posie screw everyone else" Said Jo with a reassuring smile and a wink.
"Thanks I might need that advice." I said with a laugh. "Here goes nothing."
I walked on stage and saw the crowd. For a minute my heart stopped and I panicked but luckily I've been center of attention enough to know how to work a crowd.
"Hey I'm Rose, I'm the opening act/singer for the night. First I'd like to say thanks for coming and I hope you all enjoy tonight's' show. I'm going to mix it up a lot because I really didn't have much time to prepare. I hope you all don't mind the first song is called 'I just want to run' hope you like it.
I just wanna run, hide it away
Run because they're chasing me down
I just wanna run, throw it away
Run before they're finding me out
I just wanna run
I just wanna run
I'm out here all alone
I try to call your house
Can't reach you on the phone
I'll gather up the nerve
I'm packing up my bag
It's more than you deserve
Don't treat me like a drag
I'm feelin' like I keep on talking
I'm repeating
Myself, my words lost all meaning
I keep talking
I repeat myself
I just wanna run, hide it away
Run because they're chasing me down
I just wanna run, throw it away
Run before they're finding me out
I just wanna run (run, run, run)
I just wanna run (run, run, run)
Like a game of chess
I predict your move
I think I know you better
Better than you do
I'm sick of feeling cheap
Cheated and abused
Sick of losing sleep
Thinking about you
I'm feelin' like I keep on talking
I'm repeating
Myself, my words lost all meaning
I keep talking
I repeat myself
I just wanna run, hide it away
Run because they're chasing me down
I just wanna run, throw it away
Run before they're finding me out
I just wanna run (run, run, run)
I just wanna run (run, run, run
The whole time I was running around trying to get the crowd pumped up, then when it ended they all clapped.
"Thanks everyone, now this songs not really true because I never believed in fairy tales but one man had me starting to believe in them…."
(first part is spoken to the music)
You know the story
You read the books
Boy meets girl
Then they fall forever in love
But I know better
So here goes a tale
Of the realest of the real
Listen
Now once upon a time in a small world
It was everything that I dreamed of
He was my gem and I was his pearl
Nothing could come between us
A prince charming to call my own
Until the day that he broke my heart
And left me wonderin all alone
Pickin my mind and soul apart
Used to believe in love (I used to believe in love)
Used to believe in fairy tales (In fairy tales)
Since my heart's been crushed (It's been crushed)
I don't believe in much, I need help (No no no no no)
Don't know which way to turn
Figure it out for myself
I've just started to learn (La da da dee, oh)
There's no such thing as fairy tales
I kept singing but when I said no such thing as fairy tales I couldn't help but glance at Dimitri, he looked pained but I just glanced away. He should feel bad its his fault! I finished and lissa was sending sympathy to me through the bond so I glance over and gave her a small smile making sure not to look at him. This time I didn't introduce the song or anything just went straight into it. I felt the energy come up when the music started playing so I started working the crowd jumping, clapping, andwhatever else
Let me hear you say hey hey hey
Alright
Now let me hear you say hey hey ho
the crowd was loving it and started clapping and dancing while I kept singing and it put me on cloud nine that they loved all my songs so far.
Where are the hopes, where are the dreams
My Cinderella story scene
When do you think they'll finally see
That you're not not not gonna get any better
You won't won't won't you won't get rid of me never
Like it or not, even though she's a lot like me
We're not the same
And yeah yeah yeah I'm a lot to handle
You don't know trouble, I'm a hell of a scandal
Me, I'm a scene, I'm a drama queen
I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen
I kept singing it putting all my energy into it trying my hardest not to look at HIM but I could feel his stare digging into me. When I was done I decided it was time to show Jo what I had up my sleeve.
"so I'm glad yall are all enjoying this but I want to bring a dear friend of mine up here to sing a song or two with me, so Joseph will you please come join me?"
He walked up but he had caught on and gave me a pointed look but made sure the crowd didn't see it.
"Hey everyone my names Joseph, I see yall are loving my little sis up here so I hope I don't ruin things" he said with a grin and the crowd laughed with him "Now my darling rose what song or songs are we singing?" he questioned.
I just grinned and had the band start up. I decided to do a song we wrote when I first decided to move in with him. (AN: I'm skipping a line or two in this song because in this story its not realy a romantic lover song, just a friend in need.)
(Rose is italics,Jo is bold, both is bold italics)
(Rose)
Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore.
(Both)
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I've lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without.
I just need you now.
When we wrote this I had just decided to move in because things weren't working out on my own but me and Jo had gotten really close, and the night before I had seen a group that looked oddly like the gang from the academy, and to top it off it was the first time Adrian had dream walked with me since I had left so I was feeling lonely and ended up calling him in the middle of the night after downing a few shots hadn't helped. It was originally just my song but tonight I decided a duet would be better.
(Jo)
Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind?
For me it happens all the time.
(Both)
It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I've lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without.
I just need you now.
As the song was playing we looked at each other the whole time, I'm pretty sure we were giving out the wrong impression but I really didn't care. When the song was done the crowd started clapping and we looked away finally.
"Glad y'all liked that one. I know it's one of my favorites! This next one a very special friend wrote with me" I said glancing at Jo "so I hope y'all love this one as much as me and I hoe y'all have someone in your life that you can relate this song to whether it be a friend, family member, spouse, kid or anyone else because when you find people in this world that are that special then you know you'll make it through anything no matter how hard it is." I said thinking about all me and Jo had been through. Even though I have never gotten over losing Lissa, and Dimitri and the rest of the gang, Jo helped me realize it's not the end of the world and helped me get on with my life, not to mention how much he's been there for me in many other situations. The music started and I glanced over and saw Lissa had tears in her eyes, she gets so emotional sometimes, but who can blame her its part of what makes her Lissa!
(Rose)
It's like a storm
That cuts a path
It breaks your will
It feels like that
(Jo)
You think you're lost
But you're not lost on your own
you're not alone
(Both)
I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
If you can't cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I won't let go
(Jo)
It hurts my heart
To see you cry
I know it's dark
This part of life
(Rose)
Oh it finds us all
And we're too small
To stop the rain
Oh but when it rains
(Both)
I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
And you can't cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
(Both but switching lines)
And I won't let you fall
Don't be afraid to fall
I'm right here to catch you
I won't let you down
It won't get you down
you're gonna make it
Yeah I know you can make it
(Both)
Cause I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
And you can't cope
And I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I won't let go
Oh I'm gonna hold you
And I won't let go
Won't let you go
No I won't
By the end of the song I had tears in my eyes thinking about all the things he had done for me and how much I screwed up his life but he doesn't see it that way. The whole reason he refuses to date anyone is because of me. He refuses to leave me alone for longer than 30 minutes because he knows any longer than that I freak out, it didn't used to be that way but after things at school and then the thing a few months ago, I have some separation anxiety. Because of me he's put his life on halt but he doesn't seem to mind it and every time I try to tell him to do things he refuses. I'll never know what I did to get an amazing friend/big brother like him.
"Oh my gosh rose that was amazing you two really are close!"sent Lissa through the bond.That pulled me out of my thoughts and I turned and faced her and nodded my head in a way to answer her. I happened to look towards Dimitri and saw a bunch of emotions. There was some jealousy, compassion, and a little…..sympathy? I wasn't quite for sure but there were some emotions I couldn't quite decipher.
AN: songs in this chapter were:
'I just want to run'- Downtown Friction
'Fairytale'- Jojo
'Best Damn thing'- Avril Lavigne
'Need You Now'- Lady Antebellum
'I Won't Let Go'- Rascal Flatts
