Sawyer was walking back and forth in her living room which made Caillee feel nervous.
"Can you stop pacing around, please" Caillee finally said: "Just call her!"
It had been 24 hours since Sawyer and Lindsey kissed and Lindsey decided that she really wanted to be with Sawyer. For that to happen Lindsey first needed to talk to Jake, her boyfriend. Well, hopefully, ex-boyfriend. But Sawyer didn't know if Lindsey already talked to Jake and if Lindsey would call her afterwards or she would call Lindsey. Sawyer decided to wait for Lindsey's call, so now she was pacing around with her phone in her hand, hoping it would ring.
"I can't call her. Then it seems like I've been waiting impatiently all day" Sawyer replied.
"You have" Caillee said expressly.
"Yeah…but that doesn't mean Lindsey needs to know."
Finally Sawyer's phone rang, only it startled Sawyer so much she almost dropped her phone. Luckily she caught her phone in time and quickly pushed on the green symbol in the screen to answer the call.
"Hello?"
"Hi Sawyer…"
Sawyer immediately recognized Lindsey's voice: "Hi Lindsey, how are you doing?"
"I'm good. How about you?"
"I'm good too…"
A short silence.
"I talked to Jake…" Lindsey continued. Meanwhile Sawyer moved herself from the living room to her bedroom.
"How did it go?"
"Well…I told him about us in high school and that I have been lying to myself all these years. He understood and he was very accepting. He also told me that he kinda had a feeling my heart belonged somewhere else."
"Really? How did he know?"
"I've never said I love you to him… And he found an old picture of us in a shoebox that I marked as 'things I'll never forget' "
A soft chuckle came from both sides of the line.
"So we're good to go…you know…further with our relationship?" Sawyer got butterflies in her belly when she said that.
"Uhu. Uhm…Is it okay if I tell Shay about us tomorrow? You know she's one of my best friends and I wanna tell her separately from the others."
"Yeah of course. But just so you know, Lucy already knows too."
"Wait she already knows, how?"
"Well she actually had already figured it out when we all got together at her place. And yesterday when I came home she was waiting for me with Caillee to get a full report about what happened and I kinda told them. Sorry" Sawyer said with guilt in her voice.
"No don't be. That was the plan, right, for us to be together and everyone could know."
"Right." Sawyer felt relieved.
"But hey…Who's Caillee?"
"Oh right, she's my roommate. We went to college together and shared a room on campus. She's also my best friend."
"Oh okay…" Sawyer noticed a little change in Lindsey's voice.
"You're not jealous, are you?"
"No…" Not very convincing: "Maybe a little. But I would be jealous of anyone who would share a home with you."
"Well that's not so difficult to fix, you know" Sawyer teased Lindsey.
"Now don't go to fast. First let me come out to my friends and family, okay."
"Don't worry. I'll give you all the time you need…As long as it doesn't take another five years."
Both girls laughed.
"Okay, I have to go now. I have to go over my dialogues from the new script. I'll talk to you tomorrow."
"Yeah I'd love that. Good luck tomorrow with Shay."
"Thanks. Bye."
"Bye."
Sawyer pushed the red symbol on her cellphone screen to end the conversation and a blissful feeling fell over her. It was like the world finally made sense and nothing could go wrong anymore.
The next day Lindsey went straight to Shay's trailer when she arrived on set. Nervously she knocked on the door. Shay responded by opening the door.
"Oh hi Lindsey. I was just going to make-up. Wanna join me?"
"Euhm, I was actually hoping I could talk to you."
"Now is not really a good time. I have to be ready soon. Marlene wants to start shooting in half an hour."
"Oh…yeah…no problem."
"Are you okay? You look nervous."
"Yeah I'm okay…It's just…euhm. I'm sorry. I can't tell you here" Lindsey said while looking around to all the crew people walking around with props, camera's, clothes.
"Tell you what. Why don't we meet up here at my trailer after we shot the scene at spencer's house" Shay suggested.
"Yeah, that's sounds good. Thanks"
"No problem. Are you sure you're okay?"
"Yeah, I'm fine."
"Okay. See you later."
"Bye" Lindsey was a little disappointed she couldn't tell Shay yet. But she also was glad that Shay saw she really needed to be listened to, and Shay searched for a time that she was free for longer than 5 minutes. Lindsey decided to go to her own trailer first to drop some stuff of and then head over to hair and make-up too.
After shooting her scenes, Lindsey went back to Shay's trailer and took place on the steps in front of the trailer door. She was holding two paper cups with coffee and sipping of one of them. On her way over she passed the coffee stand and decided to buy two cups, a regular coffee for Shay and a decaf for herself. Her nerves were already on edge all morning and she didn't want to make it worse with caffeine. After a while Shay arrived at her own trailer too.
"Hi" Shay said: "Have you've been waiting a long time?"
"I don't know, like fifteen, twenty minutes" Lindsey answered.
"Sorry to have you waiting so long. We had to go over some rehearsals for later."
"No problem. Coffee?" Lindsey said by holding the paper cup in the air in front of Shay. Shay accepted her offer: "Thanks. Let's go inside."
Lindsey stood up from her place on the stairs so Shay could open the door and both girl stepped inside.
"Do you wanna sit on the bench or at the table?" Shay asked.
"Bench is fine."
When both girls sat down Lindsey wanted to start telling Shay everything but she didn't knew where to start. Shay saw Lindsey struggling: "What's going on Lindsey? You've been nervous all morning."
"I broke up with Jake." That was a good way to start, Lindsey thought.
"Oh, I'm sorry. Are you okay?"
"Yeah, I'm fine."
Shay noticed that wasn't really the thing why Lindsey was so nervous: "You seem more than fine with it…This wasn't really the thing you wanted to tell me, isn't it?"
"It's part of it."
"What's the other part?"
"Well…Euhm…Remember Sawyer? You know, the girl Lucy works with and who she invited to the game night at her place."
"Yeah, I remember her."
"Do you remember that Sawyer and I were in school together and that Sawyer is gay?"
"Yeah, I remember that too."
"And do you remember that you asked me if I knew the mystery girl that Sawyer dated?"
"Lindsey just tell me what you want to say."
For that one second, Lindsey gathered all her courage: "I was that girl…I was,… well, I am the mystery girl, I dated Sawyer in high school." Lindsey looked Shay straight in the eyes.
Shay showed a little smile on her face: "Well to be honest, I kinda already knew that. Or at least I had my suspicions. Ever since that night you saw Sawyer, you haven't been yourself. It was like you were on edge all the time."
"Yeah, I didn't really feel like myself either."
"Lindsey, is Sawyer the reason you broke up with Jake?"
"Sort of. A two days ago Sawyer and I met at my place to talk about us and what happened between us, just to clear the air. We both said some things and…well…we ended up kissing."
"And just like that you decided to break up with Jake?" Shay said in a way it didn't feel accusative. She asked it in a way like she needed more explanation.
"Yeah, kinda. Don't get me wrong, Jake's a really nice guy but I don't love him. I actually never loved a guy, at least not in a way I love Sawyer." Lindsey turned her eyes down and put her cup, she was still holding, on the little table next to her. The next thing she knew, Shay was holding her in a tight hug and said: "I'm happy for you…And I'm glad you told me." Lindsey felt so relieved and felt so much lighter. It was like a huge weight fell of her shoulders. So she hit her arm around Shay and said: "Thanks."
When they released each other from their hug, both girls were smiling. There were a couple tears in Lindsey's eyes.
"Are you okay?" Shay asked.
"Yeah, I'm great."
"Hey, who else knows about this?"
"Euhm, just you, Jake, Sawyer's roommate and Lucy."
"Lucy?"
"Yeah. She and Sawyer became good friends and Lucy also figured it out at the game night. Apparently we weren't so good at hiding it as we thought." Lindsey smiled and Shay smiled back at her.
"But you actually have been struggling with this for years? Why didn't you tell me sooner? It's just…you play an out gay character when you are gay yourself but weren't really okay with that."
"Now you know why that crying scene in Emily's bedroom was so easy for me to do." Lindsey produced a small chuckle: "I know it's not easy to understand because I don't really understand it myself. I thought that it was just some stupid high school crush but when I saw Sawyer again after all these years, I knew that it wasn't temporarily. I guess I've always knew but never wanted to accept it."
"Well I'm glad you do now" Shay said and they hugged again.
"Are you gonna tell the others too? And what about your family?"
"I think I'm gonna talk to my parent tonight."
"And what about the others?"
"Well I'm not really gonna tell them like this, like I told you. I think I'm just gonna wait for a moment where it fits."
"Do you want me to keep my mouth shut than?"
"It's okay for you to say something if they ask."
"Okay."
"Yeah, okay." They both smiled at each other again.
"Come here." And they gave each other on last hug.
