Chapter 8:
Subaru's POV
"I'm going to ask her to go on a date!"
Yep, you heard me right.. I hope. I am going to officially know, and confirm my feelings for Yume. Her energetic smile, her caring personality, her beautiful sunset pigtails.. all of them make me truly smile innocently.
I don't know how I am going to ask her.. but I know that I have to do it soon. My conscious won't hold out any longer, and I think I might go insane if I keep closing myself. I think over and over and over with all of my might, until the incredible pain surges into my mind once again. I suddenly remember that I am still pretty sick...
"I probably should go to sleep. Goodnight... Yume."
I close my eyelids thinking all about her. Have I really developed feelings for her? I don't know yet, and I am determined to figure out.. I just... need.. to go to sleep...
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-The Next Morning-
I wake up with a lazy yawn, finally becoming aware of my surroundings after a short amount of time. All of the memories that happened last night came rushing through my dizzy mind, as my cheeks suddenly become a pale pink from one specific memory.. my claim last night.
I get out of bed, a little bit unbalanced. I tripped by a few items on the floor, since the images of the world I am currently seeing is, well.. moving. I try to walk out until I bump into someone outside of the door.
"Ahh, Sor- Asahi? What are you doing up so early on the other side of the door?" I yell out at the end as I jump back with a surprised, but freaked out expression. I glance at the clock, to confirm that it was only 5:00AM! I look at him with widened eyes. He just chuckles with a bright smile on his face, totally ignoring the question.
"I was just about to open the door to check on you, until you just gave me the funniest reaction possible. Good to see your okay, Subaru!" He happily giggles afterwards, while I gave him an annoyed but relieved expression.
"I'm going out for a jog." I replied quietly, trying to pass by him quickly.
"No, no, no, no, no, no, NO! You still need to get better! You need to take the day off to get into better conditions! Think about yourself for a minute. Now, go back to our dorm and go to sleep. No jogging for you today, Mr. Perfect!" He proudly announced as he gave me a serious look.
"Wait, Asah-"
"No, just go back to sleep and rest, okay? Either me or the others will check up on you every once in a while. You need to be in your best shape for our big concert tomorrow! If you overwork your body today, our fans will be left disappointed, and filled with sorrow. If you don't want that to happen, then get your but into the dorm! I'm following you, just in case." He said, or rather demanded, as I replied with a simple nod, shocked on how much concern was in his eyes as he was saying it.
I was soon in my room, on my bed, with my blanket over me. Asahi gave me some medicine before he left; and now, I am all alone. I look around with dull eyes, looking around as a bored emotion spreads over me. My mind goes to the subject 'Yume' randomly.
"Didn't I say I would ask Yume on a date next time I see her? Well, if I truly don't want to go on a date with her, then I could just avoid Yume. However, for some reason.. I want to meet her as soon as possible. Would the atmosphere be awkward? How would I ask her? I have to plan this thoroughly, because I want Yume to say yes. I can already imagine her rejecting me so cruelly. Would she like me to say it straight forward? Bluntly? Romantically..? Nah! Maybe some cheesy lines? W-wait.. what? I am definitely not doing that. I'll try thinking in Yume's point of view." I murmur quietly to myself as the mixed thoughts jumble all in my mind.
Yume would want.. flowers, hand-made chocolates, and a kind smile.. This is what I think she would want. I can't help but feel extremely nervous at the thought. So, hand-made chocolates? What if they taste really bad though..? I shouldn't be worrying much; because I'm Subaru, the coolheaded one, right?
I'll probably ask her next week so she won't catch the fever I have. I wouldn't want her to feel as horrible as I did right now..
I can't make the chocolates today, because she could possibly become sick if I did it now, when I am sick myself. Germs would just spread.. However, I didn't want to do nothing today. I can't just sit around, bored, lazy, and useless.
I decide to just think about how much has happened ever since Yume came. My life was honestly normal before she appeared. She changed everything. My thoughts, my feelings, my whole world. I suddenly remember a memory that caught my attention, one I would never forget.
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-Flashback-
Her eyes closed, and she was about to fall. Of course, I couldn't just let her fall, so I caught her just in time, and made her lay on my back. I carried her back to the Girls Nurse's office, and while I was walking, I saw Asahi and Kanata, and I just knew that when he saw me like this, they would keep teasing like I loved her, or some kind of romance, or if we were on a date. Of course I like her, but not in that way. As we were just about to meet paths, I decided to pretend to not notice them, but of course, they noticed me.
"Hey Subaru!" Asahi said.
"Hey."
I was trying to quickly walk away while avoiding paths, and when I was right about to pass by them, they noticed I was carrying Yume. Great..
"Asahi, we should be going. We shouldn't interrupt their date." Kanata said with a smirk.
"Agreed." Asahi said with a confident nod.
"Hey! We aren't on a date yet, I am just bringing her to the nurse since she fainted."
"Yet? So you are going on a date soon?" Kanata said happily.
"Wait, no! That's not what I meant! Anyways, I am busy right now, I'm going."
- End Of Flashback -
I remembered that day.. when I didn't fully discover my feelings. If I had to do that again, I wouldn't be able to stop being a tomato, I wouldn't be able to stop pathetically refusing my feelings, I would never be able to deny anything without looking like an idiot.
"Imagine if they actually teased me when I was going on a date with Yume? While we were taking a romantic stroll?"
Just the thought made me feel flustered.
"Why can't I stop thinking about her?"
"Why can't I stop admiring her?"
"Why can't I stop.. loving her?"
I immediately open up a small notepad, and started writing. I wrote all of the ways to ask Yume out. I also listed what was strong and weak with the statements.
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- 3 Hours After Writing All Possible Ways To Ask Her.. -
I release my grip on my pen and notepad, as they fall onto my bed. I decide to walk around town, to soothe my confused mind and my aching body. I really need to relax myself for the day. Thinking too much will not make my conditions any better.
I put on my usual cap on my head backwards, and my big, red, nerdy glasses, that magnify my eyes. I also added my blue jacket, to avoid being cold. I looked at myself in the mirror before leaving.
"Okay, no one will notice me if I have this on." I reassure myself, because I messily put the disguise on.
I walk outside the dorm, leaving a note on my bed to where I'm going, in case one of them walks in and wonders where the heck I've disappeared to.
I look around the buildings adjacent to each other, seeing the beautiful colors blend as they come into my eyes. I walk into a book store with lots of.. well... books! There was a big crowd in here, checking out all of the fantastic covers with appealing titles. I was personally intrigued by the books' covers myself. My eyes' gaze fell upon a book for.. cooking. It looked cute and pink, and I thought it would be useful when making chocolates. I skim around the pages and found over 3 recipes for different and unique chocolates.
"Excuse me, I would like to buy this." I politely said towards the worker.
"That would be 20$ please." The person replied with a smile.
I gave her the money and left with the book.
I opened the book outside of the store and started to read while walking. It was amazing, how delicious every dish looked like. It has cute designed foods, and it honestly made me a little hungry. All well, I should just buy some ingredients for the chocolate right now.
I was getting sleepier and sleepier by the minute, even though it was only 8:12AM. The medicine I took earlier does have the side effect of sleepiness. I really didn't want to sleep though. It wasn't bothering me onto the verge of insanity, so I just shrugged the feeling off and continued walking.
I went into a nearby store and bought some basic ingredients needed for making chocolate. I bought sugar, cocoa powder, milk, etc. I returned home afterwards.
"Y-Yume! What're you doing here..?" I ask as I see her in my room. She immediately closed something and turned around to see me, with a startled look.
"I-I wasn't doing anything!" She practically yelled with a voice filled with guilt.
"Boiled Octopus, you shouldn't be in my room, at least.. not when your going to be all red like that." I teased her as she gave me her usual cute reaction.
"N-no way! I am not a boiled octopus, thank you very much! I'm just here to check up on you.. until I realized you weren't here.." She said softly, her finger swirling around her hair awkwardly.
I sigh due to her childish remarks.
"Oh my, and what do I find attractive about you again..?" I mutter to myself as she looks at the bags I'm currently holding.
"What are you holding?" She asks curiously, poking at them with an eager face.
"Oh... wait a minute.. SHE ISN'T SUPPOSED TO BE SEEING THE INGREDIENTS! SHE ISN'T SUPPOSED TO BE HERE AT ALL! Just hold on.. am I supposed to ask her out... now?" I thought in my head, trying to keep my face from being completely red.
I did say that I would ask her the next time I see her.. but seriously.. now out of all times. I don't even know what to say..
"I'm holding something that is none of your buisness. So, onto more important matters, what were you doing here while I was away? Or did you just come here?" I ask her randomly, trying to switch the topic as casually as I could.
She basically freaked out and tried to lie right in front of my face.
"O-oh, I-I.. umm.. JUST arrived here! Yea..." She implied while playing with her fingers.
Silence engulfed the room as we both stood there awkwardly.. why were we so awkward?
Soon enough, tears started rolling down Yume's face, one by one. She kept looking at me while the water filled her eyes. Soon, she was just lost in thought, as I was honestly confused. She slowly lifted up her left hand and touched her cheek.
"Tears.." Yume whispered.
Her voice.. it was filled with pain. It cracked in her words, and was so.. depressing. I never saw Yume like this before. She was never like this before.
Her tears slowly over flooded and kept strolling down rapidly, going all the way to her chin, where they dropped onto the floor, creating a puddle of water, where her reflection had shown.
She cried loudly and looked at me with her beautiful and wet eyes. She went towards me within three steps, and started crying onto my chest.
"It's okay.." I say with a calm and caring voice, not sure of what else to say.
"Why won't these tears stop falling.. why am I so sad over nothing.." Yume weeped out loud, her voice unstable.
I gently stroke her hair and smiled a reassuring smile, telling her not to worry. I continued repeating my actions until she stopped, and looked up at me.
"T-thanks. I-I'll be going now.. hope you're better." She said as she quickly tried to walk past me, only to know that I was still gripping onto her wrist, afraid to let go.
I muster up all of the courage I had left within me, and started to speak.
"Want to.." I say before trailing off, my bangs hiding my eyes as my face turns a bright pink.
"Hmm?" She replied innocently, turning around to see my embarrassing state.
"Want to go out some time?" I said loud and clear. I look into her red eyes filled with hope, and smile at her; I smile at her with a happy, kind, but unintentionally shy smile.
"A.. a date?" She asked surprised, jumping up at the words she just heard come out from my mouth.
"If you want to say it bluntly.. then yea.." I said embarrassed, rubbing the back of my hair with my left hand.
"S-sure! I-I-I'd love to! Next Friday..?" She replied, her eyes avoiding my gaze.
"5:00PM?" I ask, wondering if she was free at the time.
"Sure... s-see you there." She said, waving at me before she left.
As she closes the door, I sigh with relief as I lay onto my bed.
I finally recall all of the events that just happened.
"I.. I... have a date with Yume!" I exclaim happily to myself.
I smile, filled with joy, as I take the notepad I had earlier from the desk, and ripped the page that I made for 'How to Ask Her Out.'
I lay onto my bed as I take off my silly disguise, and look up at the ceiling, filled with happy and innocent thoughts.
"Life just got a whole lot better."
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Authors Note: You must be SOOO confused, right? Well, IMMEDIATELY READ THE NEXT CHAPTER TO UNDERSTAND WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON! This is why I posted two chapters at a time. Imagine, if I only posted this chapter.. all of you would be raging.. :3
I intend to make the future chapters longer.. so it took a longer time than usual to write. These are the last few chapters. Probably ending on Chapter 13. This is my first fanfiction, so thanks for the reviews. :D I never properly thanked for your support. 3
- Personal Note -
I know I didn't update in like FOREVER, but forgive me! I personally had a fever too! I also had HUMONGOUS ALLERGIES, and a stuffy nose! ;( Addition to that, I had to do all of the End-Of-The-Year Tests after I was done from my fever.. Man, I even had a writers block on how to show Yume's definite love for Subaru..
Many events happened during the summer, because I have a very social life.
I know I'm blabbing about my life, so if you finished both of the Notes, you're very dedicated, and thank you.
Hint:
If you want to be observant and figure out why Yume was crying before reading the next chapter.. than here is a hint:
"Oh, oblivious Subaru.. don't you see how forgetful you are with items?"
Now, as you are most likely lazy, ONTO THE NEXT CHAPTER!
