"Ugh, that is so nasty," I exclaimed grabbing my nose. I could smell the rust and salt. It make my stomach turn somehow, at least I didn't faint anymore. But why wasn't I hungry? I thought I would be ready to throw myself at the nearest human and suck their blood out? I turned around to everyone staring at me, lucky for me I can't blush anymore.
"Why doesn't everyone go into the kitchen and I will talk to this man?" Carlisle suggested. We all filed out as Carlisle opened the door and started talking about mail service.
"Yay," I jumped up and down. "It doesn't bother me, wow this is great! But why not? This doesn't make any sense! Could you all stop staring at me please!"
Everyone who had been staring at me now looked down. I looked up at Edward, he seemed upset about something. I pulled him towards me and wrapped my arms around him. He smiled down at me but there was something wrong.
"Whats wrong?" I asked. He just shook his head and turned as Carlisle entered the room. Carlisle looked upset also.
"Ok we need to talk about what just happened. I understand that Bella may have a distaste for the smell of blood, but her instinct should be to feed. I think we should run an experiment and see if the process is repeated," Carlisle rushed through his words and I caught every single one. He grabbed a cell phone and ordered pizza.
"Carlisle," Edward asked. "What if it isn't repeated and she goes for this guy?"
"We will keep her across the room with you and Alice, if she reacts then you two can grab her," he explained. I shook my head in disbelief.
"I think the same thing will happen," I put my head on Edward's chest. "That was the exact same way I reacted as a human, I even felt a little nauseated." I elbowed Edward. "At least I didn't faint this time huh?"
Edward chuckled, probably reliving exactly what happened that day I had fainted in biology. "Well its good to try again, if you do react the same way then we are going to have to figure out what to do with your diet. You may not have a thirst for blood but not eating will make you weak." I nodded defeated. We all walked into the living room. Edward walked over to the piano and started to play my lullaby. I leaned against Esme on the couch and watched Edward play. He looked even more like a greek god when he played. Concentration was deeply etched into his face, his hands moved swiftly across the keys. Every now and then he would look up at me. The first time his face lit up with happiness when he saw me next to Esme, staring at him with fascination. I zoned out and jumped when there was a knock at the door. Edward and Alice were next to me in a second. I figured that this would be the only chance I got for a while to test this out, so I decided to give in to my senses. I trusted Edward to not let me do anything bad. So I stopped thinking and just used my eyes and nose.
Carlisle opened the door and paid for the food. I let the smell hit me, it was as bad as ever. I closed my eyes and held my nose again. Once I heard the man return to his car I opened my eyes and released my nose. I looked up and smelled the pizza. Even that smelled disgusting, like poison. What was I going to do?
"Ok any ideas anyone?" I asked. Carlisle went and threw the pizza away. I could tell that everyone was thinking about it very hard. I started to think also, there had to be something that I could do. The only thing that can sustain a vampire is blood. If I actually get too hungry I might attack someone. But I wasn't hungry, was I. I searched within myself and I couldn't find any desire to eat anything.
"Bella," Carlisle looked at me. "Are you hungry?"
"No, I was just thinking about that. Why am I not hungry?" I asked.
"I couldn't tell you, but I do have a suggestion." He replied. "How about we let you go without feeding? The original plan was to have you hunt tonight. Then in about a week we can order pizza again. What do you think?"
"I think thats a good idea." I stated. Everyone relaxed. Rosalie and Emmett disspeared upstairs, Alice and Jasper went to go hunt. Carlisle looked at Esme.
"Darling, I am going to go volunteer at the hospital," Esme nodded so he continued, "I will be back soon and you have the number if you need anything. I love you." Then he left after giving her a gentle kiss on the forehead.
Esme looked at us. "Well you kids have some fun, I am going to clean the attic out."
"Do you need some help?" I offered.
She shook her head," No dear, I'll be alright. You and Edward hae fun." With that she left. I looked at Edward and he still looked a little confused. I wrapped my arms around him again and stretched up to give him a kiss.
"What's wrong?" I asked.
"Just wondering. You never stop surprising me." He sounded surly.
"You don't sound happy about that, are you regreting changing me?" I tried to sound matter-of-fact but my voice broke and gave me away.
Edward looked hurt. He scooped me up in his arms and pressed his face into my hair. "Darling, I would never regret getting to spend eternity with you."
"I know that but I still keep wondering. Do I smell different?"
He pulled back and looked me in the eyes. "Yes and no. I no longer have the urge to bite you but you still smell the same every other way. I love you, forever you know that, whether you smell like you or like garbage."
I smiled and gave him a quick kiss. "Then what is wrong?"
"Just thinking. I'm confused about this whole thing and I keep wondering what else is going to be different about you. You don't feel any different about me do you?"
"How could you say that? I love you more than ever!" I climbed down from his arms.
"Bella what are you doing?" Edward asked a little wary.
"Come on, I decided that since I didn't use my present from the girls on our honeymoon that we could use it now." Edward looked confused. They must have been careful with their thoughts around him. I raced upstairs and had changed into my gift before Edward got into the room. When he entered his jaw dropped, he slammed the door behind him.
"I'm going to have to thank them," he stated as he pulled me into his arms and started to kiss my throat. I shivered pleasurably. "You look gorgeous." He said between kisses. He pulled back and I pushed him onto the bed. We spent the best night in history together.
