I finished washing the last dish and placed it on the drying rack on the counter. I sighed looking around the house that was now mine.

Lucy was at work and would be for another hour or so. Boxes were unpacked, furnerature was in place, and the nursery was all put together. The last wall had finally been painted and the crib had been built.

I had never thought my life would end up this way. This was more normal than I thought. When I had been taken to the other world I felt so lost. But now that I was back and no longer hunting, I felt lost again. But I had to be smart. For my child.

I winced, my hand taking the counter, the other clutching my belly. I exhaled deeply, trying to push the pain away.

It would happen tonight. I knew it would. I had been having contractions for hours. But I was sure I could wait until Lucy got home from work. We needed the money.

I made my way to the living room and lowered myself onto the couch. I groaned as another contraction started. Maybe I couldn't.

I pulled my phone from my bra and dialed his number. It rang a few times before it was answered.

The work behind him was loud. He worked in a welding shop and the tools almost made it impossible to hear him.

"Hey Sunbeam. Everything ok?"

"I-I think it's time." I inhaled sharply with a whine in my voice.

"Time?" he asked absently. "Oh! Time. Ok. I'll be home in a bit. You alright until then?"

"Just hurry," I grumbled, ending the call. I exhaled again and placed a hand to my head. They were getting closer together now.

*Lucifer's POV*

I wasn't sure what to think or what to do. I felt so helpless, only there as a hand to squeeze. I wanted to offer words of encouragement, but my earlier one's were met with yells of shut up from Elizabeth.

I placed a kiss to her head at the tears that ran down her cheeks. "You're doing great," I said softly.

"If you speak one more time, I will kill you!" she hissed through her teeth. I smiled slightly. She would too. I wouldn't put it past her.

"One more push," the nurse said from the end of the bed.

Elly's hand somehow tightened more on mine and I rubbed the back of her hand with my thumb, unsure of what else to do.

Crying filled the room and Elly fell back onto the bed, breathing heavily. I brushed her damp hair from her face and shook out my fingers that had been going numb.

"What do you think..." She paused and breathed deeply. "What do you think it is?"

We had purposefully not found out the gender so we could be surprised together. I shook my head with a smile and placed a kiss to the back of her hand.

"I'll be happy with whatever," I replied, though deep down I really wanted a son. I hadn't been able to experience anything with Jack and now I was almost regretting it.

"It's a girl," another nurse said as she brought over the crying bundle. She placed the small bundle in Elizabeth's arms and I felt my heart sink slightly.

How the hell was I supposed to raise a daughter? We would have nothing in common. How was I supposed to make her strong and independent? How was I supposed to do those stupid normal human things that fathers and sons did now? I had been up at night watching stupid heartfelt movies to help me.

"She's so beautiful," Elly said, now crying again. Her fingers trailed over the small girl's cheeks that I couldn't see yet. "Shh.." she cooed, a smile on her lips. I looked over Elizabeth, who was glowing like a sunbeam. "Hi Alex," she whispered.

We had agreed on the name earlier. It was gender neutral and Elizabeth had been so adamant on naming the baby after her friend, I couldn't say no. Anything to make her happy. And it had made her so happy.

"You get some sleep," the doctor said, clipboard in hand. "She is very healthy though. You should be proud." Elizabeth nodded and the doctor left the room.

"Do you want to hold her?" Elizabeth asked tiredly.

I wasn't sure how to answer. "I-I don't want to break her," I replied. She was just so small. Just the blankets alone gave the impression that she was tiny.

Elizabeth laughed airly. "You won't break her."

I hesitated, but pulled the roll of blankets from my sunbeam's arms. I stood and stretched out my legs and winced as the blanket began to cry.

I glanced down and stopped, unable to move. It was as if every single last feeling that could possibly be felt shot through me all at the same time.

I was afraid of breaking her. She was fragile, but somehow I also wanted to just hold her as tightly as I could.

My chest physically began to ache when I saw her deep blue eyes. The phrase love at first sight couldn't even begin to cover the love that was pulling at my heart.

And then anger washed over me. Anger at myself and who I was. Anger at every horrible thing I had ever done. All the wrong. All the hate. All the killing. Everything...

And I couldn't stop myself from making a quiet promise to the small child in my arms.

"I promise, Alexandria," I whispered, brushing a small bit of her soft blond hair from her forehead. "I will be better. So much better."

She had stopped crying and was just staring up at me with those eyes that were such a delicate shade of blue, I was unsure if I had ever been able to make something as charming before. Raw sapphires were the closest thing I could compare them to. They were so beautiful. She was so perfect. So sweet and innocent. And... Mine.

I looked back to Elizabeth and found that she was fast asleep, her face so tired looking.

I sat back down and held Alex closely to me, my finger gently stroking her rosy cheek.

"I'm going to teach you so many things, Sapphire," I said softly, a smile on my lips. "You're going to be so strong just like your mother. She can kick my ass." I laughed a little bit. "And we'll do all the stupid things these humans do. We'll have the tea parties if that's what you want. Or we'll go fishing if that's what you'd rather do."

She yawned and my heart gave a painful pulse. How was I supposed to be everything to her? I couldn't even hold heaven together when I had grace on tap. How would I keep her safe? How would I give her the best life possible? We weren't going to be able to pay these medical bills. We had just barely been scraping by.

I sighed and placed a kiss to her head. "You're in for one hell of a ride, Sapphire," I mumbled. "We'll get through it though. I'd rebuild the entire universe for you."