A/N: I have mixed feelings about this chapters but if I keep reading it I am going ot do a full re-write so I am posting it instead. Hope you enjoy it:-)
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Sarah
"Whoa. Its ok. Its just me." Liam said as I writhed in his arms. Eagles were faster than wolves so he was able to fly over us and get to me first.
"I don't want them to see me. I can't turn into a vampire here! They're going to kill me!" I told him frantically as I tried to get him to let me go. He looked at me worried.
"No one is going to hurt you." He assured me as five wolves appeared at that moment. One of them barked at me and two other growled at the one that barked. I recognized one of them was Lina because I had seen her wolf before and I assumed the other one was Sammy because he was the largest. I hid my face into Liam's neck. He put his arms around me protectively.
"Go back to the beach guys. There is nothing to see here." He told them calmly. His calm only made me madder and I started shaking even more. I didn't want to turn into a vampire in front of them and I kept trying to control my shaking. 'Control it!' I screamed at myself in my head. I kept trying to focus on being still when suddenly my entire body was in pain. I screamed.
"Shit! Sarah?" Liam said as my legs gave out and I fell onto him, screaming. Liam was holding me so he lowered me to the ground. I heard a rip and I realized it was my clothing. I was phasing and I was thirsty! "No! Not both!" I can't be both. I won't be both! I growled mostly to myself and in an instant I felt my body go up in flames and several people were in my head. I was screaming. I had never felt anything like it before. The pain was like a combination of stabbing, piercing, throbbing, and a penetrating burning sensation that left me breathless.
"Oh my God!" Henry said as soon as he felt my mind.
"Are you ok?" Lina asked me at the same time Henry started complaining.
"Sarah, talk to me. What's going on?" Liam asked me worriedly.
"She's still thirsty. I don't want to feel her stupid thirst!" They were all talking at once.
"She's not fully phased yet. Why can we hear her?" Sammy asked. All their voices were in my head at once.
"How the hell should I know?!" Lina snapped at him. I could feel his worry as well as Lina and Liam's.
"Too many voices." I finally managed to answer Liam.
"Why the hell is she in our pack? Shouldn't she be in her dad's?" Jamie asked Henry who only agreed that I should be anywhere but with them. I could feel their disgust and hatred mixed in with a fear and concern for me. I was surprised to feel their worry through their utter disgust.
"Hey I'm not disgusted and neither is Liam. The rest of them can go to hell." Lina told me. Easy for her to say. The pack was more than just disgusted, they were afraid. They were both afraid for me and afraid of me. I felt out of control. Like I was dethatching from my body but I also felt powerful. They could feel it too. It was the alpha. This was her pack, my pack. She was connected to all of them just at I was. It was like she was raging, clawing at me to be released. Or maybe it wasn't the alpha, but something definitely wanted to get out. It was reaching for them, reaching for the pack.
"Sarah? What the hell is going on now?" I heard dad think. I didn't know how but his entire pack was suddenly in my head too and none of them were phased.
"Whoa." Liam said. I looked up at him and he had a shocked look.
"Sarah? Was that Sarah?" I heard uncle Seth ask at the same time Collin said "WTF". Uncle Seth was still in Africa with aunt Eve doing the doctors beyond borders. How the hell could he hear me?
"Sarah is that you?" Aunt Leah asked me. I could see through her mind that dad had run into the woods. Aunt Leah went after my dad and uncle Kal closed his eyes. I didn't see what he did after he closed his eyes. Collin had also run after dad.
"What's going on Sarah?" Dad said.
"Sarah phased? She's not phased is she?" Collin asked confused at the same time the boys started telling them what happened.
"She's not." Uncle Kal answered Collin for me. He was still at the party. He was thinking he should fly to me but he was trying to concentrate. I didn't understand why and then his mind disappeared from my head. I was grateful. Having so many people talk at once was disorienting.
"She can't be one of us. She's fucking thirsty!" Jaime complained mimicking Henry. Henry agreed with him angrily.
"So what! Can't you see something is wrong here? She is in too much pain. This isn't normal." Sammy yelled at him. I was still burning. My skin felt like a combination of stabs and flames. My body felt like it was about to explode.
Uncle Kal's words were suddenly in my head. 'You have to claim them. You have to claim your pack and your place as their alpha.' I could still feel the thirst. I couldn't feel more far from a wolf. Maybe they were all wrong about me. Maybe I wasn't a wolf. That idea made me start writhing on the ground in more pain. The stabbing was worst, as if the wold was clawing at me to get out. I was surrounded by whimpers at that moment.
I looked around and I saw Lina. I looked straight into her eyes as she whimpered at my pain. I was sweating. I didn't have to imagine the pain and worry she felt for me. I felt it. I ignored everyone else because it was too overwhelming. I concentrated on the love and worry of my family. I focused Lina and Liam at first because they were both closest to me. Then I focused on Sammy, my father, my aunt and uncles. I could even feel my brother. I concentrated on the people who loved me. They were much more than my pack. They were my family.
A new sensation came over me. I had never felt anything like it before. It was as if every emotion had a texture, not so much like the feeling of different hands touching my skin but like the feel of different strokes. As different as the different types of affection they held for me. I concentrated on it and for a moment, I felt every wolf in the pack, even the ones that had stopped phasing. It was like I was connected to them, just like uncle Kal said. I tried to concentrate on that connection instead of the pain. The more I concentrated on the connection the more I felt like I was disconnected from my own body and from the pain until, for one single moment, it was like I was no longer in my body. That's when I exploded and I was on four paws.
"Whoa! I guess you're not turning into a leech after all." Liam said as he stepped back. I looked back at him annoyed but he was smiling. He was teasing me.
"Finally!" Lina said and she went behind a tree and to change.
"Ew! I saw her lady parts!" Ryan complained.
"Dumb kids." Aunt Leah thought.
"Don't leave!" I told Lina in a growl. Something was wrong with me. I was tensing. There was some part of me that was aware that there were wolves around me. Staring at me, challenging me.
"Relax! I'll be right back. I want you to see how easy it is to phase back." She told me. My mind was connected to hers so I was able to see how easily she switched back to her human form. I wanted to phase back too. I could see my wolf through their eyes. It was white but my eyes were black. I saw the white wolf but I couldn't recognize her. It was as if I was still disconnected from my body. The wolf looked weak and it didn't like that. It didn't like that we were surrounded. Sammy took a step forward and I saw the white wolf growl at him through their eyes.
"Sarah. Stay calm!" Liam told me just as Lina came out from behind the trees.
"Hey! How come we can hear the kids again?" Uncle Seth asked dad.
"Why can't the girls phase somewhere else?" Ryan complained.
"Why can't she? Phase somewhere else." Henry added. Now that I wasn't in pain, their concern for me was over. They were all still talking at once and the emotions I was feeling was overwhelming but Henry's comment awakened something inside me, something feral and powerful. I heard the loud feral bark and Henry's wolf quickly lowered itself before me. I could feel the anger surging inside both of us. The white wolf recognized them, she recognized them as the ones who tormented me. They disrespected me and she was pissed. I was staring at them and one by one the boys cowered before her glare, all except Sammy.
"Sarah? You're scaring me." Lina said behind me. I could see through their eyes that Liam was holding her back. They were both behind me and the wolf almost looked like she was protecting them, protecting her pack.
"We're all your pack, Sarah. You need to calm down. These boys are just kids, you can't hurt them." Sammy told me. It wasn't a command. He was afraid of giving me a command because I was an alpha too and it might cause me too attack. He shouldn't have been afraid. Even though my wolf was furious, she was also aware of who everyone was, some part of recognized them as my pack too.
Sammy took another step forward positioning himself in front of the boys, just in case I attacked. My wolf took another step too but I stopped us both from going any further. Sammy was important to me but his wolf was an alpha and he was able to resist whatever power my wolf was projecting. That realization made the wolf growl at him but Sammy held his ground. What the hell was wrong with me?
"Sarah. Control yourself. You cannot hurt those boys." I heard dad warn me. The other wolves had been quiet before, listening to my interaction with my pack. I saw that they were not far from us, they had stopped so that I could concentrate on gaining control, but, suddenly, they were all running toward us and started talking at once again. Some were asking my dad to command me to stop, while the others were speculating if I was becoming an alpha or if my wolf was just out of control. They started remembering the day my dad became an alpha. They were comparing us, I didn't like it.
"Shut up!" I told all of them in my mind and instantly all the chatter stopped. I was alone in my mind and it was easier to control the wolf. I saw the wolf take a few steps back until I was able to sit. Once I was able to relax a bit the exhaustion set in. I didn't want to be there, I was too tired. I wanted to phase back but I couldn't with all of them staring. I wanted them all to go back to the beach but now that I was alone in my head I didn't know how to tell them. I started to feel weak, as if holding this form took too much of my energy. I didn't know how long I could hold it and I was afraid to be naked in front of all of them.
"Guys, you heard her, she wants some privacy." Lina told them. All the wolves looked at her. I couldn't believe she heard that! I thought I closed my mind off from them!
"Don't look so surprised. I've been hearing you this whole time. We all know I'm awesome."
"I heard her too genius." Liam told her before he turned back to me. "You didn't close your mind to us cause we weren't in your head. As for them, I think they can still hear you too. I think you just gave them your first command. You can't hear them cause they can't talk." He said with a smirk.
"Nice." Lina said and she went over to Henry and Jamie to pet their heads. "This has gotta be soo much fun for you two." Liam chuckled at her.
"Here." Liam took off his shirt. "Come on guys. Let's give the lady some privacy." He said as he walked away with the other wolves.
"How do I phase back?" I asked Lina.
"Calm down. Breath. Don't fight it. You know what you want your body to do so let it." I head uncle Kal in my head again. I had felt his presence before but I hadn't felt him this strongly before. I followed his advice. He was right. My body felt too weak to hold this form and it wanted to turn back. I wanted to turn back so I did. Thankfully, I wasn't thirsty anymore but I felt weak. Lina had to help me put on Liam's shirt because I was too weak. Liam came back with the guys once I was dressed. They were all in human form.
"Her eyes are still black." Henry commented.
"Will you shut up about it?" Lina snapped at him.
"Maybe Sarah should just take your ability to talk again." Sammy offered him.
"Or maybe we should let her bite you ass off." Liam suggested. Henry crossed his arms angrily.
"Come here." Liam said as he picked me up in his arms. Dad and his pack showed up at that moment. Dad instantly phased back. He was naked.
"Come on! I think the poor kid is traumatized enough!" Sammy said to him. Dad rolled his eyes and put on his pants right there. The others went behind the trees to change.
"Give her to me" He said. Liam handed me to my dad like a rag-doll.
"Your mom is on her way." He told me. "Is your body still burning?" Dad asked me. I shook my head, I felt too weak to talk. I wanted to tell him that the burning was actually more like my body was being electrified. Not electrocuted, but electrified, like every nerve ending in my body was releasing some kind of energy or electric shock. It was excruciating.
"We should take her back to the house. We are close from here." Uncle Kal suggested. Dad ran through the forest and across the tree line to the house. We got there in a few minutes. He laid me on the couch in the living room. Mom had caught up to us by the time we got to the house.
"Baby, are you ok?" Mom asked me as soon as dad laid me down.
"It felt like I was electrified. My whole body hurt and burned and stabbed. Now I just feel weak." The entire pack was there too. Dad saw me eyeing them.
"Alright kids. I think we got it from here." Dad told them. All of the boys left, even Collin. All except for Sammy.
"Go home Sammy." Lina told him.
"She's in my pack too." He told her. Dad looked at him but then he nodded. I wished he would just make him leave. His presence was the worst because I liked him and I felt bad for growling at him.
Mom started examining me as everyone got settled around me in the living room.
"Maybe we should call Eve or Carlisle?" Dad suggested.
"Eve is all the way across the world. There's nothing wrong with her. Her body is different so her phasing will be different. I can run some blood work if you want." She offered.
"What about the eyes? And the weakness?"
"She's a wolf vampire hybrid. She's weak because she's thirsty." Aunt Leah suggested. I didn't like where she was going with this.
"She was strong enough to phase into a wolf and phase back. I think she just needs to drink a little blood and she'll be fine. As good as new."
Aunt Leah went into the kitchen and came out a moment later with a metal cup and straw. I could smell the blood. It smelled good. I immediately started shaking my head.
"I'm not drinking that!" They all looked at each other and mom moved her head signaling everyone to get out. Aunt Leah gave the cup to mom who was sitting next to me on the couch.
"I'm still not drinking it!" I growled at her. Lina had been sitting on one of the sofas. She rolled her eyes and got up. I thought she was going to leave the room but then she did the unimaginable. She casually took the metal cup from my mom's hand then put the straw against her lips and took a sip. Several sips!
"Lina!" Dad said in shock. Mom just stood there gaping at her with her mouth open. Lina removed the straw from her mouth and swallowed one more time to get the remainder of it cleared out of her mouth. I saw her take a deep breath and look at the ceiling as if she was trying to concentrate. Then she put the cup in front of me.
"Yummy." She said with a look of revulsion even though she was trying hard to smile at me. "Your turn." She told me. I took the cup still looking at her.
"You drank blood!" I told her.
"Yep. Now the boys have two blood drinkers to bitch about. Drink!" She told me. Mom nodded at me and I drank the stupid blood. It was delicious and I instantly felt better. Damn it! Lina got up from the floor with a satisfied look. Mom put her arm around her.
"You're officially my favorite." She whispered in her ear.
"Mine too. Sorry Liam." Dad said.
"Hey. I agree. She's totally bad ass." Liam told him.
"You're looking a little green there Sammy." Aunt Leah told him smiling. I looked at him. He did look like he was about to faint.
"I'm fine." He said and the rest of the family laughed. I finished my cup and instantly felt stronger.
"Want more?" Mom asked me. I shook my head no. "How are you feeling?"
"Stronger. I feel a lot better actually." I got up from the couch.
"I want to try again." I announced. Dad shook his head but uncle Kal moved forward.
"Let's go outside little one." He told me. Dad looked like he was about to protest but uncle Kal shook his head. We all went outside. I looked at everyone around me and I felt myself blush. There was no way I was phasing in front of everyone. Aunt Leah came up to me and put her arm around me.
"Come on, sweet pea. Let's see what you're really made of." She dragged me out behind the trees.
"Ok. So phasing for the second time should be a little easier. All you have to do is…"
"I know what to do now. I think." I told her, cutting her off. She smirked at me and gestured with her hand to go ahead. I took off Liam's clothes. It was easier to feel the connection this time because it never really went away. I concentrated on the connection it was like my body knew what I wanted and instantly all their thoughts were in my head. A second later I was on all fours. Aunt Leah also phased. I could feel her confusion because I had connected to her mind before I had phased. I had seen myself in their eyes before but this time I finally noticed what I really looked like. I wasn't all white. I had flecks of cream in my fur. My eyes were also cream with flecks of red in them. I saw through aunt Leah's memory that they had turned that color right before I phased just like they had been black when I was at the beach, before I phased the first time. I was thirsty then but I wasn't anymore no they were their real color.
"We'll need to switch you to a veggie vamp diet. The reddish eyes are kinda freaky." Aunt Leah told me. I wanted my dad to phase to know what he thought of my wolf and within seconds he was a wolf and in my head. I noticed his surprise because he hadn't phased willingly.
"How did you do that? You didn't even command him to phase. You just.."
"Wished it." I said in shock. I was confused so confused. I felt uncle Kal's presence again. I knew he could hear me and suddenly his mind was accessible to me so I showed him what happened and asked if he could do this too.
"I don't remember much from before but I do not think I had the power to command others by willing it. You have a very powerful and very dangerous gift little one." I didn't know what to say. I was afraid of what this meant and what the other boys would say about this ability.
"You don't have to be afraid, baby girl. We'll help you gain control of it." Daddy told me. I was glad the wolf wasn't threatened by him. She knew he was my dad and now that I felt stronger it was easier to differentiate my feelings and the wolf's instincts. I was searching within my new instincts when I felt something.
"What is it?" Dad asked me, breaking my concentration. I glared at him but then I looked away. My wolf was very aware of the new sensation. Something was calling to me and I felt the need to run. With everything that happened I was able to ignore it but now it was tugging at me. I wasn't able to ignore it any longer so and neither could my wolf, I ran. I ran and I realized I was running fast and aimlessly as if I wasn't in control. The wolf was.
"Sarah!" Dad called after me. I didn't know where I was going but something was calling me away.
"Sarah stop!" I head my dad command me and I came to a screeching halt. I turned around to face him and was horrified when a roaring growl escaped my wolf's lips and my shackles went up in my rage. My family caught up to me and were surrounding me. The wolf roared again.
"Sarah calm down! Control yourself!" Uncle Kal told me. I was beyond calming. It wasn't just me who was stronger, this time. The wolf and I were both stronger and she was raging inside of me. She was outraged at my dad's command, she felt the power in it and she was rebelling against him. It was the strangest thing I ever felt. It was as if I was two different people. I loved my father and I was afraid for him but I was also enraged by his mere presence. My emotions were all over the place. I was enraged by my father's command and without even realizing what was happening I moved forward towards my father in an aggressive manner. For some reason my dad was silent. I saw in his mind that he was trying to control his own alpha instincts to command me. His wolf went back a step and I forced myself to take a step back too. It was difficult.
"She's not in control. She's like a newborn." Collin said. I saw his memory of a newborn. I saw the bloodthirsty, cold, heartless rage they attacked my family with. I hated the comparison. I growled at him and his wolf immediately submitted. My dad growled at me again and I stepped forward towards him again.
"Sarah. Think about this. Are you really going to kill your father?" Aunt Leah asked me. She thought about the day I was born. I saw the memory I her mind as clearly as if I was there and I saw its echo of my father's mind even if he wasn't speaking to me directly.
13 years ago...
Jacob walked in through the door to the apartment. Nessie and Leah were on the couch. They had been talking and looking at baby catalogs that afternoon. Kal had decided that Leah needed a break from the baby so he asked Nessie to take her out. Nessie had taken Leah to a late breakfast and then they decided to go back to the apartment and watch movies. After the movies, they looked at baby catalogs for the baby's new room. Nessie was happy because Alice had allowed her to choose the furniture for the baby room at the main house. She had no say for the baby room in the apartment. Alice and Esme had completely taken over to turn one of the guest bedrooms into a baby palace and the transformation was supposed to be a surprise.
"Hi babe." Jacob said as he walked in. She was radiant in his eyes. She was beaming in a healthy glow that made her inhumanly beautiful. Her belly was round and swollen with life and he couldn't be more proud to be her husband. He walked over to the couch and put his hand on her cheek to feel her soft petal skin. He leaned down as she angled her face towards him for a kiss. The kiss turned out to be a bit steamier than he had wanted. He had missed her terribly during his classes and the moment her took her bottom lip and tasted her sweetness he forgot he was in the company of their best friend.
"Oh gross. Get a room, you freaks!" Leah told them and she took a pillow and started hitting Jacob with it. They both laughed at their mutual friend. He kneeled before his wife so that he could kiss his unborn daughter. He pressed his lips against her belly and then rose to go to the kitchen for a snack.
The women continued to chat as he fixed himself a bowl of cereal. He was looking for a spoon when he heard a loud gasp followed by a cry. He ran to the living room to find Nessie on her feet leaning over the coffee table with Leah holding her. There was a puddle of liquid at her feet and her legs dripped with it.
"Call Carlisle. I'm getting her to the car." Leah said quickly. He took out his phone and was immediately responded to.
"Carlisle, her water broke. We are on our way." He said as he hurried out with his wife and their best friend. They were at the main house within 8 minutes. Edward had been pacing back and forth desperately awaiting his daughter's arrival. It took everything in him not to set off running and just take her from the car to rush her home. As soon as they parked, he was at her door, taking his baby girl into his arms and rushing her to the infirmary. Carlisle had set up everything for his granddaughter. He was determined to have a perfect delivery for his first great grandchild. The first of many, he secretly hopped.
Nessie was panting a bit when Edward placed her on the bed as careful as if he were placing a bubble on a needle. Bella was at her daughter's side holding her hand and whispering encouragements into her ear. Everyone knew the delivery would go well. Alice had already seen Bella holding her granddaughter. However, it is a parent's prerogative to worry. Edward kissed his daughter's free hand as Jacob changed. Once he was done, Jacob walked over to his wife and Edward reluctantly yielded his spot to his son. He went to stand next to stand at the head of the bed to watch carefully the proceedings. He trusted his father to bring his granddaughter out safely but still he was desperate with anxiety and worry over his baby girl's pain. Jacob's hands were trembling and his face paled as Nessie let out her first scream. She was not expecting it to hurt. She had hoped that her vampire side would shield her from any pain but her body had changed the moment she became pregnant.
It was still a wonder to her how they hadn't noticed that her scent and heartbeats were becoming more and more human at the beginning of her pregnancy. As she came closer to her due date this change was more apparent. Her supernatural senses had dulled and her body had changed to accommodate the human child that was forming inside of her. She loved her pregnancy. She loved her appetite for human food and rejoiced at her odd cravings. Peas. She wondered if she would still love them after the baby was out. She would miss being pregnant but she was longing to finally meet the sweet child that had grown in her womb and had given her the gift of humanity even if it only was for a few short months. Nevertheless, she had hoped that she would be spared this slice of humanity. Edward chuckled.
"You can't have it both ways." He told her. Nessie grubbed profanities at her father with her thoughts. He only smiled when they were immediately followed with remorseful apologies. Edward kissed his daughter's hair and coaxed her to breathe as they had practiced so many times before. After an examination, Carlisle announced that the baby was ready. Jacob was relieved to hear that his precious wife would not be in pain for much longer and that he would soon greet his precious daughter. He had been excited for months. With every inch that his wife grew, he loved his baby more and more. Nessie held on to his hand tightly as she pushed but he barely felt it due to her weakened state. Even with Alice's assurances his girls still worried him. One loud growl and, a moment later, he heard the loud cry that came from a bloody mess wrapped in a blanket. Carlisle took the child away but before he could protest Carlisle returned to them with a clean baby.
"She's perfect. She's beautiful." He told them as he handed the baby to her mother. Carlisle was beaming with joy. He recognized that if he were human, he would be in tears at the sight that was before him. Nessie was looking into her daughter's eyes with tears of happiness. Jacob leaned over her stroking his daughter's arm, with tears of his own is his eyes. Edward was holding his wife who was leaning her head on his chest. Her expression too was a joyful crying even if the tears were not present. His son, Edward, was in complete awe. He doubted he was even listening to his father's ramblings of joy due to his one state of ecstasy.
Nessie tuned and looked at her husband. The look they shared was one of true and pure love. Both their faces became overwhelmed with emotion again and new tears flowed down their cheeks as they shared an intimate kiss.
"Do you want to hold her?" Nessie asked her husband already knowing the answer and already moving to hand her to him. Jacob took the baby with all the gentleness of a new father. He held her in his arms overcome with emotion and joy. He leaned towards her and kissed her little forehead.
"Happy birthday, baby girl. I'm your dad. Mommy and I love you so much." He told her, his voice breaking a bit. Nessie put her hand on her husband's arm and Jake brought their baby closer so they could both have access to their daughter. Nessie took her little hand out of the blanket with one finger and kissed it.
"You're our little miracle Sara Bell Black. We will love you every day and every minute of eternity." She told her.
"Every second." Jacob added as a tear rolled down his cheek.
