So...new chapter. Yeah. You can go read now. Enjoy!


Austin's POV

I have one word to describe this whole world tour experience so far.

AWESOME

I've always loved going on national tours, but even though we're still in the U.S., this feels a little different. It's a good different; mainly because, Ally gets to perform with me. She has such an amazing voice. It really is beautiful to hear.

Ally in general, is the most amazing girl I've met. I love everything about her, from her intelligence to her generosity, and her bright smile to her brilliant songwriting. I don't that there are enough words in the dictionary to describe how great she is. Then I can't forget her little quirks like her fake laugh and the way she's always so protective over her book. They're pretty adorkable.

Ever since Ally has overcome her stage fright, our lives have turned for the better. Not just performing, but she has become more fun and outgoing. Her amount of confidence and courage has improved as well. Of course, I kind of miss the shy songwriter Ally once was.

Yesterday, we were in Portland, and now heading to Seattle. Before the concert Ally and I just talked about how great everything has been. The trips to each city have been really enjoyable too.

On our bus, there were three bedrooms. One for me and Dez, another Ally and Trish, and Jimmy and Trent shared the last one.

Speaking of Trent, he hasn't been as bad as he used to be around us. That guy Dex isn't around anymore, to the disappointment of Dez. Trent's been so nice and funny. I wonder what had happened to him since last seeing him. Something about him is still bothering me though. I don't know what, but I feel that there has to be some secret he's hiding. I'm tempted to investigate, but know that I shouldn't, especially with Jimmy being his uncle. If I find nothing about Trent, I might get in trouble with Mr. Starr, and things aren't going to end well in that direction. But if I know for sure that Trent is up to something, I'm going after him, never mind Jimmy.

I can never seem to fall asleep at night. And I think I know the reason why, but it's not Trent.

It's Ally.

She's always in my head, and I can't seem to get her out of it. Something is definitely wrong with me. Maybe I'm sick with something called…love. Wow, that sounds pretty cheesy. But I find myself believing it more and more each night.

I know I'm in love with Ally so much that my dreams are mainly focused around her each night. But I enjoyed them, basically because they usually had a happy ending and I would wake up with a smile on my face from it. In fact, tonight's dream about Ally could happen any second now. I guess I'll just have to fall asleep first, somehow.


This is it Austin. You know the drill. Today is the day you'll finally admit it to her. Today, you, Austin Monica Moon, is going to admit his true feelings to the beautiful and awesome Ally Dawson. The flowers are in hand, along with the card, and now you just have to knock on her door. Here goes.

I knock on the door and hear footsteps coming in my direction. Ally answers with her great smile on her face.

"Hey Austin," she greets me. "What's up?"

"Hey Ally, can I talk to you for a second?"

"Sure," she closes the door behind her. "What is it?"

Okay just do it Austin. Give her the flowers and the card and tell her you're in love with her. Stupidly though, I give her the flowers and card without talking. It doesn't matter; Ally reads the card out loud.

"There's no way I can make it without you." An even bigger smile appears. "Aww…thank you so much Austin." Ally puts her arms around my neck, and I hug her back.

Letting go, I say, "Ally, there's something else I want to tell you."

"Yes?" She patiently waits for me with those eyes. Her eyes sparkled and shined, that chocolate-brown color getting me every time. I try looking deeper into them, but mentally call myself back to reality. Focus Austin, focus. Keep your eye on the prize.

"I'm just going to come right out and say it." I take a deep breath. "Ally, I like you."

"You what?"

"You heard me, I like you. I have a crush on you. I'm head over heels in love with you."

"Oh, Austin. Austin, Austin, Austin." Her kind smile suddenly turns into an evil smirk. "How could you be so…stupid?"

"What?" What did she mean? Why would she call me stupid? Ally never calls me or anyone that in general. What happened to her?

"Didn't you know that I already knew that you liked me?"

"You knew? How could you have found out?"

"It's thanks to one of our good old friends; Trent told me about your silly little crush on me."

"Trent?" How did he find out?

"Yes, stupid. Did you not hear me the first time?" Is this really Ally? This can't be the Ally I have gotten to know over the course of our partnership.

I stand there like some idiot trying to find my voice. The words are ready to be spoken, but my mouth won't let them come out.

"Well, as flattered as I am, I'm afraid I have to reject you. The fact that you have some puppy love for me isn't that surprising. I mean, look at me. I'm gorgeous." Ally flipped her hair, and instead of it being cute, I'm a little disgusted by her selfishness. "I have to go now, I'll see you later Austin. Tootles!" She walks back into her room and slams the door a bit.

That girl looks like Ally, but definitely is not Ally. It's impossible. Ally has never been so mean before. She can be a little mean, but never like that.

I see the flowers on the ground and notice something written on the card I gave her. Picking it up, I read it to myself and what it now says breaks my heart.

"There's always been a way I can make it without you."

Instead of the card meaning that we always need each other, it now meant that she didn't need me at all.

I let the card fall out of my hand and watch it slowly fall to the ground while noticing the flowers. They were completely ruined. It looked like they were put into a fire and then taken out of it to let the rest burn into ashes. The flowers are gray in color, and so I fall to my knees and carefully picking up the flowers.

As I held them close to my face, that's when the tears start to flow. I don't care who's watching; I've just never been so hurt by someone in my life.

"Ally," I sob. "Why, Ally?" The words kind of came as a whisper only for me to hear, but I feel it was loud enough for others to hear as well. My tears dropped onto the burned bouquet and I just close my eyes shut. I don't want to look at them anymore, but I still hold onto them.

I try to control myself and to stop my crying, but I can't. There's no way I could stop myself from this pain and suffering I'm experiencing now. It's just the girl I've worked up the courage for to tell her that I'm in love with, has decided to stab me in the heart with a knife. Ally broke my heart and then shredded it to thousands of pieces so that it'll never be put back together again.

What am I going to do now?


"No!" I yell out. I'm back on my bed on the tour bus. It's just a dream, a nightmare. None of that was real.

Luckily, Dez is no longer in the room, so maybe no one heard me scream.

I put my head into my hands and I feel tears streaked on my face. I let out a sob, realizing that I was crying while I was asleep. In the mirror I had next to my bed, I notice my eyes are red and puffy; my hair is all over the place, and obviously notice my wet cheeks. Breathing heavily, I think over what happened. It was just too much for me to handle. The thing is though, even if Ally rejected me in my nightmare, there's no way she'd be like that for real. Ally isn't that kind of mean girl. If she didn't feel the same way as I do, she would let me down politely. If she did feel the same way for me, she would be jumping for joy and hugging me tight.

But whether or not Ally falls in love with me, I know that I can't tell her no matter what. It's not logical. If we date, and then break up, our careers are OVER. There would be no way for things to be normal again. It just can't happen.


It's really good that Austin's dream is, just a dream. Well, as you've probably realized Austin & Ally feel the same way about each other, but both have decided to not tell each other. So, there's no way of knowing if they'll get together or not.

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